Friday, March 28, 2008

Did i ever mentioned that one of my ambitions in the past was to be a doctor when i grow up. I think i was partly influenced by my mum too though in that ambition. She used to say and she still says that she wants to become a doctor but she knows she doesn't have the ability to do it and thus she hopes that one day one of her child will do her proud and fulfil that ambition of hers.

Each time i step into the hospital, walking past the wards, i'll see patients, like duh. When my relative is lying on that hospital bed, i'll have this thought of wanting to become a doctor so that i'll have a better idea of what they're currently facing, what their body is doing and how is it reacting to them. I feel so helpless each time i look at them yet i'm unable to do anything. The only thing i can do is to support them mentally, and that emotional support they need. And after all the stays in the hospital, the amount of time spent on medicine and everything, what you'll get may turn out not the way you expected it to be, what you hoped for. Soon, you'll realise that we humans are nothing in this world. Yes we may be able to diagnose what is wrong with a patient, come up with cures and instruct the nurses, family members about what to do, but the efforts may go down the drain when you see the person leaving the world.

I am so not crying when i'm typing this in my room, if you get what i mean.

I love you, grandma. Rest in peace.



Happy Birthday Daddy, i love you too.


Today's the 28th of March, 2008.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

I think i get paranoid easily nowadays. For example, the phone call that came at 6am+ this morning. I thought something happened to my grandma :x Lucky it wasn't about that.

I think youngsters now are so 'lol'. My sister was telling my mum about couples in her class and what the guys actually do, hahaha. There's this couple who kisses/hugs all the time in class lar. And the guys in her class actually queue up to take photos and videos of them doing that HAHA. Hilarious, like that also must queue up take photo. Aiya, but it's not like people of our age don't do that. Before you know anything you're caught on Candid Camera. I shall not say grow up. Oh and there's this girl called ____ (CLUE: STANLEY's SISTER- i did not say the name) who has quite a number of boyfriends in primary school.. And i think she once again has boyfriends in school. She looks so guai and yet she's like that.. I mean it's somehow unexpected. Plus she was the i think deputy head prefect or something in TNPS! She likes to pop out from no where early in the morning and take my Dad's car ): Joking. I saw her once only in the same car and it isn't wrong to give her a lift to school, haha. Just that she waited for almost half and hour in the morning cos she popped out too early -.- Poor girl. I think it was me delaying everything that's why she had to wait for such a long time, oops. My sister was complaining about this other girl who was like 100% nerdy but changed to bimbo-like overnight. Skirt became shortshortshort and my sis was predicting when it's gonna be damnbloodyshort. WHY SEC1 SO MANY BIMBOS ALREADY?! I was an ultimate noob in secOne. Shit, damn guai leh me. HAHA.

I miss my blue Acuvue book! Used to write a shitload of stuffs in there when i was on hiatus here. I even brought it to UK and it's like i have brief details of what i did each day. And there are many birthday reminders inside! I even calculated the number of days before it reached 2008, from the start of 2007 (duh, 365 days if you round off), and the number of days left after each month. I named the calendar part "YQ's advent calendar". Sounds familiar? Neopets. There's my Bingo games inside too hahaha. Plus Xinzi's spongebob drawings and her weird 'fruit-monsters'. Rofl. I miss my Acuvue book laaaaaaa.

I have no idea why i've been feeling so tired these few days. Gah.

When everyone's trying to do something to make sure the friendship continues, here i am doing nothing :x Ok la this sucks. Nevermind.

I feel like doing the johari window thing again. I wonder if i've changed drastically over the years.

My Olevels Cert is so ugllllly.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Ignorance is bliss! At times. Lucky i didn't install that Security Patch thing for Vista if not my laptop will be screwed. SOS CALL! who knows what on earth is the SP student mail thingy. i totally forgot what i used for my email lar. hoho, STM. Please save me! How come Joel has the white piece of paper telling him what software his course needs to have yet i don't have. Oh damn. I'll just bring this laptop along for orientation and see what i can do there :x I have a fabulous memory.

