The New(s)

Finally opened my blog to public and I don't really have a reason. Just feel like blogging again. and maybe might go MIA again. Hahah.

I think it is fine if no one ever read or stalk my nonsense anymore. :)

My previous posts were all so emotional. I could feel the anger in me all over again. But nah... Not that bad anymore. And yes, I was obviously complaining about my previous job.

Now I'm no longer Angry Apple. 

The New Job
I think I am really doing well this time. Honestly. I found a new job that pays me way better than before. I'm very happy and thankful with my salary now. And I see myself going far with this current job. I meet more people. I get the taste of dealing with big clients. Oh yes, no more those small business clients that tortured me back then. I even have a chance to work closely with my big boss! :) My GM is also awesome. Colleagues are okay too.

Just gonna share some details on my current job. Basically, I get to do graphic design, 2D & 3D visuals, company website. I'm dealing with retail, POSM and also a little bit of interior. I actually enjoy going out to meet the clients and also do site measurements. :D Sometime good for an antisocial designer like me. I think I might learn how to use AutoCAD soon. If I'm lucky enough, maybe a short course? Hehehe.

I think I'm really blessed. I got some side income from designing a monthly magazine. They used to be my former company's client. Now they come to me for the design service. Happy to know that they preferred my style. So my daily schedule is tight. Night time is meant for freelance job. Ain't easy to juggle between freelance and full time job, but I will give my best no matter how tiring it is. All for this family and myself :)

The New House
No more Brickfields. Now I'm orang Selangor! Hehehe. Planning to buy this house. Now we are just renting. My parents seems happy with the new environment. My mum turned into a gardener. LOL. She is proud of her plants (Chili/Lime/Roses/and some vegetables).

The New Family Members
Hahahaha. I am referring to my 6 kittens! Their mummy, Anna died about 6 months ago. Sad but gotta move on. 3 Females : Molly, Beckhy, Myley. 3 Males: Tiger, Teddy, Garfield.

The New Me
This is a crucial point in my life. I never felt so peaceful before. This is not something that I will share publicly, but do allow me to blog this out. I found the right path for me. I believe in Him. Never thought that I would be able to feel this way inside. Hard to express it. I went to class on a Saturday night to learn more. Just two classes and I shed tears and realise the truth. It was like a miracle. Many things changed after I started to believe. I seriously can't wait to convert. I'm a happier person because of this path I found. I do hope Papa will be able to accept. Mama and Yen supports me. :) I do pray too. I learned and I just feel like I want to do it. Iqra class is fun. I can catch up better now. I have been attending this religious class since September 2013 and met some Chinese sisters who feel the same like me. Just to clarify, I'm willing to accept Islam because I do believe, and not converting just for marriage purpose. I'm thankful that I did not force myself. It came by itself.

The Same Man
We are both ready to step up to the next level. :) But no official announcement yet as we are still planning. Papa is slowly accepting this. I'm so happy. I hope everything will go smooth as planned. This CNY would finally be first time for Joe to meet Papa. I'm nervous inside. I hope Joe has all the strength to face this moment. I also hope Papa's heart is softened.

Second half of 2013 was really important in my life. I will never forget. So many things changed for good.

2014 already?

And I totally forgot about this blog. haha! :P

You wait. I will find the time.

Not easy.

but wait! I will be backkkkkk! :)

The plan : Episode 4

Tomorrow is another week. According to my countdown, that would be another 18 days to endure. I can see the big difference after they accepted my letter. All the sudden moves; some are beneficial for this company, and some are just an act to make themselves feel better (or maybe to lie to the employees about the stability of this company) .

Some of the things I see or hear either makes me laugh inside or annoys me. Of course, if the company is growing like what they have claimed since year 2012, it would be GREAT! I feel good to know that my departure will really change things for good this time, if that is really true. but I don't think they need to over do the drama. It made them looked so silly and yet they don't realise. LOL. These incidents made me feel even better about my decision to leave.

Honestly, thank God I am leaving this place. I cannot stand the empty promises and the hypocrisy. The politics are all created by them and they don't even see it! How sad is that. If they love to make storm in a teacup all the time, sure go ahead and continue that. Hope that helps in your business or company's growth.

I'm not here to make fun of them. but the thing is, they are making themselves as the laughing stock.

I'm patiently waiting for the day to come. If they really talk too much behind my back, I will do the confrontation, together with other colleagues involved. Then, they do not need to lie like shit.

