My aunt from Penang came to KL for her conference at Subang. Last night she came to visit us, together with my far related aunt & cousin.
It was good to see my aunt after so long. I never really get to go to Penang to spend some time with her! I hope one day I could do that.
Thanks to the traffic, we canceled our outing and have dinner at home. Oh well, I enjoyed it. Love the feeling of eating together with a big group of people. So that's when people tend to start asking about your career, your studies... you know what I mean.
I do have some issues with my far related aunt because of how judgmental she is. Her words are very hurtful and most not needed at all. But everytime I see her, I push these away and still respect her.
So she started asking.
MK: So what's your sister studying?
Me : A-Levels.
MK: Oh, Form 6 la?
Me : Same level but not Form 6.
MK: wahh. So hardworking ah she. Work & study.
*Everyone just continue eating, ignoring her...
MK: So, you never do your A-Levels ah?
Me : Huh? I graduated already mah. o.O
MK: Yeahla, you never do A-level la right?
Me: Err..Yeah. I do Diploma right after Form 5.
MK: You are Orang Kaya what! *smile
I paused and stared at her, trying to understand what the rubbish is she trying to say.
Me: Orang Kaya? Me?
MK: Yeahla! You straight away jump to Diploma mah.
Me : Yeahhhh, I did and I paid my own fees..Why Orang Kaya?
MK: Because you never do Form 6 or A-Levels mah! You skip right away! Orang Kaya lor!
I was annoyed already. What kind of statement is that? Where did she get this wrong idea about being rich enough to go for Diploma?
Me: I'm not Orang Kaya! And I skipped to Diploma because I know what I want.
MK: But still, you skipped other parts and do it right away what!
Me: Why should I waste my time at Form 6 or A-Levels??
I nearly cursed at the dinner table. Nearly. Thank God my Aunt helped by butting in.
Aunt: Aiya. She did Diploma right away, no need to go through these because she knows what she wants mah.
Me: Yeahla. Why would I want to study non-related subjects and waste more time & money??
I thought this woman will shut her mouth. I was so wrong. Damn it.
MK: Ok, you graduate ady. But you are not doing what you have learned what.
Me: What? What are you talking about? I AM DOING WHAT I LEARNED!
Aunt: She is la...
Now while I am recalling and posting this, I wonder what's the relevance of this last statement of hers to the Orang Kaya part. Is she drunk or something?
MK: Then, then..Why you work at small company and not going to the established companies?
Me: I'm working here right now because I want experience. Here, I get more exposure to various types of work compared to other big places. I'm here for experience.
Aunt: She is doing well la. She handles the Creative Department okay. She even got freelance works and Jasmine also offered her work!
Me: I also got a job offer from Jenny too!
She finally shut up. Phew. Lost of words, I guess? Now I know what she thinks of me. She really misunderstood me, and think that I'm pampered.
Can I say it here, that I had a tough day yesterday? Several discomforting situations that made me feel miserable. People talk & do shit behind my back & I wish that I didn't know too much. Then, when I whined about it, wrong people felt the pinch, and it makes me feel bad! And to top it off, this relative just have to bring me down, without even knowing what is really going on.
Oh yesterday! :/ But I'm doing fine today.
I was told that I will not have a good time for now. Whatever I do or say, people will attack me for no reason, right away. They only see my flaws, not the good side. It does hurt my feelings, but what else can I do? I don't like the idea of fighting and holding grudge against people. Tiring, and so childish! But sometimes, there are some people out there that just won't understand. And yes, also certain people who judge you right away without looking into the whole incident.
It is not nice. But I've got to think positive in order to move on to the next day. Ignore whatever people say and do what I want to do. I can't afford to drain out my energy on things like this. I can't please everyone & not everyone can please me. I'm very sorry. I'm emotionally tired. I do not wish for further silly incidents. Enough.