2009 Summary

Last day in 2009..and it's the end of the 2009..gosh..times move so fast..n the curtain will close in few hours jer lg..r we ready for 2010 to come..i dnt think so..but below are the recap for my past 1 year..

Kerohanian
This is the most important..n everybody must try hardest to improves self..same goes to me..coz i wanna be a good muslimah...i will try my best..InsyaAllah..byk yg perlu sy usahakan dgn ikhlas n istiqamah..everyday b4 pg keje, sy sentiasa doakan smoga Allah kurniakan keteguhan iman, kebersihan jiwa,kekuatan semangat n ketabah diri in anything termasuklah dlm beribahah selain memohon keberkatan & keredhaan & kerahmatan Allah di dunia akhirat..

Family
Family is still no 1..no other then...n i'm very happy with my family..mesti la sbb dorg syg kot kt sy..utk ayah & bonda, sy nak jadi anak yg solehah..sy nak jadi anak yg sentiasa menyenangkan hati org tua...sy akn cube yg terbaik wpon ade antaranye sy x termampu...sy nk jadi adik yang baik..adik yg sentiasa ssh n sng dgn kakak2 n abg2 nya..sy nak jd kakak yg baik kpd adiknya n sy nk jd mama yg paling best tuk ank2 buah sy..n i hope we will always together not matter what..i really love my family

Kerjaya
kerja is my priority..tho become tougher now..but Alhamdulillah..i'm still here..n i'm happy with what i'm doing as this is what i really wanted to do..after 3 years n 8 months,i have given a chance to do 3 diff things..form perfomance appraisal, i did medical benefit n now i'm doing international salary. its good to be here..n its good to learn as much as u can..yup,continuously learning..compared to previous year, i become more dependent n more confident..tho theres no guarantee that i'll be here forever..but, i take up this challenge...n i will work harder..seiklas yg mgkin..

Love Story

This is unhappy ending story..ya, i'm finally going tru this phase..honestly i cry a lots n i felt very bad n very sad..hwever, this is not a failure..it is qada' & qadar which has been written to me since azali..After he decided to go then only i had a courage to get rid of him after almost 6 years..knowing he with smone i know 2 months later, its make me feel better as i knw theres no more 'us' in future. n bcz of tht i would never wait for him lg la kan..thats how i move on..thats how i keep my strengths n life moving on (of course with support from my lovely family n frens) .. i learnt a lots tru this unsuccessful relationship (should thanks to him too)..one of it i learnt not to break other girl's feeling...bcz it is really hard to go tru it..InsyaAllah, it would never happen..frens are frens n he still be my fren..therfore, i pray for his happiness ever after...

Future life
People said patah tumbuh hilang berganti..one left, another one or 2 or 3 coming,,hehehe,.this is really true..believe or not, it does happened n you yourself have to admit it..sy bersyukur kpd Allah sbb never let me alone..n i really appreciate n respect 'them' who is really generous n sincere to me..but, for me this is not a right time coz i dont want to jump into another relation too soon..sorry guys..u know rite u deserve better girl kan..so the conclusion is, marriage was my plan this year but it doesnt mean for me..hence there would not be any plan for next year as i need to start from the beginning..but, if its meant for me this year, i know Allah knows best...

Kesihatan
Alhamdulillah, better,,with more stress i can reduce my mc..so what else i should say kan..this year i discovered that my sinus getting worse..slalu sgt sneezy, flu..itchy n mcm2 lagi..but next year i will focus more on my appearance..i guess diet + exercise is the best for me

Monetary
Yg ni same jer mcm thn lepas..x kaya n x miskin..xsusah n xsenang..tp Alhamdulillah, dgn duit hasil titik peluh sy, sy mampu tanggung diri sendiri..cume ralat sket sbb xdapat hulur lebih pd bonda n family..hehehe..slalu sgt dorg dok support especially kakna n bonda..

