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wosahhhh, tdy horoscope is so damn accurate lahhh : Whoa! Put away that six-shooter, pardner! There is no need for a showdown right now ... you need to let cooler heads prevail. Your emotions are pushing you toward a fiery rebellion, but your mind understands that today is not the day to fight this battle. Let this scenario play out on its own, in its own fashion. As you watch it unfold, you will soon be grateful that you choose the peaceful path. Remember -- those who live by the sword, die by the sword. yeah maintain my calm ... relax ... i can feel my blood boiling, bp shooting high, blood vessels gonna burst open and i gonna take an axe and hack everytig i see in my way, i wishhh i can do tt ... urghhhhh .. Angry angry angry relax and go to slp urghhhhhhhh damn upset riite nw, nt because of babyy but due to other factors i dowana voice out wat had happened but i m damn fed up with everyting ... pissed ! got bk my BH paper tdy, so happii, did pretty well for it gt 39.5 upon 50 ^^  like long time nv do so well for my papers liao, happii lahh, hehhee, tis made my day =)made caca a hap[ie lil girl ... but still gt psy paper, i noe for sure, i wont do well for tt coz i wrote rubbish, nth but rubbish x) school is so boring, but i guess as compared to attachment, i rather haf sch as least when we wanna slp, we can juz slp in class, lie on the table and zzZ like no one business. teacher dun scold as long as we keep our mouth shut ... feel so sick tdy, whole morning my expression is lidat :  damn siian ! and sick .. tt i slept for almost one hour plus during PCB lesson ... slp till so xinfu, den after tt peeked open my eyes, feel abit better n con't with lessonactually dowana go for practical one, bt i cant ! i simply has missed too much lesson for PCB practical .. urghhhh ! and tml simulation again !!!!! i hate practical lahh, i reali hate, and i hate stimulation even more -.- and so cute tdy, walked past stimulation ctr n saw one pig dozing off in class, whahah tink tt pig noe who is she lahh .. lol after school went tm and Cq with deb ... went and buy flu medicine, happened to saw clarinase commercial in the bus on the way to interchange so decided to make my way to pharmacy and buy tt to try ! if not i duno how many slpless nights i m gonna get ... somehow feel so sick and tired of my own life, someone, can i lead ur life for u .. urghhh .. siian ... babyy, feel so glad to haf u by my side .. muacks luv it when u occasionally called and chat up with mii =) and i wanna tell u, hafing u by my side is so ....  i wanna be with u as long as god allows me tOoo heart u my hubbie .. muacks finally all tests are overrr ! hurray ! psy paper sucks tdy, dun reali noe how to do the SAQ part, so wrote quite a load of rubbish hahaha  MCq hao hai, but wtf they asked those origins for .. like as thou noeing them will help to cure the pt lidat -.- watever lor ! hope can pass for tis paper lahhhaiz, not much confidence for it. lucky last nite gt read thru, if not tdy reali muz bang wall liao didnt went for morning lesson again, reali feel so dead tt i reali dowana get my pipi out of my bed. and i she bu de my smelly pillow, so there goes .. con't to hug it and slp all the way till 11am b4 making my way to sch to do the test And wats happening to me tdy =s carried the wrong bag to sch, forget to bring jacket and spects and when i reached hm, i can charge my hp for two hours and den realized, i charge without on-ing the switch  i m so sick tt i become lidat hurh !!!! baby, i nd ur cuddles from behind, infront, side ways and watever way u can think off, hehehehe ...now can finally settle dw and do my projs for BH and Psy now wondering wat shud i do for psy, bulimia, schizo or bipolar ... hmmm .. i wanna do bipolar but haben gt the chance to come upon the case studies yet perhaps tis coming weekend i ask babyy go library with me peii me find if nt i shall settled with schizo lor, thou i dun reali wanto do schizo, coz alot of pple doing liao .. but xiu hui berii nice, gimme the case studies tt she had found, let me choose ltr gonna look thru wat she got in there =) thanks gurl  who will reali share with u what they haf in hand ?look around us, and we will realised everyone is competing with one another .. haiz .. but lucky they are still a few kind souls around me n i m happii to haf them and juz nw, jiahui teached me how to self create msn emotion =) haf so much doing that, thanks for imparting ur skills to me girl ! muacks tml sch start late ... late by one hr only bahh le, but happii la, coz can slp one hour more, hahaha when ll i get to see babyy ... miss u so much ... muacks tts all for tdy i guess, aneting, updated again =) psychiatric paper tml ... mentally and physically nt prepared yet ! urghhhhh haben even lay a finger on it, and hopefully before i turn in ltr, i ll haf the desicipline to read thru my notes or else tml in bus i reali muz half read half slp le *pout  met up with babyy in the late afternoon ..went over to hougang mall gaigai before babyy fetched me over to his place =) went hougang mall in search for swimming wears, i wanted the 2 pieces kinda, but couldnt find one tt fits my bill so didnt buy any, urghhh, i nd new swim wear .. gonna make a trip nx weekend