I STILL CAN'T LET YOU GO

I don't know what happen to me, you've been running through my mind for the past few days. I REALLY MISS YOU A LOT, YEAH I MEAN A LOT. Memories is the best thing you ever gave me but I'm greedy, I want more. Every night before I sleep, I will want to send you goodnight messages. I even type all that out. But I just don't have the courage to send it to you. Its the same in the morning. I wanted to send you a morning message, but I just lack of that courage. Thinking that you might feel irritated by my text. I tried very hard to forget you. Real hard, but I still can't. What should I do now? I'm afraid that even if I waited, you wont be back. But what if you're back and I didn't wait? I'm so confuse now. I still love you, I can't let go yet. All I ask for now is to know whether you still love me anot. My heart and mind is in serious mess now.

IT'S TIME TO LET GO NOW

I'M MISSING A PERSON LIKE I NEVER DID BEFORE

Suddenly, all my friends seems to be gone. Who is really there when I really need a listening ear? You have been running through my mind alot of times recently. I mean yeah, really a lot. I still remember the first time you hold my hand. It feels great. I thought you would be the guy that will love me like no one else did. But things turn out in the other way round. I'm still waiting for you. But I think I know your answer. I watched a show and its about marriage. Suddenly, I kept thinking of you. Why isit so? I don't know either. I really want you back but I think its impossible. You seems to be moving on quite far away now and I'm still on the same place awaiting for your return. I think you regretted loving me, or even knowing me. I should leave you alone now. I'm serious and I think it would be hard. Go find a new love and find happiness (: GOODLUCK

I'M SPEECHLESS FUCKER -'- NO COMMENTS TO WHATEVER YOU DO. JUST FUCK OFF MY LIFE FROM TODAY ONWARDS, TYVM.

GOODBYE LOVE (':

GOODBYE MY LOVE
Finally, I've made this decision. Letting you go and not hold you back from your happiness.Well, find a better that suits you well kay? I miss those days, but I miss you more than anything. It may be tough for me but I have to go through it. I need to learn how to be independent. From this second onwards, no one will control you, no one will keep giving you calling bothering you, no one will wake you up from your sleep, no one will bother you anymore. I swear. I don't think you still love me, after so long maybe you seen better girls and attracted to them. Go and find them and find your happiness, I won't stop you anymore. I would be your burden or anything anymore, I will leave your life and you'll be free. I have so many things to tell you but its not that important anymore. So its useless saying all that now. Goodluck for your N's, and all the best in the future. All the best, you have my wishes (:

IHATETHIS

Okay, my mood now is seriously no good. Crying for the past 2 hours and still counting. I'm really afraid of losing you, I donno why. I have so many things to tell you but I donno from where to start. I can feel you drifting away from me, and I'm afraid to know if you still love me or not. Am I really that unlucky? Whenever I'm in a relationship, I'm always got dumped by guys. WHY? After meeting benjamin, things changes. Well, in both good and and bad ways. In good way is that I've found someone who love me more than how much I do, and is always worrying for me. In bad way is that I've fallen to deep into him, that's why I'm so hurt now. I donno what changes you overnight. Just after I accpeted you and things start to change, not for the better but for the worse. Everynight I'm thinking of you, without fail. Everyday I'm expecting for your text. No matter what, you are on my mind 24/7. We now talk lesser, meet lesser and care for each other lesser. I miss you, I really do. I don't have any other words to describe my feeling now. Depressed? Sad? Angry? Paranoid? Whatever, I got a feeling that you will leave me soon but I still wanna believe that you still love me. Do you? If by giving you more time to think and after that we will be together, I willing to give you the time. But this time is that I have high chance of losing you. I know the smile I see on your face is fake, you were never happy with me. Am I right? I don't need anything from you but just your love. I want you to love me wholeheartedly will do. That's all I wish for. Beause if you really were to love me, all the happiness will be here. I donno if I'm able to keep you with me, I really need you in my life. I know saying all those giving you alot of stress, but that's what I feel. I like the way you hold my hand. Everytime I'm happy and proud to tell others that my boyfriend is you, Benjamin. Why? Because I trust you, I trust that you won't break my heart or make me sad. I'm always smiling when I talk to others about you. Do you have any idea how sad I was when you started ignoring me and neglecting me? I know you are left with no choice but I can't bear to see us like this. We aren't like this, we use to be very sweet and a couple that everyone is jealous about. I miss talking to you on the phone, I miss smsing you, I miss when you spam my wall telling me how important I'm to you, I miss when you tell me how many sticks you have smoked, I miss you giving me wakeup call regardless of afternoon nap or for lesson, I miss you looking into my eyes and give me the sweetest smile.Do you miss all that? I hope you do, I donno why you have second thoughts of having relationship, did you lose trust in me? Or isit that you are attracted to other girl already? I'm thinking too much, I know that but usually those really happen. I don't wanna to lose you, I want to try a lasting relationship with you. May I ? Iloveyou boy

BenjaminYuen; this is for you♥

I'm feeling sososo upset and unhappy. I've finally made up my mind to start another relationship because as time passes, he let me regained the confidence and trust in me. But suddenly he tell me he needs time. Its not that I can't give you time is that I'm very curious what is the thing that you needed time, you didn't tell me but I want to know. I'm afraid things turn out like my ex, I don't want to get hrut anymore. Among those people, I have the strongest feeling in you, yes you Benjamin. When I first met you, ofcourse I feel kindda shy ._. but after that I feel secure with you. I don't know why maybe is because I feel that you can protect me. I enjoy talking on the phone with you for hours and not getting tired, I enjoy staying up damn late at night just to talk to you, I enjoy spamming your wall and how you spam my wall, I enjoy calling you and being disiao by friends, I enjoy recieving wake up calls from you regardless of morning calls or afternoon nap. I really miss you boy. Not talking to you is like killing me :/ Yeah I'm serious, I'm always serious in relationship. Please don't disappoint me, because I REALLY LOVE YOU ♥