You're my Super Sunshine :D

Pretty sleepy during lessons, so...

That's mini-me playing the piano!
There is a mini-piano for mini-mini-me too! But mini-mini-me didn't come, so sad!


Oh oh Elmo came and sang me a song during Math tutorial today, while teacher was explaining compuex numbers in the background.

LOL.

Yesterday, 300108
Went for CIP rehearsal with the guys. At first I only wanted to hear them sing, but in the end I joined. (: Kelly was there too!

Actually I'm not quite a people-person(can't really interact with people whom I'm not close to, much less the old folks at the home who need more attention and care), I just hope I don't mess up everything on the actual day itself. :X

Stayed back to do Chem. Couldn't write a G.P essay and it was so depressing. ):

And added on with all the stresses coming in. I needed the help, but in the end...
I've still gotta depend on myself. Haven't it always been the case?

Anyway thanks Hwee & GH.(:

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Today was a loonnngg day-_-. 'S been awake since 0330 doing G.P essay.
Hmm the good thing about our classroom is that it is a stone's throw away (ok not literally but you can try!:P) from Good News Cafe!
I recommend their ICED CHOCOLATE & BAKED POTATO WITH CHICKEN :D.
Highly recommend: ICED CHOCOLATE! Never get sick of it :D. ('Cause I'm kinda getting sick to baked potato hahahha.)

Our college invited some NUS people to come to speak to us today.
Wanted to go to the Business faculty. So remained in the hall to listen to Business/Arts & Social Sciences.

Goodness gracious me, to get into Business Admin I need to get straight 'B's.
Business Admin (Acc), straight 'A's!
I could have fainted, argh! How to get into Uni?! ):

Ranking points, minimum 73 to get into course-of-choice.
There was even one which cuts off at 87.
AHH! I AM BARELY THERE! ):

Been failing all quizzes/tests. Very depressing. Ironically, I can only do Physics. & I really regret, I should have taken H2 Bio/Math/Lit. But don't think the college offers this combination anyway. ):

Clr says must get A for common tests.

AHH! Apparently its impossible... :X

MUST STUDY. I had made up my mind last year after promos, but somehow, the motivation is dwindling...

Gone.

<3

HAHAHA.

I love

HIS VOICE (:

I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart

I am alright today...
Introducing
The new 2s15 past time- Doodle-on-the-board!

We do it during breaks & after school hours.
Join the revolution!

Masterpiece 1
By: Gersh, Clr, me!


Masterpiece 2
By: Wei2, Woody!
Read the quotes! :D

Don't worry, we clean them away after that. Hush!

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Just read Cvn's blog and found out that I had troubled him so much by asking him to help me save a video. Terribly sorry! :X

Yesterday, 250108, I can barely remember
Had lunch at Kovan with DY, Clr, Henry, Gersh, Woody, Julius.
Some bought BBT at Cupwalker, & I thought Gersh's looked like algae-water. Hehe!
Alright it was green apple. :D
I only drink the chocolate ice blended there. Nice!

Back to school for ODAC.
Meeting time was 1430, not everybody was on time.
They should just start at 1530 next time! (:
Rotted at the gallery.
MJ kept calling me a hamster and using a balloon's rubber to hit me. Then put the broken balloon down my back.
Eeee bully meeeee! :/

Haha. Training was weird. Not training for VM already?
Yea some played soccer, some ran around.
But at least this was one of the few times we can relax a bit eh. (:

Celebrated Mabel's birthday. Happy birthday girl! (:
As heard of earlier, they really bought her a Precious Moments musical box. Wow nice! (:

Starved, went to buy BBT with SQ, Hwee & GH. Oreo ice blended was too sweet for me, chocolate ice blended next time! Reached home, instant noodles for dinner, slept till 2300, woke up, replied a few sms-es, went back to sleep.

Its already week 4 of school and I am still kinda lost.
Need to study, mug, mug, mug.

Bored out at home, even though I have no mood to go out, not anymore.


Acoustic? (: I like this picture.
Taken by Clr the pro photographer!
& I like this song too.


