Mosiah 2:21 "I say unto you that if ye should serve him who has created you from the beginning, and is preserving you from day to day, by lending you breath, that ye may live and move and do according to your own will, and even supporting you from one moment to another—I say, if ye should serve him with all your whole souls yet ye would be unprofitable servants."
Today something happened that I'll never forget. It was one of the largest announcement in LDS church history in a long time.
So there I was with Klair and Dana as we just got settled and thrilled for another great conference session. Once President Monson stood to address everyone, he announced only 2 temples. Don't get me wrong, two temples would be great, but it seemed a little off since there are usually more. Then he started talking about missionary work, and how back when, missionaries could serve at age 18. Yes, I did feel guilty for shouting
Shut up!! right as he was about to announce what I thought would happen (because I sometimes tend to do that when I get excited--I wasn't shouting at our prophet). And yes, he announced what we couldn't believe--young men could serve at age 18 from now on. My thoughts were along the lines of: Josh and Brandon will be leaving sooner than expected, this is incredible, and wow.
Then President Monson started talking about sister missionaries. I thought
nuh uh right before he announced that girls can leave at age 19.
Dana and I started to go biserk. She's been 20 for a while and has been working on her papers for a while. I was thinking of how soon I could leave. Questions flooded my mind--should I go? What kind of mission- abroad, temple, or service? Should I go instead of or after the Disney College Program if I'm accepted?
While on Facebook today, I was so touched to read the many responses to this new change. Many girls that have been waiting will start their papers. There's going to be a flood of papers coming in. Guys are now preparing more rigorously as they will be leaving sooner. It's all very exciting to see the Lord's work progressing!
Although this is an exciting new announcement, it doesn't mean that everyone needs to start papers right away. Although I was excited as can be, I didn't know what to do. I wasn't expecting this, and I know that I still need to be very wise regarding Cystic Fibrosis. To be honest, a mission has been on my mind because I have a strong desire to give back as a load of appreciation in which the Lord has blessed my life, and I
know it's something I'm supposed to do. However, I know that missionary work demands a lot, as well as does CF. It's not just the treatments and pills. It's the running, weight lifting, watching what I eat, extra treatments when needed, washing the nebulizer pieces, doc visits, avoiding hospital tune ups, and more. The question is, what is right?
Tonight, I went on a run I will never forget to get matters settled. CF isn't supposed to get in the way of things, but there's a line between what is good and what is the wisest and best, since CF is, let's face it,
life-threatening. It's difficult sometimes to try so hard to be normal with the desire to do what most people can, but not being able to do so even though my life may appear to be completely fine. I ran to the temple, feeling more frustrated that my lungs were
a lot tighter than usual, reminding me more that I have CF. I try not to think this way, but my stubborn self could not figure out everything. I had to pray while continuing forward, fighting off tears.
As soon as I reached the top of the hill (after walking, running, walking, running to catch my breath), I felt the assurance that the spirit always brings, trying to calm my emotions circling around each other. I could see the sun setting over the valley, giving its natural glow over the lake. There was the temple, and once again, I kept my Ipod earphones out with the music off. As I passed by sister missionaries as we exchanged friendly hellos, as well as older couples passing by the temple, I started to admire their examples of living life peacefully, wondering how I could do so. They seemed full of wisdom and a simple feeling of joy, able to submit their will no matter what life would bring. I was reminded that this life is not mine. I was sent here as an instrument in the Lord's hands to use my experiences regarding death, trial, triumph, and strength that have all been through the help of our Heavenly Father to strengthen others. I don't always see myself doing that great of a job at it, but that's why we have the Atonement--to get up, try again, and keep running up our hills despite our weaknesses.
I do not know how soon, when, what kind of mission, or how long I will serve for--whether it be 6 months to a year and a half, but someday it will come once I know it's the right time. But now I have the option to serve sooner than expected once it is right. This gospel is flourishing. It's incredible. One thing is for sure: this church is true.
(I found this pic online and it wasn't that dark, but it gives you an idea of what it looks like. Someday I will take a good pic and put it on here.)