Life Seems Meaningless
Date - Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Timing - 1:39 PM
Timing - 1:39 PM
My life seems pretty meaningless now... rmb me writing tat thr was a uni talk last week... i c many frends getting upset coz they cant enter ntu or nus... but me and my grp of frends were joking abt just entering sim instead and didnt even take the brochure from both ntu and nus.. seems so sad huh.. instead of aiming for university that have better recognition, we aim for a university tat u could enter as long as u got the money... My sis was asking me every now and then, what i`m gonna do when i come out of army.. am i gonna study or i`m going to work.. if i`m gonna work, what job will i be doing.. my mum was also nagging me to go study uni after army saying that u cant get a decent paying job with just ur diploma beside ur grades aint tat spectacular.. true enuff, i dun rmb myself putting in effort to even go study when i`m in poly.. right now i dun even noe if i can graduate next year becoze of my fyp..
I`ve experienced drastic changes in my lifestyle for this past year.. i dun rmb myself worrying abt not having allowance to spend.. call me a spoilt brat or wad but money has nv been a problem to me for like 17 + years.. i dun rmb myself holding on to a decent part time job for long.. bt now i got to work even during sch days.. and i tink i`m gonna join my frends in the waiter job alr... its gonna be a super tough period for me till i graduate.. My family been in a mess too n tat sucks.. it used to be filled with laughter bt right now all i can feel is ...... NOTHING i walk everywhere i c black faces in the house.. everytime we tok now , the topic is always money, money and stil money and it always ends with us quarrelling.. my sis was saying tat i anyhow spend my pay but i oni spend like less den 50 dollars frm my pay( 50 out of 500 considered anyhow spend??) and the rest was used for top up of concession and my daily spendings for meals in sch all those... i hardly get allowance frm my dad nowadays alr tat explains y the money in my account is depleting so fast and now my mum no money oso take frm me.. like my money wont finish like tat... damn i tink i grumble enuff alr so janna..
Current Favourite Song.. :)
Date - Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Timing - 8:11 PM
Timing - 8:11 PM
It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
There's still time to turn this around
You could building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I finally see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
Its amazing how i manage to listen to it 108 times when i just
downloaded it 5 days ago.. Totally addicted to it, i listen when
i`m in class when i`m home.. its also the 1st song on my
playlist, its also my sms ring tone..
I`m totally addicted to it man.. :))))
Best quote from the song : "Nobody wins when everyone`s losing
Its one of the times when u hate realizing somethings...
Maybe , just maybe one day when u turn ur back,
i`m not there anymore
I`m LYING
Date - Sunday, September 27, 2009
Timing - 9:37 PM
Timing - 9:37 PM
I`m FEELING EMPTY/BLANK......
Date -
Timing - 1:00 AM
Timing - 1:00 AM
A quick update before i head baq to bed... things have not been goin smoothly. Fyp literally stopped as we slack for the whole of tis wk.. Ez-link card died on me on fri, been attitude by my mum for the past 2 days... damn how bad can it get..
Helped maintain Singapore Pools in the recent TOTO... and my soccer bet lost too.. damn bt nvm coz Liverpool won 6-1 .. torres hat trick and babel is showing us why we brought him over from Ajax..
