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原来被遗忘是这样的一种感觉。。。
哈哈。。。

It's tat time of the year...

Autumn....

Leaves are turning yellow and brown,

people start wearing trench,

classmates start taking loads of pic of the leaves and tree

the daylight is getting shorter...

It's dark when it's just 5.00pm and

Weather is getting colder... grrrrrr...

AND I'm still adapting to these changes,

after being here for so long .......

This is what i need to re-learn n apply....

Be POSITIVE and UPBEAT-
There is NO point being here if you were to feel miserable all the time!!!

may every1 of us pass our PP3 exemption n our FMT exam!!
It's time for me to concentrate,turn on d turbo n pick up from where i left behind
U've had enuf of rest! It's time to do some hard work....
After that u'll have the world to u
Good luck and gambate Ng Sinye!!!
n hello peri(paris) n italy,
wait 4 me...

Appie bdae Xinyi~

A post tat's much procrastinated~ =P

Not to say that i never bake anycake before

but for this time

this is different

this wuz

The FIRST time tat i ( i mean we la... keke)

ever bake a bdae cake for some1 special

A complete cake with decorations n toppings...

Thanks to the guidance of xn the help of my lovely hsmates, ch,ky and zeq...

Guess we did become professional MANUAL mixer after baking 2 cakes in a row

(1 for trial, another 1 for real *giggle*)

Luckily it's edible, it turned out to b quite good (i personally think)

It's too bad jx's cake stole the limelight...

hehe but it didn't matter as long as the bdae gal is happy

ya i think she's way too happy to see TWO cakes

NOT just one.

Happy birthday oooo, my dear ah leng!

ps: bila mau buat cake buat kali ke-3, xn,ch,ky n zeq?

Wind song~

kekekeke learning this song now though

i still have fmt report to be finished n pages of fmt 2 be flipped thru...

it's so nice holding the guitar...

i wish i've started guitar lesson wit lao shi earlier...

guess this is the escape out of reality 4 me...

to forget things tat i need to do...tonnes of them.

so much more to study....

tests are coming..

report daedline approaching...

dying.....

Arghhhh...

Weeeeeeeeeeeeee

See wat i got~

~Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

Tx to feihing n million!!

I'm missing guitar lessons a lot....

Missing guitar teacher...

Missing the fun tat we had during our guitar class!!!

Wedding bell- Depapepe

This is the last song tat i learnt from lao shi(too bad i havent mastered the whole song)

Btw it's a duet...

sit back n enjoy..

Sky

Loving d skies here...

it's vy blue...

clouds are very much nearer to the earth...

i guess i'm falling in love with this place slowly...

is it good? or bad?

May everyone be well and happy alwiz...

may i be well n happy too~

gambate ng sinye!!!

1st Post In Scotland~

A new place

A new beginning

A series of new bad luck

1st-ly it's d mirror problem

Now there's this idiot tat flood her own fon

AGAIN

4got 2 cover the water bottle cap properly,

ended wit the fon fully immersed in pure SCOTTISH H2O in bag!!

n tat dummy is

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TADA

ME

I'm so proud of myself!

Arghhhhhhhhhh i'm so so so blur

i'm so hopeless man

wat a fool i am!

lost my new fon is juz 2 months time

=(

Counting down

Counting down: 4 days to go

4 DAYS!!!

EMPAT HARI!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH...

I'm so so so so so not ready to fly...

So many things to do

Yet time is running out

No mood to pack

No mood to fly

Haiz....

Emo-ing

Specially dedicated 2 u 啃奶

This is SPECIALLY dedicated to d ONE n ONLY 啃奶....

Caution:For those other than him who intend to read futher, the owner of this blog is nt going to be responsible for any Nauseating effect... Pls prepare metoclopramide 10mg tds if u intend to read anyway....

