My dad

Aug. 25th, 2015 11:06 pm
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For those who don't know, my dad's property has been seriously threatened by the wildfires in north-central Washington. The threat has subsided for the moment, but he expressed frustration and sadness at being basically locked in his home as a watchman, not knowing if the fire was going to suddenly shift.

On Monday my mom asked if I had heard from him. Not since the morning, when he answered some emails. Today she went up to the house, and found his body.

We don't have many more answers, only speculation and questions. We are certain my dad deliberately took his life. It is baffling; he had many projects and plans for the future and seemed in good spirits. But he may have had a health crisis and wanted to end things quickly; he had talked of that sort of decision before, and he had brief spells of health scares, like one that seemed like a mini-stroke a couple years ago, and more recently, possible heart issues. He may have been upset over the stock market. Maybe he went mad from sudden-onset cabin fever. Who knows. We will likely ask the coroner to do an autopsy to try to get some idea, some reason. But I am trying to keep in mind that we may never know with certainty what happened. I am well aware of the horrible mystery that suicide leaves.

My brother and Mom and I will tackle the process of sorting out affairs and logistics tomorrow. We are still swinging around between grief, numbness, disbelief, and back to grief.

Despite his faults, undoubtedly he was the most important person in my life. I am a Daddy's Girl and he was one hell of a person. Long before now, I have dreaded the idea of having to live without him, and I am already thinking of the billions of ways I will miss him.

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mlyn: (Mad Men)
Ta daaa! \0/

Mad Men
I Feel It All (right-click/save-as)
Artist: Feist
File: MP4, 19MB
Peggy's journey of finding herself through the first two seasons.

My second Festivids assignment for Mad Men filled me with a certain amount of trepidation, but I found that restricting myself to a character and the arc over two seasons was immensely helpful. This wasn't my first song choice, but I think it's the better one, and called for some thinky interpretation of the lyrics. I'm happy that this has been received well by the recipient and other viewers.

Available at the direct link above or among my other vids.
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Day 11: In your own space, ask for recs.

Hmmmmmmmmmm. Recs!

I would like recs for Avengers fic (Steve/Tony, Phil/Clint, or Darcy/Clint). Can be of mostly any stripe, but I lean toward NC-17. Got to have something to send me off into nice dreams.

Hit me with your best shot! I won't complain if I've already read them.
mlyn: Antonio Banderas (13th Warrior Antonio beard)
Day 10: In your own space, talk about a creator.

I could choose any number, but looking at my pinboard, I spotted my Once Upon a Time in Mexico tag and decided that would be fun.

My author of choice in this fandom (of five or six people, it seems) is Tiggy Malvern.

[livejournal.com profile] feochadn recced Tiggy to me. It started when she went looking for fic in a certain fandom and enjoyed Tiggy's work. She looked at the rest of Tiggy's fic and spotted Once Upon a Time in Mexico fic, and was intrigued. The movie is the last in Robert Rodriguez's El Mariachi series, and the pairing is El/Sands, or Antonio Banderas & Johnny Depp. Okay, I thought, I can see the pretty, but would that actually work?

Turns out her series is like crack—no, like a lifelong low-grade alcohol addiction. It won't chew you up and spit you out quickly, and the burn is slow. Based on how vehemently [livejournal.com profile] feochadn recced the series, and that I would have a lot of time to read on the way to and from Poland last winter, I loaded the stories up on my Kindle.

I can't count how many times I've read them. Usually just my favorite sections (and oh, how I came to love the bookmark feature), but it's a good thing they're not in paper format; they would be well-worn by now.

The series is fantastic for, I think, a few specific reasons: she has the best grasp of Sands' character of all the writers I've read, and she is tremendously familiar with their world (or at least fakes it brilliantly). To say that she's a great writer in the basic, technical sense is a given.

There's a few key things about this pairing: El and Sands hate each other, and Sands was blinded at the end of the film. Right away there are challenges: how to write convincingly for blind characters, and how to make these two characters interact realistically. Of course it's slash, but how do you get them to the slashy point?