I made my way down to Singapore Poly today with Darrell and his friend, Terrence, for the Sports Camp briefing. I think i'm starting to know all kinds of Terrence. No la this is the second one from SP that i know. The other Terrence is Ek's 'friend'. Not sure if it's his friend, but yea, 'friend'. Anyway,the briefing was like only 5mins long! The icebreaker games were like 1hr+ -.- Okay i still don't know people after those games. I'm too antisocial already. 4D3N sports camp, i predict i'll die. I hate having you-know-what during camps! Confirm no water games for me, again. And i'm not faking it this time round if you see me not playing water games :x

Thank you Mr Darrell for the donuts today! Er, i'll treat you to something someday, haha. I know you'll read this one day so thankyou! And don't talk so loud when you see lesbians lar LOL.

I still can't stand homosexuality i think. Gross.

Hahaha, i'm gonna wear my school uniform for the Sports Camp thingy, they said it's compulsory for some event. YAY i miss uniforms :x I really really really miss uniforms. You know what to get me for my birthday now! hint hint. I'm joking. But i don't mind uniforms from JCs :) I wanna know how i look like in them.

I think i'm more independent than before already. I have to be anyway. The accomplishment for today: I didn't get lost in TTSH! Three Cheers for me :) Plus, i was alone. I'm improving, and that's good.

I think ahma has stomach ulcer.. I thought i heard that. Sigh. She still doesn't recognise people ): But at least she's moving her fingers, haha. She held my hand and was playing with my finger! Soon, she'll start recognising everyone and her condition will improve.. i hope.

I'm afraid i'll be disappointed again, cos when i really want something to work out, it won't.

The best thing for me to do: Pray.

Monday, March 24, 2008

It'd be really cool if there's someone who knows you so well until a small action of yours would allow the other party to know what you want and what you're thinking. At least when you're lying on the hospital bed, unable to communicate and move about, there would be someone who's able to guess what you want and maybe help you out.

I won't cry, at least not in front of them. I'll fake a smile. Will you be able to tell if i did that? Probably not. Who will?

Hospitals are really scary places.

Any free hugs available for me? I need them, haha. Cos i need to be strong now and to remain optimistic about everything.

It really sucks not being able to help with anything.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

i wish i wish with all my might.. I hope my grandmother passes through everything.


iofficiallyhatehospitals.

Friday, March 21, 2008

It rained, it stopped. The skies cleared. But there was no wind. So spoiler lar, my kite didn't go up high in the sky in the end. When i kept the kite already, the wind came. Probably it was due to the different location already thats why. I still want to fly a kite. Period.

I don't exactly remember where i heard/saw this before. I remember it's something about flying a kite when you're sad when it's gonna rain. Like that the wind or something will take away your worries and you'll forget about it. I think i saw it in Meteor Garden.. But apparently thinking about it, if it's gonna rain with those thunder and lightning blahblah, you'll probably get struck by the lightning and before you know it you'll forget about what you're upset about because you'll be lying on the ground and waiting to be sent to the hospital cos of your kite in the sky. Ha ha. I wanna write wishes on kites and then fly it. Maybe when it's high enough the angels in heaven will see what i want and they'll grant me my wish. When i was trying to make my kite go up, i was thinking that if my wishes were on the kite, i would have a lot of hopes in it going up. Now that the kite can't go up, it'll just mean that my wishes were not meant to be and it won't ever happen. I think that will really happen to me. Nothing is meant to be.

I heard my mum talking to my cousin about me. She mentioned about my PSLE score and that she thinks i'm the type who can study but she had no idea what happened to me during Os. Haha.. My cousin was saying she thinks i'm the study type too! I know i leave a good impression on others :) Nevermind.

I sound like i haven't got over my Os results. Yeah indeed i haven't. I have no idea how i screwed it up. Physics tuition didn't help me, i thought i could get an A with that :x At least i didn't fail. I remember Daryl said he was laughing when i cried in Physics class cos i failed physics test, rofl. I failed that by a few marks lar, damn sad. But i felt pissed and damn disappointed in myself when i failed home econs by half a mark in sec2. Talk about expectations. I hate losing, in a way. Who likes losing? Everytime i say i can't do something, i expect myself to get it done. That's when i get even more disappointed in myself.

