I look thrilled and Adam looks terrified. Yep pretty much correct.
This picture is the day we found out. Well not exactly. Let's back up. I was very hopeful this month, which I suppose is no different from any month, and decided to take a test on Tuesday night before my monthly cycle expected day on Friday. So, It was 4ish days before we could expect a positive. And I took the test after work when I got home about 10pm since I was so curious. Those are major no-no's of trying to conceive. Testing too early leads to unnecessary heartbreak and always test in the morning. But I was totally over the rules. We had company too who was staying with us for the week. So, Adam was out in the kitchen with Kate Perry talking about the day. I'm am doing my thing in the bathroom and see a faint second line. Let me tell you, I've taken hundreds of these things by now and have NEVER seen any sort of extra line in there. But I'm tilting it and looking in the light and under the light and every which way to see if my tired eyes are betraying me. I've planned 50 different ways of telling Adam we are pregnant over the past months and none of them included what happened. I called him in the bathroom to see our test and first he thought I was nuts. But I didn't usually show him my negatives because he could usually tell my the prompt tears. :) So he was super skeptical. We are both sitting on the toilet analyzing this little test and laughing hysterically. Not at all what I pictured! I'm fairly confident there is something there and Adam decides for him to believe it we need to wait until Friday. So what do I do? Test every day until then without showing him our positives and let him wait until his chosen date of Friday. Real mature, I know. Well it was positive again! We went out to a celebratory dinner and just talked about our hopes and dreams. It was truly amazing. I have much more to share about the pregnancy and life in general but I wanted to get this out first. So, if you end this post in tears like I did many, I'm sorry and would love to talk to you about it some time. I've been there and I feel your hurt. It's hard and painful and most people can't understand the hurt and throw phrases about timing at you. I know. It's not helpful. If you ever want to talk, I'm here.
