forget the risk, take the fall :D

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

i dreamt of her again.
why am i dreaming about her?
his acting sort of weird these days.
could it be he has another one?

once again,
let the pain take over me.
i understand that his in a tough situation lately,
i really cant stand it anymore,
but i dont wanna leave,
like oned said:
PAIN is never a reason to let go.

there's nth more i can do,
but just be there when he needed me.
he used to care alot,
but nowadays he dont.
sometimes when im talking,
he dont seemed to be listening,
& i have to repeat again,
to hear his answer.

10:33 PM should she give up? ♥

Sunday, January 18, 2009

i will never forget the pain that girl left in my heart,
the scar is still there,
she stabbed me in the heart real bad,
till now i still remembered,
how can i stop thinkin about it?
im feeling so much sorrow,
i dreamt about her with you 3 times,
i dont have this kind of dream after once
this is just not right.
If I didn’t tell you how I felt,
You would never know how i feel,
Every time I see you now,
I just put a fake smile so you won’t know how much it hurts,
its damn hard to forget when & where i saw her,
what kind of msg'es she sended you,
her innocent face, never will forget that,
and her lie's is all just so FAKE!
i wonder now and then,
is she that innocent?
she's flirty? yes? no?
am i that sensitive?
tears shed day by day before,
the things that she did,
i will never forget!
friends all kept telling me,
let it go, let it go,
how i wish i could.
I CANT!
she's just 11 yrs old,
does she know what's love?
is she playing?
what more did she say to her friends,
until most of her friends added me,
trying to find out who am i?
wanting to gangbang me? yes?
oh by all means,
DONT have to! no point.
will my dream about her come true?
there's nothing else i can do,
but just sit quitely without a sound,
and let the pain take over,
how i wish all of this never happened.
did i do something wrong to deserve this?
oh this is life.

10:43 AM should she give up? ♥

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

went work again ytd in IOI.
around afternoon there's a reporter came and interview the boss.
and took some pix for the "YEAH" magazine.. never heard of it..
and and my friend pulled me in to take pix.. O_o hmm..
was kinda embarresed to pose while the fella takes pic's of me and the stuff that we sell..
everyone who passed by kept lookin. but i hv to ignore
and concentrate on the "camera!" LOL .. and and i look damn ugly :(
but my friends and that fella said i look pretty -.- oh well whatever it is.
will see it after its publised..
after darling finish his work. he came to IOI and fetch me go home..
after workin came home was damn tired
ytd was a very weird day for me but in good way la..
slept around 10 something.. i don sleep this early.. hmm..

gotta go out now.. will update when i get the pix!

9:27 PM should she give up? ♥

Monday, January 12, 2009

was lazy last few days.. since im bored now so yea i thought why not i blog :) went up to puchong somewher there got hillside erm erm like at what time? let's see.. got a cal from my friend said he will pick me up around 12 to go yam cha but but he came around 2 am. i was like wadda-hell! real crazy.. so after he picked me up went to puchong pick up yoey then came back all the way to subang's asia cafe to yam cha. *zha dao* anyways when we reach AC it was like wad 3 something.. after drinkin and talkin bout the prob's we had.. yoey said eh, come let's go puchong now.. my place ther got hillside. i was like O_o it was 4am when we started leavin ac.. reach ther like around 4.10? i guess.. then saw a cpl of friends ther, drinkin then we started blasting songs and started dancin LOL .. that night was a blast altho i was like wad, f**kin tired..

here's a few pix taken :)

it a pretty nice view from up there..

quite peaceful :)

yoey and gigi

dancin like their in clubs LOL

yoey and yuki :)
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went to work with yoey in IOI mall..

was like damn bored and emotional..

and i wanted strawberry to cheer me up.

so ivan went and bought for me :D nth much to write bout workin.

its boring! hahaa.. especially in IOI.. hahaa.. but i enjoyed cos yoey was there..

we chat while there's no customer to entertain :D

checkin stocks!

the stall :)

its small nth big..

while i was workin i saw this poster... LOL

wake up ur phone O_o

favourite :D

i love eatin strawberries when im sad

it cheers me up :)

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the nex day, kumar called me out.. went to yvonne's shop in ss 14.. while waitin for tee sinn i said..