to bugis to miao miao hehehes, and hopefully nx sat can go swimming with babyy =) and after gaigai, we tabao dinner back to babyy's place to eat .. guess wat we haf brought 16 honey glazed wings and the special rice tt was sold over dere .. and off we were at baby place spending some quality time tgt ... played ps ll tgt, bed fight, hehes and enjoyed our "candlelight" dinner x) dear ah dear, i m reali glad to haf u by my side once again after so many months juz ytd i realised, we didnt make the wrong choice and juz ytd, i m sure tt our r/s has become different frm the one tt we haf been having for the past few years ... i m so hapii, i m so glad, tt we are nw able to handle tings more nicely den the past console to feel that we reali can xin ping qi he de voice out how we are feeling deep inside, glad that we reali take the effort to listen patiently to one another ... we are bk tgt for less den 3 weeks but somehow,but we alr had a few disagreements but i believe the disagreements we had, had nt drift us further apart, instead, it pulled us closer le =) thanks dear for everyting, for every effort u had put in and for every lil ting u had done i reali appreciated everyting, luv u baby ... muacks it had been such a long time ever since i sat infront of the teebee to watch live news ~ lols suddenly realized news can be so entertaining and enriching everyone noe that the goverment is gonna developed some attraction at marina at the same time, they are developing new things over at sentosa, saw that few seconds of movie, damn nice, damn tempting x) but they are still nt sure of the decision yet also they developing pulua ubin, and out of the sudden, i feel like taking a walk dw to puala ubin =) verii long nv go le ! i wanna go zoo also, hehehe ... go sister island for snorkeling wat a fine place to be at ... nice corals !!!! u all go n see the link below =) http://www.wildsingapore.com/beachfleas/sisters/si1.htm i wanna go zoo see pigs and monkeys ! and u noe wat debbie suggested lets celebrate ur bdae at the zoo nx year -.- which ll be in like 9 mths time ... debbie boon - orang utan heheheheheheh head veriii pain nw face the com too long liao ... gonna take a rest and sink my teeth into the orh ni tt mama has bring bk for me yipeee yahhhh yahhh ... i wanna grow long long hair =) long long one like lil princess lidat .. hehehehehe  i want long long hair ! be a pretty lil princess hehehehei wiish he would haf dropped by juz nw ... i wiish he will comforted me more, wiish he can be more sensitive to my feelings i wiish my pay will come in by monday i wiish i will nv broad over all those sad sad things ever again why muz i make myself so sad, so suffering when no one ever cares or bother ... when i nd the ones to be here for me, dun even noe where they die to ... urghhhhh juz nw opening up the goodies babyy's parents has got for me when they r away @ thailand taste so uhnique, so nice ... sweet crackers with pork floss on top, heheheh chew chewchew, chew all my troubles away ... ulcer hurts so much, but do u tink i gif a damn ... no at all ... now i m thinking, where to go ltr =) no one is at home for the entire nite ... haiz life is so empty LIFE IS EMPTY EMPTINESSSSSSSSS fill it all ... if only sometimes human minds are easy to read lidat he might noe whats going thru my mind rite nw ... i hate keeping tings to myself, but ... i hate telling him when i noe it gonna affect his entire day =] stuffy block nose will u pls go away and stop haunting me ? u haf been haunting me for months i wiish now i could immerse myself deep beneath water ... so i can put my worries at bay and concentrate on nth except holding my breathe where are the one i nd when i nd them to be here whee, did a few quiz for the past one hr or so .. hehees, tis is on wat kinda gf m i =) taduuh !!! you're a Steady SupporterStand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with.For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too. i m finally back home =] bk after whole day of gg out w deb n spending sum quality time w babyy over at his place my flu is killing me, but that definitely doesn't stop me from gg out x] airway is reali blocked, partially blocked, blocked like hell =[ worsen if i lay dw at nite while trying to get some slp .. its like i reali cant breath if i reali lay in a supine position .. soBbbbb have difficulties falling to slp juz because of that, and even hafing the fan blowing in my direction, also will worsen the block, haizzz when ll my flu ever recover !!!!!!! gonna get it done nx friday when i go to collect my medical report =] life w/o card reader feels so empty reali duno wat goes wrong, out of the sudden it become unaccessible .. it said files haf been removed or moved .. wat the hell did it happened ?!!!!! jiahui, do u haf any idea (;_;) went to airport with deb tis afternoon, went and eat my desire popeye heheheh but duno why, it doesnt tase as nice as before, especially the biscuits, deb also agree and the mashed potato looks so watery tdy, the chicken has shrink .. well .. duno y too well, think mos of u duno wat popeye is .. popeye is sth like kfc lidat de =) consist of 2 piece chicken one biscuit bun, one side kick and one drink the mash potato to me is nicer den kfc de coz inside gt additional herbs