I wish i strike my 10million Toto soon. I wish i'm rich. I wish ... Too many things. But i know they won't happen. I lost faith in wishes. Birthday wishes are things that will not come true. I remember wishing last year that i will be a single pointer for Os but it didn't happen, haha. I know i have to depend on myself but i tried and i didn't get what i want in the end still.

"I never study for PSLE leh" - very common thing people say, heard them in my 4 years in AHS from people i know. What about me? I studied for PSLE yet i got a 255 only. Them? 24x, 25x, good enough to get into Anglican. Maybe this shows the difference in intelligence. When i was in primary school, my mother studied with me each night. She sat beside me and coached me in studies. This is a standard procedure each night before i get to watch TV or go to bed. Plus i have my daily assessment books to complete. I did preparations for PSLE. Hardwork. Yet a 255 only, not even a 260. I know i should be contented with my score. I think i'm contented, but not contented enough. I think there's always this comparison that's why i feel lousy. My sister's the highest PSLE record holder in the family now, 1 mark higher than me. Hah. I'm no longer the record holder! ): I have nothing, No PSLE, No O-level results. Okay la i feel like a bitch who's complaining about everything now, i should just shut up and type now.

You know i said so much shit about wishes but i have a wish for the day. I wish my grandma can remain healthy :X She fainted twice today in the coffee shop. Refused to go to the hospital when the ambulance came, and scolded those people for calling the ambulance. Haha.. typical her. She has no one to take care of her at home now cos she lives alone. Each Sunday when i visit her, i won't talk much to her. That communication breakdown between us. I do talk to her sometimes though, and i'll just reply in my lousy hokkien. Haha. But i'm glad i helped in contributing. I sweep the floor so it's clean and she can stay happily in her house! Hope she's well lar, everyone so worried about her. Sigh, communication problems are always the cause.

"i made a wish and you came true."

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Yay for tomorrow. It's Good Friday! TGIF. Mummy's having KFC craving so we'll probably be having KFC tomorrrrrrooowww! I think the Chickens are afraid of us going D: if the weather is good, we'll fly kites too! As in the real kite not the other or whatsoever meaning. But the places we fly the kite at probably won't have swings, and i'm sad. I hope it doesn't rain, for once.

If you have to rate how happy are you, out of 5 stars, what would be your answer? This is a tough question.

I think my mother just saw me typing all of these and she'll start going to google to search for this place again. GG.

i'm tired.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

I just realised my Dad's birthday is coming. I can't believe i forgot all about it. I'm gonna write him a letter i guess. I love writing letters. And i'll say Daddy i love you :D

I saw a Mas Selamat lookalike today while jogging! Similar eyebrows they had. I'll probably get attacked anyway if i see him. If i see more of his lookalikes, i'm gonna conclude MS has a common face.

THE BURNING QUESTION. Is Ass considered a bad word? Please tell me if you read this. You can tell Mr Joel Yeo about your answer too.

I'm going for the Sports whatever Camp! It's a freaking 4D3N camp. I hope i don't die cos i think i cannot survive in camps for too many reasons. I'll miss my bed ): And aircon. But that's not the point. I just think i have no survival skills. If you hate me that badly just kidnap me and throw me in the forest, i'll not survive anyway and you'll be sure you won't see me ever. World peace for you.

Another thing i was wondering about. Does anyone know of anyone in particular who hates me? Like totally hate that kind. I'd really love to know actually. When i was younger, i used to say things like "i hate you" to people i don't like. On second thoughts, i think i didn't. But i used to say that in my head. The even more classic one was "i don't friend you already la". This is so funny la! I think i said i dont wanna friend a person too many times until i lost count. I think i don't mean what i say all the time, and sometimes i say it this way yet i feel another way about it. Good example of Kou3 Shi4 Xin1 Fei1: Ying Qian. I was telling Debby this. I treat everyone as friends but it depends on whether they want to treat me as a friend or not. I'm such a nice girl. I'm joking.

I went back to MJ today to pay my school fees thanks to the "Final reminder" by MOE. I wasn't even reminded before that, wow. And i came up with a conclusion why it always rains when i'm in Pasir Ris. Such a joke.

What kind of birthday presents do i like? hmm.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

This used to be my handphone wallpaper for a period of time. My 'Endurance Training'. Excuses, if you get what i mean.