Title: 迟来的‘爱’的回复

一直想找一个适合的罐子来装这个message 好让它飘洋过海去到Scotland, 然后就有那么一天， 天气晴朗， 空气中洋溢着浪漫的气息， 而收信人 漫无目的走在海边， gam ngam gam 巧拾到这个message in the bottle。。。 哇，浪漫极了！但是hor, 话虽如此， 没有radar 我要怎样确保它会到达心上人--- 你的手中呢？？？ 安全着想， 都是不‘稳’zhen, 还是算了吧, 用另一种方式，黑猫白猫会抓老鼠就是好猫，snail mail,bottle mail, email, 总之是love mail send 到对的人手中就是good mail。。=P （你就将就下，发挥一下imagination当作这里是一望无际，浪花翩翩，沙滩细细的海边吧！如果有困难imagine，别急, 我已经upload了照片，你只要往下看就行了！）

哈哈哈
你曾说过，我越看越美丽（不好意思，自恋一下）
其实哦，偷偷告诉你， 我也越看你越可爱。
小小的，cute cute 的，
大眼睛，直头发，
会弹吉他，也会唱歌，
最重要的是已经习惯早上听人家唱歌的，
哇， 简直就是我的type 啦。。。

虽然我也知道你心里，还藏着另一个他，
而我怎么都比不上他，
不过，我告诉自己， 我会努力的，
我会变更矮，更白，更年轻，越少体毛。
你说你会等待，
我慢慢的期待；
我则说我会慢慢期待，
你那迟而未来，不知何时会来的等待。。。

哈哈， 是的会写情信的，简直就是就是perfect 啊！！ 给你加分加到爆！

本篇如有雷同，越看越熟悉， hehe 都是gam ngan gam 巧的，将就下咯。。 =）


‘挂’着你的无星鱼上
=P

ps: The ‘paper’ in the bottle smells so good nw. Full with the romantic aroma n nice smell of wine.. =)

Maggi hair

Maggi-fied my hair yesterday~
cant stop laughing at myself,
i look so diff tat sumtime i cant accept the fact tat i went 2 permed my hair again...
mayb a tiny bit of regret..
shouldn't hav done it in the 1st place..
bt i'm so impressed at my bravery...
it's time 4 a change..
hehe...
YoYo!
Curly sinye is back in town!!!
wakakaka..

Beautifully imperfect.....

Guess this has been quite an old clip by Yasmin Ahmad...

But i just happend to watch it a few days ago,

I seriously love this!

It's so heart warming and touching....

Life is oso like tat, isn't it???

Countdown: 11 days

Tis put a smile on my face

Indeed this make me smile~

It's so cuteeeeeeeeee~

June tx 4 sending me d mail~

=)

lots of things to do:

top of the list- my pcp. havent even started to think wbout it....

god pls blessed me wit lots of wisdom n strength 4 all these..

stop being a lazy bum!!!

countdown: 14days...

Adventure~

One day, ms ng went for an adventure together wit mr ng to the jungle of no where in the faithful,dirty but tahan lasak ford.....

As they were driving into the jungle, suddenly they saw....

My god! 'It's a warning! There's elephant around this area! Careful, careful, put on ur armour...' said mr ng.

ms ng: scare scare...
mr ng: Better go pray pray 2 datuk kong.... pai pai, bao you pin pin an an...

mr ng: Let's continue our adventure... then mr n ms ng reached the 'nursery'--- nursery 4 small tiny little rubber plants...

Hmmmm...... wondering wat r this roundish thingy??

mr ng sed it's elephant DUNG!! 'dai jiong kor's gold'....

ms ng: Whoa... never seen be4, 1st time tim~

mr ng: tis r d processed ones... after drying process under the sunlight.... spot the fibres, d grass punya remains....

Ei, there's an old man walking towards us.... what is he doing??

looks suspicious......

Oh he's coming nearer.... is it good or bad??

OOOO Rupa-rupa he's mr ng.... eiiii wat is he holding???

Awwwwwwwwwww, he got me FLOWERS.... melts~~

He even knows MAGIC!

From this plant,

ching

ching

ching

ching

TA DA

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he changes it into a pokok semalu!

hehe....

geng leh!

Then ms ng decide 2 end the adventute by having a wild ride of this little baby...

Vromm~Vroom~Vromm~

Wat a SS post... keke.. anyway i had a great day teman-ing dad to work in d estate... =) i'm goona miss all these... i'm so so so gonna miss my dad man!!!!

countdown: 16 days

it can be just tat simple

I’m happy.

Being at home together with my family makes me happy I guess….