I mentioned Tiggy's familiarity with their world. It's all about the gun porn. Makes and models, the way men use them, specifically the way assassins and killers use them. Minute details and concerns that I've never read anywhere else. I remember turning to [livejournal.com profile] feochadn and saying, "She really knows her guns, huh?" and getting an emphatic "YES." Boy howdy. Maybe she fakes all that knowledge—maybe it was research, not personal experience—but you wouldn't know it.

And Tiggy's grasp of Sands: again, he's blind. I have a somewhat shameful kink for blindness because it becomes directly related to competency: how someone deals with a disadvantage, even turning it into an advantage. She addresses little details like how a blind person feels when taking a shower—when their sense of hearing is severely affected. If you're a slightly crazy, paranoid, ruthless motherfucking killer like Sands, you're going to want to hear if someone is sneaking up on you in the bathroom. And El is one of the most laconic characters ever—how does he interact with El without words or facial expressions? I've seen writers make him a damaged little woobie or a candidate for the looney bin (or both), but Tiggy reins in those impulses and remembers that Sands is a CIA agent, someone who lived easily in dangerous places, staying alive by his connections and wits and skills. He may be a little off his rocker, but he's also capable, competent, and a pro.

The Wires series does this by working through Sands' and El's life immediately after the movie. There are good motivations and the characters logically work through the events of their lives. The first fic, Wires, is very long and somewhat slow-moving, but worth it for the setup. This is how El and Sands can become El/Sands.

Strung is a short, smutty sequel. You're inside Sands head while El takes him apart.

In Frayed, El and Sands run into some problems on a job. While it makes Sands beholden to El, it isn't enough to keep them together. What happens when Sands is on his own, and what he does from there.

Tangled is pure smut from El's perspective. He's comfortable enough with Sands to assuage some curiosity. Y-U-M nummy.

With Severed, Sands and El have to quickly adjust their plans, but maybe they should work out the details first. Equal parts character dynamic and smut.

Finishing the series is Bound, where outside forces intrude on Sands' enjoyment of life. Long and full of action, characters, and plot, it's a great stopping point…although I'm still left wanting more.

The only terrible thing about this series? It draws so little from canon. I watch the movie and think about vidding this pairing and realize there's nothing to use. There's very little satisfaction from the source. What I would give for another Mariachi film from Robert Rodriguez, with El and Sands paired up.
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Day 9: In your own space, create a fanwork.

Between desperately wanting to write John/Lestrade post-episode smut (just me, then?), wanting to work on my stalled 13th Warrior fic, and trying to finish a vid for Escapade, I am trying to create several fanworks and not finishing anything.

Guess I could do a drabble. Or just the start of the John/Lestrade fic, because I can't do drabbles, apparently.

Here, meretricious )

Why don't I have a Lestrade icon, I wonder.
mlyn: Herger (13th Warrior Herger gold)
Tirrrred. Mister E is passed totally out in his bed; lots of playtime this afternoon with [personal profile] feochadn's cat.

Day 8: In your own space, talk about a talent (or talents) you have.

Um, well, I guess I'll toot the obvious horn and say it's my woodcarving. I tend to think I'm essentially coloring in the lines: I just follow directions and do things according to the rules, and I'm certainly not the best carver around. But it gives me a happy when people compliment me on my carving, so I'll take that.

I certainly like having something aesthetically pleasing after all the fucking grinding to get it that way. My hands were stinging most of the morning just running them under hot water—tender tissue from using a lot of beef on the hand tools yesterday. I FINALLY finished the first major phase of the latest piece (a siderail) yesterday; the next phase should go quickly, and then I can start on this thing's twin. The sad part is that I kept getting asked if this was the second of two siderails. Nope, I'm just damn slow. :/
mlyn: Ahmed (13th Warrior Ahmed listening)
First, the title sequence for Girl with the Dragon Tattoo (Fincher). I was intrigued to hear that it was worth the ticket price, and boy am I glad that it's all over the web now. But of course I want to know WHO DID IT. I have a pet peeve that people love good title sequences but have no idea, and usually don't care, who's responsible for them. These are some of the most cutting-edge, purely creative, attention-getting artists of our time…and nobody knows who they are.

