It has been way too long

  The time has flown since I was last on here. I can't believe that it has been almost 3 months! A friend suggested that i start blogging again.. I barely started but I realized when she said that, that I missed doing it. :) I have so much going on in my life!! We have started seeing a Reproductive Endocrinologist. He started me on Femara, which is a breast cancer drug, that helps to inhibit estrogen.. which is similar to Clomid without so many side effects. The first month with Femara I didnt ovulate.. So I moved onto Follistim injections with the Femara... I had to give myself shots!! So nutso! That cycle was my first cycle to actually ovulate!! Whoo-hoo :) Although I ovulated it was a fat disappointment when I got AF 2 days early.. But at least I ovulated....


This brings us to this cycle. I am not really telling anyone we are trying this month.. I dont mind if people find out but we will not be talking about what days..etc...(except for this of course) It is harder for me when we dont get pg and then its harder when I have everyone asking me if I am pregnant .. Don't get me wrong, I have some of the best friends. and they mean so well when they ask, but it sucks to have to tell people, no :( It makes me feel like I am disappointing them! 

 This month we will be doing the same as last month. I am kinda stoked for my Follistim shots cause I am a pro now! lol. I know I can do it, and I know that I CAN ovulate. Just makes it actually feel possible.  We are going out of town on vacation for 5 days in June. I will find out if this cycle is successful 2 days before we leave...I figure I will be so so so ecstatic is this cycle works! but if not, then I will let loose and have a great vacation:)

Cd 5

So yo, yo, yo catch this!

I am getting so excited to AI next week!! I feel like this could be our month!! I have done so much research that I have it coming out of my ears!! haha We are going to do one ICI and one IUI.... 12 hours past and 24 hours past +OPK... I think..

I have really been thinking about my donor....I hope we made the right choice! It is so hard when you can't see them!!

I would hope that they wouldnt let "ugly" donors donate!! haha... Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so I guess we will have to see!!! I know that I will love my baby no matter what, and I am praying that this happens soon. I am so inspired by my friends on our other forum.... there are many women who have been trying for so long ..and they are still so positive about the process....

Only two more days of Clomid after today!! 100mg.. Please work!!!!!

CD1, almost 2

I am now FINALLY on cd1!! Thank god. I woke up with a feeling of optimism! I am so glad to be TTC in about 14 days!! This is my first round of 100mg Clomid... Hopefully this will be my month.:)
I am thinking that we will get two vials....  but use one as IUI and the other ICI with instead cup?
I am trying to be patient. Ha! Easier said than done

Another picture of us!!

Time is too slow!!!

I am trying, really trying to be patient about this... I just want to AI already!! But I have a while to go.. I miss the excitement! I feel normal day to day is so boring compared to the possibility that I feel during my TWW. even waiting to +opk I feel like there is hope there... I still am looking forward to the next time but It is going too slow!!

Work seems tedious and unimportant, although I need to work to afford to TTC!! :)

I now understand why people want to sleep the time away!! lol.

Today is valentines day I wanted to write because I have a few things I wanted to say. We started this Journey together, when we get that positive we will have a miracle that we be forever. You have made my life so amazingly great I have to other way to explain it other then it must be fate.
I never thought i would meet anyone like you but i did and my heart beats so fast it doesnt know what to do. This journey will bring up and downs alot of smiles but also a few frowns.
But I will be there for you thru good times and bad thru happy times and sad. this is my vow to you I dont care what I have to do I will make sure that vow stays true. You are the one and only love for me, they say love is blind but for me its all I see. We will have a little one running around in no time and we will get a smiley or double line :) we have so much love for each other and you will for sure make a great mother. Happy Valentines day You are amazing in so many beautiful ways!!!!

:)

C~

You are the sweetest!! You are amazingly supportive and yes, we both knew that we most likely wouldn't get pregnant on our 1st try. I love you. And the best part of this process, besides the obvious, is sharing it with you. :)

I flew home to my parents house for my step grandmother's funeral..... It is so nice to be with my mom and sister and my nieces....... but it is also hard because today was kinda tough, and I miss my honey. I am so glad that we started this! We wanted to have an outlet for us to share our thoughts and fears. We will both add to the blog when we feel we have something to add.

I am excited to move along and try for the next cycle. We have things we will be doing differently, as we are not beginners anymore! Ha!!

It helps that I talk with amazing ladies on my other forum, where we all are TTC. I see so many women that try time and time again and keep on truckin'. So much strength in these women!!! I am thankful for that.