Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself.
You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend.
What is meant to be will end up good if what is not won't.
Relationships are worth fighting for but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting.
At times, people need to fight for you.
If they don't, you must move on and realise what you gave them was more than they are willing to give you.
Hopefully, people realise great things when they come around and don't lose something real.
Always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for.
i am going to drive myself crazy with all these thoughts in my head.
time is annyoing,
the year is almost over and then its gonna be jan, feb, mar, april, may, june and goodbye.
rarrhhhh,
can someone just invent a time machine?
i just need all of this to slow down.
hello there, whoever you are that is reading this update (:
its been abt 2 mths since my last entry in this blog,
and life has been up and down as it always is.
but you knw what, i'm gonna start talkin abt the happy stuff first.
for starters, i've turned 20.
yeaup, finally hit th BIG-TWO.
hahaha
the lovelies at work surprised me though by a stroke of chance i found out what was going on th day before; well to be exact it was because of a very silly boy, HAHA!
anws, celebrated w the PPH darlings too!
those sweet gals got made me photo frames w pictures back in the day as well as wishes.
so gonna bring them w me to NZ next year.
and the sweethearts are work bought me fragrance from L'occitane that smells so sweet, cos its honey w lemons <3
moving on the list, i got my Iphone 4 baby! ((:
super happy to have gotten that, hehe.
oh oh and i went for this year's F1 rocks concert on the 25th!
and let me tell ya, it was WICKED AWESOMEEE!
think, F1 cars + Daughtry +Adam Lambert!!
SCREAMMMMSSSSS!!
hahahhaa, well in short, it was one crazyyy night, but so much fun and i will always rmb it! (:
hmm, what else has been happening,
oh yes, i just highlighted my hair ytd ((:
spent th day w val at auntie fio's and now my hair is no longer boring and white!
yipppee!
well, the rest of my time is spent at work, tryin not to get myself too badly injured,
what can i say, bruises are part of the job. heh. :X
other than that, i'm just lookin forward to the trip to houston at the end of the year (:
its gonna be awesommeee! so gonna bring both my G11 and polaroid!
not gonna bother what mum may say if i do either, heh.
till next time then!
cherrio!
XOXO
hello world.
today was an awesome day,
finally satisfied a craving for the horfun from Ghim Mo and to top it off had an awesome tang yuan dessert in the lovely rain (:
lately I've been reminded ever so often that time,
time flies.
no matter what you think you can do to make full use of it,
somehow, some of it just slips right thru your fingers.
I'm turning 20 in less than an month,
people say you think a lot more when you get closer to your birthday each year,
think abt the year that went by,
the things you did and the things you left unsaid and undone.
I'm not sure if much has changed abt me - I'm still tryin to sort that out w myself.
But, i do know that things have changed,
people have left,
I have moved on to a new chapter of life,
and yet, sometimes the feeling is so surreal,
sometimes you don't know if you're living a lie;
or at least some lil' part of your life is one...
time is flying by again.
i can barely keep track of dates these days.
sigh.
its almost been 2 weeks already,
and some days i wake up and forget that anything has changed.
its just weird.
--
sometimes i wish life was like a movie,
one where everything; no matter how tough life can get,
in the end,
all works out;
no matter what.
--
somehow i think i don't realize what i'm doing to myself,
or maybe i do but the stupid part of me,
no matter what i try to do,
still wants to do things that way.
stupidity in the mind and heart;
my greatest obstacle.
I remember years ago,
someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love.
--
9 more months is all I have left here,
in abt 10 months,
its gonna be a whole new start,
with new beginnings come fear,
fear of the uncertain and unknown.
Dear Lord,
I ask that you calm the storm in this heart of mine.
for all the worries I carry w me,
can be eased if I just trust you Lord,
anything can be done,
all you need is my Amen.
and we all say goodbye at some point in life;
-
when someone passes on,
suddenly you seem to be reminded of them no matter what you do.
its almost as if you cant stop thinking about them.
they are in your mind everywhere,
even when you aren't thinking of them,
they just seem to pop right into your head.
-
its the second day,
managed to get quite a bit of rest,
and i'm really glad that i could help my dad so much more just becos i can drive.
i'm suddenly really worried about going abroad next year,
i know that these things are to be left in God's hands
but fears will still plague your mind.
that aside,
there are just so many things i was supposed to do this week
and now its just all outta th question.
so many things,
so little time,
i dont know what else i can do.
and right now, i'm really missing a lot of people,
wishing they were here to give me a great big hug.
but more importantly,
wishing they are happy and in the best of health.
--
I'd miss you loads grandma,
and the short drives home with you,
and every CNY i'd miss you more.
But i know,
you're in better hands now.
Goodbye grandma,
ILU <3
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.
--
as time passes,
i realize i may not be as brave as i think i am.
worries set in,
and it starts to cloud my judgment.
faltering and stumbling ain't the way to go,
i just can't afford to do this wrong.
--
Dear Lord,
set all these insecurities to rest,
give me the strength and ability to see this through,
from beginning to end,
be with me every step of the way.
Because with you,
i know i can do anything.
My tired heart
Is beating so slow
Our hearts sing less
Than we wanted
We wanted
Our hearts sing 'cause
We do not know
We do not know