Yay! :D happy.

You wanted the best, it wasn't me

Today,240108. emo-ed to death.
Negativity spam, sorry gotta get these out.
I don't know if it was the aftermath of yesterday's training (18 storeys *3 sets)
Or was it merely the stress
Or was it dread
Or was it the lack of sense of belonging?

Jack said he thinks I am gonna get depression, LOL.

I was just... sick of myself.
Disgusted at my studies
the way I look
the critisms, sarcasms, discouragements, stress
the stupid front I have to put up
I am so tired
Disgusted of using lethargy as an excuse, homework as a reason

Argh I can't cheer up
I can't catch up.

What is it about solitude.
What is it about responsibilities.
What is it about passion for something.
What is it about courage?

Losing focus, losing grip.
I don't know what to do.
I feel... so alone.

Thanks DJ for accompanying me trying to cheer me up.

I will be okay tomorrow.
Yep.

Life for me is not the same
but there's no one to turn to

An inconvenient truth

HELLO!

"You look at that river gently flowing by. You notice the leaves rustling with the wind. You hear the birds; you hear the tree frogs. In the distance you hear a cow. You feel the grass. The mud gives a little bit on the river bank. It's quiet; it's peaceful. And all of a sudden, it's a gear shift inside you. And it's like taking a deep breath and going, "Oh yeah, I forgot about this."

Nice documentary(I like documentaries!).

G.P today was alright, kept my eyes glued to the teacher the moment she stepped in.
P.E. was GOOD. Drills. Can't really remember the order. This is P.E! :D

1.Push-up *30
2.Shuttle run *2 sets
3.Dips *30
4.Stomach crunches *30
5.10 storeys!
6.Running to Esso outside college and back
7.Running to the 55 bus stop
8.2 rounds around the track

I like the people(being with my class) actually. Its not on the training part. Explain ODAC?

Light-bulbed on the way home, hahahaha.

Econs test tomorrow, gotta continue on revision, hope I do well tomorrow please please please please please, loves!

& I'm searching for the words inside my head

Benzene ring, C6H6. Aromatic hydrocarbon (stabilised by set of delocalised pi electrons).

Methylbenzene, C6H5CH3.

To differentiate Benzene & Methylbenzene, use oxidation test with KMnO4. Benzene, being less reactive, will not react. Methylbenzene, on the other hand, decolorises purple KMnO4, ..., ... .

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Something imminent?

2nd ODAC O last friday was pathetic with only 7 J1s turning up. Wasn't in a very high mood, so just went around taking pictures.

What's with SmartFTP Client which is giving me trouble instead of helping me batch upload pictures. So now I 'owe' everyone hundreds of pictures.

Argh! How to pass down the website to next batch of J1s? ): & I still have the AGM video... Which I have absolutely no idea what to put.

Yesterday, 190108
Went to college to study with Kel & WF!

I was late for half an hour :X we did work for 1 hour+, went out to buy food which took half an hour, chatted for 2 hours+. So... not productive. :X

But its been great catching up with them, havent really had a nice chat ever since EOY started last year. (:

Left at around 2p.m. to meet Mum & Sis(s) at AMK, then to Bishan, then back to AMK. Sis was crowned as The Greatest Shopper amongst all of us. *Claps. :D

Eyes on a pair of shoes, hinted to Sis but she didn't want to catch it. Aww. ):

*GRINS.

Today, 200108
(n+1)th attempts to upload pictures.
Was looking at Sheena's blog & I miss HK all over again. ):
(1 hour later)
FINALLY UPLOADED! *SCREAMS


Gosh I just missed my radio T_T.
Forget it, back to tutorials uploading second batch of pictures!
Looking forward to school tomorrow!


Oh check this out! (: Taken on last friday. (:

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Time: 2224

The printer & H.D.D. died on me.
My phone seems dead too.

Why is it that with an appointment comes responsibilities?
I am starting to regret on taking this up.
Face all the critisms, sarcasms, I had enough.
& I hate anticipation which turns down to zero.