Was out to help yongjie`s group wif their fyp coz they totally have nth to present at all next wk.. so have been helping them out abit for e pas 3 days... headed over to chong yong hse at Bukit Panjang today aft changing my ez link card at JE interchange.. their service is damn lousy lah cant transfer my concession over and i had to wait for a wk to gt my refund baq and i had to get another concession again... F*** SMRT.. and F*** the new ez link for spoiling so easily... so did some work at chong yong hse and glad tat i n daniel did managed to help them... was playing winning eleven for the last 2 hours at his hse... won some n lost some... guess my skills are rusty alr... cant seem to mark players well in the game anymore.. guess i`m gonna nua at home again tml.. :/
Perhaps Perhaps Perhaps
Date - Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Timing - 11:41 PM
Timing - 11:41 PM
i`m getting bored so i decided to blog :) attended a talk held by various university in sch today... the talk was BORING, i doubt any listened to it.. some were either chit chatting, listening to mp3 or trying to sleep.. so didnt listen much either but gt quite a few brochures on the university aft tat... one booth tat is v interesting is the KAPLAN wan.. i duno whether they are here to advertise their university or to sell the fats on their chest... Headed baq proj room to put the stuffs and originally wanted to go straight for lunch bt decided to head baq wif regan as he haven take the brochures yet... we went past the NUS booth and he actually wanted to take the brochure from them.. but aft some thinking we told them NO coz its of no USE TO US.. lol... regan was asking where the SIM booth is and he took all e diff kind of brochures from SIM and say v front.. WAH SIM IS MUST TAKE... den when we r leaving the booth.. he said v loudly again SIM IS THE EASIEST TO ENTER WAN OF COURSE MUST TAKE... the guy at the booth was looking at us.. damn PAISEH
So head over to market again for lunch, was kinda forced into sharing a bottle of Heineken wif KL and i hereby admit its a mistake.. the aftertaste of the beer aft eating laksa was
disastrous... it was super super bitter.. i cannot tahan so i order sugar cane juice aft finishing
the beer... Head baq to proj room to slack and went for the 2.4km run at ard 330.. i guess its been
sooooooooo long since i last ran.. and clearly it was v tough for me to finish it.. so i gave up aft just 3
rounds.. lmao i`m gonna start running soon althou i`m nt goin to go for the NAPFA test next week bt
its v clear tat i need to lose some weight and shed some fats.. hahahah
Boring Weekends.
Date - Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Timing - 9:07 AM
Timing - 9:07 AM
It seems like i just wasted away my wkns doing .... NTH i actually spend my long-awaited wkn doing nth .. How amazing -___- So on sun, nick drove over my hse to watch the chelsea spurs game tgt... it was v boring compared to the previous game i jus watch.. so basically it was one-way traffic.. an interesting incident tat happened during the game.. I didnt know that WWE was allowed in football as Bassong ddt 2 chelsea players to the ground, tats nt smth tat everyone can do... But BUt BUt when he tried to do the same thing to Anelka but it was reversed and his own head hit the ground quite awkwardly and he had to be stretchered off by the medics... So i guess Spur`s great start of the season had stopped alr.. So right now, only chelsea remain unbeaten but for how long more? the 1st big game for LIVERPOOL tis season is just next week.. :))) anyone wanna go watch with me, i oni gt nick wif me now.. PLEASE TAG AT MY BOARD FOR INTERESTED PARTIES THANK YOU~~~ WILL LIVERPOOL be the one to end their 100% winning start to the season..?? i hope we will coz we are 1 of the 2 teams that have managed to get all 3 points at stamford bridge and i hope we can repeat it again tis season... So finished the game n head over for supper at 651 wif eilly n nick... had some chit-chatting session and head hme aft tat... Went to bugis and town again wif nick on mon as he said he wanted to do some shopping.. i alr knew wad he intend to do when he ask me out becoz i alr heard from others.. so walked ard bugis searching for his screen protector and casing, he was determined to find it but it seems like SG haven start selling it yet.. so head over to ION next, went to zara wanting to get the shoe i wan but too bad dont have my size... so walk ard and went to the zara at taka... saw e shoe and wanted to try it at first but i saw a bag to my liking and decided to get the bag instead... A VERY BIG THANK YOU to those tat chip in for the present, i realli like it alot.. :))))) head over to coffeebean and played psp+ chit chat... head hme aft tat... so right now i`m back to FYP again but i`m looking forward to next wk.. coz it marks the end of my vacation project when the clock strikes 5pm on fri next wk... hope my supervisor dun make me come back aft tat coz i oni have 2 wks of pathetic holiday left... till then i`m signing off now.. :)
And It Continues
Date - Sunday, September 20, 2009
Timing - 10:33 PM
Timing - 10:33 PM
What an exciting week of football, teams playing at super high tempo and it was just end to end action... 1st it was the liverpool game tat ended 3-2.. With torres heading in the winner for us in the 80+ min... Wad i didnt expect was that the Manchester derby was an even exciting match.. I did not support any team in particular so i was watching the game as an neutral fan.. During the 1st half, man city match man u in every ways.. Playing fluent football against their Manchester neighbour.. bt sadly they couldnt maintain tat tempo in the 2nd half and was 2nd best in the 2nd half as they were outplayed and outrun but stil they manage to come back from behind twice thanks to bellamy to make the score 3-3.. just when i expect the game to end alr as the stoppage time given was up but but but... Owen scored in the 6th min of stoppage time which wil surely make Mark Hughes and the City fans furious as oni 4 min was given.. But still i was amazed at how man u can play even without tat diver.. I`ve always been saying to my sis whose a man united fan tat who needs tat diver when u gt Darren Fletcher.. personally my MOTM was shay given for man city and ryan giggs for man u.. both were outstanding in the game and not forgetting the scorers Bellamy and fletcher...
