What's up, what's up, what's up?

Let's forget about school. I was informed, my clinical posting is cancelled. Coz' I failed nursing lab. I'm starting to realise that NURSING is seriously not for me. OMG! Honestly, I realised nursing is not for me when I went for my 1st attachment. But I kept quiet. After my 2nd attachment, I said to myself, "AH BOY! THAT'S ENOUGH! NURSING IS NOT FOR ME!" So, I applied for NIE. Unfortunately, I didn't get admitted. Maybe I was from nursing course. And its kinda troublesome to transfer unless I'm freshly graduated from secondary school.

I think I should just do well in nursing, continue the course. But its really amazing, I did quite ok for my O levels. Compare me and other nursing students who don't really do well for O levels, I can really see so much difference. It really doesn't matter how you score for O levels. Its about whether you enjoy what you're learning. My lecturer who failed me asked, "So ninabey, how you score nursing out of 10?" So, I answered, "KANINABU CHAO CHEE BYE, 8 lah, fuck you, fucker, asshole! She smiled, and I showed middle finger at her. Both fingers up! HAHA.

Actually in my heart, is 6 out of 10.

The reason I studied so hard for my O levels is TO GET A PLACE IN AN ART SCHOOL! Haha. But mummy says NO NO NO NO NO, BABY NO NO NO NO, DON'T CRY....

I did cry.

Why? My life so miserable. I know I will take supplementry paper. Wanna bet? 1 million dollars.

Just wait for results. Maybe I will be teaching during my 1 month and 3 weeks holidays. PLEASE SOMEONE! HELP ME! I'm registered as MOE relief teacher but don't know how to start teaching. HEHE.

TOODLES!

Tag me some kisses if you love me, okay? MUACKS!

The day before, I had my 1st paper for this semester. I came late again! LATE! SIGH! Woke up late. I got this habit of waking up late. Usually, I would wake up early but will sleep back after the alarm rings and I will keep pressing the snooze button.

The paper was okay, I guess. I can't really do the SAQ. I went back home after that, took a nap and revised my sociology paper which will be at 4pm. Luckily I was on time. On the dot. HEHE!

Some of the questions are repeated. I can answer most of the question except for one of the SAQ, I can't really explained. But, did my best though.

I will be having my Psychology paper at 4pm. I seriously need to pass this paper. I don't want to repeat again and again. I'm sick and tired of repeating. Repeating modules just make me feel like I'm useless. SIGH! AGAIN!

HMM, I really hope my results will turn out to be okay, coz' I really did my best and studied very hard for the exams.

BUT PHARMACOLOGY! SIGH! AGAIN! HEHE!

I seriously need to study that real hard. Coz' I don't really understand.

After my Sociology paper, I went to cook chicken curry at my friend's place. It was fun. HEHE! And, the curry was a success.

Now, I'm at home, revising for my Psychology.

Let's pray hard for the exams. Good luck to everyone!

Today I woke up at 730am but slept again. And I was late, I woke up at 830. HMM! It's all because of the late night studying.

Sometimes I asked myself, will I be a nurse when I graduate? Or should I pursue something else? SIGH!

I think I should just complete this diploma course and see what's ahead for me. I still remember the day when I told my mum that I wanna pursue a course in fashion design. My parents was NO. I cried. Alone in my room crying with NAFA's booklet in my hands. The reason for a NO was, ARTS has no stable future. WTH. And alot of expenses during the course especially the projects and etc.

But look at my bro now. Studying in SP, Nautical studies. WOW! My parents fork out around 200+ for his books. 300+ for his fire training course, 300+ for his shipping course.

And me in nursing, I got no proper books. The books I got his from my friends and teacher. I'm not trying to compare but looking back at how my parents reaction was terrible.

My reason for studying very hard was to get to an art school. But I can't. I left with nursing and teaching. That's the only other course of my interest.

I got this urge of quitting eversince my 1st attachment. I just kept it to myself. I can't quit now. I need to complete it. SIGH! Its terrible.

I can imagine myself doing fashion, something that I really like and have passion on. I think I would be doing well by now coz' its something I love and will look forward to. Its not that I hate nursing or etc. But compare nursing and fashion, of coz' I would do fashion. With my O level results, I'm sure I can choose what I want.

I wish miracle would happen. Honestly, I don't understand a single thing about pharmacology. Good luck to me. I failed my re-test for my clinical assessment. Thanks to the lecturer who failed me. I think I did better the previous time. This time, the lecturer made me felt damn nervous and my self-esteem low. She's like demoralising me indirectly.

FUCK!
FUCK!
FUCK!

I don't think I can go for this upcoming attachment.

SUCKS!

I really hate this. Seriously, distract me from this upcoming exams. I wanna just run away from this stupid course. I keep studying hard but in the end I still fail. SO WHAT'S THE POINT OF STUDYING SO HARD?

Don't tag me about this. I wanna concentrate on exams.

LASTLY,



FUCK YOU!

I craved for carrot cake for like so many weeks and TADAA! I went to Coffeebean to give myself a treat. I had a slice of carrot cake coated with white sugary icing together with SNAPPLE raspberry. YUMMY!

