Thursday, October 30, 2008

24 Things to do before I’m 25

01. Juice everyday. (Juicers are a pain to clean!)
02. Finish putting together my “office”
03. Go to dance class.
04. Spend time with a friend I haven’t seen in awhile.
05. Take out $50 cash and live off of it for one week.
06. Do not buy any magazines =)
07. Actually finish a book (or two).
08. Exercise Regularly
09. Watch the Phantom of the Opera and return it to Blockbuster
10. Begin a savings fund for my July 2009 California trip
11. Spend time with my parents
12. Start planning my friend’s baby shower
13. Sign up for benefits at work
14. Do not use my credit card!
15. Create a budget
16. Start a raw food diet
17. Listen to an album that I haven’t listened to in a while.
18. Get a pedicure
19. Bake pumpkin chocolate chip cookies
20. Watch the documentary “Helvetica” and return the dvd to my friend
21. Pray more
22. Blog More
23. Research homemade Christmas presents for friends
24. Clean my car – inside and out!

Monday, September 29, 2008

A new Season....

This is a new season..
I'm excited to see how God will move...


I just read an incredible book called, The Shack. It brings a whole new level of God's love for us and the relationship between the Trinity. Totally eye opening.

Wow.

Friday, August 1, 2008

Britney

Bebo Norman wrote a song called, "Britney"
We can all guess who it's for.

The first single from the project is "Britney". Said the singer, "'Britney' is a song about what our culture says and does to young women these days. It's about the lies we tell them about fame and money and what's beautiful and what will give them life. It's an apology for those lies. But more than that, it's an invitation to the truth about a God who is bigger than the pain this world so often leaves them in."

Britney I'm sorry for the lies we told
We took you into our arms and then left you cold
Britney I'm sorry for this cruel cruel world
We sell the beauty but destroy the girl
Britney I'm sorry for your broken heart
We stood aside and watched you fall apart
I'm sorry we told you fame would fill you up
And money moves the man so drink the cup

I know love goes around the world we know
and you never see it coming back
you never see it coming back
I know love goes around the world we know
and you never see it coming back
but I can see it coming back for you
yes coming back for you

Britney I'm sorry for the stones we throw
We tear you down just so we can watch the show
Britney I'm sorry for the words we say
We point the finger as you fall from grace

I know love goes around the world we know
And you never see it coming back
You never see it coming back
And I know love goes around the world we know
And you never see it coming back
But I can see it coming back for you

yeah, its coming back for you, yeah, its coming back for you, yeah, its coming back for you, yeah

Britney I do believe that love has come
here for the broken
here for the ones like us

I know love goes around the world we know
and you never see it coming back
you never see it coming back
and I know love goes around the world we know
and you never see it coming back
but I can see it coming back

Saturday, July 26, 2008

A new fav.



Thanks Abby, for showing me this. =)

This is my prayer in the Desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

Verse 2:
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

Chorus:
I will bring praise, i will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, i will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir in Christ
So firm on his promise I'll stand


All of my life, In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing, i have a reason to worship(x4)

Chorus

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Cinderella

This comment was left on the Chapman family blog. I thought it was really meaningful and decided to post it here.




The stroke of midnight came too soon.

The grand ball came to an expected and unexplainable close for your
Cinderella. And like the story-book Cinderella, the magic came to an end,
but in a different way.

Your Cinderella exchanged her beautiful gown, not for common clothes, but
for a spotless, white robe.

Her glass slippers for a street paved with gold.

Her tuxedoed attendants for a host of saints and a chorus of angels.

Her distant prince for the ever-present Prince of Peace.

Her bejeweled chariot for a heavenly mansion prepared since the foundation
of the world.

And she exchanged her gleaming white horses for the reality that she never
needs to rush off again - she is now home.

Really, the grand ball came to a close for those left behind. But for
Cinderella it is just beginning

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Tragedy...

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Steven Curtis Chapman’s youngest child died Wednesday evening after being struck by a car driven by her teenage brother in the driveway of the family’s Williamson County home.

Maria, one of the Christian singer’s six children, was taken by LifeFlight to Vanderbilt Hospital, which confirmed the death, according to Laura McPherson, a spokeswoman for the Tennessee Highway Patrol.

The 5-year-old was hit by an SUV driven by her teenage brother, she said. Police did not give the driver’s name.

The teen was driving a Toyota Land Cruiser down the driveway of the rural home at about 5:30 p.m. and several children were playing in the area, McPherson said. He did not see Maria in the driveway before the vehicle struck her, she said.

