hello earthlings

Monday, November 26, 2007

i'm feeling peaceful now :D
maybe its the weather or anything
just watched finish why why love
it's a touching show which made me cry like idiot during the last few eps
at least i'm stronger than yingjie,right? (:

reading through the details of printers on net now in preparation for job trg later
someone used to told me i need to grow up,be independent
so yupp,am working on thurs with beloved seeyuen and yingjie
jeraldine,katherine,weiyuan and kunyang are working with us too (:

after trg need to rush for chalet
and jeremy keep nagging me not to forget to bring phone charger
lol lousy owner has lousy battery

maybe i'm feeling peaceful because i don't know what to do
nevertheless,JIAYOU cccc=

♥ much love!

Saturday, November 24, 2007

so let me sound emo today
since the motive of having this blog is to SHOUT ALL OUT
and those who have the link here are close friends ((((:

although seven months are gone like that
it had been a long and horrible one for me
it's such a torment
because those sweet memories do hurt
yes,we must move on
i know it and i never want to deny this fact
howvere,why do i often cry?
everytime i cry,i wanted to call someone,however,i'm afraid they say i'm stupid,useless and will use those eveytime-the-same consoling words.i feel terrible at the moment i think of you,walk past the route we used to take,watched shows that refresh my memory and daydream of the future.
i seemed alright in front of all because i do not know how to expresss that hurt,that horrible feeling thats inside me.
yes,i regret and very much.and i've blaming myself all this while for this outcome.sorry
those scenes;i teach you how to snore,you tied shoelace for me,fed each other always,cried in front of each other,protecting me in cold,laughed so loudly in movies,play pranks,planning for future,quarrel indefinate times on phones,surprises and many many more in my mind.
crap shit,i'm lousy because i'm still remembering

and after so much,i really can feel what aheartbreak is
and i realised i still love you as much
maybe in the past i didn't know how to express
and thus,you didn't feel the love
although it might be too late to say anything
i do not want to lie myself
so i choose to use this post as a way of expressing my love
because it feel so terrible to hide it inside

alright,this post might seem immature to some
but these are part of my true feelings
those who know me,you know that i don't always talked about this and won't joke about it.and i'm serious.
and need not to console me because i know the every reason to stop all these thinkings
it just that i can't control myself.

just let nature takes its course ((((:
much loves

♥ much love!

Saturday, November 17, 2007

ytd's bowling was alright
i manage to reach yishun safra successfully
however, taking the ball ard really makes me tired
but at least i get to vent it all out during the trg
and jason keep giving me stress
BOO
jason:jiaying,you reaching 140 already
jiaying:dont do that. i will throw badly
indeed, i only hit 5 pins at that crucial moment
so end up having a score of 137
then jason keep saying,next year is comp alr
i know i know,but i still noob at bowling.

had a big cry when watching 放羊的星星 just now
am alright now,or maybe not
i wanted to call someone to shout it all out
but i know it wouldn't help
so yah, stupid girl just know how to cry cry and cry
okay,lets not sound emo

going to hosp now
please bless my aunt(((((:

♥ much love!

Friday, November 16, 2007

today i'll be carrying that super heavy bowling ball around
firstly from home to yishun safra,then to city hall then to tts hospital
i hope i won't meet some unconsiderate people on the train
super pissed off that day

went back to xinmin ytd with serena and yingjie
its so homely there
and i really misses my dance trg/practice
and i must dance soon(maybe go sign up for a course or sth)
before i lose all my flexibility
after that serena yingjie wenbin and me went to kbox for a whole of 5 hours
sing till no songs can sing plus ser always sit there only
i managed to force the mike to her mouth only for 5 secs longest?

and they always say i'm a bimbo plus dumb
am really not okay.
LOLLOLLOLLOL
worst is that eveytime they did real dumb stuff, they said i pass it to them
heyhey, not a good excuse okay.haha
see, my sad life.LOL

♥ much love!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

SHOUTOUT: I'M SO NOT IN THE RIGHT MOOD TO GO FOR BOWLING TRG NOW! and ohno,that heavy ball agn.

i'm not those rich kids whereby a call from them will make their parents drive them around

somehow,i miss my dance trg back in the past
it's so...DIFFERENT

and we meet up with our beloved wenlin ytd
and yingjie had dinner with her 'mother-in-law'
HAHA.

what a random day.

♥ much love!

Sunday, November 11, 2007

these few days i've been getting comments saying that i'm dumb and logic-less.
from the mouths of loowenbin,tanyingjie and serenang.
LOL
they claimed they are truthful friends.
but i doubt so.
:D

my stamina is getting worst.
ran 4km slowly today and i nearly faint
serious
so i rushed back home for a sweet

jogging does helps to get rid of unhappy feelings
:)

because i still feel the connection

♥ much love!

Saturday, November 03, 2007

we prayed, we cried, we hoped, we did almost everything
but its still getting worst and worst.
i blamed the heaven
why on earth did you let her suffer?
please give me back my healthy auntie.
PLEASE.
i fear the sense of losing
and i do not want to taste this feeling twice this year.

please bless her.

♥ much love!

Friday, November 02, 2007

yesterday op was great.
our class definately rock the whole examination.
:DDDD

however,my aunt is still not okay
i'll pray hard nothing will ever happen to her.
please get well soon.
JIAYOU.

if i ever succeed
i'll thank you,
for destroying me this year.

♥ much love!