Saturday, August 27, 2005
been 2 weeks since i last updated my blog huh... guess nothing good happens these daes... evrione feels suicidal i tink... mabbe tts at least how i feel... its so boring... why dun miracles ever happen to me...? onli bad stuffs followed by bad stuffs falls on my head... i hope one dae i would get run over or head got smashed by a dropping vase from 25th floor and make me forget evritin i use to noe... memories... wad are they... hurtful... devastating... they sae being able to live is a blessed life... i tink being able to live is juz to suffer... i'd beta be off dead and let someone more eligible to live... instead of me idling away... wad haf i achieved so far...? i guess wad i achieved was juz making ppl mad, pissed and unhappy...? academically... so wad if i done beta...? so wad if i fail? even if i get full marks, i wun be able to get a single praise... from my family... probably de answers i will get is "100? izzit 100/200?"... never once there were "well done" "great job" or even simple words lyk "good"... all negatives replies... so academically i wun wanna care... pass or fail... who cares now... even my family does not care... wad makes others care even more? im juz wasting resources evri second ever since i was born... electricty, water, space, time and many more tings im wasting... i waste other people's time as well... why do my parents even bother to had me when they so dun care? god noes god noes... i guess god is senseless... they dunno anitin that is happening... or even if they knew... wad could they do? if they change one person, they might as well change evrione else... life is full of misery...
-slp.. begone... never awake... blinded...-
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
8/27/2005 10:17:00 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
HAPPY BIRFDAE SINGAPORE!!!!!
lol... todae is de 9th august... its national dae!!! haha... sadly i din go to ani of de places to celebrate national dae... no idea why i din go oso... LoL... so i stayed at home to watch de live telecast... and oops i watched till i fell asleep... juz woke up onli den faster post b4 i fell asleep again... ahahaha!!!
well actually i tot nothing special will happen... never did i realise i had an unwanted guest early in de morning... lol~! tis morning... woke up at 8 lidat... mom wans me to go to de wet market wif her to buy tings... wif my bro and my sis... yea den i took a real long time to get rdy... haha... den finally stepped outta de door.. heard my mom kinda scream or wad... den i realise she saw somthing dark on de edge of the pot... at firz look i tot is those dried up fruit skin or wad... den my mom was lyk "ITS MOVING!! AHH!!" den i go look... OMG ITS A MINI BAT AHAHAHA.... so small lorh... a tink its a fruit bat bahx... haha... den took a real long time to finally "captured" our guest... den went to de market... lolx... ok larh den nth special happen le... onli de morning unwanted guest... xiao bat bat!!! LOL~!! now den i realise how stinky a bat can be if u get too close to it... eew... but if abit further away shldnt be much of a big prob... ahh till now its sleeping in its cosy lil "home"... wonder wad will happen in de future... probably i will wanna rear it... but i not veri sure though... hehex...
@@@welcoming xiao bat bat into my house on national dae 2005@@@
ok larh xiao bat bat sounds retard... LOL... i guess im juz too bored and mad... am i alwaiz lidat? nv serious at all... haiix tts me... alwaiz and foreva it shall be...
ok now i shall sae abt ytd's celebration in skool... kinda suk... dun haf de feelin lyk b4... tink i sat arnd too much or smth... i dun feel de rush in me... dun feel high at all.. juz sat dere... sing songs wif emptiness... den stare at de sky... tok abit rubbish... and evritin ended juz lidat... quite sad huh... i totally lost it... den aft de celebration... tot tings will go beta... never did i expect it to rain and wet de grounds... den i had to play basketball wif wet floor... imagine how hard it is to even dribble... much less play... got myself all soaked up... but not as soaked as others... cos i din even run alot... pathetic celebration ytd... evritin juz kinda screwed or wad... nothing's dere... lyk all lost... kinda missed de celebrations i had last year and sec 1... de liveliness... the joy... de fun... de evritin tt made me high and played around wif evrione... i tink i can never find tt kinda feelings... haiix... shld haf enjoyed myself beta de 2 years... now kinda regretted i nv treasure it properly... or mabbe tis tings cannot be treasured at all... gone means gone... never back again.... well sum up... ytd sukked big time... evritin went wrong... or mabbe evritin alreadi went wrong since a long time ago... tts tt i guess...
-xiao bat bat visits!!! and lousy 8/8/05 celebration... crap...-
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
8/09/2005 07:49:00 PM