forget the risk, take the fall :D

Sunday, September 27, 2009

another day has gone, im still all alone
how could this be you're not here with me
you never said goodbye, someone tell me why
did you have to go and leave my world so cold
everyday i sit and ask myself
how did love slip away .....

6:42 PM should she give up? ♥

been very unhappy lately. cried for several days.. and got lectured by my brother just now. geez. no one understands me.. i know "you" cared for me and all.. but i dont feel that way. maybe im just too naughty or stubborn. oh well.. im trying my very best to change.

i cried again just now.

( maybe for all of you, you'll be thinking im a cry baby or what-so-ever.

but im not as strong as i used to be after what happened to me for the last 3 yrs.

no one knows. no one understands. so say whatever you want.

just dont judge me cos' you dont know me well! )

i felt your pain, seriously its hard. i know how it feels. and i know it takes time. it make me recall back whatever happened few months back. it really hurts. i understand. i really do. so take it slow, no worries. when i was with you the other day, you were happy then suddenly emo. i know what happen actually. i just kept quiet i didnt wanna say much cos' 1stly i really duno how to comfort people and 2ndly i don wanna say something wrong then make you more unhappy.. just so you know i'll be there when you need me, no matter where you wanna go, what time iszit, you need a shoulder to cry on or when you need a hug, ill be there.. and when your were driving to MJ you changed the song to unbreakable by westlife, it really changed my mind, i used to listen to hardcore music all the time, blasting it loud just to make myself happy again. but now when im sad i listen to it, it really make me calm down. but not today i listen to it and i suddenly cried. maybe for you is different. as for me i listen to R&B or those songs with bass to make me happy again. as for you, its the opposite. no matter what i still wont judge you, you're just being yourself and i like that cos' your not trying to be someone else. i respect that (:

OH! and before i end this.

i really wanna thank my friends for being there for me

when im unhappy and when i dont feel like going home.

really thank you and sorry for taking up all of your time just to accompany me,

altho i know you guys are willing to. really pai seh =/

but anyways, thank you

i really appreaciate it (:

addicted to :

sexy bitch - David Guetta ft Akon

2:41 PM should she give up? ♥

Friday, September 25, 2009

been clubbing allot lately.. due to some certain reason's.. make me felt like dropping out of college just like that. been having fun after what happened.. never felt the care from someone like that before (: cried for quite some time. called him talked then he came over stayed over till 10 in the morning just to teman me so i don't do stupid things. LOL :D really happy.. been spending time with him lately. *big smiles* and and lack of sleep =/

me like :D

@ Mist club

gonna sleep now.. yawn*
*xoxo*

12:58 PM should she give up? ♥

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I TURNED 18TH!

lol

was sleeping nicely in the afternoon of the 19th Sept.. suddenly Jennifer called.. after she hung up both phone was ringing.. loads of calls until i cant sleep so woke up around 4 something. get ready for steamboat dinner at Chong Qing, Mentari with Melvin and Jennifer. after dinner went to Maison to celebrate my birthday.. got lovely presents from my lovely friends (: and a bouquet of blue roses from Blue.. was really happy.. after all that, 1 whole bunch of us went Asia cafe to yam cha. after that 2nd round of drinking session at Jennifer's place from 5am till 7am. from when i was small till now i was never happy before on my birthday.

a big THANK YOU to all my friends :D
really appreciate it (:

the end..

the hatred is there!

12:17 PM should she give up? ♥

Saturday, September 5, 2009

phones!

dearest friend of mine wanted to buy a samsung phone. i told him if he bought it i wouldnt talk to him *jokes* and apparently he listen's to me. hahaa. dont knw whether tru anot. havent been meeting him since the last trip i went. kinda miss him tho (: anyways he asked me about LG gd900, whether iszit nice anot. i was like *screams* omg.. its cute. then he say he'll buy it :D and his comin to kl soon (;

LG gd900

went poppy with a bunch of friends and again meeting new peeps there (: all of them were really friendly. poppy was fun last night :D going with the right people to clubs its fun. took a few picture's and off to the podium and the dance floor. LOL

missesyoumuch!

5:40 AM should she give up? ♥

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

was really pissed off just now.. because that ma-f**k'ing idiot use the laptop when i was away and all my notes we're on the table, its so damn effing obvious that im doing my homework / assignments and when im back saw him sitting infront the laptop. and dont even wanna move. sat there and use for 20 min's. im doing a group assignment and need to be there to discuss @ msn but i wasnt. friends all start calling my mobile askin me to accept the documents. msg'es kept coming in. asked him whether he using anot cos he was just sitting there checkin his mobile and got scolded from him. "mcb" i knw its not my laptop k. but i hv to do assignments. if you dont wanna let me do it fine la i fail for you to see. im willing too. really hate him till i can drop the course i love most if he really do it again. i had enough.

anyways. thanks to mr. louis, my dearest friend he managed to make me smile and happy again. no one can do it but he can (: thank youu :D

loves*

-misses him much!-

9:15 AM should she give up? ♥

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

i really had a great time today with my college mates eventho i was damn tired. today i went to college at 9am and i tot i was late when i walk in the campus, waited for the elevator and checked my schedule again, mana tau my class only starts at 9.30am. then nvm went to Orange sat there alone waiting for precious Ee von to come over and she called and said im in class already. i was like O_o LOL so went to class when i open the class door my name was mention by Miss Merry and i answered "here", classmates were all sayin "wow, came in right on time" ROFL. and i just coughed in class for 1 time and suddenly i became a joke in the class. -.- after classes finished went and ate lunch at Orange, again along with Ed vinn, Jee ho and Ee von. after that, Ed vinn mention " i wanna play pool " , Jee ho and I answered " come let's go ". LOL went to Rack cafe due to the traffic congestion around Asia Cafe.

Jee ho & Ed vinn

and the girls,
who always join the guys
doing what they love / they're best at
and leave us there chit-chatting / camwhore .
LOL

me, Ee von and Jee ho

LOL
" im a dangerous kid "
never ever try to take pictures
when your friend is drivin or what-so-ever.
Jee ho freaked out.
its my fault actually
i apologize. sorreh =/

on our way back to college
" TRAFFIC JAM! "
Ed vinn's driving skills *thumbs up*
Jee ho was just sitting like that for a short period of time
and we reach back college safely. LOL

suprisingly, classes today seemed to be fun (: i wasnt sleepy at all. oh yea, i owe Louis something, which he has to remind me everyday for that.. anyways, assginments are getting more and more. lacking of sleep is slowly becoming a part of me. the eyebags are back. hmm during holidays must get facial d! hahaa. *yawn* need to go to bed now. good night!

18 more days and counting :D

8:55 AM should she give up? ♥