One fine day...

one fine day...sedang aku menikmati makanan di meja makan....

anaknda auni sedang bermain-main dengan mainannya sambil menyanyi....

sesaat dua kemudian aku rasa macam ada something tak kena dengan lagu tu...

dengan rentak lagu Bangau oh Bangau auni menyanyi riang...

lagunya berbunyi...

"Bangang oh bangang kenapa engkau turus (kurus)"

reaksi aku & en somi:

aku: adik!! BAAA-NGAU...bukan BAA-NGANG!


en somi: boleh lah dik...bangang pun bangang la...


pastu pakat2 gelak 4 beranak hahahahahha

I'm going to explode!!

ok this particular one guy....really....i mean really really really annoys me - BIG TIME!

he annoys me so much becoz he messed up with my family...ok technically he's also one of my family but in this article i'm going to omit or revoked his membership (ahaksss!!)

WARNING!!

I'm going to a a lot of BAD thing in this post...so if you feel like your kidney can't take it, please don't bother to read the whole thing. this post might unveil the demon hiding inside of me all this while.

Dulu...bila datang cuti sekolah ja normal reaction will be ~ yeay!! becoz we can take our kids back hometown to see their grandparents...sekarang...cuti sekolah ja..."sh*t it's school holiday!!"...KENAPA?? sebab bila cuti sekolah ja malaun sekor dekat Tawau sana akan balik ke rumah mak dan suffocate everyone in his path! nk balik rumah mak pun akan rasa...eeee eeee meluatnya...

we'oll dah terbiasa meng-IGNORE kebengongan dan kebiadapan dia tapi at certain time betul-betul menguji kesabaran aku...time bila dia cakap kuang haja dgn mak, dgn abah...aku klasifikasikan waktu ni adalah waktu dia bertukar menjadi babi jadian...time tu la telinga aku terkedik2 ja menggeletis tahan marah...time tu la aku terpikir eh kenapa laaa aku ni bukan werewolf buleh gak aku terkam koyak2 racik2 isi daging dia bagi boya makan...atau were-elephant ka senang sikit aku pijak2 sambil lompat bintang atas dia...biaq jadi macam mashed potato...kenapaaa kenapaaa??

mak pun satu hal la...bila sembang dgn aku tu marah la geram la...tak suka la...tapi LAAAAAAYAN jugak!! ya la...org kata anak...mak ni kot mana pon sayang tapi mak, tolong la tetapkan LIMIT...jangan la sampai setan tu dok pijak2 kepala mak...lepas tu dok marah dia pulak...haish!!

Dak mak, adik bukan meluat dengaq mak mengadu...dak mak...tapi adik pun sabaq ada la jugak tepi kan...dan lautan kesabaran adik ni bukan la lagu laut antartik ka laut india ka...takat tasik banding tu ja mak oiii saiz dia...

selama ni apa dia dok kata, dia dok buat...aku TELAN...tiap kali ada ayat menitip kt mulut aku yg nk terkeluaq, aku TELAN balik satu2 biaq pun payah sebab aku ingat mak dgn abah...mengkalu ikut aku, hang igt hang sorang ja la ada "demon" inside?? nehh....demon yg selalu dok hingaq tu sebenaqnya demon stended picisan ja tau...ni demon terpendam ni lagi bahaya baq hang!

sorry lah aku dah HILANG respek kat hang sebagai seorang (ke seekor??) abang A VERY LONG LONG LONG time ago...nak respek hang sebagai seorang manusia pun aku dah tak reti - jujur ni aku cakap...utk elakkan aku jadi makhluk kurang ajaq yg sama stended macam hang aku set minda aku tiap kali ternampak kelibat hang, aku imagine hang ni TONG SAMPAH bergerak....buleh? buleh derr aku ada daya imaginasi hebat...muahahhaha

weyyy, sudah2 la hidup menyusahkan mak abah...menyusahkan dari segi wang ringgit, mental dan jasmani!! ada baguih hang ambik tali gantung kt alang rumah sewa hang kt tawau tu then gantung diri...bini hang pun terlepas seksaan, kami pun bahagia...

aku tktau la aku ni keras hati sangat ka? kejam ka?? tak dak ati perut ka?? sebab aku dah HILANG rasa KESIAN kt hang...apa perasaan pun tkdak dah melainkan BENCI semata...andai buleh aku ludah muka hang, dah lama aku buat...awat hang igt hang besaq aku takut ka dengan hang?

umoq masuk 40...ckup la dok buat perangai mcm budak2 baru nk baligh...

aku tktau lama mana aku buleh tahan
aku tktau lama mana aku buleh sabaq
tapi aku tau lambat laun aku mesti dah tak boleh tahan
dan akan hilang segala sabaq
bila tiba masa tu...
aku harap Allah masih ingatkan aku
aku harap Allah akan selamatkan aku....dari diri aku sendiri

MAAF? forgiving is easy, forgetting is a completely different story....i have forgiven and put all the bad things behind me and move on for all or most of the things happened in my life EXCEPT for YOU...

goshhh i feel soooo much better!!

