So Very Long and Painful

The journey ahead of a person, who has lost a loved one.  Daily, reminders pop into view and the heart breaks again.  Tears flow and even anger pushes out of their very beings.
They say the road to healing is: Get sad ...get mad... and get glad.......but that is only part of  the healing.  Many other things play a huge role in the daily acceptance of this loss.  The void is there and there's no going back.  Too many "what if's" will come to mind and too many "if only's" will cause bitter memories to cloud the good, sweet memories.
I remember feeling numb, for what seemed 6 months or more.  I just couldn't pull out of this dull useless feeling.  It took me a good year, to finally start letting things go and make an effort to move on.  I can only guess, that it wasn't just me who felt this way, but many other family members.  
With God's help, all things  are possible and surely we can grasp hold of his mighty hand, when comfort is needed.  At times we just break down and cry out to him for help.  In his wonderful time, the help he knows we need comes.........how great is that?

It Is Finished

My neighbor, passed last night, after only a few hours at home.  That's where she wanted to be and they brought her home.  It's hard to accept and I'm only a neighbor, but when that final time comes, it's very harsh on all who are near.  I will miss waving to her, when I drive by, and pray that her family will find comfort in the fact that she no longer is in pain.  Now, they must find ways to move forward, in life and accomplish goals that she hoped they would.  
So long, neighbor.....RIP

The Watch Begins

It's been awhile since, I've been on here and written anything.  This subject is something that's hard to write about, but it's been part of this blog, through the years..........
Today, I noticed a large truck pull up across the street.  It had medical equipment to deliver. A medical bed was delivered, meaning one thing.  This is a sad day to view, this action meaning, my neighbor is losing her battle with lung cancer.  She has fought it for over 3 years and now I am witnessing her finally stages as it drags the very life out of her fragile body.  I've sent prayers up to God, through those years, hoping for a miracle, but knowing that this type of cancer, doesn't give up.  Now I can only pray for her comfort during these final stages and for the comfort of her family as they endure the loss of their Mom, wife and grandmother.....along with a very large extended family.