I think I wanna go again and have carrot cakes again.

Its the western cake, not the chinese carrot cake. If chinese carrot cake, I prefer black with chili carrot cake. So nice. The malays also have something like carrot cake but its called lontong goreng, its fried the same way but it doesnt have any carrots instead it contains rice cake. You should try. Not really that popular.

Another estimately 3 weeks to fasting month. I can't wait for it. I'm so excited. And the best thing is I will be having my attachment. What a pleasure! Maybe for those who never fast before, you may think its difficult but for me, its an accomplishment. After one month of fasting, I feel a sense of achievement. I get through the one month with ease. I wonder how will this year's fasting would be.

By the way, I'm actually taking a break after studying for sometime. HMM! I'm really exhausted. HELP! Call ambulance 995.

I'm choking! Can someone please help?

RANDOM! HEHE!

PHOTOS of JANNIE TAN JIA WEN'S 18th BDAY CELEBRATION!

HEHE! I went to watch the fireworks after work. It was so ..... I thought it will be so spectacular. But its just okay. Quite nice, as usual.


BORING! I'm still not asleep. I'm having a re-test later. HMM. Honestly, sometimes I feel extremely exhausted and tired of doing the same thing everytime. The common things are STUDY, WORK, EAT, BREATHE, NAG FROM MUM, PASS MOTION, PASS URINE.


Why must we eat? It'll just make us fatter. I wish theres no such thing as hunger or craving. Don't you guys get sick eating everyday? EAT, and EAT! Hehe. Why not each day is a different day? Like, eating is just a pastime. You do it when you're free. Why must be a must? HEHE!


Sorry for thinking about this. But I always like to think. Sometimes I will think why girls must open their mouth when putting mascara, why boys must stand and urine. Why boys must disturb girl? Why tiger beer is tiger beer? Why not dog beer or cat beer or lion beer. Hehe.

RANDOM!

I'll update again soon.

Just now my poly cliques celebrated our dear JANNIE 18th birthday. This time we had dinner at Waraku. I ate quite alot. Hehe. I thought I wanna try the dessert but too full for it. Maybe next time will eat there again. It was a surprise for Jannie when she came and we sang her birthday song with Swensens' ice-cream. Yummy!

Hehe. I hope she did enjoy herself. So fast time flies. She's already 18, matured by a year.

Talking about birthday celebration, I really want to have a surprise want. The one that can make me almost shock to death. Hehe. Means, you have to get the paramedics ready. LOL!

A simple one will do. HINT! Hehe.

I don't mind about presents. What is important is to have nice warm loving people around you to celebrate with you.

Today was very tiring. Quite lah. Coz' I had to get to Orchard to buy things and Bugis too. Then met at Waraku for the birthday celebration.

I can still see the dessert, the japanese ice-cream waving at me. I really need to go there for the dessert.

NATIONAL DAY! Hehe. I had sore eyes just now coz' all the pri and sec sch kids wearing red and white. Its like everywhere. Anway just for general info, I didn't wear red today but I wore red underwear. Keke. Erm, so boring. I can't even watch the parade. Same as last year. All due to work. I feel like changing my job. Recommend pls?

Hehe! I don't even memorise the lyrics for this year theme song. SHINE FOR SINGAPORE, THIS IS MY STORY...bla bla bla.

I'll post the pics for Jannie's birthday soon.

Lastly, HAPPY 43th Birthday Singapore! And, sometimes priotising is the best. Priortise which means more to you. And did it today. :)

Climb the mountain & up, up all the way!

I'm not the happiest man on earth but at least I'm fortunate to be with people who cherish me. Second chances are rare. So treasure it as there will be no other chances after this. Let's forget about the history. Make it a lesson to learn from. Maturing with you, made me realise you've changed alot. You make the effort. Let's continue the journey to a brighter one.

Life is like a climbing a mountain. It takes alot of effort to climb and reach the top but when you're on top you tend to forget everything. The scenery itself make you go huhuhaha. You can't be on top forever. You have to climb down. And if you want to go on top and experience the scenery again, you have to climb up again. And the cycle goes on.

When you have been on top, you will likely to boast or share your experience. That's what happen in real life.

You maybe on top now, but please don't have to boast around indirectly. There will be a day when you will be at the bottom.

Its just matter of time.

Let me tell you more about me. I come from an average family. Not rich, not poor. Just average. Its difficult to get along with people who can afford more things than you do. You have to work day and night to get the same thing whereas she just have to sit and smile and get better things.

Let me be honest, sometimes I will be broke. Real broke. Maybe for you broke is different. But for me broke means I really have zero in my wallet or bank.

We must learn to understand each other. Don't take everyone the same as you. And be mindful of your words. I guess the advise is, think before you say. When its a joke, it would be okay. But other than that, it will just upset the other person.

In life, you're not living by yourself or alone. You got others around you. You have to take care of their feelings too.

Lastly, the happiest man who laughs and never break down in front of you is the strongest yet the most troubled and upset man in the world.