Persahabatan
Frenship ok kot..wpon ade yg merajuk ngn sy(mesti org yg merajuk tu terasa pedas kan..hehehe..)tp the best part this year was dpt buat reunion with frens dkt teknik dlu..best giler to catchup with most of classmates..kwn2 kolej pon ok..ade yg jumpe ade yg ..but that is normal la coz everyone has their own life kan skrg ni..but, frens will still remain forever kan..so guys, do keep in touch hokkay :-)

Kendiri
I think i lost myself at the beginning of the sedih stage..yela, all of sudden rs mcm...mcm2 la..air mata xpyh la ckp..ttp jd tasik..hehehe..but Alhamdulillah, family is always with me..they are very understanding and supportive..my dear frens pon same..thanks for being there in my ups n downs dear..bos n colleagues pon besh..n yg penting it was not affecting my job..frankly speaking, i fell lively now..i thnk i've found myself..n i've found my new me..n i love mylife now..i will always pray may Allah give me strengths and make my life easier..

OK, that’s it…kalo ikutkn byk lg cabaran n dugaan..tp x tercapai di akal ku dah..i think the biggest one is the brokeup story la kot..hehehe...but its ok..it just another sweet story in mylife kan..hope 2010 will be successful n meaningful year to me..

P/s: sedih plak nk tgglkan 2009..lebih sedih lg im getting 27 years old next year..haih, dah tua dah anak mak ni kan...:-)

Nota kaki size 5:recap for last year

Year End & New Year Checklist

As usual, year end would be headache month..hehehe...y??

1. Car insurance renewal= RM 11040.00 --> Done
2. Roadtax renewal= RM 90.00 --> Done
3. Passport + gambo = RM 112.00 --> Done
4. Jln2 cari pasal = RM 1500.00 --> 3rd week of 2010
5. PJJ = RM 3400.00 --> 1st week of 2010
6. Swmg class = RM250 --> Azam thn baru
7. Swmg suit = RM 200.00 --> no need old one ok lg


Hmm..pening..thats why harus blk kampung...pinjam pada emak..pinjam pd kakak..hahahah

Forgive

Forgive quickly...

Laugh often..

and

Never regret anything that made you smile..

Great time and great F.R.I.E.N.D.S

it has been 9 years
after a very long journey
finally we met again
tho we cant meet everybody
but
each n everyone is till in the heart


my dear lovely friends,
as time goes by
we still remain as a fren

F.O.R.E.V.E.R & E.V.E.R


Thank you for being there

P/s: will share our great time later k..i lebiu olss!!!

Sedih + Frust

Baru jer plan nk g tgk esok..

Tp...

Dah xde dah...

Uwaaaa......

Nak sgt tgk cite nih!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Citer ni pon missed out gak..
tp ttp rs mcm nk tgk..



Huhuhu...

Terpaksala cari DVD..

P/s: Sape ade? pinjam pls..hehehe

Saat Saat Terindah

Suke giler lagu ni..

after tgk citer ni..

P/s: xde kaitan sama ade yg idup org yg telah meninggalkan...

Andai Ku Tahu

Andai ku tahu….

Kapan tiba ajalku…

Ku akan memohon Tuhan tolong panjangkan umurku…

P/s: andai ku tahu...

Can I have 1 more Sunday tomorrow?

Today is Sunday...

it was a long wiken & tiring wiken...

Can i have 1 more Sunday tomorrow????

Pleaseee.......

I Don't Know

Once upon a time, i stepped to...

For this...



And, Alhamdulillah, finally i got this...



But unfortunately...

I don't know whether i can accept this offer or not..

P/s: as mentioned here ....

Foot Note:
Application sent - 15 Sept 2006
Result received - 25 Nov 2006
Offer Letter received - 8 Dec 2006

C.O.N.F.U.S.ED

Sgt Stress!!!!

if before this i'm sooo excited telling people bout this and this, but now i am soo wooried, sooo confused and critically need some space to take deep breath, relax and thing properly..in peace!!!!

why it is sooo difficult to decide this???

If i wanna somthing, i will go for it...n knowing myself, i know i can do it..but, this small decision may change my future..or may be, my lifestyle for these 2 years..or more...

