New Link and Song

Hey guys just to tell you guys i have a very useful site in my "Links" section there "Free Full Games." you can download those normally have 1 hour trial games but this website already cracked it for you. so u can just download the game. which they have really really awesome games!

so when you're in office or at home in school hols. u can download and play. good right?! hahah no need to thank me. =p

and, i've uploaded 1 Song. yes only one. i really love this song. if i ever get another chance in singing in a Wedding again, i'll definately pick this song. but no partner =( aww... hhahahahahahaa. or maybe i'll want this song for my wedding, if i ever get married lar. hahahah!
hmm.. i wonder who's my best friend in the future?~~

Accident

Last night on my way home from work with my mom. i think its somewhere further than the Pasar Borong. which is very near my house dy. so very Jam lar.... we at first did not know what happen, until a Ambulance came.. then we know accident la sure. then, when we reached the crime scene, the person is already dead. but then there was no blood. so i asked my mom.

Me: ma... why no blood wan... no blood why die wan?
Mom: Sometimes die dont need blood wan...
Me: har?
Mom: Internal Bleeding lar....
Me: oh....

Yes... im stupid i know. anyways....

Mom: Sure this fella wanna cross road dont use the bridge....
Me: then the driver go to jail ah?
Mom: no la, is the fella salah ma... who ask him dont use bridge...
Me: Oh...
Mom: but then the driver sure also wont feel good for the rest of his life la... coz killed someone ma.
Me: i thought u said its not his fault?!
Mom: ya la. but knocked a person dead with your car you sure wont feel good wan ma...
Me: dunno oh.. i dunno how to drive... and i dont have a car...
Mom: *stare*...
Me: hehehehehehehehehehehhehehehehehe~!
Mom: sei lui pao... lei hou chung yi gek sei mami hai mai?!

then this topic ends here... after it ended, it caught me thinking, what if, that driver is a Christian leh? how ah? then bible say do not murder. but is this considered murder? and no matter how is also the driver that "killed" the person ma...

so did he sin? i have no answers to these questions.... but however, drive carefully people. and dont speed. you wont know what will suddenly appear in front of you. better Late than Never.

I think

I think that Jaden Smith is really cute.

I think that Justin Bieber's voice is a lot more mature than last time compared to "One Time" LOL

I think that Taylor Swift is GORGEOUS.

I think that Taylor Lautner is handsome.

I think that Christ Daughty and David Cook is AWESOME!

these are currently on my mind. hahaha.

Nightmare

hahah no. its not me who has a nightmare. its my commander. HAHAH! but he made me think something. his nightmare was seeing his father died, and then he died himself. but my main point is.

how many children had dreamt their parents died?

and after that dream, did they do something to cherish their parents more?

i know i did. i dreamt my mom died and i woke up crying. and i continued to cry silently coz im sleeping with my mom and i dun wanna wake her la. after that i cuddle with her. and try to sleep as close to her as possible. i even imagine that actually she died in her sleep. so the whole night i just keep looking at her until i fall asleep. i know. silly me. but it could have happen right?

2 People that caught my Attention

Today, which is this morning, i took monorail to work. well, then there's is 2 people who caught my attention, which is, a woman and a man. i Dont wanna say their race la. hahahha.... i think you guys will know.

1. Woman

• she is very fat. its not her size that caught my attention, but her action. ok la, she came in the door, and she just stand there and having no intention to moving to the side for others convenience to come in. you see, everyone is made in different colours and sizes ma. its ok that you are fat. but its not ok when you are fat and you block ppl's way. which is very rude. let me tell you how fat she is. have you seen the cartoon, Monster House? the old man's wife? thats how fat she is. if you hadnt, go youtube and watch the cartoon.

2. Guy

• he is tall. and fat. not VERY fat la. but fat la. okie. not his size also. its the way he dresses and his hair. his hair is "Gam mou" lala jai la. hahaha. and curly. not natural curls yea. is perming punya curl and its like those aunty or granma style wan. small curls. and then the longer hair from the bottom is straight. maybe like neck length la.

• his dressing, a low V-shape black top.
• samurai-like grey pants, his pants is not long yea. its until his calf
• flip flops.
• and a grey cardigan, remember on esther's wedding, i wore a white long cardigan? and my sleeves can be button up? exactly that top, but shorter and grey in colour.
• and he holds a handbag. i didnt see the colour i was too focused on his attire. hahahaha.
• but, monorail could really give a lot of surprises. HAH!

Letter

You know, Life gets really sucky when you feel pain, Frustrated, anger and all the negative feelings come.

But. Life feels really awesome when you feel joyful, happiness, Touched, and most importantly Loved.

