Printing Her Footprints On This World

I don’t know wat will happen if it were to happen to pple dear to me
I’m nt ready for it.
It jut seem it’s like ytd
That it had happened
And it had to happen again to people I know
treasure ur life n e pple ard u.
RIP.

my 1st posting after cny
and all is summed in 1 word:
fat
haiz. its time to serious cut the food now

and with e miserable pay raise
and lots of things in e hse suddenly to spoil
no matter how much i earn
its nv enough to replace e things

so here my list of things i need
1) a new sofa
2) a fridge
3) a camera
4) a trendmill

and i wonder how long can i finally strike them out.

i finally knew whats e feeling like
maybe last week hv been so emo
cos i have too many shit to clear
and den finally
today
a senior email me back with tis
“very good job, jut some admin to clear. thanks”
and den i realised
hey, i can oso do a good job

cos that one line is so simple
and yet it certainly make me read e email many times
after facing so many shit
that make me feel so dark n emo
it certainly a good way to end my week

maybe in such a lousy profession
we reallie need such words of encouragement
to jut make us sane
and make us going in our profession.

friends may know that i dont tear often
when i watch shows
even more so for documentaries
but watching this documentary on this girl
its saddness and touching
looking at how this her mom goes all out to make sure she has a good childhood

http://www.mymultiplesclerosis.co.uk/misc/lucianawulkan.html

her muscles will turn to bones as she age
and she feel intense pain on her back n other parts of her body
when the bones start to grow on her
and its beyond saddness that she can never ever live a normal life
cos her muscles will cause her to be a real “statue”
and her divorced mum
went ard England to find from other such people how they r coping with such sickness

i still remember one part
where such people have to choose a position
be it in a sleeping or standing or sitting position
such that when they muscles turn to bones
they will remain in that position 4ever
and looking at such things
make me realise that i still have the freedom to run n to move my muscles
and such people cant even do tis

so reallie
when we are complaining abt how life is tough on us
there are alway people who are worse off than us
who cant choose the life they want to lead.