I update again as nick is coming over to my hse soon to watch the chelsea spurs game, hope it be another exciting game like the one i just watched.. Till then i`m signing off alr.. :)
HAPPY DAY
Date - Friday, September 18, 2009
Timing - 9:32 PM
Timing - 9:32 PM
TODAY IS A HAPPY DAY... woke up in the morning not wanting to go to sch... bt still i drag e lazy me out of the bed and prepare to go to sch.. ate noodles in e morning at hme in an effort to save money... On e bus to NP from clementi.. received an sms and i tot who will sms me so early in the morning.. in e end it was NP who sms me.. e details of the sms is my results for tis sem.. i was laughing to myself when i saw i pass all modules and my proj actually gt a B... i tot it was gonna be a C or D but it turns out that my supervisor was playing a joke on us... :)))) head to market for a mini celebration.. even thou i had noodles alr, i couldnt resist the temptation of the carrot cake.. Lmao.. head baq sch to slack and e TSO of my level asked us go eat buffet.. lOL so ate abit and continue to slack.. soon it was lunchtime, i duno how i manage to eat again but i ate jap food althou i didnt finish...
I`m starting to like to attend sch now nt becoz i decided to work hard or wad(even if tis is e case, its too late already so i might as well just forget it and enjoy my last sem in poly :)))) ) bt becoz i`m able to laugh like some idiot in sch wif regan, jiaheng, roystance, kengleong, yongboon and not forgetting my fellow project roommates. it seems like all my troubles are gone as least for e period of time in sch.. Its been a few daes since we had a decent conversation, is it gonna stay tis way?? ohhh welll i`m signing off alr.. BTW i`m free and bored over the wkn.. So People PLSSSSSSSSSS ask me out can?? haha
From left: Roystance, KengLeong, JiaHeng, ME, YongBoon, Regan(Huan Yuan)I wanna go on another trip with this guys and drink like nobody business.. hOpe we can go overseas together aft we graduate... :))))
Date - Thursday, September 17, 2009
Timing - 9:45 PM
Timing - 9:45 PM
" Life without you seems imaginable. But, I guess now I don’t have to imagine it. I’m living it.
---- via Eletheowl
Got this quote from the link above.. quite cool huh.. everydae she wil put up many diff kind of quotes, short paragraphs and some are actually quite meaningful :) Rmb to check it out yo ~~~ hahaha
Down Down Down Down Down
Date - Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Timing - 9:07 AM
Timing - 9:07 AM
My mood have been going down.. just like the song by jay sean... Cant seem to find any motivation to continue with my FYP... progress has been real slow and i`m already on the edge of giving up soon... i guess my proj mates feels e same way too.. I really feel so tired... i really feel like sleeping and never wake up again so i dont have to bother abt all this stuffs ever again..
Memory : an organism's mental ability to store, retain, and recall information
Would it be better not to have any memories at all...? There may be good memories but the sad thing is that there are also bad memories.. They come in a package hence its impossible to only remember the good things tat happen.. How i wish tat i do not have any memories or even not a living thing on this world for i`m really tired of life now..
