Dear Harriet,
It is May 2nd. I am so sorry that I let last week go by without writing your birthday letter. I did not forget about it, but this past week or two have been quite crazy and I haven't been able to sit down at the computer for long enough to write the letter that I want you to have.
Harriet, you have no idea how much I love you. I am truly amazed at what a remarkable human being you are. There is so much inside of you that is bottled up and can't wait to burst out some day for the world to see. I know that you feel it, and are shy of it, and that's why you get so incredibly frustrated about things.
I know you feel like you walk in Grace's shadow and that the world doesn't understand you. That is the place where all little sisters walk. You will have to talk to your Aunt Melissa about that more. She knows exactly how you feel. Unfortunately, I was the big sister. However, there are so many things about you that are not strong in your sister. You are each very unique in your talents and strengths, and there is no point in comparing you. I hope that you realize some day that you are amazing on your own and you don't have to compare yourself to your sister or anyone else. I hope you realize that people look at YOU and wish they could be like you too. Even Grace. I know you wish you had a little sister to look up to you, but you should realize that you already have a big sister who does, even if she won't admit it.
You are a perfectionist, and you do wish that the world was perfect too. I know it drives you nuts that other people don't follow rules, aren't kind, and don't live up to your expectations. But, you will learn to let them off the hook a little bit, and yourself too. You will be happier when you can learn to let things go. Grandpa Lyle says "don't sweat the small stuff." And, he's right. But, in the mean-time, I so much admire your insistence that everything needs to be right all the time. Too many people allow things to be mediocre or just "good enough." I love that you want things to be the way they should be. I love that you think big. I think someday, you will make a great leader because you don't give up on trying to make things right.
I love how affectionate you are. I love tucking you into bed at night, and watching you take care of your dolls and animals, and kissing you 20 times, plus one last time at the bus stop. I love how spiritually connected you are. You have insights and instincts that I don't even have. I look up to you too.
I am so proud of how hard you are trying lately to get really good at things. I am so proud of how you have handled some of your disappointments, and that you keep moving forward and keep trying to get better at things like playing the piano, dancing, doing math, writing, and drawing. I think it's so cool that you memorized a whole song on the piano and can play it perfectly. I love that you love math and keep trying to figure out more of it. I love that you got 4 journals for your birthday and can't wait to fill them all up and have already started a page in each one. I think it's adorable that you have locked them all so that Grace can't read them. I love that you keep trying to make your dolphin drawings better and when you draw me, you give me brown hair with yellow stripes. I can't believe you haven't missed a single spelling word ALL year! I am so proud of you for trying out for the talent show again, even though you didn't make it last year. I can't wait to see your audition this afternoon. I loved the look on your face when you figured out that dance step this weekend and now do it with confidence.
It was a great day on the Earth, when you were born 7 years ago. I can't wait to see what you do with each day of your life, Harriet. I'm so glad I get to be your mom and I hope I do a good job. You deserve a perfect mom. Thanks for stretching me and trying to make me into one.
Happy Birthday Sweet Girl,
Love,
Mommy