I think after the Econs project i'm too deprived of donuts. 3 donuts from Munchy Donuts went into my stomach ): I feel so freaking guilty now.

I'm bored of the treadmill now. But i found a new love, and thats the park connector! Yay for jogging.

And i missed 11:11pm. ):

I need to be kept busy, seriously. Somehow i hope school starts earlier.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Hey Honey,

Please do remember to take your medicine okay? It's just antibiotics afterall, at least 6 hours interval between each intake. You'll make me worried if you don't do so. You shouldn't really play with Tonsillitis you know, so please listen to me okay. I miss you so much! We should really meet up more often, and also get my girl friends along. We can go on triple dates once everyone gets a guy, but i don't need another guy to come along in my life anymore, cos i have you. I'm so glad i met you. This is like the fifth year i've known you and today is the day we got together, finally. It's really funny actually, you've always been by my side yet i've overlooked you. I promise i'll be your good girlfriend, and i'll be less demanding, although i think i'm not that demanding anymore after quite some time ago when things changed when i was with you-know-who. Promise you'll not let me go, promise you'll be by my side, promise you'll take care of me, and you better keep to your promise of messaging me goodmorning and goodnight each day! I'm believing in promises this time round cos i know you'll not disappoint me, i hope. Love you loads.

There was a bad jam on the ECP this morning. Poor girl from CCHMS was late. Well i suppose she's from there lar, but the worse thing was the state of her mummy's car. Money is needed to repair it. Big money.

Dad's new assistant is coming on Thursday, hope he'll be of help to Dad so that Dad can come home early and have some family bonding sessions with us. Yay. I'm probably going to help the Accounts department now. And the best thing about today was what i found out about Mr Fungi. He's taking what Chinese Studies in NP? LOL. This is funny.

I met someone from SP in maple today, my bow seller. This are the debts i need to return:

Winky- 5m.
Debby- 5m.
Jol- 2m.

In case i forgot i have evidence here to prove that i ever borrowed money from them. Yes, i'm back to maple. Just getting the stuffs in case i do continue.

I'm damn tired. Shall sleep soon.

Yay for new songs.

And i realised i cannot really accept homosexuality. The scene on the mrt train on Friday was too disgusting. Ask me if you wanna know what happened.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

I'm blogging using the laptop, yay. This is shit la i kept losing in viwawa ):

I'm like talking to Winky now about how screwed am i gonna be if my contact lens are of the wrong degree and how expensive it is now. See, money plays a part. I love money but money doesnt love me. Maybe i shall blog about my love for money one day hoho. Money makes the world go round. I'm like asking Winky to imagine me being blind. Okay if i'm blind i won't be able to look at the stars, look at those sunrise and sunsets, etc. And i wanna go on the Singapore Flyer! This sucks. And i'm considering going for Lasik >< sigh. When i was young i hoped i could wear specs so i did stupid things like going very near the television when there were shows to watch. You know, i wish i could turn back time, then maybe i won't spoil my eyes and it won't hit 700 so fast. Plus i wanna strike off ppl from my list of names. Well apparently i think only Janson understands what i said now, Haha.

The School of Business Freshmen Orientation Camp is full already! Sigh. I hate waiting for calls, it's a tiring thing to do.

Let's talk about Fate.

11:11pm! Good night.


Good luck to those who have tests tomorrow. Debby i hope you pass maths ><

Saturday, March 15, 2008

This weather is like damn horrible. I want those rainy days back. ):

mum: (asking another neighbour) so you went to poly is it?
neighbour: yeah.
mum: which poly?
neighbour: Temasek, mass comm.
mum: oh my daughter is in poly too. Accountancy in SP.
neighbour: (looks at me, shocked.) huh, i thought you were in jc? not there ah.

while walking back.

me: see everyone thinks i'm the jc type leh but i'm in poly.
mum: ya la, i also think you are the academic type, but i dont know what you do and how u get 14. i still cannot accept the fact that you're in poly and not jc. but i'm not scolding you now that you're in poly.


poly vs jc.

I think i'm going blind, my eye degree just went up again, shit. It's now officially in the 700 range, for the right eye. Forgot about the other one. I feel blind <-- interpret it your own way from everything HAHA.

