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we were touched

it was raining. not cat and dogs, but mass enough to gravy the dusty roads and alleys. in that cold weather, we choose to stay inside. warm, but cold with air-conditioning in our comfortable blankets and rooms. everyone refused to move, and apparently after an hour afternoon nap, we began to crawl, lazily.

i first step out from the glass door, where a nice looking gentleman loyally manned it. he greeted me, and asked me where are we heading to in that after-rain weather. i just smiled, and shook my shoulder giving a sign we are unsure where is our destination. its not that i declined to properly start a conversation with him, but in my head, i was busy asking myself; did we really want to dirty our slippers and thigh to start our trip this time?

“om, payung?”

i turned. 2 small little girl was there, smiling and showing the utmost sincere and pity faces, asking me to borrow their umbrella. i smiled back.

“berapa?”

i shouted a bit. they were standing by the hotel small garden in that mist after-rain. upon hearing my voice, they carefully run towards me. they eye’s were full of fear, looking at the bellman, who will kick them off when they step into the car lobby. i shook my head at the bellman and waived at them, saying that it’s ok to come to me. this time, they run to me, eagerly.

“berapa aja om”

the children were small, smaller than my little sister. one is 10, while the other is no bigger than 8. both looks messy, with smudge on their face. the hair was never been properly wash, and they run around in their God slippers. looking at them, it touches my spot, deep in my heart. but i restrain from showing it off.

“ok. kamu tggu aja disini. sebentar lagi. aku mahu masuk”

we turned back at each other, i’m looking for MFY, and they rewind back to the spot under the rain. then when we came out, they handed me the 2 umbrellas. the thousands note changed hands, not that much but it will make them happy, at least. and they promise to wait at the lobby to return the umbrella. then they disappear, in the rain and its people.

we walked pass the hotel gate. the rain doesn’t stop its people from roaming around. most of them are soaked and dirty. none look better than us. drains, dirts and rubbish is not a matter. we are the only one that jumped left and right, avoiding the patches on the road. they, just run through it like its a pure water springs.

from afar, the 2 girls, hiding behind a huge pillar, catch my glimpse. when they noticed me looking at them, they run away, to the hiding. maybe they too, have a pride. i know that they are admiring us all. but they are too shy to ask and dont want us to look down on them. we continue our walk, passing a mall.

“om, kami ikut aja.”

a small voice appears from our  back. the 2 girls were trailing us. from the start, from afar. i didnt know that. i would be happy to walk them around in their umbrella if i knew they wanted to follow us. F, being a phedo-sweet-talker, start a conversation with them. he asked them, and they cheerfully answer. he handed them my last pieces of Halls, some balance from my offshore trip. they received it, and smiling their teeth out. seems like the sweets was a very precious present they ever received, and i can see how happy they are when opening the wraps.

we enter the shopping mall, and that is where they stop. the stairs of that mall is like a sacred place for them, where they can’t simply enter. they just stood there, on the street, fear of stepping into the door. the people inside the door look at them with sharp eyes, smirking at them not to enter.

“om, kami pegang aja payung ini. nunggu disini aja”

we handed over the umbrella, and left them there. i wish they didnt wait and go, as we didnt know when we will be returning.

plus 2 hours, we come out through the same door. the kids was nowhere to be seen. the rain had stopped, and they sky were clearer. but the roads had turned into a swamp full with trashes. we walk fast to return back to our hotel.

the roads were busier than 2 clocks ago. cars and motorcycles were crossing each other. and in the middle of the road leading to a parking lot of that mall, we spotted a small body. dresses in pink, the kid was sleeping deeply. using her slipper as pillow, she slept under the gate bar, right in the middle of the road. the divider was big enough for her to fall over if she turn to the side. we stood there and looked at each other. how on earth that tiny little human can sleep, not even with a mattress. dont imagine about a room, she’s lucky if she has a house.  lots of thoughts played in our head. M was looking at me, and F was busy with his hand gesture. Y? smiling, like he always do

blur and unknowing what should we do, we patch our steps back to the hotel.

we did learned. learned how to appreciate what we have. learn how hard this life could be some other human being. that kids has no different from us. the same god created beings. but why did they are so unfortunate, whilst some can eat ice-creams that can cost a family a month meals. we did feel obligated to give, and share what we have. at least we are still humble and small, feel touched and close to heart when seeing things like this.