I mean, EVERYONE talks about the sequence for Se7en, but I'd like more than one person on my flist (you guys are too smart) to tell me who was responsible for it.

So I'm glad to see Wired magazine dove right into finding out. I'm thrilled that it's NOT the usual suspects, for once. Go Blur! If you like the title sequence, give some credit where it's due.

(That said, I don't think this was the Se7en of this generation. It's a great sequence, but it hasn't turned anything on its head the way Se7en did.)


Fandom snowflake challenge, day 6: In your own space, rec at least 3 fanworks you thought you wouldn't like but did.

Birds of a Feather — Master & Commander; Stephen is briefly indisposed (viz., a penguin), but things change remarkably little. OMG SO HILARIOUS. Crack, but delicious crack. The voices are pitch-perfect.

Patience, A Steady Hand — Inception (says it is but that's not what's inside the tin); 821 A.D. Arthur is in the nightmare business. Eames is a thief, a liar, and versatile with a pen. I think doing AUs in Inception is ridiculous because it's a world WITH DREAMS IN IT, but holy shit this fic is awesome. It might as well not be Inception fanfic, because it has nothing to do with the source except the names and general physical characteristics of the actors. No, this fic is great because Helenish is just a fucking awesome writer.

Highly Intelligent, Observant, and Destructive When Bored — Sherlock BBC; fusionfic with His Dark Materials. This was, I think, the first fic that made me sit up and notice that etothepii has such skill with characterization and storytelling that the set dressing doesn't matter much.


Day 7: In your own space, create a list of at least three fannish things you'd love to receive.

1: More people to squee with me over 13th Warrior, and I don't just mean nodding politely when I squee at them.

2: Long, plotty, angsty, sexy, hurty-comforty 13th Warrior fic.

3: A knock-my-socks-off 13th Warrior vid.

Sense a trend?
mlyn: (Lena look down)
Day 5 challenge: In your own space, share something non-fannish you are passionate about with your fannish friends.

Uh…like I don't share my non-fannish interests here? Hello, vikings and nordic woodcarving. Love love love love LOVE. Ahahaha, that last image was done by my carving instructor—I just randomly found it on a Google search. What a dearth of good photos of carving.



Also, the Tumblr ladyjspillowblog posted this x-ray of a foot wearing sky-high heels with the caption "This is why I don't wear heels." YES. OMG THOSE POOR TARSALS. I want a fucking flat-shoe revolution, NOW.

And don't try to sell me some bullshit about the benefit of platforms or wearing heels of a lower height; anything about 2 inches is inviting damage, and 2 inches itself is still abnormal. AND it just depends on the person. I have some moderately high heels I bought this fall (I think about 2 inches) and I barely wear them because just walking a couple blocks makes my feet hurt. I'm sure it's because I'm fat, out of shape, and don't have the calluses for putting all my weight on the balls of my feet…but it's enough to make me avoid the pain.



…Sorry, I've been drinking and vidding very bouncy music.
mlyn: (Sherlock blue scarf)
I guess yesterday I should have done a challenge! Durr.

Day 1: In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator. Drop a link to your post in the comments.

Ash Lads, Supernatural/13th Warrior crossover. Dean and Sam find themselves in an ancient world with Vikings, an Arab poet, and trolls. Really destructive trolls.

Consecration in Bisbee, LA Confidential threesome PWP for a Porn Battle round. Ed Exley now makes regular trips to Bisbee.

The Dark Half, a 3:10 to Yuma vid focusing on Ben Wade. See "conflicted" in the dictionary for a picture.


Day 2: In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you didn't create.

Easier!

Oil painting of Herger from The 13th Warrior by Lorraine Brevig. Amazing!

When I Look in the Mirror I See Double, Sherlock BBC fic by [personal profile] etothepii. I adore all his work, even when it's Not My Thing, but this was really a stroke of brilliance. Mycroft and Anthea are one consciousness split across two bodies. John falls for Anthea first. As with all of E's work, if you are on-board with the established world, everything else is wonderful. You just may have to suspend some disbelief.