“It appears to be a terrible accident,’’ McPherson said.

No charges are expected, she said. The accident was witnessed by two other children; the entire family was home at the time, McPherson said.

Singer/songwriter Chapman, who recently was inducted into Music City Walk of Fame, is one of contemporary Christian music’s most recognizable and most awarded names.

He and his wife Mary Beth have long been supporters of international adoption, having brought three girls from China into their family. Maria was the youngest.
The couple is so active in the cause that they formed an organization, Shaohannah’s Hope, to aid families wanting to adopt.

With his latest music tour, which came through Nashville in November, Chapman started a campaign called “Change for Orphans”. He asked audience members at each stop to bring spare change to the concert, where it was counted and given to a local family to aid in their adoption process.

“I don’t know of anybody who loves his children more than he does and is so committed to the adoption concept, and to lose one, no matter what the circumstances, is heartbreaking beyond all comprehension,” said John Styll, president of the Nashville-based Gospel Music Association.

“He talks about his kids all the time. That’s his life. His kids are more important to him than music, that’s for sure.”

The tragedy was announced during Wednesday-night services at Harpeth Hills Church of Christ, which the family attends. Maria had just graduated from the church preschool.

And word spread throughout the tight-knit Christian music community on Wednesday evening.

Styll got the news not long after Maria’s death.

“I’m confident I can speak for everyone in the community to say we will do everything we can to support this family, as we would do at any time, but especially at a time like this,” he said.

Most of the Chapman family was at Vanderbilt children’s hospital after the accident and could not be contacted. The long, gravel driveway leading to the home west of Franklin was blocked off by Williamson County sheriff’s deputies.



Source: http://www.tennessean.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20080521/TUNEIN/80521174/1005/ENTERTAINMENT

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Monday, April 14, 2008

Every Relationship is a Lesson - India.Arie

Besides the Bible, this quote from India.Arie is something that I am always applying to my life.

This past year has been a tough season for me with close friendships. In the times of pain and even times of loneliness, I asked God, what lesson am I learning? The biggest one was that loneliness is something that is always going to be felt no matter how close someone can be to you. I can come home from a night of great fellowship with awesome people and still feel lonely. And something tells me that loneliness doesn't go away even when married. No human person can ever fill that void like God can. Sometimes we are to quick and run in all these different directions to fill that void, whether it's to people or other things - but if we just, "be still and know that HE is God," how much more would the Father lavish His Love over us and fill that void we were trying to fill on our own?

Well - that wasn't even the point of this entry - but I guess I needed a revelation about being still in Him.

What I wanted to talk about was having faith in friends.
It's easy for me to have hope for people who don't know the Lord but not so easy when it is a friend who you thought you were on the same page with [Christianese term would be a "backslider (ew! I don't think I like that term)].

I was hurt by a friend who I felt I didn't even know anymore and instead of fighting for her, petitioning for her, and believing that God could restore her, I kind of had this, "oh well" attitude. I think that there are consequences to making bad choices but I failed to love her where she was at at times because I was busy wallowing in my pain and sorrow of someone I felt I lost. It's been a long process and God has taught me so much through this friendship.

People make mistakes. People...no - BROTHERS and SISTERS stumble and fall sometimes - WE all stumble and fall sometimes and I know that I have lacked the grace in loving those people where they're at. Of course there is a balance of speaking truth and rebuke but I believe that if the Holy Spirit is in them - they already have heard the truth because God's truth is loud when we get entangled with sin or whatever that is it keeping us from the Lord. And my job is to love them where they are at. Unfortunately, sometimes, sooner or later that voice is so suppressed they don't hear God's truth anymore - and maybe that's where we, as brothers and sisters are to step in and guide.

BUT you can only help as long as they want and ask for it. I knew the choices that my friend was making led her to close her heart - and I no longer had a place to speak into it. Instead of fighting on her behalf, I would just kind of say, "Well, she's just not making the right choices right now," when others would ask how she was. Instead, I should have said, "You should call her and ask her, I know she would really appreciate it if she heard from you"

Just as I felt convicted of how I felt and that I it was time to share with my friend about how she had hurt me and how I in turn had hurt her by not honoring her in front of other people, God was also working on her heart.

HE is greater than I could ever imagine - and it's in moments like this that He reminds me of just that.

