"People see God everyday, they just don't recognize him" Pearl Bailey
I know it's been awhile. No doubt, our family has been hit hard this winter. First our Ella, then Ryan's job loss then to the real fear of loosing Avah due to the job loss. Through each of these, I have looked for God. I have seen Him. He has shown Himself through my sister's courage, our friends trying to help find job leads for Ryan, myself getting job, our finances coming together in truly, miraculous ways so that we can continue to move forward to bring Avah home. And, I truly believe that God has pulled some strings for me by sending me my deer herd, the ones that I can see behind my fence, the ones when I go out on my deck, the deer turn and look at me, and they don't run.
I love my house. I love the location. I LOVE that at least once each winter, we will see Deer passing through behind, in the valley behind my house. But it has historically been a once a year event. When Ryan lost his job, we started noticing the deer more often, way more than any other year passing through. One day, a couple of weeks ago, I was really down. It was very cold outside, and there were large snowflakes falling. I was worried about my sister, I really needed to find another job, I was worried about loosing Avah. . . when, something caught my eye in the woods behind our fence. I looked and couldn't believe what I saw. There was a little deer that had settled and lay down to take shelter in the little valley/woods behind my house. I just stared at it. I opened the door to our deck and was delighted to see many other heads raise up and look at me. Joy filled my heart. I have always loved deer, I just am amazed at how beautiful they are. And, here, in plain view, they were taking shelter by my house. The deer stayed in the exact same spot all day. Later that day, I filled out a job application and delivered it, only to get an unexpected interview and got hired on the spot! I called Ryan and he told me that the deer had just left as he was talking to me on the phone. I felt such peace that the deer had stayed with me and left after my good news about my job.
Is it a spiritual connection? I'd like to think so. In fact, I do belive that God has sent me my deer herd because He knew that I would recognize them for what they were. . . messengers of peace that I so desparately need. The message that even though my family has fallen, we are still safe in His arms, the way the deer herd are safe in the little valley behind my house. I am so humbled that they feel safe enough to lay down and feel safe, even when they can see me, then don't get up. The deer herd does not come every day but they did it again last week and we got some more good news about our finances.
At times, I do wonder if they have always been there? Or is it that I just need to see them? Whatever the case, I love my deer herd and each time I look out my window, I search for them and sometimes open up my back door and call to them, waiting for multiple slender necks to raise, big ears to perk up and the trees start to move with all the deer that were hidden. Now they are there more often then not.
Thank You God for my deer herd and the comfort and peace they bring to me.
