Really dun know what can i do, how should i do now...
The problem that i faced before i thought no need to think so much then that would not happen again...
Is me so innocent??? The answer is YES... because i facing that problem AGAIN........
1 year ago, i try to persuade my parent to let me to study at TARC,
in the beginning, my parent not allow me to study again,
the most important reason is our finance problem not suitable for me to study,
that also is the reason for me so stress at that moment,
but i heard from my cousin said can lend then PTPTN loan,
and that can let my family no need so burden for my course fees and my cost of living...
after heard that information then i try my best to persuade my parent,
finally they allowed me to study...
after to apply the PTPTN, that just can allowed me to lend about RM10, 000,
at first, i thought that is enough for my course fees,
but after that just know that loan is bank in to our account by 1 time of half years,
then they only bank in about RM2, 500 per times...
after i count how much i need for my all semesters then i found out that loan not enough to use for me for this 2 years...
So, i feel VERY STRESS now...
because my finance problem appear a BIG problem now...
2 days ago, my mum called me then i got to told her that problem....
M: So long no call u, are u fine??S: Ya, still like that lo, same lo...M: Then what u doing now?S: Doing revision lo, because already start to exam.M: Oh, then u dun want do revision too late arr and can u handle it??S: Ya, i know la, okay lo...M: Then when u want back home??S: Do not know yet, maybe before May or before 5 of may lo..After that, she told me about this few weeks what she doing and what happen at home...
S: Mum, i told u, i don't have so much money in my bank account again. How?? I got asked "little sister"(my 2nd sister) to borrow me, but she told me she do not have too. Then she also asked me to do part-time job to earn money.M: Then how u think?S: Don't know la, because i afraid i can not concentrate on my study. By the way, she also asked me to ask big sister to borrow from her.M: Then do u have ask her?S: No, because u think la, she got her family need to support la, besides that, she still have 4 children need to take care, so i really difficult to ask her to borrow me lo...M: Then how now? Stop study?S: Maybe lo, if really don't have money to let me continue then that is the final solution lo... never mind la, this problem discuss after i go back hometown la...M: Okay la...... bla..bla..bla...Feel so stress now, really want cry out... Haiz...
If stop continue my 2nd year then i really so heart pain...
because that have many friends at here then feel very sad when want say bye bye to them and can not continue my study, the most important point is I waste my times and money for this year...
but what can i do now??
CONFUSING>>>>>>>