Forget the past… let’s not live in yesterday’s world… Are these words supposed to be comforting? I was once asked if I would let go of the past, change it from the way it used to be, provided I get the chance to do so… it was my immediate reaction to say no, that my past has shaped me the way I am today. I would not let go the people I had met, who changed the course of my life. It made me think really hard ever since the incident, only a few seconds of my life… sometimes I have the urge to turn back time and change what I did, how I’d embarrassed myself, when I think back to the funny, weird episodes. But there is a yearning to improve myself and become a better person.
Life like a wooden bridge
If I reveal my most inner thoughts, I may feel very exposed. There is a saying that goes: ‘Everyone holds a secret of their own’, but what I will reveal now shouldn’t be classified as a secret. It should be respected and given many thoughts to because… it is how I see life.
Life is like a wooden bridge, different lengths for each individual, yet it is only one bridge, with everyone walking together. The wooden bridge is shaky for all but firm at times. The instability of the bridge represents the frailty of our lives, and the crowded walk symbolizes to the fragility of our identity. We take a step forward each day, every time we experience something new. At times, there may be missing planks and we may fall through. This is when, in our lives, we met with failure, disappointment, unable to move forward… In our Christian lives, God is not only at the end of the bridge waiting for us with open arms, He is with us every move we make. He guides us through the right path, and in this case, He helps us to avoid the missing floorboards or uneven holes so we could steer clear of being stuck. Even when we do fall, there are always dangling ropes to pull us back on track. This is us climbing back up after a heavy downfall. Keep praying, keep believing…
Holy, holy Lord of lights Holy, holy God of might
[We lift our hearts and sing, praises to the king.]
Holy, holy are your ways Worthy, worthy to be praised
[We lift our hearts and sing, praises to the king.]
Then sings my soul, my Saviour God, to thee, how great thou art…
Life is like a wooden bridge…
The breath-taking view from the hotel window during sundown
The wandering goats of Sur(opposite our house) These are just some photos taken so far in my holiday here in
1 more day till Christmas!! Countdown~ May we all be blessed with the birthday of Jesus Christ.
When you think of Christmas, what’s the most important factor of this celebration for you? Is it the present’s distributions, the joy of giving and receiving? Is it a day for you to spend time with your family and friends? Is it a time for catching up and reviewing the past year’s actions?
Whatever your view is, this is a season of love. It’s about sharing and caring, forgiving and forgetting, letting people know that you love them and how special they are to you.
Forget Santa, forget reindeers… this Christmas, we will celebrate love, friendships and many more. It is a real blessing to have you in my life.
Since the day Jesus sacrificed Himself for us, true love was released.
[Christmas [‘krismes] n. (also ~ Day) yearly celebration of the birth of Jesus Christ, 25 Dec.]
Your life in Christ can be the greatest story ever told…
Praying is always better than wishing upon a star.
Merry Christmas and have a blessed day.
Love, Your Sister-In-Christ
I was advised by a close friend to stop listening to our modern music today and focus on the Lord, praying to Him and loving Him. I had a lot of thinking done and realised that if my faith had been stronger, I would have no doubts to do exactly as she advised. I would sacrifice this want of music readily, without thinking twice. But the other part of me thought that I would still remain faithful and loyal to God even when I’m listening to those songs. Some songs are terribly written or sung, but these are God’s given talent, is it not? Maybe most of them are, but in some cases of insults and swearing… they gotta go! So, I prayed to God to ask Him for guidance that I can make the right choice for my belief. It wasn’t supposed to be difficult – and the answer may seem obvious to you. Last night, I had a dream. Was it a message from God? I prayed that He would give me a sign to do the right thing and to answer my prayer so I’ll no longer be in doubt. In my dream, I lied, I shot a person (named Lucas – don’t ask me why, but I remembered that.), I sinned terribly. Then, after all that, I prayed to the Lord, what is happening to my faith? Why am I doing all these things I know are wrong? Then I woke up. Frightfully, I feel as if this is an answer to my prayer, but I don’t know how to interpret it. Recently, I feel as though I am putting other things on top of my Christianity priority. Please pray for me that I will get back on track in my dedicated Christian life. I need advices from all of you reading this. Thank you!
As the usual mornings in Miri, I woke up early today but instead of going jogging with my Uncle Frederick, Lynn Xuan jiejie and Jas, I read the Laurel Shadrach Book 2. Lynthia didn’t go as well. When they returned, we had breakfast (Maggi mee) and watched Legal Entanglement. After that, we watched Initial D. It was a great movie!! I have to admit- yes, I did cry in the sad part, where Jay and the girl cried. I also fell in like with
Dec 9th, Friday
In the morning, we went to King Seafood for breakfast. I had ‘Chow Ju Mien’ and wheat grass. Next, Yiyi (Aunt Nora) took Mum, Jas, Ivy and I to KK bookstore for us to buy some books. I took the chance to search high and low for English written books. In the end, I bought 4 revision/textbooks – Add Maths, Science, Biology and Maths- All Form 4 books. After that, we went to Parkson, where we did some shopping and met Tommy (our dad’s cousin’s son). We had an enjoyable time – he treated us in eating McDonalds, took us bowling.
