When nothing is right and everything’s wrong

Truth is, everybody leaves. The ones you thought were gonna hold your hair back when you vomit on your wedding day, the ones who help plan your wedding and also the one you plan on marrying. They will all leave.

via -lisa's blog

still hoping for the better future . sad may not be the best word to describe my feelings . but im fine . yes i rly cnnt deny this , i miss having someone to talk to . i dnt knw about you , but letting go is hard . after all things we've been through , together . but it doesnt matter though . you know , you cant go on forever , at some point you should just stop . and ive promised to myself that i would make the best out of all the sadness . theres no point of weeping .
but im not happy , and there's ntg else i cld do .

So whats it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time

sounds lame but its so true

so hey , miss fira asked us to write a letter to our parents during english jst nw to show appreciation to our parents . and its so devastating tht i cldnt thnk of anytg to write , i drew hearts on the paper , i scribbled and doodled ... i was blank , ZERO on my mind . i fnd it rly sweet when i heard nurul telling miss fira abt posting th letter to her dad in Terengganu . and i read Aliah's letter during bio , i was this close to let tears roll down my cheeks . but nope , i got my act together . and kept calm . you see , even the little things could make me feel like @&#@(@!

no conclusion needed for this post xx

You cried , So I’m engaged to smile

hey there dear bloggers , it has been 4 days since us Muslims started fasting , on th frst day of puasa , i had to stay back for interact installation opening . i must admit , i am proud of myself for bearing th tiredness haha . no rly , it was very tiring . on thrsday and friday aswell . be proud . as you can see , up there , thts all ely's doing . she's gna submit tht design to the ED board as part of her port folio thngy majingy . haha i can see that ely , my baby gurr starting to be more rajin as she was pretty well known for her lazyness . ha-ha

and todaaay was sri aman's interact installation . The event ws a success . Good Job , ghythri & SarahD . i was too tired to stay so i went home early . sorry :s and the Dj was so annoying , our music stopped in th middle of our routine ~#@(&@ . but it was fun .

will update more xx

there's a thin line , to the dark side

hey i shld be stdying rght nw , but the tempation to turn around th chair and go onlne , gosh just couldnt help it . So , okay haha , yknw fr english test just nw , i chose th topic LIFE . yeah , the moment i saw that WORD . i was like , okay yes ! ive got alot to say , so why not . so haha without counting the words , i wrote the essay like nobody's bussiness , no srsly . so , i wrote smtg a little bit prvte there but who cares rght ? so here's a tiny bit of i what i wrote about LIFE . " To me , life is like living in a theme park .. " HAHA and yadaydaydya . okay i shld go stdy now xx

lucky me , ive been through hell ,
shortcuts , rocky roads . i know them well

did i cross the line ?

watched inception with lanee and ely yesterday after school , you guys should watch it , it ws THE SHIZZZ haha . i salute the director , no joke . i think im gna watch it again since i missed like 15minutes of th mvie , zz . and i havent wtchd eclipse yet , i knw so lame rght . pfft . and i am so looking forward to this friday :) God knows why .

You're waiting for a train ,

A train that will take you far away .

You can't be sure where it will take you ,

But it doesn't matter ,

Because we'll be together .

And it's not too long before you point it out

so hello there readers ,
i must admit 2010 has been the most busiest year so far , for me . my day was okay , woke up around 2 as i slept at around 430 last night haha , i couldnt sleep . so mm mum forced me to go to SACC Mall & PKNS , to get her stuffs -__- i still remember when i used to live in Subang where mymum would be like okay lets go to parade . and now , all i can hear is okay Sarah , SACC hari ni okay ? and yes ive moved to Shah Alam , section 8 to be exact . of course lah kan sacc , paling dekat .. but wtvr . i dnt rly care yknw . But its jst so annoying when i ask mymum to send me to ou , or Sunway or wtvr . she'd be like why ? jauh lah yaayadayada , i didnt ask you to move to Shah Alam right mader ? -_________- and if u havent noticed , i never mentioned mydad ke apa in this post , its bcse i dnt want to feel miserable when it comes to thnk abt dad wll be moving to Kota Kemuning soon . THANKS , now i have to live far faaar away from everyone else . why why why ~

Hi again , this is me . i just got home from school , went to my schl's musical night . it was okay . so heyy you guys must be excited that puasa is just arnd th corner , raya aswell . but not for me , i find that rather disturbing . i hate to have to think about where to celebrate raya this year , with whom , and stffs . yknw , i rly hate deciding things . it gets complicated and thats when fights wld occur . and ive always been the middle person . its so annoying . sad . i feel like an adult , to have to decide thgs that are hard to decide , i rly dnt knw how to put thse shits into words -____- dnt mind me . pfft . so okay , can i plse just skip this part ? alrght .

on the other handddd , cheer 2010 had just ended . i am so proud of my cheermates . Dstarz won Best Showmanship , Best makeup and fifth place overall (: i know , im proud of myself too . i mean we worked rly hard . worth all our tears , sweats etc ..

and oh , myfriends & I went to Kl live on wednesday night just to support Floor fever , how sweet right ? ;') eventhough floor fever gt eliminated , but itsokay , we still love them . they're still the best , and yeaaaaah haha hanna and lissa cried . hanna didnt realise tht th camera man ws like rght infront of her , ive warned her to like cover her face and stffs but she couldnt hear me as she ws busy emoing , aww :D butt yeaaah we had fun , hehe .

I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain

i never told you

There’s always going to be an occasional night when you break down and cry , because you know things will never be the same .

7am , 2bottles and the road

life has been okay for me , it ws hectic before , no rly , it ws rly hectic . ive been skipping school due to my lazyness but haha im nt saying tht i dnt skip schl no more , its just hah bahh who cares . and i am scrd shitless for open day but lucky me , cheer clinic falls on th same day as open day YEAY but tht does nt mean my mum wont be coming to school to see my class teacher , im scared tht my class teacher would tell mymum about me sleeping in class and shits hah i am SCARED , mymum wld be so pissed man . oh no :O

cheer 10 is in like approximately 10days :s DAMN but wth we're ready to rock th blue mats , yeah . okay wow i sound so confident , but hey being confident is not wrong , rght ? :) oh well .

its 1.27 am and i shall sleep now , ive got schl to attend pfft . goodnight &

Happy 18months Anniversary , love .

This can only be as good as we both make it

back to square one

yes , you .

you know tht ill always love you , eventhough we're not together anymore but i always knw tht you yourself believe that deep down inside your heart that i am always yours . and because we've prmised each other shits rght ? and you know im not that type of girl . its just , haih its hard to explain . but one thing fr sure , you dnt wnt to be w me now and only me myself and i , know why and you know without me yr life wld me much easier . so . just . leave .

you know what ? i need time