I'm so tired, so tired.
Sometimes I feel like shrieking all responsibilities and really enjoy myself for a long, long time.
Of a student, of someone whom all of you expect to be...
Just like when I was in HK.

Alright, I will be fine tomorrow.

*Plastic smile. (:

):


& I don't know how to be fine when I'm not

I'm waking up at the start of the end of the world

Today's excuses for coming online to blog again:
1. I gotta upload ODAC photos
2. I gotta research on G.P
3. I gotta blog before I explode

Apparently the lifespan of my brain cells only seem to last for 24 hours. ): So I shall blog about what I can (barely) remember.

The day before, 150108
Due to poor time-tabling :X, our lunch time clashes with the J1s, leaving us with no space in the canteen.


So we decided to eat at the gallery :D.
Check out my yummy char siew rice in the middle of the picture.


Yay!

Yesterday, 160108
How can I ever forget, getting scolded during G.P. ): And what she said was so hurtful can ):. Its ok though. Blame myself for getting distracted. ): Sigh.

Well I think a lot of people were wondering what had happened. Ok here it goes...

The first time, I was looking down at a small piece of paper(which I had found in my pencil case). So I started folding the paper(into a smaller piece so that I can throw it away after class) & goodness-know-what she saw me and was very unhappy with me. Scold, scold, scold. ):

The second time, I was looking at my bag. I was just wiping away some dust on my bag! ): Scold, scold, scold. ):

I don't know if I sound exagerrated here or something, but I was quite bothered by some stuffs and was feeling terrible for the past few days.

I started crying and I couldn't stop myself.

Couldn't concentrate for the rest of the lessons after that. Math integration test, 100%+stamp FAIL.

Lunch, stayed in class. Oh we had a mini Wheel Of Fortune with Woody being the host(I forgot his name) and DY being 'Vanna White'. LOL.


Try to guess!

1st ODAC training with freshies. Got reminded of first 3 months- Gerald, Kelly & I joined ODAC together, & the J2s' trainings were so tough, there was this session where only 4 of us turned up(including Charles). All the fun... I miss those times.

This batch's J1s were relatively more high then what I was last year. Glad to see 2 juniors joining! Hope they will still turn up tomorrow though. I <3 taking pictures! :D



End of orientation, 5 rounds around the track, thanks Aaron for running slow with me, then 5 rounds more after training with RF. I feel fitter! (:

Bus ride home, dozed off with SA Math next to me -_-.
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Today, 170108
New day!
G.P was taken over by another teacher this morning. Phew, I don't know how to face her(my current G.P tutor that is).

I can barely remember again, argh.

Oh during weekly assembly, Clive, an ex-student came to speak to us. Well I've always seen him studying in the SAC last year. Inspiring. I really want to be like him, I MUST get into university! ):

STAR period was G.P 'movie-screening' which turned out to be a documentary on crude oil. Sat in the oven of the LT for 1 hour before everyone starts to fan themselves(the main air conditioner broke down). So we were let off early, luckily! Gosh but I can't imagine likfe without air-con. NoooOOooo! :O

Went BBT shop with Clr and Gersh. Met Adele & Shawn! As usual Adele was made to tell some jokes :P and Shawn was telling us about our photos being shown to the J1s and all and some stuff about Sotong, LOL! Then Clr pang seh sai us and went off(hah JK :P).

In the end, Gersh felt likt drinking BBT again so we turned back to but his.
Chocolate ice blended is NICE! (:

Oh well.
I have a hundred over pictures to upload
& my research is still undone.

I wish, I wish for a better day tomorrow. (:

& Just like Kanye West's Stronger says:
N-n-now-th-that don't kill me
Can only make me stronger (:

Ciaos world!

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Lethargy (Yea thats the word again). ):

Back home finally. Badly didn't want to touch the computer (I steer around it like its forbidden now hah) 'cause I know it will be a huge distraction. But gotta do research so here I am. (:

School was a great bore today(how can school be not when its so stressful?): ).First lesson: Math, which was horrid 'cause I can't do integration(and I need time to figure that out myself). Econs & Math lecture I was thinking about my yummy iced chocolate from the cafe. *Grins. :D

After school, had lunch with the guys. Sat in the hot sun for 5 minutes before all of us couldn't take it and decided to shift to the canteen. Good thing was that our cold food was warmed :D. Oh and saw all the J1s mugging in the SAC. Good sign! Our college standards might increase yay.