so it taste nicer and more special =D and after that .. we went to vivo city and shop ... walked around and crowd is slightly better tdy as compared to weekends and PH at least dere's rm for us to walk and shop while takin our own swt time =) brought a nail polish from faceshop, love that color, its so pink, so gerger, hehe den after tt went walked around, suddenly gt the craving for ice cream ^^ and off we went to queue for ben n jerry ^^ didnt shop finish the entire mall coz halfway thru, babyy called and said he book out le, early den wat he suppose to be so after eating ice cream ... we made our way off seperately and deb went and mit her marcus x) went over to sengkang to babyy's place asked baby to fetch me at lrt station but babyy went all the way to sk mrt statin to pick me up .. thanks dear ! lurve u hehehe .. haf dinner at his place and after tat, i helped babyy to treat his white spots =) helped him rub with garlic, my mama said tt will help =) and babyy feel so happii, hehehes den spend sometime with him and we watched the 9pm show tgt =) and after that, babyy send me home feel so safe and sound when babyy is by my side, dear, i love u ! muack ! my ulcer is hurting me =[ juz at the side of my tongue, i gt a phobia of biting my tongue while talkin or eating but its seems that the more i worry its gonna happen, the higher the possiblilty it'll happen sob, i m a ulcer queen, sad man .. hope it reali will get well soon =) i shud be at tanah merah riite nw, but what the hell m i still at home ? stucking my ass down here while waiting for someone to tell me when she will ever be ready to go 10 out of 10 times, always been waiting ... fed up ... meeting babyy tonight, yeah tonight babyyy ... lurve u juz to realise, october is coming to an end .. how time flies =] wonder shud i be happii or sad tt time is passing so fast, wo ye bu zhi dao happii when time flies pass when unpleasant tings happened, when babyy is nt by my side, i hope time will pass faster, so i wont spend a minute longer letting my imagination runs wild sad when time pass fast when i hafing fun, when i m hafing babyy by my side, times slips away without us noticing ... in a split sec, the day is gone =] if only we can control our own time ... =] wat rubbish m i talking abt =s BH2 paper was alright tdy, easier den wat i expected but dun expect to get good grades, bt i think i can pass nx paper comes psy paper ... pray pray pray ... went home early tdy ... i hate menses coz i m always dw with tummy pain ... lucky i gt osim hotpack .. it reali makes me feel so much better =) doze off while it rains like nobody business, slpt all the way from 3 to 730pm, hehe rainy season is here again .. tis kinda weather make me looks forward to xmas xmas is coming ! in 2 months time, and dere comes CNY again. hehehe my all time favourite occasion, tts when money starts to roll in .. roll more for next year pls =) my damn card reader iis gg haywire =( god damn it fed up ... urghhhhhhhhhh spent the whole evening watching devil beside u =) stop watching halfway few months back .. nw con't watch lorr .. watched till episode 6 part 4 bahh le .. tml duno gg out arnot, wanna go vivo city with deb, provided tml i wake up no more tummy pain =) nitenite everyone ... anyone can tell me .. how to bring back the trust tt i haf in someone tt i used to haf b4 .. haiz i reali duno how blur me .. i tot BH2 test is after 12pm tml. but to my horror, is the first period of the day, omfg ... haben even touch it at all, mama, dear ! haiz, pls gimme all ur blessing, i need them ... nose is blocking up like a blocked toilet bowl airway partial block, sob ... nx friday wont be gg sch for sure cos gonna collect my medical report =s shun bian ask the doc to treat my flu .. sob chronic flu ... so suffering .. sob .. nites to all .. good luck caca ... jiayou jiayou jiayou BH2 paper tmr ('.') dun even noe if i m prepared for it arnot ... practically haf no studies mood tis term round, try hard to absorb but duno my stupid brain gt absorb any info in arnot - i m gonna write till i sprained my stupid brain - i wiish i can be a better gf ... but those doubts tt is presence in my heart arises from nowhere i nd reassurance but somehow i ll nv get enuff of that everyday, everyday he gotta assure me ... assure assure and assure sometimes i feel irritating for him also ... urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh someone help me ... sorry dear ... i hurt u so when u love me so muchhhhh when i dun believe u completely, u still love me still ... *loves tml is ph (^.