Friends, dont need to worry too much.. its just a random thought and i doubt i have the courage to sleep and never wake up... Coz it takes much more courage live den to die and i`m a strong boy so dont worry :))))))
EDIT*
today my supervisor nv scold us but instead ask us to continue working on it :))) headed straight hme aft fyp and slept til abt 7.. eat dinner use com a while and went to play mj.. won 4 bucks, luck nt bad today didnt hu alot of rounds bt stil manage to win 4 bucks.. Tml is the training for napfa alr.. so long since i last work out tink wil die tml :/
BACK BACK BACK!!!!
Date - Sunday, September 13, 2009
Timing - 2:26 PM
Timing - 2:26 PM
Hello everybody, i`m finally back from Malacca.. The entire factory visit was a flop but the activities at night was ... DOPE hahaha.. Had many first time during tis trip.. like going to nightclub, going overseas wif frends & celebrating my bdae overseas... I`m lazy to elaborate more on the trip so ask me if u`re interested.. :)
Reached SG oni at 8pm ytd and the fcuking guards dont allow me to take cab at Tuas checkpoint which is so *%*&&(($&^$^%()... in e end i had to take CW3 to jurong east and change train to Jpt before cabbing home... 1st time i c Maxi cab and everyone was looking at me when i board e cab coz i 1 person take so big de cab.. lmao so reached hme unpacked, bath and went over to jpt to meet evelyn for dinner.. Ate fish and co for dinner and she ordered a super sweet de chocolate cake.. in e end she could nt finish it and i had to clear it up for her... proceed over to Mac to chit chat a while and Eilly, Nick, Wansheng, Xinyi, XiaoMan and her bf Keniv came to give me a BIG surprise.. :))))))))))))
while i was toking to evelyn, a cake suddenly appear in front of me den they sang the birthday song so much louder than the other group of pple celebrating bdae in Mac oso... i had to eat a big piece of mango cake and it took me v long to finish it.. as i was already seh seh alr.. nt becoz i drank bt becoz i was sick... Sorry to Evelyn tat u had to keep tinking of things to tok to me and i had alr try my very best to entertain u alr bt i guess my brain aint working alr at tat time... keep having the want to vomit de feeling... sent her hme b4 goin back to Mac to chit chat a while b4 nick send me eilly and gxy hme.. Finished the Man u game b4 i went to slp last night.. i immediately KO-ed when i hit the bed.. Guess i was too tired alr.. I`m A HAPPY BOY TODAY.. :)))) a very big thank you to those tat rmb to wish me happy bdae and those tat made the effort to celebrate with me.. I`m really v gan dong although i dont show it out... Might be heading out for dinner ltr in e day wif the guys so till den its xu dong signing off again as a 19 year old boy.. :)
OFF TO MALACCA
Date - Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Timing - 12:12 AM
Timing - 12:12 AM
The day finally come !!!! its time for me to go Malacca woooohhhooo... TONIGHT`s GONNA BE A GOOD GOOD NIGHT... lol.. okay i be away until sat...
I juz watched G-force on mon night... quite funny and nice esp e music... Coz gt my current favourite song I GOTTA FEELING... my favourtie guinea pig is HURLEY(the fat one) lol... everything was okay except for the kids in the cinema, they were quite noisy n inside stil gt baby cry -____-
Met up with eilly and gxy for dinner juz now... for a big period of time i was juz down thr 发呆 and listening to them talk... they can link to v far far de place wan lor... headed to challenger aft dinner, gxy ask until the sales pek chek coz she gt soooooo many questions regarding the bluetooth headset... Eilly buy e same headset as me but white in colour... aft tat gxy wanna eat ice-cream so we head over to hagaan daz to slack.. sit down thr talk for quite long den headed over to gxy hse to for further slacking session.. Played uno for a while and its time to go home...
Everybody.. Take good care of urself.. :) i be back in 4 days time... i doubt i be missed :/
Am i holding on to something impossible?