Went to the Athenaeum (sp). Did a bit of Math, distracted. I-forgot-who suggested photos. Took a few(guess people were looking but who cares hahaha:P). I like this one!



Comments about this were that it is sng ngie. LOL. I can't spell. Slanted that is. But I think its nice! Agree with Clr that some pics if centrally aligned will look weird.

Before that we took a few more.
Shot 1.

I like the symmetry of this picture, but mine and Julius's face were blocked. ):

Shot 2.

Julius's face is blocked again ):. I like the way the lights and all are in the pic. And how Clr uses a eraser to create this blurry effect on the table. (:

So much for the stares and all.

Julius joined Jack, Henry and DY for Swensens, Cvn went home. Gersh, Clr & I stayed back a while more. Had BBT(oh chocolate banana blended ice is super sweet ><), met Adele & Howard, chatted, saw Mr Ang, watched Gersh & Clr played the piano, tried a bit of piano only to realise I have forgotten all that Kelly taught me):, went back to library, lost all mood to study, chat, chat, chat, off to J8, walk, walk, home.

Wanted to get some gifts but found nothing suitable. Sorry guys for making you both walk so much.):

P.S.Did I mention I take very looonnggg to decide for something? :X So I'm better shopping alone, or I know what I want to buy. :X

Sigh. Gotta do G.P. research, dozing off any minute.

To be updated again real soon, asap, as soon as I finish my homework etc. Till then, see ya world! :D

Maybe the timing is beating our hearts

I'll be blogging once a week, due to super busy schedule, blah blah.

RECAP. *Thinks.

Yesterday, 110108
P.E. was tough, just like everyday's dinner. LOL.
Run, run, run, dips, push-up position while your partner runs, crunches, some watermelon song.
Alright. Lessons as usual.
After school, had lunch with Gersh, Julius, DY, Henry & Jack.
ODAC after that, 1 round around the track, 1 round around the school, 2*3 sets of 10 storeys up & down, 1 more round of the track.
Complaints & sarcasms again. Give me a break, guys. Please.
I am so sorry.
Lethargy (this is gonna be the most common word you'll see here for most of the year).
Joined DY, Julius, Henry, Jack & Jason for Pizza Hut. Yum yum yum! :D
Chit-chatted. They are a nice group to hang out with! (:
Home, fell asleep with alkenes notes next to me.

The day before, 100108
Tutorial day. Downright boring.
Stayed back after school to do homework. Cvn & DJ left after a while. I miss the SAC & library. The benches outside my classroom are not good for studying. ): Noisy, warm, not conducive.

The day before (the day before), 090108
I cant remember anything much.
ODAC. I-forgot-how-many times of sets of 2* 10 storeys up & down.

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EEK. I cant remember anything!
Alright.
Today, 120108
Went to school to study with WF in the finally-opened SAC (3 CHEERS!:D).
Had BBT & chips for lunch.
Met LL.
By the end of 3 hours I was already X_X.
Hahaha.

My life is getting so boring, at this reate nobody would want to read my blog. ):
One more day closer to the big 'A's.
People's been telling me to relax, haha.
I can't, look at my current grades.
Cannot make it. ):

I miss college every weekend.


Maybe we're trying, trying too hard.

Every stolen promise you believed

The Last Goodnight - Pictures Of You lyrics
The Last Goodnight- Pictures Of You
This is the clock up on the wall
This is the story of us all
This is the first sound of a new born child before he starts to crawl

This is the war that's never won
This is the soldier and his gun
This is the mother waiting by the phone praying for her son

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

There is a drug that cures it all
Blocked by the governmental wall
We are the scientists inside the lab just waiting for the call

This earthquake weather has got me shaking
Inside i'm high up and dry

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

Confess to me
Every secret moment
Every stolen promise you've believed

Confess to me
All that lies between us
All that lies between you and me

We are the boxers in the ring
We are the bells that never sing
There is a title we cant win no matter how hard we must swing

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been
What could have been
We could have been

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been
What could have been

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I <3 this song to bits.

