I've encountered this question a lot lately for some reason, and I've given it a fair bit of thought. Am I living the life I thought I'd be living? My initial response has been no. I never thought I'd be a stay at home mom. I never thought I'd marry a man as much my opposite as Scott is. I never envisioned that I'd have the personality that I have grown into. I don't know, I didn't see my life this way.
Then, as I was driving to Marching Band on Saturday, I realized: My life is pretty much the way I envisioned it with a few key differences.
How many times in high school and college did I say to myself and others that I wanted to work part time as an assistant band director, teaching marching band, and staying home with my kids part time. That is exactly what I am doing. Yes, it is a bit more part time than I envisioned, I barely get paid, and it only lasts during the fall (I'm not sure what I had in mind), but I am living my dream.
I have an amazingly supportive husband who doesn't complain
too much about the fact that I spent more on gas and babysitting than I made this year. He doesn't complain about having to go to work at 5am so that he can be home by 4pm to watch the kids so I can go to rehearsal. He just supports me, and encourages me, and brings me water and snacks while I feverishly try to write drill. He is not the man I envisioned being married to, but he is the PERFECT man for me. I couldn't have asked for a better man.My kids are awesome. The love so perfectly. They are so pure and sweet and smart and funny and kind and thoughtful and passionate and amazing. I love them more than I ever thought possible.
I have incredible friends. They have been more than willing to watch my kids when I need them to. They make me laugh and they share with me my joys and sorrows.
Although we don't currently own a house, we like where we live. We LOVE our ward, and we are saving our money so that we can build our dream house in the next few years.
Am I living the life I thought I'd be living? No. I'm living a better one.