getting there

Hi, I am feeling much better since my last post. I joined the TJEd forum, and was able to talk to a good friend of mine. I was given lots of good tips and info. The thing I got from it all, was that the kids are that- just kids. We do not need to expect them to be adults. I feel a lot less pressure.

THE FIRST MONTH

Our first month was great! I was super inspired and so were the kids! Great Great Great! As for now, I think that our inspiration is running out. I have been hitting a wall. I am or should say was, wanting to sleep all day or watch tv to avoid the getting to work. I am trying to get back on the train. I have signed up on the tjed web site for talks, classes, kidschool help and have posted on the forum. I am committed to getting the help that I need to get motivated. I realized today, that the hardest part of my day is having a 1 year old and  2 year old at the same time. I think that is the thing that is making my day the hardest. I also have decided that too much structure is bad for me, but none is even worse. So I need to find a balance in there. It would also help if I wasn't alone in my community, hence finding the tjed forum.  I wish that there was someone in my area doing tjed.  I dont have too much time right now to explain tjed, but here is my post from earlier today.


Post:
I recently discovered TJed, and bought the books, read them and was SO SO SO motivated! I started it right away with my kids, (we were already doing home school) and it was successful for about the first month.

Now I am finding myself getting very discouraged. I think "you, Not them" and I get overwhelmed. I am a mom of 5- ages 10, 8, 5, 2 and 1. This is overwhelming to me in itself. I want to do the things I need to to become a great mentor, but I find myself watching tv, or taking a nap to escape my reality.

I think I am afraid to start, and don't really know where to.  To sum it up, I feel like I have seen a great thing, experienced it, and am now running from it. But I don't know why. I guess, this is such a huge change for me. I feel like I have to fight who I am and how I have become, to be better.

Does anyone else have this struggle, and how do you overcome it? 

Our First Run

So, I have decided to do the Thomas Jefferson Edu.. So far it is working out. It has been a little overwhelming trying to figure out how, but I can see we are getting there, slowly but we are.. It is So exiting, because I can see that our family is becoming better everyday. I love having my kids home with me and being involved in their learning and growing. I am growing leaps and bounds more than I thought I would, and it hasn't even been a month. I can't wait to see where this takes us!