Goodbye

Unexpectedly, today is my last day at the booth. I thought I had 1 more day, but apparently they decided to end it. Perhaps 'business' was too bad eh. No point paying staff to sit down & do nothing all day. (:

Besides the time spent rotting/stoning staring into space, basically I've spent all these 'working' time reading, doing sudoku(kelly bought the book for me:D), listening to my ipod over & over & doodling senseless things on paper.

In fact I've drafted a blog post dedicated for posting on my last day of work but I lost the paper. -_-. Oh well.

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Time to make decisions & stand by personal convictions.

I've so so sososo many things to say but I have to log off at 11pm SHARP because I have a Internet usage curfew-_-. Well well I think I'm getting that affordable Nokia WIFI phone! Internet usage woooooOOOO! But first I have to figure out how to use WIFI. OFF!

Grouchy...

That's the word to describe my exact feeling.

Dreading my job tomorrow...

Dreading my new job(which I haven't found but have to find in order to get my finances going)...

Haven't filled in application for PGSM. I'm really confused. I'm really cash-strapped. I wish I can win the lottery(that is, if I ever buy them in the first place) or some bag of cash just fall down from the sky for me. Hahaha. Okay I'm bored, I'm tired, I'm hungry, I'm GROUCHY ROARRR.

Playing SuperPoke Pets cheered me up a little. My Meowri is so cute. :D

meowmeowmeowww

SIAN WORK TOMORROW. What kind of post am I typing. *Rambles.

Super fun-packed!

Yesterday, 180709

Kelly & WF were really sweet to plan the whole outing for us! It was a super fun-packed day with K-Box, Escape & dinner altogether! Bowling was taken out because the place was too crowded. Nevertheless, I had lots of fun, let some pictures do the talking! :D

We, at K-Box!

This was taken after we played at Escape! Didn't bring our cameras around so didn't take any pictures. To the left, to the left! :D

I was scared to bits by the Haunted House & just grabbed on to WF & screamed my way out of the whole thing. Luckily they didn't have ghostspeople chasing after us. I was standing at the last one & kept screaming & I think the Escape people behind me must be thinking I am mad LOL.

The Viking ship totally freaked me out! ): I didn't remember that it swung so high the last time I was on the ride a few years back. Screamed so hard till I was tearing the first time I went up & WF & Kelly had to calm me down LOL so embarassing! :X Subsequent times I went was better but I was still screaming.(In fact when I went to sleep last night I could still see myself on this ride...Ahhhhh!!!)

Went for the Wet'n'Wild ride with DJ... Hehe I'm really bad because I made him take the back seat(a.k.a. the wetter seat since more water splashes in to the back). Gerald said he could hear my screams from where he was standing & it was super loud. :XXX

Anyway there were other rides that we went on & it was fun! & all of us were hungry so we went to have dinner at BK... Then WF brought in a cake for Gerald & I(Our birthdays are 2 days apart)! It was such a pleasant surprise! (: Thanks WF & Kelly!

So we were supposed to make a 'birthday wish' pose... In the end we look like we were praying.

Haha but it was truly a GREAT DAY yesterday! I simply love my friends... (: I will remember this for a long time. (:

Frozen in indecision

I ❤ OFF DAYS. (:

That basically sums up this whole post.

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Anyway,

I'm still thinking a lot, a lot, alot about my future.

I talk about it everyday to my leaders, my friends, my sister, my mum

But it always spirals down to me being the one making the final decision.

I gave them both sides of the issues- the advantages, disadvantages, my confusions & concerns,

But I seem to be going around in circles & still coming back to square one of indecision.

I'm tired of thinking...

It sounds like I'm making a big deal out of something so insignificant

It seems like I'm heaping all my problems onto the shoulders of others

I get sick of talking, they get sick of listening

& I am tired of typing this too...

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On a brighter(can't find the right word) note, I spent my day reading & singing at home today. (: Not a fruitful day, but at least a happy one. (:

Read a book about body language... Had many many revelations about how people around me behave. & how to see if someone is lying, & WOW I kinda confirmed some of my hypothesis about the people around me HAHAHA I'm going to read everyone like a book now. *grins-

Alright nah I'm still a nice girl & I won't go around doing character analysis on everyone of my friends. :D *bigger grin-

Argh back to work tomorrow & I'm really really glad it is ending soon(28th!!!!). Yet again, reality kicks in & I will have to find another job, which I have no idea what type I'm going into. Again another decision-making process...

On a side note,

Found in ODAC gallery that I'm still editing halfway argh sian slow com:

Did I take this picture? The effect is nice! (:
Alright off!

Finally

A day off from work.

Work's still rather meaningless, but we're more than halfway through. (: Received a general complaint from the greatest toy store yesterday saying that we using their space are giving them a bad image because we sleep or we talk to their staff during our duty. Okay yea I dozed off for around 10 seconds because I was really tired. Maybe the sharp eyes of some manager caught that & decided to type a fiery email to our employer.

Try rotsitting for 9 hours.

I'm looking forward to a new job! No actually I don't. -_-. I want to get into a local uni, study full-time like the rest of the world. When everyone's having orientation camps, when everyone's in or preparing to go uni, when everyone's having fun with their lives, when everyone's.... I want, I want, I want.. to be like everyone else, him, her, them.

Although I told the rest of the world my job is good(albeit the extreme boredom)

Although I told the rest of the world I'm happy with my plans to work before applying again next year

Although I told the rest of the world I'm perfectly fine

Although I told the rest of the world I know God has a perfect plan for my life

But how much I yearn to be like everyone else- smart enough, pretty enough, good enough, rich enough.

How do I know what I'm doing is in God's plan?

How do I know I ain't making the wrong decision?

No I don't want any comfort, preaching, counselling...

I just need a day of thinking, perhaps. I'll get over it as usual.

Alright enough with ramblings, get on with life! (: *Get reminded of Calvin's post of S.U.M.O(Shut Up, Move On).

How uncanny, the place we went for dinner on me birthday

Sings my unhappiness awayyyyyyyyy~

Argh... PGSM... PGSM.. PGSM...?
Business... Interesting but I don't think I'm up to it.
I'm tired, I'm sick of myself, leave me alone.
A day to sort things out...
I feel... choked.

Update 1: Looking at my old Picasa pics... They never fail to bring a smile back on me face. (: I'm fine, happier. (:

Update 2: Can't do ODAC collage. One of the last bit. -_-. Sian with self. Forget it.

Reading into everything

Thinking back, the 2 of them have helped me celebrate my past 3 birthdays... Thanks so much for the company guys! (:
Well basically we went to sing-a-laa-laa until 3am & then I finally went to dreamland at 530am.

Can't remember much of the details (recorded in a personal diary haha) but this is etched in my memory: The KBox self-made MTV of Bring Me to Life by Evanescence. HILARIOUS!

Wasn't really myself today, many many many thoughts clogging up my brain but felt better after service. (:

They're trying to come back, all my senses push

Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could

I have 1001 questions left unspoken, unanswered, unknown.