These few days, i think its safe to say i've been really emo. dont feel like updating. dont feel like talking also. dont really feel like eating, i felt really guilty when every time i come home from work, my grandma would cook my favorite dish. but i dont wanna eat. and i cant force myself to eat.

lunch? you guys saw my status of "what should i eat for lunch right?" mainly because i dont feel like eating. last Sunday. i was suppose to receive a letter. then last 2 weeks, i've been thinking a lot of what is the content of the letter. and afraid of what it would say inside to hurt me, or it will make me happy? or angry? i am so afraid to receive the letter, but yet curious and excited. i know i sound mixed up. to be frank, the letter is from Jen Ruw.

Last 2 Weeks of the Sunday, Aunty came up to me and said. on Saturday, when she was cleaning up his room, she found a letter. and its for me. immediately i was so shocked. i was thinking. why me? and till now i was also thinking did aunty approached the wrong person and the letter wasnt for me after all? then i would be really disappointed. so till now i try not to keep my hopes high and try not to be so sure that the letter is for me, until aunty pass it to me, but she forgot to bring it last Sunday. so i guess thats okie. i think God knows im not ready. coz i was quite down for the whole week. somehow i feel quite relief when aunty said "sorry, i forgot to bring." and also a bit of disappointment.

Why do i feel so mixed up is because Aunty said: "i think he knows that he'll be on his way. thats why he wrote a letter for you. you know what i mean?" when she was talking to me, she herself is trying so hard not to shed a single tear. but her eyes were already wet. looking at her. makes me feel really heartbroken. i know i had to stay strong. because if i were to cry along with her. she'd feel a 1000 times more terrible than me. and however forced myself a smile. but how can i stay happy right? i tried really hard not to cry but i failed. i had to run upstairs to cry. i actually dont know why i cried, and couldn't find a reason why. even until now. can anybody tell me why?

you guys may see that im happy like. ALL the time. somehow i cannot show my real feelings in front of others. well. at least to ppl i cared for. because i dont want them to worry. and also until now, my mom would sometimes talk about him. to be frank again, i am not okie with it. im not comfortable with it. its not that i haven't moved on. not that i ha vent accept the fact. i have and had. i just dunno what kind of feeling is this. maybe i wouldn't know at all.

and because of this matter. it almost make me explode! my mood is getting worst by the day, im so anxious till i can really shout my lungs out from a mountain top. i really wanna shout till my voice burst. and till i have no energy to shout anymore and no more voice to shout out. but.... selayang where got mountain right? hahaha... i really have no where to turn to... but my beloved blog.

I LOVE YOU MY CASSIOPEIA. hahahaha.... well. letting everything out to you i feel so much better, hahaha muacks! Oh! why i name my Blog Cassiopeia?

its all because of last time i liked TVXQ right? and they call their fans Cassiopeia. and Cassiopeia is originally a few stars linked together. have you ever tried looking up and see the stars when you're feeling down? i used to do that when i was young. because of the cozy feeling when the night wind gives, and when u just tilt your head up a bit to see the stars. you'll feel really comfortable and all my negative feelings just disappeared. and my eyes would really just focus on the big black patch of thing that are filled with diamonds. they looked so beautiful. thus. after my likings to TVXQ disappeared i start to like this name for my blog. because when i let out everything. i will feel comfortable.

but now. i dont do this so often anymore. because after working, i feel quite tired. bath and go to sleep. and another thing is. stars rarely come out so often like they used to already. or maybe because i didnt noticed? i remembered in Cheras at night there would be A LOT of stars. but now. you can only see 1 or 3 of it. haih... why are you all hiding? Alright. i have to wait for Sin Huey, Mun Teng and Lee Choo to come meet me for dinner =) later we're going to church!

Food Review

hahahha. yes, im now really gaining weight. because i wanted to try a lot of food in pavilion. but i only tried a few la.

there's a Satay Bar. in the food court. well, of coz its expensive lor, then the potion they give is also better than those selling from outside. taste: its really nice. not bad la, and most of the satay has one chunk of fat one right? they dont have that. all pure meat. except for lamb la. lamb is a sure have wan.

then there's Hot and Roll. its actually crepe la. for all of you whodont know what it is, its a very very thin layer of biscuit. and you can put all kinds of Jam in it, there's butter, chocolate, peanut, strawberry, orange marmalade, grape and others la, so pavilion dun have these "cheap" stuff, their flavors are all unique? hahahah but really not bad la, very big also. heheheh

then there's Chewy Jr. its cream puff i think, but the "bread" is chewy. i like the bread. hahahhaha. thats really nice also.

there's a new opened Just Heavenly. its a cake shop, they just opened today. i havent got to see yet. will go later, and beside it its also another new opened shop called Sausages and Stuff. will try when i have the chance too. heheh but today. sadly not free.