^) was invited to Halimah's house for hari raya celebration but duno gg arnot, cos its abit too far frm my place ... and i m a kind of lazy hehehehe .. tts me =) school was half day tdy for Nurses lesson was boring and i reali feel like dozing off, even at the start of my verii 1st lecture =x heart wasnt in campus tdy, perhaps bcoz i m too happii and excited to look forward for 12pm to come so i can mit up with baby ^^ baby declared his verii own off day tdy toO .. heehhee went over to sengkang with deb. baby fetch me at old sk interchange .. And off i went to baby house and slacked .. haiz, haf an lil arguement over dere, nt reali arguement, juz sth tt reali upsets me but... we had talked it out thanks dear, for coaxing me and giving me the reassurance ... but soehow the arguement tt we had juz nw, makes me dun reali feel good rite nw ... baby, i m sorrie perhaps sumtymes i m too sensitive but somehow i hope u will stand in my shoe and spare a tot of how i feel ... after all tt had happened, i m grateful for all u haf done, for the past one or 2 weeks, ur actions reali prove it all ... but i noe we haf many more to sort it out hidden traps, hidden chambers in our heart to be unopened i juz hope no matter wat, i ll always haf u by my side as each day ends and fall hugs muacks big loves for u to the end of time i wiish i can haf more trust in the pple around me ... And i feel so sorrie and bad, cos somehow i feel i haf make baby unhappy will i be seeing baby tml ? duno nehz .. if nt den sall stay at home and study my bh2 but juz nw evening mention to baby i wanna go ECP tml to play sparkles and candles .. hehehes feel so tired zzZzz juz nw went eat dinner with baby ... And he came up to accompany me for an hour or so, thanks so muchiees lurving u now and then <3 after one hour and 15 mins, baby finally said he is on his way to meet me now .. mama cooked lotus sweet soup [ lian zi tian tang ] - super nice ! and she asked baby to come up drink and ltr baby said he bring me go eat coz i c/o hunger =D i wanna eat roti john tt sells opposite mustafa ! had tt last time round with spencer, its taste damn nice and different to me perhaps its coz of the bread that they use, hope ltr no more indu ... if nt i reali will sad told naga many times tt i ll bring her go try all the nice nice things but duno when ll it be coz miss naga is seldom free ... wait for her to contact me and be free bahh =) muacks baby ... love u .. and yippeee, tml is half day sch for usss wat's on tml after school ... hmmm falled with luv with tis song - xia xue by fei lun hai =) so nice, he sound abit like jerry yen ! the rythem and melody is nice, coool ... awaiting for so many tings haiz, if only they will all come in a spilt second ... 1. my attachment pay - all other groups haf got their pay but wat abt us ? where's ours ? hey, gimme my money by next week =(  if not i burn ur hospital down ... hurrr !2. A permanent part time job - i need a part time job to survive on ... so i dun nd to worry about cash-flowing problems, sniff, if only i haf 750 a month but 750 = loss of freedom  i wish i can shop till i drop like my other frds who are bonded, but sumtymes ...u nd to look on the other side of life .. if only money will drop down from heaven, hehehehe drop dw additional $20 a day can liao ... lols 3. awaiting for my blood test report- prays everyting will be fine 4. awaiting for promises that had been made to come true, but when ll tt ever be ? for the past few years, i haf been waiting now and then, to the extend tt i dun even feel like waiting anymore, nt even for one more second for certain things ... friends who are always late in meeting up, i used to wait patiently, but now they are pissing me off everyone are always late .. waiting to meet each other up, its seems so easy but despite much effort u had put in the person always go MIA or wont even turn up ... some pple, are juz taking things for granted, forever awaiting for pple to take the initiative to msg them and ask them out first .. disappointed .. 5. awaiting for more true friends so happii to haf debbie in my life, always dere to listen to me ... happii to haf gina over here but juz tt missing part, she's always uncontactable so happii to haf Esther by my side, always cheer me up w/o fail sometimes pple claim they wish tt i can spend more time with them but they r nt making any moves at all .. sick of everyting everyting are so pretentious - ya, pretentious .. urghhh, i gif up. after a long day of downloading, halfway thru, it says unreadable file ! forget it, damn shit -.- baby, help me .. sobbbbb forget it lahh, dowana play liao .. FED UP debbie, i ll go ur place and play x) tml half day, yiipee yahyah ... nx week damn shiok, half day sch on monday, sch on only weds and thurs ^^ baby, where u =[ i tot i can see u by ten, but u called to say u ll reached here abit later .. haiz ..  dying inside to hold u ..but where are u ! haiz .. sad case .. i m back home ! after much fun with dear for the past 2 nites, but nw starting to miss hafing him by my side le =) dl-ing audition riite dw and in e meantime, i shall update wat i haf done for e past 2 days =) start to like to play w audition le, ever since that day i went debbie house and gif it a try ! its so cool lahh, hahaha .. but i tink after i download le, ll be even worse coz i dun tink i ll ever study =x okii lahh, muz haf more self-discipline, if nt dear dear gonna reprimand me again if he ever finds out, hehehe okii, trace trace trace .. trace bk to friday =) didnt went school on friday .. slept all the way to noontime before dragging myself up to prepare for mitting deb .. met up with her at sengkang and off we went, to polyclinic see doctor well, wasnt tt bad for the waiting time =) was damn scared when i went ahead with the blood test. hand reali turn cold when i walked into the laboratory room =[ but bo bian ! i gotta face tis at tis time, if nt i wont noe if i m ever suffering frm ny underlying disorder =x thou the docter claim tt he