Lying together with dad chatting and watching the tv news,

Going to facial with mommy,

Watching n listening to them talk to each other,

Dinnering together….

Ah,I feel so contented!

I’m happy.

Happiness can be just tat simple.

So does love…….

.........

moved out from vista
sad
flying off to scot soon
sad
i din expect me self to feel like tis
sad

guess tis is called life
changes n
impermenance

Big head prawn-ness

Last time
Incident: Lost my fon
Date: Back in 2005
Venue: Toilet more specifically toilet bowl of some temple

This time
Incident: Lost my fon AGAIN
Date: 26/04/08 yesterday
Venue: Toilet AGAIN!!! Left my fon hanging at the back of the door n totally forgot about it.

But it just took me 10 minutes to realize tat I terforgot, n when I went back the fon wuz *puff* GONE, BYE BYE..... Tried to called bt I guess the one tat ‘TOOK’ my fon off it dee… haiz… I’m so HOPELESS, how can I 4get, and that wuz my 21st bday present from dad, n it contains lots of important stuffs inside n oso the key chain tat I love given from dear sis( sis wuz saying it not any key chain but THE key chain tat board a plane all the way back from Taiwan, I’m so sorry xiao mei mei)…

Lessons to be learned:
1. Bring along hand bag next time.
2. Pass fon to sm1 whn I enter toilet.( I dono y I hav tendency of losing my fon in the toilet)
3. Dun act smart by hanging fon at the door anymore.( I did tat coz I tot I wuz smart and can prevent the fon from diving into the toilet bowl for a swim, bt I guess I’m SO WRONG!)

Others:
I’m so blessed to have u pa n mommy!!! I’m indeed blessed and grateful to be ur daughter. I feel so guilty when you guys din scold me 4 losing my fon n instead brought me to get a new one. I’m touched n I feel so BLESSED n 幸福…. THANKS n I LOVE u very much!!! Hui, tx 4 nt being envious whn I gt a new fon too, I love u my dear sis…. I’m indeed very blessed!

jia u oooo 2 tat sm1...
May every1 be well n happy =)

Food for the heart

Opening up to greater possibilities
Free yourself from all limiting beliefs.
You have great dreams, visions and boundless talents.
Open yourself to greater possibilities by releasing all limitations and know that you are able to achieve them.

Food for the heart
Become a possibilitarian.
No matter how dark things seem to be or actually are,
Raise your sights and see possibilities---- always see them, for they’re always there.

DR. NORMAN VINCENT PEALE

Food for the heart
Some people grumble that roses have thorns;
I am grateful that the thorns have roses.

ALPHONSE KARR

*taken from Love is all about You*

i shall alwiz remind myself about all these......be positive and be grateful.... =)

may i be well n happy

may you be well n happy

may everyone be well n happy alwiz

际遇

两个对的人，
在不对的时间相遇，
那会是一种遗憾，
抑或是
一场美丽的际遇??....

Happy anniversary dad n mom =*

Saw from ken’s blog tat his parents celebrated their anniversary yesterday.

It wuz such a coincidence that my parents celebrated their's today.( keke I just found out TODAY that 1st of march wuz their engagement n registration date, I alwiz tot tat theirs wuz on Valentine’s day, hehe V day wuz only the day they had their wedding dinner) sry pa n ma, keke hav been ignorant 4 the pass 22 years of being ur daughter =P

Dad surprised me again, he bought a rose for mom, hey man, this is so not him… =) mom had a fair bit of surprise I guess after so many years she still gets rose and surprises… wow! I want that as well…. Too bad I din have the photos that I took for them with me now.

Happy 24th anniversary, my dear Mr and Mrs Ng.
May you guys 白头偕老。。。
Looking at u guys really make my hearts melts…
May I be able to follow your footsteps as well=)
Wish me luck ya…

(hehe another thing that I found out today from them, rupa-rupa mom got engaged when she wuz still studying in Uni…muahahaha… all this while she wuz saying study first then only find bf and all, keke all those babbling sounds like rubbish, erm I mean crap to me now) [Evil grins] I still cant stop myself from laughing when i think of wht mom sed…

Meaningful

Be thankful for what you have,then,
You won’t complaint about what you don’t have;
When your heart is filled with gratefulness,
There’s no space left for sigh and complaints.....