F said, this trip, his soft-spot was touched the most. and Y, dont regret travelling with us! the second part will be soon narrated!

amsterdam..hishh

im in amsterdam, to be precised in uncle rezki’s house. its chillingly cold here. minus 5 degree. i tought london is cold with its 7-8 c, but paris is even colder with 1-2 c, and now amsterdam, its minus figure. sejuk gile babi. but amsterdam was awesome and fun. we ( me and ed) went to amazing places last night, and have some good food too. btw, its kind of frustrating when we cant take the canal tour because the water trun into ice, and the boat cannot run. we will try again tomorrow. and i cant wait for  new year celebration in amsterdam too!!!!

holiday, as in real holiday

mood: happy but gloomy

environment: cold and humid, after rain with sounds from mama’s sewing machine

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since the last day i left utp, i had not been really in the mood of doing things and still unable to settle down and accept the fact that i am no longer a student. no pocket money each month, no friends to chill with, no movies and series, and no classes and assignments. my life seems so dull and empty. i am living comfortably at home with good foods and various tv channels, but i still want the messy and hectic life i had in utp.duh, seriously i miss everything about college, and changing abruptly into this unemployed and penniless life sometime freak me.

i am sure since the day i reached home, i am soo damn busy with a lot of errands to run. the very next day after i arrived at home, our whole family went to family trip/vacation cum annual holiday in penang and langkawi. everything was planned by my dad, and i just follow them. i was happy and glad to spend time with my adik-adik and cousins (oh yes 3 cars filled with children). imagine that the whole 4 days of the trip, i am the official baby sitter to 7 children. my parents, uncle and aunt leave everything on me and my second brother to take care of the child. they were pampering themselves during the whole trip. honestly, i am kinda frustrated when i need to take care of them because i do not even have the time for myself, but later i felt so happy when they respect and love me more (ya lah, i am rarely did my responsibilities as abang to them pun). and the raya aidildha, we celebrated it in the hotel room in langkawi. basically no raya pun. its just a normal day. never mind la, still got next year raya haji kan 😀

returning from the vacation, i am soo busy with the this europe trip thingy. confirmation of tickets, travel plans, hotel bookings etc. i dont really expect that i am going to be very busy preparing for the trip. changing money, purchasing travelers cheque, phone roaming etc. luckily, i had everything ready now.

passport..check. clothes..check. money..check. tickets..check. evrything is ok la. cant wait for tomorrow. i am leaving home by afternoon and will board on the plane to kuwait at 315am this tuesday. 22hrs after that, and nothing happen, insyaAllah i’ll be in london.

dear all, i promise i’ll upload some pictures if i have time ok. till then, keep on updating on this blog for my whereabouts.

ohh english aku semakin miskin dirumah

longest and hardest

3pm-230am, one of the longest sleep i ever had. haha. its not totally 11 and half hours, i paused in between to pray and checking my chatbox, and continue again. whatever you might say, i am having my own good time since last few months, enjoying my days, and trying to erase the worry about my fyp for some while.

(15hrs earlier)

i knocked on my room door this morning around 1030 am, after 4 hrs driving from kuala lumpur alone. i took the old road from slim river, and follow the road to bidor-tapah-kampar-malim nawar-tanjung tualang before arrive at utp’s majestic gate. intentionally, i tried to discover new route in perak so i took the old road. i stopped at bidor to purchase some guava, and explore the beautiful of tin-mine lake that carpeted all the way from malim nawar to tanjung tualang. at one time, i do felt like i am in the middle of mountain range, surrounded by seas, and some white sand desert. it was a good experience, since i am a good country explorer.

(24 hrs earlier)

in the last post, i mentioned about one of my friend borrowed my car. he was a long time friend, and i treat him with trust, honest and sincere friendship. but to my bad, i discovered that he is not one of the kind i can trust anymore. i am soo sad and feel terrible to write this, but i have to. i have no one that i can talk about him, and this wordpress is the only one i can express myself.

he borrowed my car since 10pm and promise to return back at 12am. at 1215am, i began to worry, i text him, he replied, “aku balik kol 1”. ok then, so i waited till 1, and he doesn’t shows up, till 145 am. pity me. my trust had been demolished again. and this morning, when i stepped into my car, i found that rm20 that i left for toll had gone. so i ask him, he proudly say “aku pinjam duit ko”. wth is pinjam, without asking. my heart shakes so much, i was in flame. i saved the money for my toll to utp, and he took it, plus no regret nor sorry. saba apam saba..

that was not the only case. last few months, or years, once he was begging me to borrow some money, with his pityfull sound and sms, so i lend him rm100. and he promised to pay back in one month. up to now, nothing i got, even i need to remind him again. urghhh. but still, i can’t see his dark side, because of the long time friendship shadow he had onto me. when he promised, he will cancel last minutes, and he made it few hundreds time, and i am stupidly bersabar. not to count every time i hangout with him, i will pour the petrol, plus treat him with meals.

biarla, let it be. after this, i promised i will not do any pityful action towards him. i will not cut down the friendship, or throwing bad words to him, but i will keep it low. he is not a good friend who can treasure my sincererity. not to forgot, he also have something good he had done for me, such as hanging out with me when i’m in kl, and let me overnight in his house couple of time. but thats the fact, bad things always overshadow good deeds. for me, its hurt like hell, like strucking 2inch thick dildo into my a*s. warrghhh. i hate the feeling, and i even hate the facts more.

(now)

i know that i cant trust anyone easily. there are few person that i know i can trust, only. the person i can trust the most is myself. then my parents, my siblings, my grandparents, my buah hati (hihi), and my immediate friends (i hope they know who they are). long-good sleep had regained my strength, and i am ready for next 24hrs battle against my fyp.

go go go go go go!!!

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