Date - Sunday, September 6, 2009
Timing - 4:51 PM
Timing - 4:51 PM
I finally bought my straw hat from topshop ytd :))))))) aft shopping from bugis den to town.. i n nick bought e same straw hat frm topshop... Met him at 1 at bugis and we started walking ard aimlessly.. tried on many hats but none was to ur liking... nick is damn suey lor, he told me everytime he saw a hat to his liking, it would be e last piece.. and ytd was no different.. he saw one hat at FleshImp and it oso happen to be e last piece in the shop LMAO so wansheng joined us at 3+ at town... wansheng bought a 40bucks bag from 4skin damn cheap lor somemore e bag is like super big.. && ytd was my virgin trip to ION, Illuma and orchard central.. i noe i sound sua ku :/ so shop until ard 6+ den we decided to play mj at my hse.. so we took 502 back and started our mj session.. Here is some of the things we ban at e mj table.. Pizza Hut, listening to own mp3 & rice.. and aft ytd we ban sunglasses too lol... so i lost a few bucks ytd luck wasnt realli good.. played till 10+ 11 den nick n kj went off while ws continue slacking at my hse... kj fetch us out for supper tgt wif eilly, hh and hh`s bro aft tat...
There is smth i wan to clarify here.. i cut EILLY TAN`s queue coz she was stil tinking of wad to order, so to save time i cut her queue LMAO... den i didnt say i didnt have tissue paper wif me but juz tat i was eating at e time she was asking tats y i didnt take it out.. so overall both incidents not my FAULT... :))))
LIFE... am i happy wif the life i`m living now?? i believe there`s no definite answer to tis question.. For me, i`m actually quite satisified with my life now (minus away the stuffs happening in my family) I`ve got greats friends around me, friends tat i could do all kind of 2pid and funny shits with, friends tat wil stand by me no matter wad happen... BUT nothing lasts forever i guess so the question now is, how long more can i hang on to this friendships? it seems like all of us aint tat close anymore due to some recent incidents... but oh well y bother abt smth tat i cant control...
CAN YOU REALLY KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT SOMEBODY??
My Long Awaited Weekend
Date - Friday, September 4, 2009
Timing - 10:55 PM
Timing - 10:55 PM
i been waiting for my weekend ever since Monday? reason being doing fyp everyday bores me and nt having much progress in my proj makes it worse... another 2 more proj dae n i be leaving for Malacca.. cant wait for it :) my supervisor was actually in a good mood today... no scoldings even thou we gt no progress & he`s goin to help us on mon... tats rather rare coz he often leave us to figure it out ourselves..
enuff of sch... i`m going town & bugis wif Ang Jing Zhi tml... we`re going shopping :) been some time since i last step into town... hope to get some stuffs strike off frm my wishlist.. okay i shall stop here for now.. goin out for supper soon wif kj and co... till then its xu dong signing off here..
I GOTTA FEELING
Date - Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Timing - 10:35 AM
Timing - 10:35 AM
I`m so bored in the proj room now.. so i`m here to blog.. haha been slping at 1+ 2 and waking up at 7am for the past few daes.. it seems like mr insomnia have come knocking on my door once again.. i cant seem to fall asleep at nite even thou i`m super super tired... how how how ... anyone have any solutions to it?
1 more week b4 i depart for Malacca but i have to suffer for another 4 daes of proj b4 i can leave for Malacca :/ 8-5 daily is really no joking matter as its damn tiring both mentally and physically... ohh well... wonder if there is any activities tis wkn.. tat dae plan sat wan go eat late zi char.. but duno will it carry out as planned.. i seriously need some time off to recharge myself and i guess the Malacca trip have come at just the right time.. As my title and my blog song suggests... i`m super addicted to tis song.. I gotta feeling~~~ wohoooo~~.. and nt oni me, a number of my frends oso the same as me.. juz tat they more hiong den me, they sing in NP like its their hse like tat... i oni sing at home and maybe go spam someone.. lol
Reply to tags:
eilly: i tot u working at IT show??
clara: i juz saying tat some might be working and kj is goin for cruise and wil oni be back on sun i tink.. i`m nt pin-pointing anyone :)
Evelyn: i nv forget ok.. lol.. i`m juz grumbling oni haha..