feels everyting looks ok for me and he said those tiny red spots tt was spotted on my feet was rashes .. but ! why gt rases ? and rashes aint suppose to look like its bahh .. anewae he prescribed me with dermanol-c cream and ordered me to apply 2 times a day and hopefully, my itchiness will go away pretty son, thou it still itches damn lots nw after visit to the polyclinic, went to compass pt to walked around with deb and we tabao sushi bk to her place to eat while waiting for evening to fall for baby's appear to fetch me to his place =D ate and ate and ate, ate till we both are damn full, so satisfying ! and off we went and meddled with her com and i spotted audition in hers and we start playing !! so damn cute n cool lahh, hehehe cant wait for mine to be downloaded and installed x) waited n waited n finally baby arrived ! so happii to see him, big hugs for each other when we see each other x) and off we go, went rivervale mall and haf our dinner before gg to baby's place went over, unpcked my stuffs and idle around and watch the 9pm show and after tt baby brought me to geylang ! to haf my favourite smelly beancurd ! omg, its so damn nice !!!! but baby was so turned off by the smell of it tt he sat one seat away frm me =x in addition, we ordered corn n cereal prawn, steamed egg with ginger and soya bean milkie ! thumbs up for the beancurd, i lurve it so much, tt when we reached home, i finish half of the other portion of his siter de, hehehehe and dear made me brush my teeth b4 gg to bed x) i told baby, baby, imagine i burped riite into ur face, wat ll u do, hehe den chatted, played and talked with baby till we fall aslp ... baby suddenly shout in his dreams in the middle of e nite again, scare me, sobbb. bet he's hafing nitemare so i quickly wake him up and sayang him, hehehe [.... 22 October 2006 ....] slp all the way till 1pm tdy, hehehe baby wake up and went dw to buy lunch back for the 2 of us, feel so blessed ! ahhh, baby, i love u =D and after tt, off we went to vivo city =) woahh, god damn big lahh, think it defeated takashimaya and suntec liao its reali huge lorrr, shop till we dropped ... and the open skies roof available dere is damn fascinating, they gt open space filled with water to let us played in it, so cool .. k lahh, nt reali water, its shallow water bahh le ^^ after shopping, we went to hougang mall to buy ingredients for dinner tonight ! baby is cooking again ! and he cooked a damn sumptuous meal for us =) pan fried salmon, black pepper sausages, french beans with shrimps, poached eggs and curry chicken baby did all the cooking while i helped with the washing, cant blame, hehehe i duno how to cook, only noe how to cook sum stuffs but baby cooked better den i do blehz xP i told baby, hao bahh, in future u do all the cookings, whakekekek time pass damn fast while i m with baby =[ baby, i miss u =) love u <3> muacks didnt went to sch tdy, couldnt get my body up ! its fucking pain =[ msg miss siti and tell her all the valid reason and also told her i ll be gg to take my blood test done for certain reason, come to tink of the blood test, i gt abit scare, sob gonna bathe and packed my baggies for tis weekend =) i m damn hungry now, actually wanna go back to sch eat with debbie den go tamp polyclinic de, but change my mind coz its so ma fann ... go sengkang de suan le, anewae baby can fetch me over dere, dun nd him to travel uip and down =] i need to source for my case study ! sobbb but duno which topic to touch on ... gonna go library ltr while waiting for dear to book out, mebbe can pull debbie along x) okii, i better get preparing if nt i shall be late for my visit to polyclinic, the ltr i m , the longer i haf to wait *vroommmm bye darlings ! haf a nice weekend finally BCLS are over, caca's nitemares are over too =] BCLS reali will take my life, it almost kill me for the one rescuer CPR and 2 rescuer CPR to the extend tt i reali cried at the last attempt and finally i passed ! my weakness : compressions my first attempt : ventilation perfect ! but compression sucky 2nd attempt : i did an extra cycle of compression >.< 3rd attempt : my compression is superb but my ventilations sucky And finally mdm mages gimme one last try for ventilation, i did 12 rescue breathing and taduuuh caca finally crossed the hurdle tt heaven has set for her x) i think tdy i reali pumped more den 800 compression .. every time practiced muz do 150 times, coz 5 cycles of 30 -.- now i m half paralyzed, right side of my body damnnn pain !!!!!! i reali cant even use chopstick nw, the strength is like so retarded lidat =[ urghhh, hope tml will feel better lahh ! i need massagiiii ! baby said tml nite gimme massaggiii !!! whee ~ gonna haf baby by my side again thru out the nite ! spending the nite with him tml ... dear, thanks for everyting, for being here with me when once again, she send me those nonsensical stuffs ytd haiz .. thanks baby =) so glad tt we gt this issue settled nicely btw us and i reali hope u ll keep ur words if nt u shud noe u ll see sth tt u dun wanna see, and tt's see me cry =x hehehehe hugs bao beii <3> tml duno will be able to get up in time for school arnot, hopefully i ll be able to cos planned to go polyclinic see docter with debbie tml .. i think its time for me to muster my courage to get my blood test done i wishh baby can accompany me and go to haf my blood test done, but he cant go w me coz he only can bk out at 530pm =( reali hope tml he haf no gym duty ^^ nvm lahh, gt debbie also the same, she can allay my anxiety also, heheee, by letting me see her irritating face =D debbie, i love u so muchhh ! u r always dere when i need u to be =) thanks girl yeahhh ! monday official half day for us ! actually we are nt entitled to the half day privilege de duno why also, duno who and who stated it ... but since tdy Ms teng announced tt all Muslims are entitled to half day off, den we should also gt the same treatment mahh ! plus wats the pt of keeping the few of us back when its nt even 1/4 of the class -.