Equilateral, The Avengers, Phil/Clint. Clint has a thing he thinks about, and he wants Phil to help him with it. Especially, wonderfully hurty. This is one of a few fics the author has done where Phil and Clint have an established relationship that includes BDSM. I don't read a lot of that any more, but the author has an especially deft touch with characterization that makes it work. Read the warnings if you're not sure about it.
mlyn: Ahmed & Herger (13th Warrior Herger/Ibn indoor)
A couple months ago I did an interview with [livejournal.com profile] kriken for Slashcast, a slash-focused radio show. It was my very great pleasure to talk about 13th Warrior fandom and fanworks for fifteen minutes. You can find the whole show here at [livejournal.com profile] slashcast. :)
mlyn: (due South Fraser pull hat)
I posted a bunch of old fic to AO3 today, mostly due South. So, if you're come by looking for those stories (which are locked on my journal), you can find them under faviconmlyn.
mlyn: Ahmed & Herger (13th Warrior Herger/Ibn indoor)
Thanks for participating in this challenge!

I'm primarily a slash fan and enjoy vids that push the artistic envelope while staying watchable. (Please, no speed metal.) I love a source with natural beauty paired with simple music, but at the same time a strong beat gets my blood moving. IMO vids should endeavor to tell a story, even just an emotional sketch, while paying attention to the art of editing.

I avoid vids that get crazy with loud, fast music and overly fast cutting. I don't think it's impossible to do successful vids with those elements, but a vidder should be confident of his or her abilities and pull it off deftly. Flashy editing, effects, or music should serve the vid as a whole, not try to stand on their own.

Read more... )
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I'm at faviconmlyn and fandoms in the immediate queue include Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid, Deadwood, and MDs.

I've been meaning to upload everything ELSE, which entails The Fast & the Furious 'verse, The 13th Warrior and my own future!AU, due South, Black Hawk Down, The Invisible Man, Generation Kill, Friday Night Lights, Jarhead, Band of Brothers, Flyboys, and a few miscellaneous L.J. Smith fandoms. Hell, I'll even throw in my weird Bourne Supremacy crackfic.

But that won't happen today.
mlyn: Title sequence still from Catch Me If You Can (I'm a title sequence fangirl)
For my first year participating in Festivids, I was relieved to get an assignment I felt I could tackle with confidence in my source and song. I've been a fan of Nick Ogawa/Takénobu since I heard his amazing work on Pandora a while ago, so this was the perfect opportunity to download his album from CD Baby and explore the tracks. I saw a number of comments that viewers loved the song, so please do check out the album, because I chopped up the song significantly to vid with it.

I don't have my vid index updated at the moment, so here's a direct link to the file.

Neverland (Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon)
Song by Takénobu
Vid for Diar for Festivids 2010
Length: 2:19 (16.1 mb MP4)

I had a lot of fun playing with voices, rhythms, and pacing throughout the vid. It was really difficult to choose what of the movie I wanted to use, but ultimately I had to distill the story down to Jen, her choices and relationships, and above all the adventure of the film.
mlyn: Beautiful valley (Norway scenic)
I can't find the right words to describe this amazing performance. It was probably the best (most affecting, most original, most accurate) piece of performance art I've ever witnessed. I know if I try to think of words to analyze why it is great, I'll devolve into flowery and purple prose (which I do anyway), so I'll just describe how the evening went. Let my descriptions of the facts, and the photos, make their own impressions. Warning: many big-ass photos behind the cut.

The play, like Alcatraz itself, examines the spectrum of crime and consequences. The story eventually demonstrates the results of pursuing justice through vengeance, when the momentum of vengeance results in the death of everyone on stage, save Horatio who is left to explain the carnage for all of history. —from A Note From the Director by Ava Roy

Hamlet and Alcatraz share themes of isolation, justice and redemption. To [Alcatraz site supervisor Amy] Brees, Hamlet is about being imprisoned in your own mind. A lament like Hamlet's "O God, I could be bounded in a nut shell and count myself a king of infinite space, were it not that I have bad dreams" takes on new meaning when juxtaposed with Alcatraz's barren cells and distant horizons.All the Prison's a Stage, Stanford Magazine

There was a videographer. I'm anxiously awaiting news of how to give them more of my money. :D

The play's the thing! )
mlyn: Manip of Dennis Storhøi & Antonio Banderas as characters in my AU (13th Warrior H/A present day)
Staycation
Fandom: The 13th Warrior (present-day 'Evening' universe; see author's note)
Rating: Adult
Summary: Lots of everyday things remind Herger of Ahmed.
Author's Notes: Thanks, as always, to my darling beta [personal profile] ixchel55, and to [personal profile] killabeez for Photoshop betaing.