I'm....something

sekali baca macam pengakuan seorang mutan yang baru discover her power....kann? sebenarnya tak langsung hahah...

well, sometimes i consider myself a mutant...i'll tell you why in a very short while...

but now, i want to share what will trigger this "thing"...it's STRESS, ANGER and EXHAUSTION/FATIGUES...

this is also why...for the past years (since the outbreak 2012) i'm tuning myself to be someone who will always make jokes out of a disastrous weather...try to keep myself in control so that i did not step into any of conditions as i said earlier...

if i'm angry, i'll turn it into something funny/jokes that will made me (at least) laugh...but normally people around me will end up laughing too

if i'm stress, i'll find a way to loosen it up...i am not myself when i'm stress/angry

if i'm fatigue, well this one is tricky...becoz at home i'm the maid and i'm just one type that can't rest until what I've set in my mind to be done - is done.

ok next revealing...what would happen if i ended up in any of the above conditions? if you're thinking i'm turning green as Bruce Banner (Hulk) or Mrs Hyde...ekkkk you're wrong...

the answer is :---- i get cold sores popped out on my lips...yes, a blister like thingy on my lips...

did i disappointing you? ahhaha you might be thinking maybe flames will come our from my eyes or turning into she-wolf or something...oh dearie, how i wish!

So, this sores will last around 3-7 days until it gone away ~ sigh! it's not really painful but rather annoying...it's only super painful if i took spicy foods huhuhu

more info: https://www.abreva.com/about-cold-sores/cold-sore-triggers/

so that's it...this is one of the reason why i'm turning into mind free person...trying to avoid as much as i could from being in the conditions that could trigger the outbreak...try not to think much (or at all) about petty things that i shouldn't be worried about...

oh forgot to mention that i have this since the initial outbreak in early 2012...ingat tak masa harraz admitted due to a tremendous mouth ulcers? yap it got into me since then...but lucky thing harraz tkdak pula kena recurrence outbreak...mebi sbb dia adalah the initial host...huhuhu ok whatever...lunch time still ada...game time!

~daaa and have blast weekend y'all

#Cabaran2016

Alhamdulillah still dipanjangkan umur untuk melalui tahun 2016 ini...

Alkisah alasan biasa dok bagi, busy so tk ada masa nk berblogging bagai...i'll keep it as short as possible...

2016...alhamdulillah dipromote menjadi Senior Calibration Co-Ordinator (walaupun kurang pasti adakah ianya satu kelebihan atau akan menjahanamkan diri aku hahaha)...sooo duties bertambah, even so bos tua said upper management think i can do more than what they have assigned...phuiii...korang hengat aku ni Chappie ka?? Atau Octopus? Maksimum aku leh wat 3 benda dalam satu masa (tidak termasuk makan & dengar lagu)...3 tu pun aku tak galakkan diri aku sendiri buat kerap2 utk mengelakkan mistakes here n there...tapi most of the time, bila quarter end itulah yg aku selalu buat...ada certain task saja aku buat 1 at a time sebab memerlukan kosentrasi...

itu pun pernah org tnya aku...aku tgh hack system ka apa2 ka...kesnya aku menaip macam main piano lagu Flight Of The Bumblebee...haha...awattt...hacker saja ka menaip laju?? huhuh

Cabaran?? Gile kau tkde...dgn "post" baru ni, 2 org yg challenging di letakkan di bawah jagaan aku...bukan takat jadi mentor...leave, increment, job assignment depa aku kena jaga...itu yg mencabaqnya...sebab depa ni kategori "warga emas/perak"...ini semua konfem pasai bos tua malas nk handle depa 2 ni sebab payah nk diajaq (direct aku kata ni)...

setiap dari sorang ni bagi cabaran yg berbeza2 kat aku...stress level increase tapi cepat2 tune jadi bahan lawak supaya tidaklah aku meninggal awal sbb sakit jantung/tekanan darah tinggi...dok nampak dah depa ni harus kena guna approach #sounddirect...

dah la ckup pasal keja...

anak-anak...along skolah petang...pagi abahnya antar pi transit & adik ke taska, petang aku ambik...cabarannya adalah selepas balik dr sekolah terasa duniaku SANGAT rushing...selalu sampai rumah around 640 pm ~ 645 pm...along abes skolah 620 pm...kejan along mandi, solat asaq...siapkan dinner kt dia (normally makan before 8 pm)...lepas makan kejan solat maghrib lepas tu buat homework/latihan...at the mean time aku, kemas beg transit along, beg auni utk esok hari...on lucky day, dpt la aku tgk tv...lipat baju sambil tgk siri fevret kalau larat & ada masa before 10 pm...

along by 930 pm aku dah hambat masuk tido...auni mencabar sikit sebab dia kena tido dengan ketiak abahnya...abahnya tk tido, maka tk tidolah dia...ketiak aku sudah tidak lagi laku hatta dirasuah macam2 mmg tak layan *sedih gila*...mujurlah baju sekolah along, auni baju keja en somi aku iron 1 week terus (except auni ada 2 hari still kena iron sbb baju ada 3 ja)...tapi kadang nk iron baju aku & en somi bencinta, malam hari baru iron ~ngehhh...

bayangkan kalau hari2 tiap malam baru nk iron bagai dengan masa yg ada 7 pm ~ 10/1030 pm...dgn segala mak nenek hal nk buat...macam rushing jaaa semua...aku tido awal...sebab sejak beberapa bulan yg lepaih pukul 630 pagi dah kuar rumah...semuanya dek pasai nk berebut parking dalam kawasan kilang, malas jenjalan jauh dan malas nk maki org yg double park keta aku petang karang...

tidoq malam pun nyenyak macam newborn...huhuuh

so...ya itulah antara punca tak sempat nk wassap member2 helo2 tnya khabor bagai...huhuhu COC pun kadang bukak seblom nk lena dan kerap juga end up henpon terlepas hempap dahi aku sbb terlelap masa bukak COC ahakss...

okkk...back to work!!