- anewae happii lahh ! hehehehe and i m now using firefox *hophophop so much nicer to use compare to internet explorer =) thanks to Zexiang recommendation ^^ so cool ~~~ and for god damn sake, i left my adidas jacket in school, lucky jiahui saw and kept it for me =] and hell, next week ll be damn busy - case study, projects and upcoming class test urghhhh, cherrr ! i m nt prepare yer .. sobbbb muz carry all my notes over to baby's dere tis coming weekend ! gambateeee aiyahh dunno how to spell lah, hehee x) JIAYOU CACA sumtymes i wonder how ironic life can be ... when she had treat ur gf so crude in the past, u still can treat her so nicely. ever want me to believe tt she merely treat him as juz a frd basis ? no, i wont believe, no matter how much he claimed coz of wat she had done to me in the past for fuck u sent me all the sickening pictures so i see, thats ur fucking purpose of adding me on msn in the earlier stage, for sending me all the pictures, fuck u bitch for goodnes, u alr noe he already be with me, why still interferes in our lives ? juz bcoz your own bf went overseas to study and u nd GUYS to accompanied u ? nt to tis extend okii, not to the extend where u keep clinging on to him when he alr make it clear to u tt we r alr tgt and fine, i got gd stuff here, tts wat she sent me ! freak !  here is she - sherlyn savouring ur chocolate fondue with him, savour for all u can and may u be choked with ur own saliva and chocolates i haf enuff of u okii bitch, and i m telling u once and for all i aint keeping mum anymore, i alr told baby wat uhaf done tdy and bear tis in mind, GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE u spoil my day alrighttt ya la, step into geylang and u will see 99% of the prostitution is make up of cHEENA girls i can tell u, i ll nv forget wat u had done to me
guess wat, my childhood is back .. finally ii got the chance to watch my all time favourite tom and jerry again ... watched it on youtube, as funny as ever =) find one day ask dear dear peii me watch, tink he hear liao he will goes lidat -> -.- tdy talked alot of times on the fone with baby, in between lessons and before he go slp precious, thanks for all the tings =) i knw time prove everyting and i hope it will prove all the good and bad tings, bad so we noe where we can improve on =) and yes, baby said he gonna bring me eat smelly beancurd ! yeahhh gudniites baby i <3> and hopefully debbie will be feeling much better nw =) finally tis day ended much to my relief, passed part of my BCLS module and the remaining is to be left on thurday to complete  learnt infant CPR today, its much more easier compared to adult one .. adult one, reali kills me ... perform the compression till i reali breatheless, its reali damn hard to push and u gotta keep repeating : 1 n 2 n 3 n 4 n 5 n 1 n 2 n3 n 4 n 10 ... and all the way up till 30 -.- and the stupid metre is dere to show how well u are performing ... wheee ... finally its over, left thurs bahh le, for the one man CPR and 2 man CPR .. througtout the whole ting, i m damn sleepy, feel like shutting my eyes once and for all and go to slp but i close my less den one minute and ms siti woke me up =(  and at the end of the day, i suffered frm minor knee abrasion due to the friction caused by the mattress and my knee=xtonight sure verii nice to ohohh one since i m feeling verii tired =) actually baby's coming to bring me to geylang to eat smelly beancurd but tink, nt coming anymore le bahh .. since i m so tired and he wanna watch soccer, nx time den go bahh haiz damn siian ... also duno wat m i siian abt .. LOLS i nd a pt job !!! i need money to pay all my damn bills .. soBbbbb
and now i shall go and enjoy my dinner =D supposed to haf enjoy my dinner, but he spoilt it all .. nah, nt dear lahh ... who else can it be ? freak ... big fuck ... u dun own the tings here bang all u want and slammed all u want, uncivilised fellow dun even give a fuck abt the ones around u, inconsider ass .. tml BCLS lesson tink gonna pump the compression till i drop tml wonder when miss gina is free -.