If you haven't read my previous story set in the present day, this won't make any sense. Start with Evening.

I've also included a glossary of norsk at the end of the fic, for those who may get too frustrated with my language geeking.


Fic and art behind the cut )
mlyn: Title sequence still from Catch Me If You Can (I'm a title sequence fangirl)
Dear Festividder,

Thanks for participating in this challenge! It's a big thing to ask someone to make a vid in a potentially unfamiliar fandom, possibly without a song in mind, under a deadline, so I honor your commitment.

I'm a slash fan and come from old-school vidding sensibilities (having been "raised" as a vidder by the Media Cannibals), so this should tell you a lot about what I like. Some of the vids that have impacted me the most are Melina's "When I Go" and Morgan Dawn's "Flying Home" for their use of simple, beautiful music and enjoyment of the natural beauty of the source.

At the same time a great beat and snappy editing excite me, so I would be remiss if I didn't mention JKL's "Street Cafe" and kiki_miserychic's "U R A FEVER". Note that those vids pretty much master editing with interior and exterior motion, so for me it's not just about fast cuts, it's about how you use them with the source movement.

I'll give some ideas for music choices with my requests below, but right off the bat: while I love punk rock as much as the next child of the '80s, I think a lot of hard rock needs to stay out of vidding. It just doesn't work with the medium, imo. (But I can be proven wrong. :D ) I like most kinds of music and rarely see a vid where the song choice feels horrible, so if it is a good fit and makes you feel good to use it, feel free.

On to my request details )

I hope that gets you started. Thanks again for taking part in Festivids!

PSAs are us

Sep. 1st, 2010 09:55 pm
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Big ol' sign: I will not crosspost comments to FB or Twitter. I don't even have a Twitter account. And why would I crosspost fannish-journal content to real-life-FB when I have them separate to keep them separate?

For that matter, I'm thinking I might stop crossposting altogether. I never look at LJ. I don't read my flist there anymore. Sure, I miss out on a bunch of communities, but…out of sight, out of mind. I managed to "join" a new fandom (e.g., read other people's recs) all on my own out here in the wilds of Dreamwidth. (I even had to remind myself that the reason I wasn't seeing any Vividcon comm content right before the convention was because they don't have a DW comm.)

If there are people who want me to read them, and aren't already on DW, let me know so I don't lose track of you. Or, another way of putting it: if there are people who will miss me if I stop posting to LJ altogether, and want to continue reading me, I'm flattered and you need to let me know. I don't want to exclude anyone, but LJ's shit has been stinking worse with every "feature" they roll out.

Although…shit, thinking about it, I'll probably have to keep my LJ open for the 13th Warrior comm. Ah well.


I have DW invite codes if anyone wants 'em.
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Good god almighty, I have 11 unused invite codes. Anyone want to take these off my hands?
mlyn: Ahmed & Herger (13th Warrior Herger/Ibn indoor)
Name: Ash Lads
Fandom/Pairing: 13th Warrior/Supernatural crossover; Ahmed/Herger
Rating: PG-13 for kissing, implications of sex, and violence
Notes: Many thanks to my betas [personal profile] devilc and [personal profile] ixchel55. They're probably sorry to see some inaccuracies remain, but here's the thing: I write to movie canon, and the movie The 13th Warrior was majorly wrong on a lot of stuff. I tried to explain some things to a logical end, but some handwaving may be necessary.



"The hero is Askeladden (literally, the Ash Lad, because he always sits by the fire and roots and pokes in the ashes)." Norwegian Folk Tales, from the collection of Peter Christen Asbjørnsen & Jørgen Moe, translated by Pat Shaw Iversen & Carl Norman



Sam dropped into the passenger seat and folded his legs into the footwell, closing the door with a bang. )