We met up and before I could apologize for what I did, she apologized for hurting me and confessed that she had been living selfishly for the past year. She told me that she saw that I grew and matured as a person and felt sad that she missed out on that (Part of the reason I grew was from the tough season of our friendship). She then encouraged me with words she felt God speak to her about in her quiet times. I apologized to her for what I did by not honoring her in front of others. (Waiting on God's timing -another entry to journal about.... coming soon - to a blog near you!)


God is good. And when we lack faith in things - He shows us how to have greater faith.

I was reminded of this song by Stacie O called "Strong Enough." She wrote it when she witnessed a friend go through a tough time in his life and basically did not have any support from the church. It reminded me that no matter how hard we fall, how bad we stumble, that there is a God who loves us unconditionally and a Savior who came who gave His life to wash our sins away and make us whole. Why then, as His people do we sometimes push people away who need Him most by rejecting and judging them or whatever it may be that doesn't show love?


Here are the lyrics....

As I rest against this cold hard wall, oh will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war had just begun


Chorus:
Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again.
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again


Will my weakness for a hour make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there any way to be made whole again
If I be renewed and find forgiveness by the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plans?


Chorus:
Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again


He took my life into His hands
And turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance, is there I'm finally found


That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me,
Oh thank You for my chance to start again

Saturday, March 29, 2008

My love hasn't grown cold...

You shake your head
What is so hard to believe?
When you are in your bed
I sing over you the sweetest things

Because oh, my love does not tire
I'm awake when the moon is full
And I know the times when you feel lost
And you just aren't sure

Lo and behold
My love hasn't grown cold
For you

You could steal away in the middle of the night
And hide in the light of day
While you cloak yourself in the darkest lies

But oh my love, it swims in the deepest oceans of fear
And as soon as you lower your head
I--- I am here

Lo and behold
My love hasn't grown cold
For you

If only you could see
How heaven stills when you speak
I know all your days
And I have wrapped you in mystery

And oh, my love for you
Is as wide as the galaxies
Just hold out your hand and close your eyes
And come be with me

Lo and behold
My love hasn't grown cold
For you
(c) Bethany Dillon.

Human love can be fallible, after all, we aren't perfect. I love this song by Bethany Dillon which she wrote from God's point of view for his children. Wow.

Sunday, March 2, 2008

5 Years!!

nickbaptize

It's been 5 years since I was water baptized. So much has happened since then. I went out to dinner with my baptism buddies. =) This is our second year getting together and celebrating. It's so crazy to see how far everyone has come. Ian and Lauren are now getting married, Dave is doing full time ministry with high school students, Colin is doing his thing with Wells Fargo, Jen is doing her traveling ultra sound adventures [thankfully in the Seattle area!], and I'm just doing the whole paralegal thing. We have such a special bond and we all realized how much we've grown in God since that day we decided to give our lives to Him.

I found this old entry about the day I was baptized. =) It's kind of dorky. One thing that hasn't changed - I am still a cry baby! =P

Hi. My name is Nicholei and I'm a new creation!! On March 2, 2003, I was baptized. I died to my old sins and surrended my life to Christ. Although I had already surrendered my heart, I was so glad that I was able to be water baptized. WOO HOO!!

Anyway, it was done in a swimming pool. It kind of made me want to go swimming again. Kristy had told me that the baptisms would start at 1:30pm so I told my parents to come a little before then. They started a little early and my parents had not yet come. I was a little worried but it was like God nudged me and was like.. "Relax bra-- I got it all under control" Ha. So, I stopped worrying and they finally came. Nik asked if I wanted to say anything before I was baptized and I said, "Galations 2:20" Then being the cry baby I am, I got all emotional and couldn't state the verse and said, "Just do it.." meaning baptize me already!! Hahah. The crowd laughed. :) Anywho-- Nik stated the verse for me. Thank You. And that's when I was baptized in the name of the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit. AWESOME.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Save the Bees!!!!

Many people are worried that the cute furry polar bear will lose its ice habitat due to global warming later in this century. The polar bear does not have a real problem today, but many people worry about their future without ice nevertheless. The same concern is shared about global warming’s undesirable future impact on tigers, penguins, turtles, birds, and many other species later in this century and next.

However, few people seem very concerned about the more immediate crisis of the disappearing honey bee. It may be hard to get the same popular concern for a species that can leave people with an unpleasant sting. Indeed, the honey bee can be somewhat annoying at the cookout or picnic. They are certainly not the cute, furry, white, ice-bound inhabitants that are identified so clearly with a warming climate.