- kanna paboom tdy, well, at least the tot of that, makes me a lil more happy .. haiz realised i got loads of sparkles hidden in my storeroom, hehehee gonna find someone to go play with me dear .. dun even noe iif he's mitting me tis week coz he's gg bk to spag to work URGHHHHHHHHH i find debbie go play, or naga =D but duno they want arnot =( or homing, my sparkler's partner, hehehe but tink he scare liao ... i nd the beach, i need the sea ... another hazy day, PSI hit as high as 140 while walking home juz nw, practically can see small particles flying in the air, like snow lidat scare me to stiff .. or m i imaginating tings ? no, highly impossible is my imagination but its a bit too exaggerating i noe .. but its the fact lah ! hees .. and out of the blue, i feel so lbue suddenly .. haiz, mama ! wats happening to me .. why is my mood suddenly lidat ? could i be suffering from bipolar disorder, LOL urghhhh, i reali feel verii fuck up lahh, i duno why, but perhpas it might be the reason, i feel inferior .. sobbbbbbbbbb dun ask me why i feel inferior, nt bcoz of i scare losing him to anyone nt bcoz of figure, nt coz of study, nt course of anyting but because of sth so realistic and practical .. dear ... i need ur hug .. haiz, who can bring me bk my happii mood, haiz juz feel like shouting all across the ocean riite nw (._.) to get all my worries away, or rather, gimme a beach so i can put my worries at bay temporary urghhhhhhHHHHHurghhhhhh wat's for dinner ? i dun even noe wat to eat, so siians feel like buying spaghetti come bk cook =D but hassle lahh need to cut, wash cook and wash -.- feel like eating frog porridge nw, smelly beancurd, and clay pot rice ='( but no one go with me, all tis is at geylang ... urghhhhhhh hungry girl is angry girl =x homing, sorrie, hehehe for throwing tantrums *smirk juz finish transfering my notes for PCB into the new notebook =) wqas wondering if i shud copy the rest of the notes tt was printed for us, but nt tonight bahh, start to feel sleepy alr, so shall turn in after tis post, if nt tml cant wake up ... and baby gonna scold if i slp late again x) anewae he sure scold liao, coz by now i shud be in bed !! went over to baby's house juz nw, spent some quality time tgt with him =) its been such a long time ever since baby fetch me from the lrt station, feel so delighted and happii with tt after fetching me, we went over to rivervale plaza to walk walk .. ta bao some ice kacang and honeydew sago back to darling's place to eat .. played "stress" with him again and i m relai stress by him lahh, coz i keep losing and he keep laughing at me -.- hurrr ! dear, i m gonna defeat u one day, but duno when will tt day be, hehehe And wat a fool m i, head keep knocking onto the wall when i sit back onto the sofa -.- 2 times, and it reali hurts like hell in the latter part till i burst out into tears, nahh, nt reali cry la, but pain till tears come out, hahaaa but duno i m crying or laughing, coz i laughed along with baby n esther when they tease @ me sob !!! went hougang plaza to haf dinner today's black pepper chicken chop is extremly spicy !!!! omg, and halfway, i lose my appetite and didnt eat finish, waste the $8 but at least i finish 3/4 of it =D if not i feel bad coz dear pay money de after dinner, went shopping with baby at hougang mall, and once again, found ourselves @ ntuc buying tings again, hehehee brought the sunsilk serum, wanna give it a try but when i opened it juz a moment ago, i feel abit regret coz of the smell, not say not nice la, but doesnt smell natural compare to my elseve de .. the sunsilk one smells like the sifonne while elseve smells verii mych like mango !!! actually didnt wanted to buy coz i use elseve dao hao hao, and its reali verii nice wel, yi fen qian yi fen huo .. =) baby juz ask me give it a try, if nt nice den use bk the one tt i m using lol baby, i <3> haf a talk with baby during dinner time he told me so much tings tt i m curious abt, and i reali feel happii and at ease tt he's willing to let me noe thou sths i still mind, like baby fetching other pple, esp HER in the past, but i told baby its ok i mind but i will learn to take tings in stride and i told him, i dowana him to go out with her anymore neither do i wan him to talk to her YAH ! i still cant forget wat she done to me alright i told baby, i reali hate her .. and he said okii =) dear, sorrie for all the troubles in wanting u to gimme the reassurances i need i reali feel grateful for tt, and same here, i ll do my part as a gd gf too i noe both of us reali want tings to work out tis time and ... i noe it will gudniites its time for slp and hopefully i wont be late tml for sch tC everyone swimming cancelled tdy .. the weather is like, super hazy again =( and i cant stand the smell of the air, it juz irritate my nose and throat so gonna bathe and prepare and go dw to baby's house shortly after tis post .. haben even done my revision, gonna gt dw to the bookshop and start buying the stuffs tt i nd for my revision =) gonna work hard tis semester, for the final laps, thou i noe my gpa wont go any higher anymore, but well, at least i haf done my best .. my clour is back to normal =( hopefully i can go for my swim nx fri or sat, i need my tan to make me loks healthy x) baby, here i come yeahh, n i m currently playing canon in d on my blog .. its still my all time favourite till date, since 120104 =) has been 33 months and 3 days, but still, it nv fails to bring me back the beautiful memories tt i had with baby =) bring it all back, the memories, the love, the trust and the faith tt i used to haf, so i can no longer need to live in the darkness .. i m still tryin my best, to find back all the elements tt has been ripped apart. but i strongly do wanna find it back, so i can be reali happii when i m