Sometimes i think i have decided..but when i think twice, i am not confident at all..yes, this is wht i wanted..but my gut feeling seems said no..coz there are too many things need to be thought deeply..and too many things need to be considered wisely...work, time, energy and money of course...

And now, i'm getting confused again..*sigh*

P/s: i will not give up to seek Allah's answer.. Aminn...

1431 HIJRAH - Selamat Tahun Baru

Alhamdulillah..syukur masih dipanjangkan umur..azam baru xtau la ape..sbb azam tahun lepas pon ade yg x tercapai lagi..

Smoga tahun ni lebih baik & sempurna drp thn2 sebelum..n smoga impian yg lepas & akan datag dimakbulkan Allah

Org kata dalam 1 hari tu, pasti ade doa kite yg akn ditunaikan Allah.. Kalo di tnya ape yg sy nk sgt skarang, sy nak sgt sesuatu itu..Saya hrp Allah mendengar & menunaikannya & menentukannya yg terbaik di waktu yg terbaik..Aminnn...


P/s: Kalo Allah xtunaikan ape yg kite mohon, tak bermakna Allah x dgr doa kita, tp Allah nak bagi yang terbaik tuk kita..

Jabal Rahmah

Mak Sabah telefon..dorang tiba dr Kota Suci Mekah Jumaat hari tu...

Katanya:
"Fiza bila lagi?Mak dh doakan fiza di Jabal Rahmah.."

Saya:
Terkedu..xsangka, ada org titipkan doa buat saya di Rumah Allah..Thanks mak...


Mudah-mudahan doa mak makbul la... Aminnn :-)

P/s: Teringin sgt melawat rumah Allah..

Aku & A.M.A.R.A.H!

MARAH!!!

Pd org yg patut aku marah 1 thn dlu..

atau 2 thn dulu..

atau 3 thn dulu..

atau 5 thn dulu..

Tp kalo marah, ape yg aku dapat??

Jd, lebih baik memaafkan...n throw everythings' away..or i just disappear!!!

P/s: OK, pg amek wudhuk n solat...

Motivation is in yourself

Td ade 1 post dkt fb:

“i need sum motivation..very upset because of thisss failure..failure..failure..ishhhhhh”

Then I commented:

"Motivation is in yourself..be strong girl!!"

Coz I used to be in this situation..where I look up & down..left & rigt..in and out..just to find the miracle word.. strengths!!!!

Sometimes I think I dh nekad..but sometimes I still looking back..i wanna walk forward cz i don’t want turning back..but those things just didn’t fly away..

When I tell my frens to be strong..i’m actually telling myself to be stonger..or strongest..

Coz I know, the motivation is in myself!!!!

P/s: Go girl!!!!!

CouplesRetreat

Date: 12 Dec 2009

Show Time: 4.15 pm
Venue: Galaxy Ampang

Synopsis:
Malas nak cari..

Rea's Comment:
First time rs mcm tersalah pilih movie..mybe sbb unplanned kut..intro die best..oldish gittew..tp cerita ini sgt la xsesuai ditgk oleh org yg fikiran xdicemari lg (seperti saye..ya, itu sudah tentu :-p)...sbb byk adegan yg xmenyedapkan mate..tp muvi ni will benefit those yg baru kawen or facing problems in their marriage..the rest, xtau nk comment apa..kerana sy tidakla gembira dgn cerita ini..Astaghfirullah....

P/s: lesson learnt - len kali kene pilih betul2 muvi yg nk tgk..so that xde la rs frust bile keluar dr cinema..Ingat!!!!

The price I have to pay...

Dlm miting ade one of gm highlight the above sentence..hmm..

price = money

money = wallet

waaaa....need new one!!!! sbb mine was soooooo uzur...uzur2 pon, ni la wallet yg ku kelek kehulu kehilir :-)

dah lame gak cari tp xde yg berkenan..nk yg simple n murah (hehe..patutla xjumpe)..

sume sepesen jer..yg sebelum ni pon lbh kurang kt atas...haih, Bad Taste tul!! dsbbkan yg ats dk koyak, maka sy pon melawat la isetan after work(setelah melawat beberapa sedara mara kpd isetan before this)..

n skarang.....