Bye bye.. Liew San Liang

Woi... you wanna leave to UK dy... haih. dunno why become so emo dy. oh i think i know why dy.. Cyrus Liew la... his virus spread to me dy... yea, though im not blood- related to you, but at least i grow up with you =) and last time 1 week, at least can see you quite a lot of times because of our parents. then slowly became 2 times a week. then now, 1 year after only get to see you. Knowing you for so so long, you are already like my "brother"
Pui mun and i wont have Pui Liang for a year. HOW?! Why you bring her to UK also?! HAHA!

i will really miss you a lot a lot lor. again, must take really good care of yourself oh, dont eat so much fast food, erm.... coz more or less also will be a bit unhealthy. and must always sign in to MSN oh. and dont always eat maggie or any kind of instant noodle there, more unhealthy. hahaha. Oh yea. Most importantly must study really hard yea.. and dont forget that God is always by your side.

hahahhaha u leaving make me remember most of our past times together as kids and i used to call you "San Liang" that time. im very bad with good byes. though im pretty sure you dont read my blog. but i'll make sure you read this post. so i also dunno what to say. i really never thought i will be sad when you leave lor, not until now la.

so Bye bye San Liang gogo. HAHA
Till then =)





i will go look for more pictures of us to post yea... hahaha

Carls Jr.

This is my first time eating this. and yes i heard a lot of people said nice but no money to try until now =)

well, of coz i am impress with their portion compared to Burger King & McD give la. so i was eating happily. after a while. it gets pretty 'zai' and it turns out to be a waste of money. the only thing i manage to finish is the drink.

the burger i eat until 4-5 bites left, i cannot eat anymore. the fries? well.. i only managed to eat a few. so maybe for me. its too much, and becomes a waste of money. but its really nice though, i'll only buy when i have a really big appetite one day. hahahha...

New Songs

Hey! Guys! i've changed my playlists. so yea, u will see a lot of the Korean Australian twins up, coz i really really like them a lot. hahahhaha!

• Just the way you are.
• Just the way you are - bruno mars
• Miracle's happen - myra
• Bubble Gum Song
• Nobody.

Yup these are it, im thinking what more to add.. hmm...

"You're such a softy"

i am a softy. i not to say dont dare la, but i need to be really angry to hurt someone. because only when im angry, i loose control of my behaviour, got people tell me that they dont believe it. well then, why dont you come and try, but not when im in a patience process. when im hurt by someone else, or just dont like that someone else, i will always keep suppressing how i feel and my anger until i cant take it anymore. if towards people that i dont know much, my patience limit is shorter, but to my friends people that i care about, the limit is longer, because i couldnt really hurt them. at least i dont have the heart to do so. i would say sorry.

But then, most of the people who are my friends are all MAJORITY the ones that hurts me, not like accidentally hurt. i mean purposely hurt you. which they know its wrong and it hurts. but they just like to do it. why would i suddenly bring this up? well, i was chatting with this old classmate in school. and my secondary classmates may not be well educated, may not be a Christian, but they are the ones that really are my true friends, coz they dont hurt me at all. in fact, they stand up for me before when i was bullied by seniors.

my friend and i was talking about our life lately, what are we doing, and our problems. then i said just the same old me, i never changed a bit. and my friend say i did. im always to them a cheerful girl. im serious, there was never a day that you would see me mad, or sad, or anything la. im always smiling. well.. at that time la. then he said i dont anymore. so i just told him life has been really tough. and unfair. and how i wish i was last time when nothing is bothering me. well, he asked me, is there any bullies LOL! well i said yes, then the more i talk about the more i got sad, then we changed topic.

well, as for most of you who hadn't been bullied by anyone, take it from someone who had for her whole life. to be continued... going home now ;)

Im back. hahha, ok, when i was young im being bullied by any people, my childhood friends, my sis, my Kaiyea, then primary, i have only 1-2 friends coz Malays, Indians, and Chinese all hates me. dunno why la. then secondary. bullied by so called gangsters, and seniors. well, church? erm.. yes, there are people who bullies me and i really dislike them. Sad right? haih.

Always when i try to treat them better, and not return with how they treated me, it gets even worst. like some people who are really important to me, how u know you are important to me? well when i buy things for you. thats how, because you'll always be in my mind and i'll always think of you. but its the people who are important that purposely hurts me.

then there is Natasha i was chatting with her also. she is one friend who doesnt care about what language you speak. what size and colour you are, i've been really searching for these kind of friends. the ones who dont bully you in front of everyone. i really like her a lot. not that i dont have =) Leechoo and Pei Tze =)

then i came up with this solution on my own, i dont wanna treat them good anymore. and i wont bother about them so much anymore. in fact, i wont do anything to them in return also. i will just ignore and avoid. Natasha told me, avoid all you want, in the end, they will come back to you. well then, let them come, i dont care anymore. because friends are not suppose to hurt each other.

they encourages, they help, they care. =)
They dont discourage, they never leave you alone, and they never dont care about you =)

well, if anyone of you have this kind of things bothering you too, then do something about it. dont be a softy like me. its not good.