Anyway there was a "class outing" yesterday. 6 people turned up, wow. And out of the 6 there were 3 new faces! the JAE people, Haha. I think they won't remember me anymore but still hello Jackalyn, Jude and Angie. Seriously Jude reminds me of someone! I have no idea who though. He talks like Mr Leonard Francisco Neo Lee Heng (if his name is spelt like that). Ended up we didnt cycle at ECP despite the good weather. Went to Cathay to watch Step Up 2 plus to play pool at Marina Square. Don't you hope you knew how to dance? I do.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

You have to admit i'm good at remembering dates, i can be your manual birthday reminder, or i can be your anniversaries reminder. It's free of charge if you're a close friend of mine, or if i think you're worth the trouble. HAHA. I'm good. Spread Ying Qian's love. Hug the person next to you now :) I'm joking.

Happy Birthday Dominic & Eleanor.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

I'm back from the AHS 4G'07 bbq. It rained the whole day, and i love it. At least i'm indoors but i wished i was looking at the clouds and the rain. We bbq-ed (not we, i didn't and i bet people like Faus didn't too :D) in the super dark and ulu pavilion lar.. I think i didnt eat $5 worth of food but i paid $5! I think it was Janson who paid the other $1.50 for me. Thankyou to you if you're the one who helped me but if it isn't you, thanks Daryl then!

I think i'm spending a lot lately, need to save already. I keep sponsoring people at arcades ): And i feel noob at basketball machines. Crap.

Hohoho and back to the bbq topic. Faus and i were practically talking to Daryl and Janson throughout! I think i vented my frustrations there, that felt good. And you two better not spread everything i say! I'll ask Mas Selamat to kill you. HAHA. It feels good to be able to talk to people you haven't talked to in ages. But i still didn't talk much to the others! Must be the lighting, cannot see everyone.. Excuses.

Tomorrow's the poly Enrolment Day, and i'm on halfday leave. Plus on Friday i'm going for that 08s401 class outing, and i'll probably be left out -.- Too insignificant. Meeting Ekjun tomorrow at 8.40am @ Dover. I need to sleep now. I hope i recognise Ek! We better not get lost.

Spiderwicks tomorrow after work with my Sis and Dad and probably Bro. Sorry Jol, Steph and Faus i'm not able to watch it with you tomorrow! And sorry for cancelling the iceskating idea! But thankyou Faus for treating me to less than 10mouths of Ben and Jerry's ice cream. Lol.

Faus love toads/frogs, HAHA.

I know what to blog about when i have the time. It's time to search for old class photos and circle heads to identify people who changed! I'm joking. But i'll do that someday.

Happy Birthday Eunice Darling! I love you! Are you 19 already?

And Happy Belated Birthday Lee Peng and Yi Hao. I remember you two were on stage in 2006 when we were having sec3 bonding camp cos it was your birthday, Haha. Doubt you'll read this anyway but happy belated birthday.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Yesterday the BFFLs didn't wait for me at my workplace, what a disappointment. Haha, joking. We went to ECP and spent a shitload of money on food (define shitload) plus bowling. Sigh, i sponsored so much for bowling ): But TOO BAD THAT's THE END OF THE SPONSORING SESSION. i must save money, you and you and you should too. Wait till accountancy starts and you'll see how i help u with controlling your money lmao. Anyway we were like crap in bowling. But YAY ying qian striked. We were like at lane 27 and on our left was the old men who were damn good, and on the right were the small kids who were noisy. Apparently we were squashed in between them and thanks to us being noisy we attracted unwanted attention from them plus our scores were lousier than the kids and i think less than 1/4 of the old men. Gosh, this is seriously pathetic. Nevertheless it was fun. Jolene owes me 50 cents cos there's an unused token for the arcade. HAHA. I'm so nice i even sponsored their arcade expenses. I'll declare myself broke! Ying Qian is broke.

Sadly there wasn't stars yesterday and i didn't get to eat my oyster omelette, so i'm a sad girl. I love rainy days, and it has been raining lately :D

There's 4G bbq tmr, let's see what happens. i'm so not gonna say it'll rain.


L-O-V-E, Love. Won't you say you love me too?



BLAH.



miss tabs, we'll go jogging someday together!

