Thursday, January 21, 2010
I've been feeling so stressed up lately! Like by rwps and all. FYI, rwps = report writing and presentation skills and it's a pretty sucky module and the school insists that we business students that we have a 3hour tutorial and that they emphasize a lot on presentation skills that we'll use in the workplace later on in life. I know we'll be facing presentations when we work and all, but i just don't like the feeling of having to do up a report all by myself! i know i like to make things go my way but okay, it's not that fun afterall having to do a report all by myself. SO NOT FUN.Had ITP talk today and i realised that the guy who gave us the talk had a really funny accent (ya the hongkong one) and it made me laugh. I know i shouldn't be poking at the accent but thats something that made my day. I need to listen to more of such accents to be happy! And i want that guy to say "very important person"! must learn how to imitate him hehehehe.
Had lunch with J and here i go, bear with me- i spent money on 2 bus trips plus lunch at Crystal Jade! That is so much. I wouldn't spend so much on a normal day! How can i spend so much?! But Crystal Jade is definitely worth the money cos i love the zha jiang mian that i ate today! And i suck at handling xiao long baos!!!! Crap. Before i even eat the xiao long bao will be destroyed by me!
Had dinner with J and F after that too over at S-11 food court nearby. Gosh! there goes my money again. i should be eating at home so mum would be paying for dinner!
My eyes are so tired now, they've been like that for the past few days (actually i think it's like that for the past few weeks). Ever since school started, i feel like i totally need a good rest. Each week the stress level goes up and down and up again. Sometimes i wonder how people go through the 3 years of polytechnic education. Or maybe i'm just making myself feel all stressed up and everyone is still happily living and working part-time.
I wonder who can i turn to when i really am feeling upset and stressed up.. or i'll just live in denial.
Too many questions about life.
But really, i can't wait for 2011 to come. I'll move on to my next phase of life then.
I think i'll just flunk my test tomorrow...... yet to do anything to make myself believe i'll pass.
If i neglect you too much, i'm sorry. This applies to all of you.
I'm in a mess now again, this sucks.
ying qian ♥ 12:13 AM.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
I think i really haven't been getting enough rest, especially in this term, i think i'd be a walking zombie by the time it ends or something. I feel super tired each day after school and each time i take a nap, i exceed the time that i'm suppose to wake up like by an hour!!! This is really bad considering that i want to sleep early still at night but i have tonnes of work undone.3 tests in these 2 weeks + rwps (which i probably will die doing it) + cny/vday study week + cny vising + semester exams + attachment + start of year 3 semester1 + duty.
i can only see this in my brain now. I NEED SLEEP
ying qian ♥ 11:16 AM.
Friday, January 08, 2010
School started and i feel guilty for being stuck to the chair in the study room for the past 2 hours or so? It's bad, like i should be doing my tutorials because i wouldn't have enough time to do them over the weekends plus i think i should do some housework over the weekends so that i wouldn't be called Lazy. If mum is serious about not helping me mop/sweep my room, i'd be living in a rubbish dump! So to please her, i need to pyscho her and make sure i appear to be a good daughter that does the housework instead of leaving everything to her. To appear like a good daughter i have to learn a lot of stuffs, i realised.Examples of what to learn:
1) how to iron clothes without spoiling them
2) sweep and mop my room (beginner), sweep and mop the whole house(advance level)
3) make it a habit to keep my shoes/slippers/wtv instead of leaving them around (my slippers miraculously disappear by night and i wonder who does that!!)
4) not to lie
5) show them what i've been doing in piano lessons... (hard to achieve)
6) reply her SMSes, >5words at least.
7) talk to her without being defensive and to report every single action i do when i'm out
I've been on bad terms with the mother these few days about why i should report all my activities to her. I know i should, like what time am i coming back and what time i'm gonna leave home, but.. i think i've been doing this for too many years and i'm getting sick of it ): it's my responsibility as a daughter to let my mum know but sometimes i feel that she's restricting me. As compared to last time, i know she's treating me more like an adult so maybe in exchange for the freedom she sort of gives me, i should treat her better and not flare up for nothing when she asks about such details. ):
Google Chrome is lagging for me now! Crap.
I used the com to kinda tidy up my External harddisk but i've done NOTHING relating to that. I can sure digress.
Not sure why my eyes have been hurting lately. Guess they're probably tired but i've been taking naps!! Why is this so?
OK I NEED TO STOP BLOGGING AND START CLEARING SPACE ON MY HARDDISK.
p/s: wow this is my first post of 2010!
ying qian ♥ 3:44 PM.
