There’s a park off Highway 90, and I mean right off Highway 90, in an otherwise blighted and heavily industrial part of town that most people only scream past on their way from Missouri City to the Inner Loop, where Highway 90 abruptly turns into Main Street, cars skidding to a rough stop at the traffic light where the three-lane highway slams into Loop 610. The park is in a part of town that folks once would have said outright was a “bad part of town.” These days, we say things like, “It isn’t a great part of town,” as if this absolves us from the judgments we’re making. This park overlooks a slag heap, or should I say the slag heap overlooks the park? Really it doesn’t matter either way, because the end result is a park filled with lakes and flowers and trees and odd wooden sculptures and shaded trails that overlook an absolutely massive slag heap. It is, to me, one of the most beautiful places in Houston.
I often walk my dog in this place, which is formally called a “waterhole” because it’s really just a retention basin retrofitted into a nearly 300-acre park, and marvel at how even when Houston attempts to be deliberate about beautifying itself, the result is less silk-purse-from-a-sow’s-ear and more lipstick-on-a-pig (if we’re employing porcine metaphors). I, for one, love the idea of lipstick on a pig, like a sassy little sow that just wants to have some fun for once. Sometimes I think about bringing other people here and showing them what I think is one of the most beautiful places in Houston, but then I wonder if they’d struggle with the whole slag heap aspect. It kind of has a tendency to photobomb every pretty view, and when it doesn’t, the surrounding industrial parks and apartment complex Dumpsters share the load.
This is what I like about Houston, however. I love it here because Houston is ridiculous and life is ridiculous. Houston is not a serious place. Houston is not for serious people. Our mayor gets into Facebook slap fights with the county judge. It’s the largest U.S. city without zoning or a true public transit system or an unbroken series of sidewalks. The Inuit have multiple words for different kinds of snow; we have feeder roads, because we needed to create new words for all of the different kinds of freeways and highways and tollways and loops that are as common to us as snow is to the Arctic Circle. This place is an absurdity. This place is a circus oddity. There is no reason why this should be the fourth largest city in the United States. It makes absolutely no sense, and you can’t appreciate things like a slag heap overlooking a gorgeous public park then you have no business living here or understanding this place at all.
And listen: Houston will never do anything about that slag heap. If this were a serious place, maybe there would not be a slag heap overlooking a gorgeous public park, but it took Houston 30 years to build the damn park in the first place. Do you think Houston cares if there’s also a slag keep next-door? No! You should be thankful you got the park at all.

The Houston of my childhood was one that architectural critics and traveling writers described as gaudy and decadent. That Houston is long gone. This Houston does not value beauty unless it can generate income. Houston’s old old money were notably charitable towards arts institutions and public parks — things that made the city somewhat tolerable despite being located largely in a hot swamp. The new old money and new money alike have lost interest, with a few notable exceptions, in beautifying their city or otherwise making it more inhabitable. And why should they be trying to make it more inhabitable when they’re busy buying second homes in Aspen and private jets to take them to their new ranch in Montana and other performing other acts of conspicuous consumption designed purely to show all of the other fancy rich people how rich they are? Rich people used to invest in Houston because they liked to show off too, of course, but they also wanted people to come live here and do business here; we are kind of stocked up on people and business these days.
Our civic pride seemed to peak around Hurricane Ike and started to really erode after Hurricane Harvey, when it became clear that the city that has always flooded is only one more big flood away from the dams breaking for good. Why invest in a place that’s doomed? Extract what you can out of it now. Beautifying the city seems to make as much sense as putting makeup on a pig you’re going to slaughter.
Old Houston was, in some ways, a more serious place. You kind of had to be serious to even make it in this malaria-ridden swamp to begin with. This was not a place where life was easy — and then came air conditioning and cars. Suddenly, Houston was awash with people who never knew the difficulties of walking down Main Street in early September when it’s still 100° outside and you’re wearing wool head-to-toe (your summer wool, sure, but still) and schlepping your wool-encased, sweat-drenched body from one store to another for your errands because other than street cars and horses there was no other real alternative. Those are the people who thrived and survived in old Houston.
New Houston is soft and easy. New Houston has an underground tunnel system connecting most of the office buildings and skyscrapers so that no sane person has to set foot on a sidewalk during the day, despite the tunnels’ propensity to flood at the slightest gully washer. Our housing prices are low because we know there is no real attraction otherwise. Our grocery stores are large and inviting. Our freeways are widening more by the year. We are growing soft and complacent and we are now a city for the soft and complacent. I should know as I myself am soft and complacent. This is how Houston shapes us and we shape it.
When you yourself are not a serious person designed to tackle serious challenges and survive serious situations, then it is silly for you to otherwise take the world too seriously. This is especially true because when you’re taking things too seriously, you miss out on all the joy and the beauty of life.