That night, we had gathering at the Goh’s house. Jinn Wei’s mum cooked a lot of mouth-watering dishes. Moving on, after a few drinks later, we went back to Lynthia’s house and everyone just did their own things. Group C practised their dance, which they were going to perform. The rest of us Group A and Bs hanged out in the study room, taking photos and making video clips, before the Vitamin girls joined us. Looking forward to a wonderful last day in Miri the next day! Good Night~
Dec 10th, Saturday
Stayed home most of the morning, but at around 11am, Lynthia, Hui Ning and I went to Boulevard. I called Jinn Wei but he was busy at the cybercafe. So, the three of us had lunch at the foodcourt, me treating them their food and Lynthia treating us our drinks. I had Soursop Juice, Hui Ning had Honeydew and Lynthia had Watermelon. We had lots of fun talking and enjoying the food.
We then went around the shops, shopping for presents we could give one another. But, not before I called Jinn Wei again. He would join us at around 2pm. Hui Ning bought hair bands for me and Lynthia bought a bracelet with the word – Peace. I bought two rings and a bracelet for the three of us as a symbol of our cousinship. S L and M.
When Jinn Wei arrived, we did some more window shopping, went to the arcade and had lots of fun. 
We ended the trip with some photo taking – a tradition since the start of the year.
After Uncle Frederick picked us up, we went to Parkson for a quick walk before going to Maxim for dinner – Grandma’s treat. Before that, by coincidence, we met Linda! Had a bit of talk and took some photos.
Then, it was off to dinner! The food was Delicious!! Yum!! I managed to finish a whole dish of bitter gourd and even ate a little piece of chilli, given by Jinn Wei.
Before the end of the night, all of us went to Taman Awam for a fantastic last night out.
At around
Dec 11th, Sunday
Everyone went out for breakfast. Jinn Yuan koko joined us as well and he drove us there and back. It was quite an experience to “endure” his driving, whilst listening to Jay’s songs. Later that morning, “Big Uncle” drove us to
Photos have been deleted due to a very good reason
Dec 3rd, Saturday
Today we began our journey at around
Dec 4th, Sunday
Woke up, had a refreshing shower, and ate noodles for breakfast. We continued our long journey today, from
Dec 5th, Monday
My cousin, Lynthia, took me to her Leo Club Activity today, to visit a home for the disabled. Wearing Lynn Xuan jiejie’s Leo T-shirt, I felt as if I belonged. It was an awesome trip, and I was very touched to see how Leo is helping the needy. At first, I was shocked to see the disabled people, and my heart cries for them. But, I know God will bless them and everything will be fine. We played games and gave presents... well, they did, and I just sat there and contributed by clapping hands. However, it was one of the most amazing experiences I’d ever had, especially when Lyn’s friend had a “conversation” with one of the disabled teenage boy. I don’t know how to describe the miracle happening before my eyes but all I can say is that it touched me so deeply how the boy could try to express how he feels even though his words were slurred and he was trying so hard. Also, I admire Lyn’s friend for his kindness and how he handled the situation. It was quite hilarious though… After the visit, we returned home, went out for a while, for some “window shopping” and the rest of the afternoon is quite a blur. In the evening, Ning Jie, Lynn Xuan Jiejie, Jas, Lynthia, Hui Ning and I went for steamboat at Michael’s Steamboat. I was quite disappointed when I thought Jinn Wei wasn’t coming but he did turn up, so that was great. We had a great dinner, with everyone contributing a little bit of cooking, except for me… *grin*... We took lots of photos with three different cameras, and the hilarious part was taking turns with a photo with Jinn Wei. It was as if he was a famous person, and we were all fighting for a chance to be in a photo with him. But of course all except for Ning Jie, after all, she’s his sister. Hehehe… After that, Jinn Wei left, and we had ice cream for dessert. Everyone had Chocolate, whereas I had Raspberry flavoured. I had a wonderful time and how I wish for a repeat. After dinner and a brief visit to Boulevard, we returned home… bed sweet bed… Good Night~
Dec 6th, Tuesday
Today, 16 of us went to Bintulu. Lyn’s family, Ning’s family, my family, Ning Jie and Mama (grandma) all squeezed into 2 cars (Odessey and Serena). We started at around 6.30am but only arrived in Bintulu at around 11am because we took the new road and found out it was closed after travelling far down it. We stayed in Parkcity Everly Hotel, in four deluxe rooms. In the afternoon, we went for haircuts, before resuming for some shopping at DPS – 20Sen. Again, I didn’t buy anything. I was really down and disappointed because I couldn’t meet up with any of my friends. We went to Medan Jaya and had dinner at the restaurant (which I had forgotten the name). My mood cleared with an enjoyable “supper” with Lynthia and Hui Ning. We dined at the Parkcity Everly Hotel’s eating place – not the restaurant… and we had heart to heart talks… after all, there were lots to catch up on – the Goss, the life… It was my treat, and we really had lots of fun. Then, it was photos time, setting the timer and posing in the lobby… *grin*. After passing some time in the room, it was lights out time. I shared the room with Ning Jie, Jas and Lynn Xuan jiejie. Hui Ning had the connecting room so she, Ning jie and I talked till late
Dec 7th, Wednesday
Woke up at
This is only a 5-day entry of my holiday. I will continue the rest soon…. Soon. :)