p/s: keke...May tat sm1 with the toothache be thankful 4 the ache =P
enjoy the ache ya~( keke okie la it's random)
Get well~ =)

原来爱就是这么一回事。。。。

外面下着大雨，
豆大的雨点滴答滴答作响，
一对老夫妇，
在雨中撑着一把小伞，
太太牵着丈夫的手，
先生的半个肩膀湿透了，
原来爱就是这么一回事。。。。



It’s raining heavily,
Afar, an old couple is walking in the rain,
Under a small and tiny umbrella,
Auntie is holding on to uncle’s hand,
Uncle’s shoulder is drenched wet,
Oh, love can be just tat simple…..

挺有意思的。。。

爱情真得很美妙，当他翩然来临时， 我们魂不守舍，即期待又害怕受伤害；当爱情不来时，我们千盼万盼，深怕错过了那个佳人。

就在‘爱’与‘不爱’，‘要’与‘不要’之间， 我们免不了对爱情产生怀疑----- 人家说爱情是盲目的，我会也不会因此爱错了人。。。


‘害怕失去对方’这是一般人在情爱关系中的通病， 总认为没有对方， 自己就活不下去， 却疏忽是否自己在这过程中‘失去了自我’。

真正的情爱关系， 健康的情爱关系是双方勇敢的做自己， 没有虚假，没有讨好， 没有矮化， 你爱上的‘我’就是如此真实的我；我爱上的‘你’也是如此真实的你。这样的爱恋才有够的安全感， 这样的爱情才能共同成长， 万一有一天真得彼此不再相爱， 双方仍懂得互相体谅， 互相祝福。

这个意思是说------- 恋爱关系的可爱及可贵， 就在于双方最后是否在一起， 这并不是最重要,但也并不代表不重要； 最重要的是在爱情的过程中，是否能更认识自己， 更清楚自己要的是什么样的对象， 更懂得爱自己。爱情可以促使人成长， 爱情可以帮助人成熟。

爱情是无敌的，爱情可以让一个裹足不前的人变得勇往直前；爱情可以让一个脆弱不堪的人变得信心十足；爱情也可以让一个灵魂漂泊的人变得安定自在，
一切的关键 都在于爱情可以促使人成长， 爱情可以帮助人成熟。

‘成长’和‘成熟’来临时，将让我们再次相信爱情， 因为没有对错好坏，适者留，不适者去， 当我们相信自己有能力选择， 有能力爱人，我们也就在情爱关系中不再恐惧。

摘于《星洲日报， 吴娟瑜专栏 》

Beautiful day

Today is a beautiful day…

I woke up with a smile, guess I muz be having great and sweet dreams.

The usually bengang and sour face librarian smiled at me just now.

I feel happy and blissful….

Today is a beautiful day…

Yup indeed, have been smiling the whole day =)

Life is beautiful if u know how to live it.....

Yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, today is a gift
i'm blessed.
Dun worry, be happy ;)
I have to keep remindin myself about all these...

Anti Valentine's Day =P

Today when I change my fb pm to sinye is gonna anti V day
This are the comments tat I got
L: Why? becoz u kenot get the grape, tat’s y u say it’s sour?
YW: Why anti? No one to date u?
I wuz like geram- nya!!!

Who says that you muz have a reason or reasons to anti something?
Anti V day doesn’t means that I cant give out Ferroro Roche choc
Anti V day doesn’t prevent me from receiving choc n presents as well
I jux Anti for the sake of Anti...keke
This is jux me….

keke choc 4 those who hav yet to find their true love.. (i wrapped it myself.. nice leh.. ss a bit...)i believe u guys 'll found them vy vy soon~keep ur finger cross...

Well today wuz quite a surprising day,
I din know that so many ppl were armed with valentine’s pressies n chocs,
Haha maybe we dirasuki ‘Santa Claus’,
Wanna share and spread the love and happiness around
Since LOVE IS IN THE AIR….

Tis is wat I got…
Tx KY dear... so sweet of u .....muacks x100....