This evening I was walking through the park on one of its more remote trails. One side of the trail runs alongside a giant warehouse complex surrounded by chain-link fences topped with razor wire. The lots around the warehouses are littered with industrial parts I don’t recognize and so I can’t tell you what they are, just that they are huge and metal, some of them have paint and some of them don’t. There are caterpillars and bulldozers and all kinds of other earthmovers sitting around the warehouse yards. I think they have something to do with the giant slag heap next-door, I’m not sure.
On one side is this slag heap: these giant gray, pyramid shaped mountains of junk concrete and other earthen debris, and they are so perfectly symmetrical and they are so hideous. And on the other side of the trail, a turn of the head away, the sun is glittering on the lake below and the golden hour light is filtering through the pine and magnolia trees and tall meadow reeds are waving in the breeze, and it’s all just so beautiful: the slag heap and the lake and the giant plants and the little fuzzy cattails down by the water and the kudzu that’s slowly creeping up and consuming some of the trees and the wild, lanky, black-eyed Susans and the drone of noise from Highway 90 competing with the evening thrum of the cicadas as they buzz throughout the thickets of trees and reeds. How ridiculous that they both exist here together side-by-side like this. How absurd it is that any of us are here at all.
There is also a slight sense of danger and disarray in the park, set where it is amongst lonely industrial parks and silent Vietnamese convents (also surrounded by razor wire) and the backs of squalid-looking, low-slung apartment complexes with more old mattresses than cars in the parking lots. My dog and I are usually the only people or pets on the trails, although sometimes a few folks can be found fishing on the lake’s distant dock. There’s always the sense that some sort of strangler or pervert or even just a run-of-the-mill dead body could be around the next curve, hiding in the thick, dense bushes. Today on my walk, I found a pair of used men’s underwear decorated with a Christmas light pattern hung jauntily from one of the park entrance gates. It was next to a pile of either dog or human feces; either way it was a big pile.

I’ve often wondered why crime novelist David Lindsey set his most popular series of thrillers in Houston rather than his home city of Austin — he’s never even lived in Houston, though he did visit Houston homicide detectives routinely as he built out background for his books — but I suppose the answer is simply that the kinds of gritty, salacious murders he depicts in A Cold Mind or Mercy just don’t seem like they could’ve taken place in a the rolling hills of a small town like Austin, especially not in the 1980s. In a city like Houston? Absolutely.
“This would be a great place to hide a body,” I’ve often to myself as I’ve walked around the park. I have literally never thought that while hiking up Mount Bonnell or strolling around Zilker, and not just because there’s usually too many people around.
My father moved to Dallas over a decade ago, something I regarded as a huge betrayal at the time, even though he was from Fort Worth to begin with. A few years ago during a visit back home, my home, not his anymore, we were walking along Main Street downtown, melting in the heat, dodging piles of feces as some of the world’s most beautiful buildings glittered high above us. The New York Times architecture critic Ada Louise Huxtable called the twin jet-black trapezoids of Pennzoil Plaza “a work of art” in a 1975 article about the skyscraper which is still my favorite among our ever-expanding skyline.
“If Houston has found the formula for turning prosperity and growth into beauty and elegance, it is indeed the city of the future,” she wrote. Houston…has not done this. And yet here we are, almost 50 years later, still the city of the still-to-come, the prophetic city, as Stephen Klineberg likes to call us, a microcosm of America’s own absurdist future.
My eyes are ever upward when I’m downtown, craning my neck to find the gracious dome of the Esperson Building, delighting in the postmodern giddiness of the Dutch-gabled TC Energy Center (only its most recent name, known by too many to count since it was built in 1983). My father’s are more observant, guiding us around unknown liquids on the sidewalk or people sprawled out asleep, high or dreaming.
“I’d forgotten how gritty Houston is,” he said, chuckling. I misheard him.
“How pretty Houston is?” I replied, surprised at the compliment.
“No, gritty.” He laughed. “Gritty, not pretty.”
I smiled, shook my head. “What’s the difference?”

