~Sepesen gak lagi~

why the price i have to pay????sbb tibe2 terasa mcm pembaziran yg x perlu plak..with that price i might can buy 6 pieces of
or 35 pieces of which still good enuf to keep the money...n in fact i can save more money rite?

P/s: adakah saya pengguna yg bijak??owh, mungkin tidakk...

Mata Hati

Pagi td dkt LRT luar biasa ramai nyer..slalu 3 lane jer tp td berlane-lane..dlm hati kate"abisla lambat hr ni"..

tibe2 ade 1 pasangan yg kurang upaya lalu disebelah sy tanpa 1 suara pon..tp sy tau dorg mtk laluan..xde pon org bg laluan..sume buat dek jer..slalunye dorg bole ke depan gak...tp sbb crowded sgt they cant even move..

dlm hati sy ni memberontak nk suoh org bg lalu..rs mcm nk jer jerit suoh sume bg laluan..rasa mcm nak jer cuit bahu dorg suoh bg laluan..tp xtau la nape xde courage..huhuhu..byk kali angkat tgn n letak blk..kecewa dgn diri sendiri..utk buat kebaikan pon sy takut..

then tiba la tren kosong..sy cpt2 peluk makcik tu supaya org xlanggar/tolak die..pakcik kt depan makcik tu..ms tgh bersesak2 msk, tgn dorg terlepas..sy nmpak tgn makcik terkapai2 cari pakcik tu wpon sy pegang die erat dr belakang..n sy tgk pakcik tu pon pandang belakang cari wife die wpon hakikatnye die xnampak..ms tu sedih sgt tuhan jer yang tahu..

kagum sungguh sy dgn dorg..wpon dlm serba kekurangan, pakcik tu ttp berusaha n berjaya protect wife die (mcmtulah sepatutnyer lelaki kan?sbg ketua keluarga n lindungi keluarga)..dlm hati sy, bile smpai dlm tren nnt sy akan pgang tangan dorg n satukan drg blk..tp Allah maha menolong hamba-Nya yg memerlukan..dlm sekelip mata tangan pakcik n makcik tu bersatu balik..tanpa bantuan sesape pon...sayu..airmata sy bergenang..

mereka mungkin xdapat melihat dgn mata kasar..tp mata hati mereka lebih bersinar terang..laluan yg mereka nampak lebih jelas...kasih sayang mereka tidak ternilai..n xmngkin dapat dipisahkan mcm tu saje..


P/s: Tak guna ade mata kalau tak dapat melihat..tak gune ade telinga kalu tak mendengar..tak gune ade hati kalo tak dapat menilai...

Things that I M.I.S.S most

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1. Rempit to lecture

Ayah bg motor bcz my 1^st sem result was very bad (not that bad actually..but didn’t meet the target..ponteng class too much sbb xsuke naik bus..for all u know, me rempit to every where…bole kire dgn jari brape kali naik komuter/train yg sgt la crowded tuh..in away, its minimize the outing to tempat yg jauh2…hmm, thats why la me dah jadi minah rempit terhebat (hahaha..ye ye jek)

2. Sleeping during lecture

Yg ni not only myself ok..other people pon ramai..cume mybe me extremely ‘tertido’ dlm kelas yg lecture die very the slow mellow...

3. Ponteng Lecture

hmm…cannot describe by any words :-p..hahaha..nakal kan..