What kind of boss is this? Telling another person that he is just doing me a favour by not deducting my EPF so that I can cover my bills? Oh God, save this poor man. He must be out of his mind. No employees would be so stupid and ask for that kind of favour! Another thing, if it is really a favour, the real favour he should have done is increase my salary. Fool.

What kind of manager is this? Supposed to be able to manage the employees well and avoid all possible politics. Supposed to be professional and not mix personal matter with work matter. Sad to know that she doesn't realise that she created the politics in the office. Even sadder to know that she over-exaggerates the real story. Pathetic. Too proud of herself. Can't even take criticism regarding her poor behaviour as a manager and also bad management.

I don't expect things to get better. I foresee things will get worse. And I tell myself to be ready for the confrontation if things get worse. Nobody likes the truth to be twisted. I have requested for my EPF since the beginning! Don't go and tell people that I'm only asking it now. Dumbass, you could have gone to jail for that! It is a CRIME to abandon an employee's welfare.

The plan: Episode 3

Today is the the third day of my last month at this workplace. I kept doing countdown to cheer myself up. It matters. I feel like I'm at the turning point of my career path.

I expected to hear all the twisted stories and sabotage behind my back. I knew that this one month of wait won't be that easy. There is nothing that I can do anyway. Just got to suck it up!

I realised too, that there are people who are too selfish until they do not see the consequences of their action.  There are people who love to make a storm in a teacup and this makes everyone feel uncomfortable. People who choose to twist the real story though they know clearly what they have done wrong.

I ask myself a lot on this matter. Why? Why do people have to make things ugly? I don't see anything wrong about resigning from my job that I held on to for nearly 3 years. Not that I'm running away! Things have changed and became uglier after the coincidence ( my colleague resigned on Monday and I did the same on Tuesday). This is not part of my planning at all. I never expect to leave earlier. Never thought I could be so lucky to get a better offer. After seeing how things are managed here, I lost hope in the management. I'm very disappointed with so many things.

It's alright. I know I can't shut people's mouth and I can only sit and listen. Can't wait to leave this scary place. Too much of politics for a small company. and everyone seems to agree on who is the culprit.

I am not happy working here. Not anymore.

I am looking forward to a better environment, better management, better bosses/managers.

This article is one perfect piece, because it is so TRUE!
http://www.rightattitudes.com/2008/01/02/manager-badmouths-employee/

I know the only sad part is I won't be seeing my colleagues again. :(

The plan : Episode 2

I did it. I handed in my resignation letter. Feels so much better right now, as if this heavy feeling inside my heart just disappeared. I'm so grateful that they accepted my letter. No forcing, maybe just some reverse psychology going on during the conversation.

Sorry. I know 1 month notice is too sudden for my case. One designer who multi-tasks and handle every single division of the Creative department for nearly 3 years, welfare not taken care properly, and feels restricted and under-appreciated  I have waited for changes long enough and now it is time to move on. It is too late to get me back. My heart is no longer with this company. :/

Time to find more than one person! I do hope they will find a good team of designers and take care of that department. After 16th May, this should not be under my concern anymore. Time to focus on my new job. and I'm excited about my new job!

As for now, I'm just going to endure whatever unpleasant things that might come to me for a month. I will finish up all that I can within a month. The last thing I could do is, finish up all the pending tasks. I'm going to be an awesome employee for the last month. :)

The plan : Episode 1

I decided to keep my blog private for the time being. Might even open a new blog. Unsure yet. Just being extra cautious.

I've had enough of nearly 3 years of my own stupidity.  Being stupid for believing in the empty promises. All these false hopes really blinded me. How naive am I??

Every single person that knows my situation in the current workplace is either scolding me or suggesting me to leave the job. I regret waiting for changes in this workplace. It never really happened. I'm just an unhappy employee there.

This year, I finally made up my mind. Knowing that my welfares are being neglected, I decided to leave. I need to move on to a better job. First I was doubting myself. But now, I'm ready to leave.

I found a job. Never thought to be so lucky to get an offer right after one interview! I'm so thankful to know that I secured a job while I'm waiting for this one last month to fly away. I have not given my letter yet, but I'm planning to do so next week. Either Monday or Tuesday. I need to be strong enough, especially my mind!

Time to leave. I can't wait to join the new workplace. :)