
Well, the next lot of test results are in and they ain’t pretty. I’m feeling sad and fragile today as I work to digest the knowledge that I’ve got Hashimoto’s disease – an autoimmune disease that attacks my thyroid and can cause it to be hypo or hyper and may eventually prevent it from working at all. It’s certainly not the end of the world and it sounds like it can be managed naturally but it all seems like such hard work. The diet suggested by the doc pretty much rules out every last bit of food I eat. No soy, no dairy, no beans, no legumes, no wheat, no rye, no nightshades, no garlic, no onion, no ginger and so on and so forth. (oh, and obviously, none of the chocolately good sweet stuff either!)
Despite last weeks big blip on the radar, I’m generally not a bad eater. Sure, we eat some stuff that we shouldn’t but we also eat plenty of good, whole foods. We rarely eat processed food, we eat mostly organic and we don’t use harsh chemical cleaning agents on ourselves or the house. I’m pissed off that despite a fairly healthy lifestyle, I’ve managed to develop such a disease.
My biggest concern and the reason I’m feeling fragile is that I need to think seriously about TTC right now. While not a big risk, there is nonetheless some risk in pregnancy with all this thyroid business – worse case outcome is reduced fetal brain development. There also seems to be some indication that Hashimoto’s plays havoc with maintaining pregnancy. So I might fall pregnant, but will find it hard to stay pregnant. Right now, postponing TTC sounds so much worse than the prospect of miscarriage (which I know is irrational but it’s how I feel). I don’t know what to do.
Anyway, at the recommendation of the doc, I trundled off to the dispensary and invested in selenium drops (100mg / day), Vit D3 (1000 iu/day) and some tyrosine capsules too. I’m not making any promises about the diet but I will definitely increase my intake of the good stuff (which seems to be every variant of spinach and that’s about it) and cut all the really naughty stuff out. And obviously, I’ll take the supplements.
Meanwhile, Ducks and I have got some big discussions to have and some decisions to make.
grrr.