Wow. Has it really been 5+ months since I last blogged?
I remember back in the day when Xanga was the hip thing to do and I blogged all the time. I feel like a record on repeat because I think I've brought this subject up before. Anyway.......
On Sunday I decided to deactivate my facebook page. Being a self proclaimed teenybopper for life comes with some unhealthy habits such as being obsessed with things, gossip, stalking (or as I like to call it, "diligently researching") among time wasted on frivolous things = all of which I did on FB.
I think it's easy to feel like you are connected with people when you read their status updates and look at their photos but you never really are engaging with them. On the opposite spectrum, perhaps we feel like we are connecting with people by sharing these things but it also gives us control of what we share and how we share it. We're inviting people in but only to a certain extent and it gives this facade that we are connected.
I also felt really convicted after one of my co-workers updated her status, name, and relationship which insinuated that her and her hubs broke up or something so I texted another co-worker with one of those, "OMG - did you see XXXXXX's FB status??" In the end it was just an argument with her boo but here I am thinking that they are separating and blah blah blah. But I felt bad for gossiping about it and making it a bigger deal in my head than it really was. Even blogging about it right now just feels lame and makes me realize I need to put my energy into other things like... cleaning my house.
I don't live in one of those homes you see in Hoarders or anything but I want to be someone that's diligent in all aspects of her life and that includes keeping a clean house. And it seems kind of funny to relate deleting my FB to cleaning my house but c'mon - you know as well as I do it's easy to get sucked into the FB hole, you click on one thing, then another, then another and then you glance at the clock and you've spent 30+ minutes on the dang site. So it distracts me (as well as other things such as watching TV - my next deactivation???) and before I know it it's bedtime.
I think FB is a great tool to keep in touch with people, reconnect with people, and can be very entertaining but for me in this season of my life, it serves as a distraction when I want to be focused. I don't have the willpower to stay away so deactivating it for awhile was my best solution.
So in trying to reach my goal of being less distracted and more proactive - FB was the first to go. Next will be limiting TV time, then maybe internet time, then....???
To be continued...