lyn: kumar i wan drive

kumar: no no no cannot.

lyn: why not. come la fast ..

got up the car and start drivin.. LOL and it scare the hell out of kumar.. haha

1stly, cos i got no license

2nd, he need to change the gear for me cos i don like manual cars rofl.

concentrating.. do not disturb! hahaa

after drivin..
reach the shop safely.
and kumar was scare LOL.
he promise me sayin after he change to auto
he'll let me drive :D
yay!

he wanted to take this pic! duno why..

no no..
its not for me.
he bought these for his mom
cos he just remembered on that day it was his mom's bday
and he dont know what to buy for his mom
so i said buy flower laa..
then he went and bought 0_o

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went out with darling to pyramid.. i went into forever 21 and saw a few clothings i like.

but only tried on 2. i wonder why.. hmm..

i prefer this in dark pink..

looks much nicer :)

[pix blur] tried this and i love.

so darling bought it for me :)

*loves*

10:29 AM should she give up? ♥

Saturday, January 10, 2009

its been so long i dint blog. feels so uneasy for not blogging. aihhh.
been havin alot of problems with dear lately :(
and hav to cry myself to sleep.
all of my friends kept askin me to giv up.. call me stupid but i wont..

there's this one girl, she's like so damn CHEAP
he already got gf still keep bothering him. wtf right!
sended him a msg sayin she love and misses him.
anyone can tel me if u see this kinda msg'es will u b angry?
obviously right?!

and she wrote these in her personal msg sayin
why should i be angry with those bitches.
i was like wadda-heck!
it proves that she's callin me a bitch,
oh please! call me a bitch i don care
cos' u aint me!

aihh idk la. i really cant go on like this anymore.
i don feel like caring bout all this stuff d.
i felt very very tired to be caring so much and argue'ing..
my eyebaggs its like so deep aihh...

gotta go out now. will update!

1:31 AM should she give up? ♥

Sunday, January 4, 2009

happy new year !

went pyramid countdown with darling and his friends.

wasnt like what i've expected. but its fun :)

saw loads of my friends there.. most of 'em holdin can sprays..

chit chat wid them for ahwile dint know my friend planned to spray me

1stly they told me they saw some friends of theirs so wanna go say hi

but dint know they went buy spray, from behind they came and spray me.

then my other friends joined in. wth! i was full with the snow thingy :(

after that my hair got sorta harden =/

kumar and me

while waitin for deborah to get ready,

i drove his car. its damn funny.

he was so damn scared LOL

he tot i dint drive before hahaa..

me and darling <3

lookieee..

my hair aihhh ..

all kumar's fault..
go spray my hair =/

make up also smeared..

btw to all my friends

happy new yr &
thanks, i had fun :)

after all that went back home around 4 something.. slept at 5..

then woke up at 7 to go up to genting.. was so damn tired and sleepy *yawn*

followed dear up to genting to celebrate his dad's birthday..

and one of his church member's anniversary.

stayed in awana's apartment

the cafe.

golf field..

up the hill.

the apartment wher we stayed in.

darling's family.

took a few pic's after openin presents..

some ah moh's hse!

the hse quite nice also..

it wrote:

GOHTONG sports centre.

after all that we went for dinner..

ate sichuan steamboat.

*mm yum*

chivas :)

erm..

this is some china brand, beer i think..

while their eatin..

i went and take some pic's.

cos i was damn full..

after they finished..

my dear's still eatin. hahaa..

after that,

the kids went outside and played games..

this is erm..

some basketball game.

then came the

so called

young adults. ahaaha..

thats what erm..

aunt jac says.

dorcus is so cute..

erm i think thats how her name is spelled..

sorry if i spelled it wrongly =/ their name is quite special..

some i've never heard of it before..

she's enjoyin herself

sitting that horse thingy :)

stinky stinky skunk!

its sleepin.

after dinner

some of us went and sat cable car.

it was cold.

hubby and i.

i was damn cold..

cable cars..

sitting cable cars at nights is quite scarryy..

especially when the strong wind blows

the whole thing will stop and move side to side.

yep its scarriiieee..

after that went back to the apartment
and celebrate ..
they bought
1 birthday cake
1 anniversary cake and
the other one was an extra..