it doesnt wear out, it doesnt decrease

you're somewhere where you cant hear me


even if i hold out my hands,
no matter how much i call out
you're always far from me

even though i tell it not to go,
even though i tell it to stop
my heart keeps going towards you


cant have you...cant forget you

what did i do?? can u please just tell me?? i dnt want to continue like this

hmm haven updated for a long while...
cos i was being a lazy sarm
haha
hmm...had leadership camp frm mon to wed..super sian and the food suck s big time
hahas
we aso had to do many many many squats..
hahas
on thur went out with aka and chua
aka came all the way to my house cos he had nothin better to do..
hahas
so nice right...NOT..hahas
den went to marina and played house of dead..
den while waiting for chua we slack at subway...
he took so long to come la..
watched ghost of gf past or smth..hahas
its a kinda of sick show which aka enjoyed hahas
the ending is super crap la..hahas
sian today havin church camp...I DNT WANT TO GO!!!!!

i gave and gave the best of me but couldnt give you what you need


u control yourself around me...
always careful..why???
what did i do???
what did i say??
can you please just tell me..cos the pain of not having you close is.....
its like you're trying to distance yourslef..its like you dnt wan me around you..
its like you're starting to hate me....
and i know eveything is my fault...
no matter what i do..i wont ever be good enough for you...
so im letting go...
it doesnt mean it doesnt hurt

you walked away you stole me life
but no matter how i try... i cant hate you anymore

cuz im dying just to see you again

omg i just lost to ronald....
hahas i cannot play late game la...
early game i own him...den late game he own me....-.-
but my centaur early and mid game dam fat hahas
I PASS ENGLISH
hahas
pro right....
...nth to say le..hahas


i tried to laugh it off but i've made things worse
you were the first to give i was the first to ask

me and my bright idea...
taken it too far...
what now??? guess its all gone...
am i thinking too much???
i hate this feeling...whatever it is...
cant help but think that everything is my fault..

cause everything inside doesnt come out right

you know what..
tmr MYE starts...hahas
and guess what...i haven study....
but its ok...im pro at last minute studyin...
so shld be able to pass at least one hahas
ok time for me to study le..
sian....
good luck for MYE ppl...

i'm sorry...been acting like a jerk lately...
putting myself first instead of you...
but i promise its all going to change...
you'll see...i promise....

seems like somethings just arent the same

aka is studying so cannot msg him..hahas
he so guai right...JUST KIDDING
he veryvery evil de hahas ok la after he cry...aka ver nice ok
im suppose to msg him at 6...if i remember hahas
tmr got 4 by 1 hahas
can skip amath and physics WHOOOO
hahas
isnt that just so cool...hahas
ok rents comin back liao...
which means i have to stop..awww...
hahas

imfallingapart.
imbarelybreathing.
withabrokenheartthat'sstillbeating

there's something different...
didnt wana face it...
but i just cant go on hoping for the impossible
no matter how hard i try...this feeling just wont go away
this stupid indescriable feeling.
why does everythin you do seems right..seems perfect?
why cant i let this feeling go?
whywhywhywhywhy

Under your spell again I cant say no to you

thesewoundswontseemtoheal
thispainisjusttoreal
there'sjusttomuchthattimecannoterase

whydoiloveyousomuch?whydoiloveyouevenaftersolong?
ithoughttimehealedallwounds.whythendoifeelsoemptywithoutyou?
whydoesyoupresencemakesmeforgeteverythingandeveryonearoundme?
whycanticontrolmyselfaroundyou?whydoesyousmilemakemeweak?
whydoeseverythingyoudoseemsoperfecttome?whycantifightthisfeeling?
why?
cosiloveyou...always.have.and.always.will

please take away my pain

i didint go trainig today...too lazy..
hahsa im such a lazy person
anw tmr gng out with aka and others...
dunnno hu the others are...
AND WE ARE GNG TO WATCH COMING SOON NO MATTER WHAT
i dont care humph....
hahas
ok im being lame...
i'll stop now...

whatdoyoudowhensomeonedontloveyou
theyshowyoualltheirfeelingslikeyou'reafriend
justafriend

holdmyhandcosiamscared
holdmyhandandpromiseyou'llneverleave