with baby =) nt tt i m not hapii with baby rite nw, i m, and i m reali verii blessed and happy with everyting tt has been gg on. coz baby nv failed to give me eassurance and the explainations i need ... i wiish the trust tt i used to haf can come bk, so baby can be much more happii, sorry baby .. *hugs* hug u tite with the strongest force tt i can possess tis melody simply juz brings back alot of memories for me n baby =) remind me of the verii first morning tt i met dear, at the staircase @ doubhy ghaut .. remind me of the morning tt dear used to wait at my house bus stop to send me to sch, the walks we used to haf in the morning .. dear, i nv regret noeing u .. despite so much tings tt had happened, i m still verii glad tt god sent u to me to be part of my life for all these 3 years .. indeed we has gone thru alot and i reali hope, the hurdles tt we had crossed previously, will make our r/s stronger tis time .. no more forever, nth is forever, so i wont say tt .. but allow me to love u with all my heart, n i wanna cherish everyting tt is btw us riite nw i love u babe, gudniite x) the haze is back tdy and its irritating my noes like nobody business nose getting itchy and pi sai starts building up inside and its reali hard to get it out =s i noe it sounds chor lor but reali cant find a better term to name pi saii, heheheh anewae, haf a great time spending time with dear these 2 days =) attended the bgr talk tt was organised for us COMPULSORY ytd after sch, and it ends pretty late, erm, abt 320 ? and waited damn long for bus 31, its the longest time we ever waited !!! and it was getting on my nerves as i gotta rush home to bathe and pack my bag for the nite's stay over at baby's hse and surprisingly, baby booked out early as wat he expectedly, but when he book out, i juz managed to gt home .. so ended up,. he gotta wait for me to pack my stuffs and when i m done, he said " u verii slow lehz " hehee, bag was so heavy, and dear asked wth did i bring, i also duno wat i bring, juz 2 sets of clothes and some of my daily necessities, but it feels as thou i had moved my entire wardrobe into my bag =x gonna elope, i told him x) went for dinner at bendemeer, ate the char kway tiao tt baby said is nice and its reali nice ! i finished the whole plate, without leaving any trace of kway tiao behind =) yumm yumm, verii nice, and i told baby, hmm, nx time i wanna eat char kway tiao, u come here buy for me k ? and he say sth like : ya ! char kway tiao from here, carrot cake from bugis and wat else ! and i give him tt smirky face ^^ i lub u swtheart, always bring me round to taste the local delicaeies =) it doesnt matter if we seldom dine in at expensive places, restaurants or high class places, as long as i haf u around, and the food is grate, nth else reali matters =) after dinner, went over to debbie's place to fetch tabbie .. tabbie has been staying over at her place for more den 3 months, hehehe and finally i m fetching it home, in case i wanna study .. LOL and after tt, went our to baby's place, unpacked my tings while dear took his shower and after tt, went dw to rivervale plazza to shop ! dear brought so much tings for me @ the supermarket, the shampoos tt i wanted and many snacks for me to eat .. and off we went to settled for ice cream, been so long ever since i sink my teeth into it =) wanted to rent dvd to watch thruout the nite, but couldnt find a reali nice movie .. sob* and baby's ps2 is down, neither could i meddle withh it, the only ting and person tt can i can meddle with is baby ! heheheh it feel so nice to be able to lie in baby's arm and chest thru out the nite, it juz feel so warm and loved by him been a reali long time ever since i gotta chance to feel the warmth again =) and poor dear, he didnt reali slp well i guess, coz he say whole nite i keep pushing him to the corner of the bed, and i m like slping in the centre, leaving no place for him, hehehe i m so sorrie baby ! didnt mean it, like wat u say, i slp like a pig, hehehe and there we goes .. waking up to realise tt it's alr noon time .. bathe prepare and played card games with baby, a new game tt called "stress" reali verii nice, test ur "fan ying" and speed and sadly to say, i lose it all to baby !!! sob* coz i m too slow, not fair and i only won once !!! hur ! hooked onto the game till i keep telling him, huh, played one more can mahh ? one last one den we go =) and ... played till we left his house late, hehehe and failed to watch rob-b-hood *sob no more seats and end up watching me u and dupree, quite a nice show lahh, nt so bad after all, but a bit bored so i will juz rate it 3 out of 5 popcorns .. show ends and we juz took a walk at ps before making our way home .. and we went and see the rings tt was selling at couples' lab, reali looks so gorgeous for some pairs, and i reali hope we can get a new pair pretty soon =) baby say dowana wear bk the old pair, get a new one to be done instead .. and well, i agree somehow but still, i miss the old one =] swim tml ? its up to baby, juz fear he will be tired coz morning he's playing soccer, soccer is his life, wat abt me babe =D and i hope i will get to see him pretty soon, juz cant get enuff of sniffing u and looking at him dear, i m so glad i can finally call u mine .. muacks, love ya swtheart |