Dog-tired.
Again, another day nearer to A levels.

Stayed back after school to study. First with RF & the guys in LT5, then with Gersh, RF & Lilian in the canteen. Couldn't really focus though, with all the talking. Bad point to study with friends. Hah. And I'm a pretty boring person to study with 'cause I don't talk unless its like concerning toilet/food. (:

Went home, started on ODAC stuff. Sis came back, hogged the computer with the excuse of checking emails. Oh well. Apparently nothing much everytime so she'll divert her attention to other websites. Dozed off & she didn't wake me up + she continued using the computer, leaving me now rushing through + super tired with all the aches in the world coming to attack me. AHH!

Walked home with Jacyln & RF. Secondary school classmates but didn't really talk to them. No common interests I guess. But hanging out with them was ok. (:

Dinner was usual, not appetising, so I skipped it. Had a sandwich instead. I miss college food. HAHA.

1 more day less in college, 1 more day fully spent learning.
I must get into university.
First,I shall set my priorities right.
Try.
Try my best.

She's going off track, should I follow?

Had my heart on lock-down

I just realised that Pb(Lead)is a metal!
No wonder I failed Chemistry.

Sigh. No time already, I badly want to start on revision, but with all the piling homeworks it seems pretty impossible, so I am starting to clear them fast so that I can start. (:

I wish that I have a laptop, so that I can do research & blog & go online.
There are so many resources online to aid me in learning.

Study, study, study.
By the end of 8 months, I will turn into a nerd. 8-|

Resolutions

I am dog-tired.
Dozing off for 1 hour every half hour.
There seems to be a sleepy bug in my house which keeps attacking me.
Or maybe my house is O2 deficient so my brain can't keep awake.
So today, I am going to try a new approach.
Just like Riyanti in my class do. Oh and did I say she was our top student in class last year, second in level.
I hope this works.
Or else next week, I will go to college to study. (:

2008 Resolutions
1. To read newspapers at least 5 days of the week
2. To not procrastinate
3. To be more spontaneous in attending church
4. To read up notes the day before
5. To work hard, VERY HARD, GET 'A's for 'A's.

But I can't help it

An update!

Back, back.

Yesterday, 03 January 2008
School was great. Stayed back in the classroom to do homework after class with Cvn, Woody, Clr, Gersh. Then the school staff had to lock up the classroom, so bid goodbye at the school gate.

Clr, Gersh & I went for BBT & PG again. Haha. As usual they played on the see-saw, challenging who to drop off first. Gersh always win? LOL. But once I made him fall on Clr and I felt so bad. Other times they almost fell on me. -_-

Evil of both of them to trick me into eating all the prawn crackers which Clr had bought from the provision shop outside college along with his BBT. Open numbers & they hint each other on what to put. Eeew! Made me eat up almost everything. I promise I won't touch prawn crackers for at least the next few months man.

Anyway took pictures using my camera. (: Lovely but I still don't like my short hair. Regrets...



Clr(looking elsewhere?), Me(with uber short hair-_-), Gersh(Super tanned)

Back to today, 04 January 2008
Oh well. Went to college with a heavy heart. Still bothered by ugly hair.

After school, rotted, rotted rotted in school, chat with Mr Ang, settled shirt stuff.

Woody, Julius, Gersh, Clr & I went down to Vivo to eat. Food Republic, yum yum curry rice (:. Ate, chat, take photo. Initially we took a few shots, but Gersh deleted it 'cause he thought he look ugly in it. Guess what. Then I pressed the buttons wrongly & POOF our last and only pic (without me that is) was G-O-N-E. WHAT A HORROR. Sigh. After I broke this bad news to them, Woody went:"So we posed for nothing...?" I felt terrible...