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Ying Qian fears poly. Who is in Accountancy @ SP?

i need to get into my SMU ):

Emo shit.

Saturday, March 08, 2008

I'm hungry. At least i did something meaningful today to enrich my pathetic life. I helped mummy in her curry cooking! Plus mixing and and preparing that chocolate cake.

I hope i make it in time for the fireworks, even though it may only last for that few seconds. And i won't get a picture of it if i miss it.

Daddy's still at work. I seriously think i'm just taking my pay and not helping much cos he even worked on a Saturday and gave swimming a miss!

):

Friday, March 07, 2008

i believe in horoscopes, do you?

Debby was so sweet, she came over to my workplace to wait for me to knock off. She thinks she can be a good boyfriend, i think so too. Since i was going jogging with Winky at the park connector, she came along too. Haha, so funny. Winky got a shock after seeing her. We jogged at the park connector for an unknown distance, and poor debby didn't dare to tell me to stop even though her thighs were hurting. I probably looked scary and emo and i dont know what. But it feels good to run. The sunset was pretty! Better than the one i was suppose to see at ECP and Changi previously. The clouds had the contrasting effect too, very pretty. So Debby thinks i'm nuts cos i keep running and later on i mentioned about calories. The almighty me managed to psycho them to go to Sunplaza Park later on, i wanted to play the swing. Oh and we sat on the see-saw which was too small for us, haha. The park shrank! That's like damn sad, cos even my Pasir Ris Park playground shrank. The world is shrinking (i think my brain too and that resulted in the 14points for Os).

I love swings. And i can conclude that the swings at Sunplaza Park are better than the ones at Pasir Ris Park. It's relatively comfy and it can go higher, i think. Then we started talking about Potential Energy and Winky kept saying the PE i had was more than those there. BOO. Infer. I was looking at the star in the night sky, the only one that i could see from my view, the loner star. I think the star belongs to me.

While walking back i was reminded of how orientation was like. Mass dance. Debby kept saying "fast and furious", "drift x4" . And the night sky today was pretty, many stars. After the final day of Orientation ended, we had the House/OG dinner at Downtown East and i remembered clearly that there were plenty of stars in the sky that night. That very night when we were walking i was practically looking up at the night sky and remaining very quiet, for a period of time. You know, time passes so fast. That's in mj, and now i'm out of mj. Wow.