4. Participating in activity/event

for merit collection..mcm2 buat..sport, culture, art, rakan muda n etc..used to be ‘sepanduk girl’ which I can only recall when my fren uploaded gmbo dkt fb..used to be dancer for baksis n mlm kebudayaan (dapat gak blaja joget n zapin wpon me keras sajo..*wink*)..used to be ajk of kelab kebajikan for various activities..used to be Setiausaha Agung Rakan Muda UPM..n the most valuable experience was to be Program Director for BAKSIS Sabah 2004..the program that temukn us@@ (owh, its still part of my sweet story tho we are now separated :-p)

5. Playing games

hockey, volleyball, futsal etc for KTDI/Melati – 1^st year jer main volley n the rest main hockey..hmm, kire ok la sbb jd 1^st 11 player tuh..siap dpt opportunity jd stricker lg (bangga dgn diri sendiri plak..opss..over plak!!)..penah gak main futsal for KTDI..penah main pingpong, tennis, squash, bola baling tuk Top Melati..yg funnynyer, penah main softball tp runner jer sbb nina yg hit the ball…hahaha..

6. Meeting in Anggerek Room

Typical ktdian..i’m sure other ktdi’ans would understand..

7. Attending event in Dataran Melur

smtimes in rela n most of the time in paksarela…

8. Supporting KTDI in any matches esp sports match

“BERTAHAN JANJI MENANG!!!” tagline ktdi..n we ramai2 dok tepi padang sambil jerit2 and gelak2..konon nak psycho team lawan la tuh.

9. Outing to mines

Favorite place for movie n bowling, other than that, shopping J..yeayy!!! tp yg heran nyer, I never go to mines wonderland…

10.Dating

Despite of having busy schedule, this only being done during leisure/after any events (have to manage time effectively..wah..mcm la super duper bz girls plak smpi kene curi ms tuk dating) n definitely we went outside campus..where to go? Of course PUTRAJAYA..hehehe..

These are the things that I miss a lot and these were the things in mind when I wrote this . I wish I could repeat all but unfortunately, it is soooo impossible. There are things that I could never repeat at all..especially no 10..(hmm..im supposed to keep this deep down inside jer)..

But then, I’m pretty sure that there are some thing that i can do again i.e item 2 and 3 (atleast) InsyaAllah soon..but not with rempit anymore.. hehehe..

Frens dearie, pray for me ya…Aminnn….

P/s: To be continued

M.I.S.S

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*Pic with 1001 feelings/secrets/stories in the past, present & future*

P/s: To be continued

What's on your mind?

~WORK~

of couse i'm thinking of work..coz tommorow is Monday *sigh*

I dont hate monday..it just i do not like it much rite now..i dont like the Monday of tomorrow.. huhuhu..

Too many things to do..too many meeting to attend..

Ya Allah, please make my works easier..so that i'm able to finish it all on time..

~Aminnn~

P/s: Mix feeling comes again..haih, waiting for peaceful to overwrite this feeling..

Sweet Saturday

Today planned nk bgn lambat..

Nak Rehat + Nak Refresh

Tp akhirnya,

Terbangun Awal!!

Hu hu hu

TENSION!!!!

Teringin:
1. Nak g mines wonderland (3thn blaja kt sane, xpnh pg)
2. Nak cycling kt lake garden
3. Nak main layang2 kat kepong
4. Nak naik banana boat

P/s: huhuhu...pls bwk sy pg...

Twilight Saga New Moon

Date: 02 Dec 2009

Show Time: 5.20 pm
Venue: TGV KLCC
Accompanied by: Shikin Hussin, jumped into Iskandar, Kak Naz & Shahsa

Synopsis:
*Paste later..kerana too lazy to cari..

Rea's Comment:
Exceed my expectation coz it made me berbunge2 after the show's end till now ;-)..it was a 'merepek' story but seriously i'm fallin' for it..as u know, this is some sort of love story between the people who has diff. specialty/ability as human being (bella) with the vampire (edward) and in the same time she's been loved by not-sure-what-kind-of-spesis (Jacob)...at first, rs like sad story bile tgk bella was very frustrated n meratapi pemergian edward..smtimes rs mcm unfair sgt coz edward simply jer leaving bella.. n bella simply dumped jake when edward came back...in the middle br la ade action2 yg best (jake sgt cute ms nk jd wolf tu)..the conclusion is, Bella was sooo stubborn...Jake was soooo 'gagah perkasa'..and Edward was soooo lovely..

P/s: Who should i choose?? Jake = Gagah Perkasa, Edward = Lovely...hmmm.....