Another 1 wuz tis as a V day pressie

YUP, ur eyes din failed u...It's really a bottle of wine, jux tat it's EMPTIED before given to me,hehe but HEY it’s nt juz any bottle man,

it’s THE BOTTLE,

there’s even MESSAG3 in the bottl3...can u see the scroll of paper inside teh bottle??( hahaha i wuz imagining if i gt it from the beach lk wat's written in nicholas sparks book, wow tat would be so so so PERFECT.... keke okie la i know i'm dreaming, bt hey sumtimes allow me to day dream a bit la....)....

Bt still it's Vy ROMANTIC of u ken, bt the msg …errr…okie la… ur sense of humour vy good..... Wat is that? u purposely write the 'OLD' then cancel it off izzit? keke anyway tx dear, i'm touched! Haha ya nowadays guys who knows how to write love letters are scarcely found, as hard as finding a diamond on the floor... i still rmb i sed tat, hehe, no worries ur memory never fails u. Keke now i look bac, hehe yup u have choosen the right bottle for me, though i'm trying hard not to admit tat.=P tx a lot!!! haha heart melts.....

CONCLUSION: Quote of the day, borrow frm XY ;)

单身无罪， 单身万岁!

Happy SINGLE day~ =P

n to couples, have a chessy V day! ;)

signing off....

原来回家并不是必然的

读了这么一篇文章，
述说着那些因为种种原因，
游子想家但归不得的心情，
突然，
有种莫名的感动与冲动，
就这样的不知不觉就把车开回家了。。。

回家的感觉真好，
虽然路途疲累，
但，
父亲的一杯蜜糖水，
亲娘的贴心问候，
足于暖和整个心房，
让心底暖烘烘的，
疲惫与伤风消失得无影无踪，
家与爱原来是画上了等号。。。=）

元宵据老人家说是个大日子，
吃过元宵晚餐，
也意味着新春接近尾声，
该告一段落了。
明年的今天，
处在异乡又是何等的滋味。。。
借此 祝福大家 ，
新的一年，
万事顺意 ， 平平安安。。。

噢，今天也是中国情人节 aka 抛柑日，
柑拿来乱丢确实有些浪费，
不如请我吃了，再把皮还你，
让你抛抛柑皮，抛个过瘾，
一举两得， 何乐而不为？=P
也祝 天下有情人终成眷属。。。。
找到有情人的甜甜蜜蜜， 有情喝水饱。。。
（包括我在内，keke）

Kiss the joy as it flies...

He who binds himself to joy,

Doth the winged of life destroyed.

But he who kisses the joy as it flies,

Lives in eternity's sunrise.

~William Blake~

I'm feeling happy,sweet n blessed for these pass weeks.. May i be reminded to embrace the joy and kiss it goodbye as it flies( though i really really don want this to happen but........) may i b well n happy.. May everyone be well n happy alwiz~

6 things about this cny

1. 1st time without bro around. Oh boy how i miss u .I miz the time u happily let me bully u :P i miz the time when you help me carry my stuffs. Miz the time you gamble with all of us.I miss you lots. I know you miss us to the max as well. Poor thing, 1st day of CNY stil got class..

2. 1st time did last minutes CNY shopping. Usually i'm well prepared and ready with clothes way before cny but this time it was really last minutes.Thinking back i was really desperate and impulsive to the max during shopping the other day. Haha i wuz practically grabbing stuffs as i go along.=)Anyway, had a great bargain. RM 250 for 10 pieces of clothing... keke.. i'm stil so happy when i think about it.

3. No gambling. Yup, so far i havent gambled for this cny. Not that i like to gamble and i alwiz lose no matter what game i play, i juz feels weird nt gambling this year. Mayb because bro and uncle are not around.

4. Alcohol. Hehe 1st tm dad n mom n uncles coax me to drink alcohol. I seldom drink not that i don .okei la most tat i drunk is half a glass of wine? and a few can of shandy?? a few sipful of beer??hehe...My uncles even wanted to get me drunk kononnya to prepare me to go scot.But i wuz very surprised that mom asked me to drink n she didn't mind me getting drunk. Oh gosh, imagine how often can tat happen.She alwiz has been the stricter 1, i really got a shock man!Hehe mayb coz she wuz intoxicated too. Hehe what i found out the other day wuz: 1 and a 1/2 glasses of wine + 1 glass of whisky(diluted one la of course) = no drunk bt high high dei~