I wore the Triton Shirt today, my attire for my PAE PE lessons. I still remembered the first time to run for PE lessons, we had to run 4 rounds of the jogging track for the girls, and i think 6 for the guys. I ran with Wen Jie at first at the same pace but i gave up for the 4th round cos i wasn't that good in running due to the lack of practice. Jeremy and Joey didn't have PE that day, and we were saying how much a coincidence it was that they both weren't in the proper attire. They were the first scandal that spreaded in the class. Wen Jie and i observed them and started talking to Jeremy about such things, haha. If anyone needs a heart-to-heart talk desperately, please do look for me. I'll listen to you, you can rely on me cos i won't say your secrets out if they have to be kept as top secret. Wen Jie was one of the first friend, probably the first or second or third, cos i talked to the girls first on Day One of Orientation, and she was the one that i was with most of the time. Very good friend indeed. I'll remember how she talks to her boyfriend during breaks, and how she likes to skip PE and how much cucumber she likes to take for her chicken rice -.- Haha. On one very random day, the class guys started giving each other names. I remember Shangfa was known as Gilbert, i think. Then i think Joel said i should be called Jane haha. I didn't want to accept that name at first but later i said that if i'm Jane, i'll have my Tarzan soon, so i thought that name was acceptable. Then on the very same day, Ikhwan commented about how difficult my name was to pronounce, and he said that i have the Susan face and he asked if he can call me that. Obviously i said no. Then i think either Dominic or Joel said Margaret isn't that bad too. So on that day i had 3 new names- Jane, Susan & Margaret. I think that was a Thursday. Then we had Compass lessons, and Mdm Tan, our Civics Tutor, made us write on a piece of paper what we wanted to say or comment about each other. We wrote our names on a piece of paper, and we passed it around. Wen Jie was the first to write on mine and she was using my orange pen! Uh huh. The different comments were about me being short, mapler, etc. And i recognise some of those writings still even though they have no names at the side. Shit, i should have written my name on the comments for others so that they would have remembered that they once had a friend called Win Money, as known by them. There was a misspelled Margaret version of the front of the paper, and a Susan. "Susan Margret". 08S401 used to have like around 26 or 27 people. But i remember quite a number of them withdrawed because they were sure they were going to a Polytechnic. Mr Gohel was one of the nicest teacher we had, IMO. He could take jokes and i thought he was nice. Then there was the physics lecturer, the one who loves thinking he's Andy Lau. Oh and the other physics lecturer who dreams about his red ferrari the whole day. The thing that i would look out for during Mr. Ferrari's lecture was the Toblerones he loved giving out after answering his questions correctly. Food, is love. Wen Jie and i used to share the Toblerone! And she eats so much food each day, sadly she doesn't get fat. Sense jealously? Haha. 08S401 used to play hand games to kill time. There was once we had our ghost story session in the canteen. I guess that was the only time i screamed, and the poor guy sitting beside me must have suffered, cos both Wen Jie and i did that act after there was a bottle that dropped on the chair.. i think. A group of us went for our Sakae Session on 31st January. Then there was the class outing @ ECP on the 25th January, the day that Shangfa almost killed my phone, and poor Joey lost her phone + fell badly. College Road Race on the 26th January where only Hui Teng and me turned up for the girls, and later on where we played at the playground. Thanks to the person who helped me hold my bag when i was enjoying myself on the swing and the person who tried to make me giddy by turning me here and there -.- On the day of Os results, thanks to Joel who tried informing everyone about the respective L1R5 after people messaged him to update him about the results and where he compiled them into one sms. The range was from 6points to 20points. Our own 6-pointer. Haha. Then there was the day the class behaved weirdly cos of the Fish and co. issue. A class secret, very interesting. Oh and the day we switched uniforms during Physics Lab's toilet break. Wen Jie and i decided to switch but i looked too kuku in her uniform so i switched with Joey, so Joey was wearing Wen Jie's PLMGS uniform while i wore hers, and Wen Jie wore my oversized uniform. The guys changed too, and i have no idea why we switched during the same toilet break session. Now let pictures do the talking.

The original Triton 3.




Triton3/08S401 Outing @ ECP. 250108.






College Road Race @ Pasir Ris Park. 260108.


Aik Ho!


The Triton House Mascot.


Hand Games session. Self-entertainment. Reload, "Bang", Shield.


Pwning Spidey Web.


I love spidey web.


Thank You Photographer.



Sakae Sushi @ Downtown East. 310108.


The day our class changed uniform during the Physics Lab toilet break. i don't remember there was an earlier discussion about changing the uniforms but after people came back from the toilet, the uniforms were different, haha. And the uniform i'm wearing is Joey's one.




The picture took by Chengkang for us, with quite a number of people missing, Plus Triton3's OGLs, before the Os results the next day, i think.

I'm unsure of the things that are happening in my life, and what's gonna happen in the future. I don't believe in many things now, even in myself. But one thing that i'm sure and i believe in is those BFFLs, and those friends close to me, even though i've never told you things like "hey you're close to me" or "hey i regard you as my close friend". At least they're there when problems arises and i know i can trust them even though at times i think it seems hard to speak and to even start talking about the problems and matters. Special thanks to those BFFLs. Debby and Winky, thank you for what you guys did to make me happy, it was really kind of touching even though i somehow knew what you guys were up to at the playground. Debby i think as time passes you're becoming more and more mushy HAHA. I should hug you more often, and Jolene and Faus Tan. Spread the love.


The reason why i still play Maple Story at this age is because of reasons that i don't really know how to explain. From one point of view, it may seem as a very childish act and afterall it's a 2D game, how much graphics can you expect from it. Yet from my point of view, i express my determination, etc, in it. I mean like throughout these years, those who knew where i started from should know how much it means to me. I made it to my levels myself, started from scratch. The friendships forged through this game still lasts now. I remember in Secondary Two when i was still in 2A, many of us played that game and Jolene had that guild with the name 'rocks'. It was like a portal where all of us interacted, sometimes we even talk more ingame then in school, for those who aren't that close to me. This may be deemed as an antisocial act cos i choose not to interact in the real world but instead in game, but that's how things work in life sometimes, doesn't it? Those whom i haven't talked to in ages in real life, we interacted and talked to each other through the game, and the new friends made. What kind of people can you expect to know through a virtual world? I still believe my instincts, though my judgements are sometimes biased. Once again my resolution of the year wont be done- i won't ever get my freaking Zakum Helm (1).