I AM SO TERRIBLY SORRY.):

MRT back, back to Kovan, back home.

Back to college, ODAC.

I didn't know... I did my best...
So hurting...
I tried so hard.
Inexperienced... Why did I even take this responsibility up in the first place...
'Cause I wanted a change.
Change...
Threw it on the ground,
Stomp,
Step,
Everyone else walks over it,
GONE.

Apologies won't make up for these... I WILL CHANGE.

20(?) rounds around first level of science block & classroom block. Fatigue...

The strength to carry on. (:

Just so You know

Alright boys & girls, its Year 2008!
Due to extreme lethargy the last 2 days, I shall give you an update on what happened now (when I'm supposed to be doing homework hehe).

Today first, 020108 (:
First day of school today! Woke up 1 hour early 'cause I set my phone clock wrongly. Oh well. Wasn't tired, so I reckon that for me, tiredness is just a mentality (just like happiness is just a mindset). So... New year resolution 1: To wake up early every morning!

Dreaded the feeling of school a little due to uber short hair. Met Kel at the track area, walked in together and met WF. Then LL.

Assembly, familiar faces. Some reactions to my new hairstyle. I wished my hair can grow at 1cm/sec for 5secs then stop. Lol.

Boring talks at LT5. Year head, motivational headstart, principal talk, talk, talk. Sat with Clr, Cvn & DJ at the back of the LT. Kept eating sweets to stop my stomach from growling heh. Poor Gersh was sitting alone at the row next to us & I felt so bad for taking his seat (guys sit with guys ya know).

While walking to the canteen Gersh went: "Why you cut your hair?!".
Oh well. I kinda regretted, but what can I do? ):

For a change... accept it! (:

CT period/interaction/whatever time from 1000 to 1230. S19+S18 girls one side, Riyanti, SY & I & S18 guys on one side. Our class may always be like that.

Stayed behind a while after school. Gersh went home, Cvn went to I-don't-know-where, so DY, Woody, Julius & I went to have lunch.

ODAC was a great achievement! 8 rounds up-across-down the Science block + 3 times up-down Science block staircase. Super tired. CW our dear chairman keeps forcing, ok encouraging :P me to run 'cause I was the slowest. Sigh. But he was nice to wait for me.

Anyway today is Soveneir Day. 'Cause after ODAC Mabel & YL gave us all soveneirs which they bought from their OCIP trip. Gersh & Liling gave out soveneirs early in the morning too! Thanks! (:


From LL, Gersh, Mabel, YL (:

Went BBT shop with Nadia, YL, Isaac, WK, Aaron. Bought butter waffle, walked home.

Sometimes I wonder if I talk too much.

Yesterday, 010108
Had lunch with Nicolas who returned me my GP stuffs & tie for like finally. But he treated me to a nice Hokkien Mee so I will forgive him. Haha! Rushed down to K's house to collect my stuffs (left it there the day before, too heavy to carry around). Rushed home, went downstairs, had uber short haircut.

Oh what a boring brand new first day of the year.
No church bells. ):

The Day Before, 311207
Studying @ NYJC with Kel & Gerald. Nice school, but I love my college more :D

Clique pencil holder :D


Gerald attempts to cover his face...


Me, Kel!

Didn't want to go home after that so went out with Kel & her sisters & her cousin to watch I am Legend. Her cousin Yvonne-jie(is it spelt this way?) treated us all to movie, so nice of her! (: Don't ask me about the movie 'cause my eyes were closed half of the time due to the blasting sound effects and scary zombie scenes. AHHHH! Torture. Sat alone somemore due to no more available seats. Didnt know the movie was horror! Lucky there were Nachos and Coke to distract me. (:

Met up with Kel's mummy, waited for fireworks. Oh pics!


Me uh spastic+ Kel!


Awaiting...



First!


Frantic snapsnap.


BOOMMMM~


My heart jumps with every BOOM. So loud!



Vain attempts...


One of the last.

& Welcome 2008, Year of A levels.
& 'Cause we are the best class in the cohort of our combination, 'cause we set our priorities right...
I MUST WORK HARD.