Loneliness

To you:

I'm sorry.
I'm starting to feel lonely without you.
But, I can't turn back the time.
Its over between me & you.
I wish I could love you like the way you love me.
I just simply can't. I tried. But, I failed.
I won't forget the times we had together.
You are great.

How I wish I could tell you about myself before we get attached. Everything is too late.
I rather tell you now than never.
It's up to you to hate me. I'll accept that. It's all my fault. I admit.

Although, we were together for a short period of time, I will always treasure those little things.

I will always remember the pudding, the pisang, kambing biri-biri, giler, sewel, belo, the chocolate, hitam manis.

I will always remember your love for me.

I'll always remember the neck.

I'll always remember the smell of your lotion.

I will always remember our first salah target kiss.

Admiralty park would be memories. Its hard to find someone like you who really love & care about me.

I'm lying to myself if I continue this relationship. That's the reason for the break-up.
I can't be with you but my heart is thinking about someone else. I can't lie to you.
That's why I tell the truth although it's a bit too late.
I know I should tell you before. But, I'm only human. I'm not born perfect. I do make mistakes. I'm sorry again for breaking your heart. I know you love me. Thanks for everything.
I appreciate it.

One last kiss from me to you. Muacks!



I'm sitting here
Thinking bout
How I'm gonna do without
You around in my life and how am
I gon' get by I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights You want the truth
Well girl im not alright
Feel out of place and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind

So tell me how you feel (I'm lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (I think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like I dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday I die)
Wish I was dreaming but its real (when I open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again

I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life

So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time, so lonely)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again

HEY!

Sorry for not really updating my blog. I have no time. Seriously, I have no time. I am busy working at Suntec City from 19 Feb to 25 Feb.And, I will be working at Isetan Scotts from 26 Feb onwards. Duh! I need time to rest and spend with my friends.

My school friends and I planned for an outing on 10 March. But, I'm afraid, I can't make it. I miss them.

I'm sick. Flu & cough. Duh!

Let me update about myself. I'm waiting for Poly admission. I really hope I will get Nursing at NP. I got 3 new friends - Syzwe & Mimie.

I had lots of fun with Syzwe. He is fun & interesting. Kinda weird, sometimes. But, I enjoy spending time with him. I'm not going to put a picture of him. Because he's too cute. Way cute than me. Hmmph! I envy him. Hahaha.

I got a new sister. Her name is Mimie. I love her because she's pretty & hawd. Hahaha.

That's for now, sexy boys & girls. I love you. Muacks!

HEY!

Its been a long time since I've last updated. I was busy working at Parkway Parade. I hardly spend my time at home this few days. And today, I'm at home, enjoying.

There's nothing interesting happened this few days. I've got no mood. But I was only shocked when Azizul, my long lost friend asked if I'm sick. He said I look thinner. Duh! I don't think so. Sorry to my taggers if I've not reply to your tag. I was busy. Thanks for tagging & keep on tagging.

Thanks for reading. I love all of you. Muacks!

HEY!

I've already registered for JAE. Here ar how my options goes:
1. Nursing - NP
2. Nursing - NYP
3. Tourism & Resort Management - NP
4. Tourism & Resort Management - SP
5. Hospitality & Resort Management - NYP
6. Mass Comm - NP
7. Business Management - NYP
8. Pharmaceutical Sci - NYP
9. Media Studies & Management - NYP
10. Baking & Culinary Sci - TP
11. Pharmacy Sci - NP
12. Hospitality & Tourism Management - TP

Oh God, please let me get Nursing at NP. I really want this badly. Hahaha. I'm already getting non-constructive comments about my choice. People keep asking me, "Why nursing? Can you really do it? I heard you must wipe feaces & etc." Duh, Ya, I know everything about nursing before I decide it as my 1st choice. There's nothing wrong with nursing. Some people said, "What were you thinking when you make nursing as your 1st choice? You know what, you deserve better courses than nursing. Its such a waste. If I were you, I would have choose better courses."