To sum up this post, it's just one word. Memories. They are memories, or they'll become memories in the end. Selective memory.

I like prime numbers, i like 13, i like 19, i like 29. So random.

Fireworks tomorrow, finally. It's been a month since i last saw fireworks, and that's on the first day of the Lunar New Year. Time flies.

From the creator of the Sandcastle Marriage Proposal, comes the Typewriter Marriage Proposal. I shall do more research on typewriters to make sure my dream is based on facts. And this is much more realistic than my sandcastle thinking which has fireworks in the background, even though i don't mind the fireworks in the Typewriter story too. Plus factors, as usual. I should come up with a checklist next time. I found this somewhere, i wrote it quite long ago.

1. tall (at least taller than me.)
2. charismatic, in a sense that he has the brains that i feel is enough for him, and that looks available.
3. money is a bonus factor.
4. xfactor? Maybe. why have so much, later all the girls swoop to him rofl.
5. talented, maybe just knwning one instrument is enough.
6. the more caring the better, NO, must be caring to ME.
7. know me well. haha.
8. LOVE ME LOADS.
9. cant think of anymore now, brain malfunctioning

Number 8 is familiar. Only one word changed.

I played Mahjong at viwawa.com with the BFFLs just now. Debby needs Mahjong tuition. I really need to get my hands on poker cards! Bridge. I still remember the very pathetic Bridge Competition in AHS once (i'm not trying to say council is lousy, esp directed to Faus and YS. haha). Where's our $10 macdonald voucher as promised? It became a 2A competition in the end, only the gamblers from 2A joined. Lmao. One of the interesting thing in my AH life. Somehow, i miss AH.

I should really get some sleep. I've been getting real little sleep and my eyes are tired from everything. Guess why i wore my spectacles for the past 2 days. Oh and i saved my computer by myself last night. It's working fine now, i hope it doesn't cock up again.

I love the BFFLs and you and you and you and you and you. Please do assume that you, the one who reads, are the "you" mentioned, so you'll love me back in return.

Thursday, March 06, 2008

I desperately need help for my computer. Save me.

While i was running today, i was thinking if i were to die one day before everyone else does, the people close to me and helping to handle my funeral, maybe you ppl can organise a marathon before the funeral since i like running. Haha.

Pretend i didn't say that.


And Happy Birthday Jade, although you won't read this. Nice neighbour you are and guess what i've known you for 10 years already. Wow. (JOLENE U HAVE A COMPETITOR HAHAHAHA. but i still love you more!)

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

One day if you need me to do some serious thinking, scold me when i'm running. Maybe i'll be nice and do some thinking if i'm in the mood. I ran (1+8) rounds today, making it a total of 3.6km. Emo, sigh.

my computer's being a bitch. it's gonna die already. everything's so screwed up everywhere.

Medical Checkup today.


Excuses.

but i'll close one eye and pretend nothing happened.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Singapore Poly mailed their stuffs over today, and it's tough getting everything done. So troublesome ): Day 2 at work, yay, money into my pocket again.

Irony.


The End.

Sunday, March 02, 2008

I'm gonna start work tomorrow! I'm going to be my Dad's Assistant and i think i'll probably be the best assistant he ever had haha. Fyi, my Dad doesn't own the company. Say bye to waking up late ):

Saturday, March 01, 2008

On my way back from my piano lesson, i saw a pigeon which was run over by a car and died. I heard the sound when it got run over, probably it's bones broke or something. Instant death. I could see it's bones at the neck area.. Now can you imagine if the pigeon was replaced by a human? I hope the person who would suffer like that would be that bastard who hacked my maple account. F***.

My mum asked me to define 'nice'. Now i see the similarity between Mother and Daughter. Haha, guess what she asked me to ask Dominic to do? No prizes for the correct guess.


Happy Birthday WINKY and ALVIN QUEK!