Tonight I sat watching the sun as it set...as glorious as ever.
Rumour has it, and I only half believe, and only because I know deep down I want to.. that sometimes as it dips just below the horizon, on a clear night, there is a green flash before it goes completely

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and as I watched, I couldn't help thinking

It's the same sun we all see

and the same moon

so connected on this small planet, so close, and yet so many of us so many worlds apart...

sometimes that's reassuring,
and then
sometimes it just doesn't make sense
sometimes you'd never guess we were all connected at all

Light filters through and percolates down, making pretty patterns
kaleidoscopes fascinated me as a child, same colours, different patterns, always changing
and recently I found myself playing bejewelled on facebook, strangely meditative watching the jewels cascade and exchange with one another... and explode into showers of light

Life changes,
Yesterday I was back in Alderney
lovely people,
great lessons
interested and enquiring minds
questions,
I am loving this job, with more challenges and courses to work on this summer ready for next year.

After school, with hours till the flight home I found myself on the beach, warm sun on bare skin for the first time this year,
sand trickling through my hands, a good book to read and the sound of the sea and children playing in the background.
Peace.
Tranquility.

Time to rest and then to re engage.

Life has changed, but there are beautiful colours still,
we have not just come through,
we have survived,
better equipped, and stronger than before

Sometimes we sail close to the wind and sometimes it catches us and takes us to places we could never imagine,
so fast and so furious, we fly in the face of adversity,
and when we land we find the sea is bluer and clearer and the sand is finer and the sun is warmer and more healing than we have ever known.

and the breeze is a reminder of all that has been and the possibility of what could still be.

I think I'm ready for summer.

Mystery

A lesson learned and yet not understood.

Forgiveness,
like love,
so complex, so vital.
Emanating from conscious thought and desire,
yet
somehow that alone is not enough

we can think
we can hope
we can pray

and where it comes from we cannot know or understand,
it is a gift,
a precious healing gift.

and once given it is strong and sure,

and enduring
and it brings with it calm and peace...

and although there is such a human element, that alone is not enough..

it surely is a mystery
a blessing and a wonder
for everyone involved.

and if that's magic,

I want to believe :)

Summer listening

Sun's out, sky's blue, barely a wisp of cloud in sight.
Windows down, sea breezes, open road ahead, accelerator down, volume up...
a blast along the coast clears any lurking cobwebs well out of the way






"Human"

I did my best to notice
When the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind

And sometimes I get nervous
When I see an open door
Close your eyes, clear your heart
Cut the cord

Are we human or are we dancer?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancer?

Pay my respects to grace and virtue
Send my condolences to good
Hear my regards to soul and romance
They always did the best they could

And so long to devotion
You taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye, wish me well
You've gotta let me go

Are we human or are we dancer?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancer?

Will your system be alright
When you dream of home tonight
There is no message we're receiving
Let me know, is your heart still beating?

Are we human or are we dancer?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancer?

You've gotta let me know

Are we human or are we dancer?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancer?

am loving this album, bought it, lost it replaced it and then found the original!!
Isn't it always the way it goes?

Zzzzzzzz

Sleep...
so often I have pondered it's worth
In the past it has escaped me,
I have yearned for it,
begged my children (not quite literally, but almost) for it,
wished I could manage on less,
observed those who have been sleep deprived,
observed the same when rested too

it changes nothing much, not essentially,
yet it helps us cope
It is vital,
and when a crisis is over it is the first thing I do...

There is much to catch up on

amidst gardening and house work, ballet exams and various parties, portfolios to prepare for external verifiers and normal every day work, which is hugely fun, and sometimes even rewarding (with doughnuts) in unexpected ways...

all I really want, and all I seem to be doing otherwise is sleep...
and if I'm not around thats almost certainly where I'll be!

red sky at night...

some times words aren't needed.
Beauty says it all,
and speaks to each person watching and feeling in their own way

it's hard not to stand in awe and wonder, hope and possibility, when the sky turns all majestic on us.

When we dream together...

work together, share together, dreams can come true....

opportunities can present themselves
and we can make things happen.

Today a new place to eat opened in town with fantastic views over the harbour (just got side tracked and never took the photos I meant to!)
the walls displaying R's art work, a place for him to showcase his work to the public.
Upstairs is more formal, downstairs is more relaxed and easy...

tonight I am raising a glass to new ventures... :)

Slowly,
sieving,
filtering
feelings,
emotions,
facts,
images,
possibilities,

Nurturing,
retreating,
escaping

into
books,
music,
work,
distraction,

processing,
sorting,
cleaning,
clearing,

gradually...

gradually letting it unravel
gradually moving somewhere
slowly...

(Leunig)

kinda stuck for words lately...
am thinking something about time,
healing, recovering,
or just gradually getting used to some things being how they are.

And about love ~
it's never simple,
never easy,
not always rewarding even,
not immediately that is...

I guess it's tied up with acceptance,
as we learn and discover more,
uncover more of the layers of one another,
over time,
and yet loving all the same.

We change, we grow, we reveal,
yet the essence of who we are stays the same,
and we know we are all fallible and vulnerable.

We don't always make it easy for people to love us
and others aren't always easy to love.

Sometimes it's simple
and sometimes it's difficult...

See,
no words,
just circles!
that's life I guess!

there is no other way,
thankfully
:)
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