Duh, this is about what you like & what you wanna do in the next 10 years. Nursing is not that bad. The reason I chose nursing because its my passion to help others who are less fortunate. We lack of local male nurses. I will get the sense of satisfactory in nursing. And, the pay is high - $2000+ for Staff Nurse. Every year your pay gets higher. You can also work overseas & can get more US$3000. I'm willing to sacrifice and get a degree. I don't think so that diploma is the end.

Ouh k, let's enjoy a video clip my Agnes Monica.Before that, read & understand the lyrics. Hahaha.


Setiap tetes air mataku
Telah kuberikan untuk kisahku
Mengerti tapi tak dimengerti
Cintaku tlah diujung jalan

Setiap kata dari bibirku
Kadang tak sama dalam hatiku
Tersenyum dalam hati menangis
Cintaku tlah diujung jalan

Aku sangat mengenalmu
Aku juga cintaimu..
Tapi kau tak pernah ada pengertian
Ku senang,ku sedih
Kau tak mau tahu

Aku sangat mengenalmu
Dulu kau tak begitu
Kau bintang di hatiku
Jadilah yang kumau
Ku senang,ku sedih
Kau ada denganku

Ku mengerti kau apa adanya
Begitupun yang kumau darimu
Kau tahu rasanya diabaikan
Cintaku telah diujung jalan

HEY!

I'm crying. I shouldn't be crying but I don't know. Tears are filling my eyes. Its hard for me to say but I have to say that I will miss all of you & I will miss each one of you terribly. Arggh, I hate to cry. But tears kept flowing while I'm writing. Shit!

OMG! I can't describe how fun & nice to have all of you around. I would remember all the times we had together. Especially the fun times. I didn't expect my secondary school life to be this great with all of you around. Fcuk, the tears kept flowing. All of you will stay in my heart. I wish I could turn back the time & treasure the times we had even more.

Why am I crying? Fcuk.

I wouldn't know whether I will have good friends like all of you in poly. Now, I really understand what friends are. I can't describe it. I'm feeling like hugging all of you.

To Fadhli:
You are the best best best friend I ever had. I'm so glad that we are friends & we really understand each other. Without you, I think my secondary school life would be a piece of shit. I will remember the study group that we had & all the advise you gave to me. You are always there when I need you. I can still remember we were not close during Sec 1 but we got closer during Sec 2. I think you are God-sent to me. You are like an angel, we shared the fun times, the difficult times, we shared our tears & our experience. Duh, I seriously couldn't ask for more than this. I hope we will be best friend forever. I love you. Hahaha. Please, keep in touch.

To Mansur:
Thank you for being my friend. You are always willing to accompany me wherever I go. Although we had quarells but that was in the past. I will always remember you & your stupid jokes. Hahaha. Fadhli & you are just great friends to me. Thanks alot. I hope we can be friends forever.

To Haslindah:
Hahaha. I don't know what to say. You are just simply great. You kept my secrets & you really trust me. Although we had our childish moments but that childish moments made our friendship stronger. I promise I will always keep in touch with you. I hope you will do great in life. Kalau kahwin, jangan lupa jemput, tau. Hahaha. I can still remember, I saw you 1st when I registered for school. Your mother was talking to my Mum. You was with your bob hairstyle. Hahaha. You will always have a place in my heart. I'm glad that you have found your special one. I think I'm not right for you. You are too good for me. I hope our friendship will last forever. I love you.

To Aishah:
You are a good friend. We shared our problems & cried together. You are good listener. I'm so fortunate to have a friend like you who willing lend your ears. Thanks. Forget about all the gossips about us. Hahaha. Thank you for being my friend & making my secondary school days wonderful.

To Liyana:
Hoi. Hahaha. I was not close to you until Sec 3 when we had our POA lessons together. I will miss you, girl. Liyana, you are so great. I will cherish the moments we had together especially our talking session a.k.a POA lessons. Hahaha. It was great having you around. OMG! Time flies so fast. We have been friends for 5 great years. I hope you will always remember me as the hawd dude you ever met. Hahaha. I love you. Please, keep in touch.

To Haryani:
Hey, my sexy biatch! Hahaha. It was great having you around. It was fun & fun & fun. I will miss your belo-ness & your giler-ness. Hahaha. And ya, I will miss your laughter. You are so great.