The reality though is that the problems in the hives of the honey bee are far more important to us. The disappearance of the honey bee certainly deserves more immediate attention and concern than the potential problems that the polar bear and other species may experience later in this century.

The pollination of the honey bee is crucial to our agriculture and the world’s food supply. Without the honey bee, prices of vegetables, fruit, meat, eggs and dairy prices will all spiral through the proverbial roof. It would be world food price inflation on steroids. Without the pollination of the honey bee, the world food supply would be greatly compromised. People just could not afford or obtain today's basic food staples. In fact, without the honey bee, the only pollination that would occur would be wind pollination. The result of a world without honey bee pollination would leave us with a diet that consisted of grain and seafood.

Therefore, if we want to continue to regularly eat meat, eggs, fruits, nuts, vegetables; such as, carrots, cucumbers, broccoli, onions, pumpkins, squash, apples, blueberries, avocados, almonds or cherries, et al, we need to give this disappearing honey bee mystery (CCD) some immediate political attention. (See also: The Honey Bee Mystery Called Colony Collapse Disorder on eworldvu.com) .

In 2008, the latest news on the problem of the disappearing honey bee is not very reassuring. It is now estimated that nearly half of Italy's 50 billion bee population died last year. That bee mortality rate will have a drastic effect on the country's 25-million-euro honey industry which could plummet by at least 50% this year, and wreak havoc on fruit crops. Meanwhile, the situation in the U.S., where up to 70% of honey bees have already died, is far worse than in Italy. The worldwide bee epidemic has also hit France, Germany, Britain, Brazil, Australia, and Canada.

Meanwhile, world politicians continue to ignore the severity of the problem. In the United States, the honey bee problem and its ramifications have not even been discussed in any 2008 Presidential election event. All the presidential candidates promise the usual increasing bounty of new government spending oblivious to the fact that the disappearing honey bee crisis, if unresolved, may create huge food price inflation and food scarcity during their second presidential term in office.

In the First National Beekeepers Conference in January 2008 in Sacramento, California, beekeepers complained about the lack of government action as they confront financial catastrophe. In general, United States honey bee inspection remains critically under funded, understaffed, and under appreciated.

While there still is no solution to the problem of colony collapse disorder, ongoing research into the problem is focused on three main theories - pesticides (herbicides, fungicides), mono-nutrition, and viruses. There may be just one cause of CCD or it could be a combination of several problems. The truth is that we are not near a solution to the problem of disappearing bees from their hives since a cause has yet to be clearly identified and time may be running out.

In the United Kingdom, the British Beekeepers Association (BBKA) said that if the crisis continued, honeybees would disappear completely from Britain by 2018, causing "calamitous" economic and environmental problems. Unfortunately, in a recent meeting between Lord Rooker, the British farming minister, and the BBKA , the minister refused to increase spending on disappearing bee research, even though in November, he appeared to admit the severity of the threat, when he said: "If we do not do anything, the chances are that in 10 years time we will not have any honeybees".

Professor Francis Ratniek, a bee expert at Sheffield University, said: "If there was to be a bee collapse the effect on Britain would be huge. In Britain we haven't had our fair share of bee research funds and research into bee disease has decreased just as the threat to colonies is increasing. A complete die-off is a worst case scenario".

So as we proceed through this 2008 Presidential election year, people need to ask this question to the political candidates when they request our vote. What will they be doing from the White House about the disappearing honey bee to insure that we will not be on a diet of grain and fish by the end of their second term in office? If they don’t know how to answer the question, don’t be surprised. They may not even know about the current worldwide environmental crisis of the disappearing honey bee called Colony Collapse Disorder.

The truth is that the 2008 Presidential candidates may be more concerned about the possible effects in the next century of global warming on man and its impact on the habitat of species like the polar bear. After all the candidates political platform for success on election day at the ballot box is to appear to be environmentally proactive to every voter. Indeed, for the politician in 2008 , talking about saving the polar bear from melting ice next century is much preferred to talking about the catastrophic potential effect of the disappearing honey bee of today.

James William Smith has worked in senior management positions for some of the largest financial services firms in the United States for the last twenty five years. He has also provided business consulting support for insurance organizations and start up businesses. Mr. Smith has a Bachelor of Science Degree from Boston College. He enjoys writing articles on political, national, and world events. Visit his website at http://www.eworldvu.com

By James Smith
Published: 2/15/2008

Not Givin' Up

"Run when you can, walk when you have to, crawl if you must; just never give up" --Dean Karnazes