To others who I don't mention:
You are also great. You add colours to my secondary school years. Thanks for being there for me & I will miss you too.

I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!

To all of you who think that I'm stupid, I don't care. Maybe for you I'm too emotional. I'm not being emotional but in my whole life, I never had great friends like them. I wouldn't know what kind of friends I will get in poly. So, its hard for me. I didn't understand the real meaning of friendship untill I met them.

This video is done by me for my beloved angels. Enjoy.




And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

1 - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with a tan
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat 1
La, la, la, la…
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la…
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

HEY!

I miss you all alot. Hahaha~ Its like 4 days I'm not blogging & I'm already missing you guys. Duh!

I noticed that some girls just don't care about their hair. WTH! Your hair is your precious, honey. Before you seriously consider cutting your hair just like one of your favorite celebrities, you will need to start with your own face shape. Just because you find a celebrity hair style that you like does not mean that it will look good on you.

Many celebrity hair styles today have certain features to them, such as long layers or bangs that can be incorporated into your hair style. So, don’t throw away those celebrity hair style photos because you don’t have the same face shape as the celebrity.

There are 5 basic face shapes, oval, round, square, heart and oblong. Most of us have combinations of these face shapes.

Oval Face Shape:
This is the ‘wannabe’ face shape, similar to the hourglass body shape. Oval face shapes are highly desired and envied. All other face shapes attempt to create the illusion of having an oval face. The oval face shape suits any hair style, including long, short, medium, layered, straight or even curly. Bangs can be added to emphasize the eyes or add a little change. Celebrities with oval face shape include: Jessica Alba, Charlize Theron, and Beyonce Knowles.



Round Face Shape:
A round face is as wide as it is long with rounded edges. The nose is the center guide. In trying to maintain the appearance of an oval face shape, hair for round face shapes should be kept close to the sides of the face, while the crown will need height and volume.

If you want your face to appear slimmer, make sure hair is showing below the chin. Layers from the lips down remove bulk and weight from the sides. Tapered ends will draw attention away from the roundness by allowing hair to fall close to the head. One length cuts tend to widen the face. Avoid short hair and volume at the sides. Celebrities with round face shapes: Cameron Diaz, Kyra Sedgwick and Penelope Cruz.



Square Face Shape:
The square face shape is as wide as it is long and has strong angles. This face shape needs a hair style with softness to lessen the effects of the angles.

Long hair styles should fall past the shoulders, with face-framing layers to soften the jaw line. Shorter styles should be kept round and soft with height in the crown area. Wispy bangs are great, as well as fluffy, wispy curls.

Avoid one-length hair styles; especially chin length and blunt-cut bangs. These styles will accentuate the square-ness of your face shape. Celebrities with square face shapes include: Demi Moore, Gwyneth Paltrow and Geena Davis.



Heart Face Shape:
The heart-shaped face is wide in the eye and cheekbone area with a narrow or pointy chin. Many heart-shaped faces also have a high forehead.

For long hair styles, add long, wavy layers around your cheekbones that fall in the neck area. For shorter hair, add top layers that are long and soft. Side-swept bangs are a great technique to lessen the width and height of the forehead area.

Avoid blunt-cut bangs, short hair, ponytails and choppy layers. Subtle layering is much more flattering. Celebrities with Heart Shaped Face include: Brittany Murphy, Reese Witherspoon and Scarlett Johannson.



Long Face Shape:
Long faces are described as oblong- long and narrow. The goal with this face shape is to create the illusion of more width by adding fullness at the sides and having a smooth top with bangs of some sort. Curls and waves can also add width to your face and make it appear more oval.

Avoid extremely long, straight styles, one-length cuts, short layers that add volume in the crown area and styles without bangs as these will make your long face much more pronounced. Celebrities with long face shapes include: Hilary Swank, Liv Tyler and Sarah Jessica Parker.



That's it. I tried my best to give you information about hair although I'm not really an expert. This is based on what I know. So, the next time you want to get a hair cut, think twice. You must make sure that the hairstyle look nice on you & compliment your face shape.

I love you all sexy bloggers & hot readers. Muacks!