5. No homemade cookies and cakes. This year it seemed that everyone is very busy. Mom didn't have time to make my favourite peanut cookies and i dun have chance and the time to help and coax her to make. I still remember last cny i baked like dono how many chocolate cakes after getting ms pau's recipe for cny. There were so many that ate till everyone wanted to puke.Keke mayb i gt phobia after last year. But i miss peanut cookies. How ironic, bro in UK gets to eat mom's cookies but me who's in mal don get to taste( she made earlier and distributed all to relatives and send some to bro without keeping some for me, and she claimed she forgot to keep some at home.i guess time has caught up with her, or is it bcoz she berat sebelah, keke..... anyhow i love her lots...).

6. Assignments. Ya they jus cant leave me in peace. 3,THREE,TIGA,三个, SAM GOH,(okie wat's 3 in tamil) assignments to be passed up next week,CNY also have to do homowork.Pity nya~ Gosh! Tat's y i'm here blogging and voice out my unsatisfactoriness.But i guess it's partly( okie la mostly) due to my fault as well. Procrastination queen in action for too long tat's y i have to suffer now.


Oh ya i watched the dutchess n the curious stories of benjamin button even before it's shown in cineme.. kekeke tx 2 wy dear..i'm oso thinking bout my upply of tea n mcflurry quite often coz sm1 alwiz tempt me.. shall go makan whn i get bac 2 some where which has mcD ...signing off till thn..

random

i woke up with a smile this morning...
i dreamt yesterday....
they were great and sweet.....
i guess i might need to learn how to inject insulin ....

pouring...

It’s pouring outside.
It’s as if my heart is crying out.
It has been way too long a habit,
I’ve become too dependant and attached,
way too much than I expected.
It caught me off guard when reality sunk in.

Though it hurts,
But I guess it’s time to learn to live independently again,
To learn to detach again.
Is it possible?
I don’t think so.
Not in a short while.
But I’ll try my best ….

《广岛之恋》

不够时间好好来爱你
早该停止风流的游戏
愿被你抛弃就算了解而分离不愿爱的没有答案结局
不够时间好好来恨你
终於明白恨人不容易
爱恨消失前用手温暖我的脸
为我证明我曾真心爱过你
爱过你 爱过你 爱过你

.....

okie... i screwed up my test..... =(
vy dissapointed wit myself....

从email 读到的十句话

第一句
如果我们之间有1000步的距离你只要跨出第1步
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
(偶尔，还是会发发梦， 希望那会发生在自己身上。。。但，这么浪漫的情景，真的会发生在现实生活中吗？doubtful...说不定也许有那么的一天，让我见证了那么的一刻，也许我会相信。。。 ）

第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
才是真正爱你的人
(哈， 那下次吵架时，我会告诉那人我是真正爱你的, 看下reaction 会是什么? 分分钟会被骂白痴!)

第三句
付出真心　才会得到真心
却也可能伤得彻底
保持距离　
就能保护自己却也注定永远寂寞
(那我是不是也该敢敢的，不要那么理智的，放胆去轰轰烈烈一番？）

第四句
有时候　不是对方不在乎你
而是你把对方看得太重
(也许吧。。。 那该怎么办？)

第五句
朋友就是把你看透了　
还能喜欢你的人
（谢谢一路上，一直包容，纵容我的朋友，让我的生命多了那么一份幸福感，谢谢:*）

第六句
就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie
(恐怖， 现在才发现。)

第七句
真正的好朋友并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起　
就算不说话也不会感到尴尬
（真的，很有道理。感激在茫茫人海中，我竟很幸运的blessed with 酱的朋友。谢了！）

第八句
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人
(世界上真的没有十全十美的人。。。两个50 分加起来100 分也不是很好吗？那我几时才会找到那另外的50%..... ;）

第九句
为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
为你的难过而难过的
就是那些　该放进心里的人

第十句
冷漠　有时候并不是无情
只是一种避免被伤害的工具
(自我保护的同时，也许已经不经意的伤害到他人。。。 那应不应该呢？不知道..... )

It's time 2 change

'Mind is the fore-runner of all.Mind is chief, mind-made are they.'
[Stanzas from Dhammapada]

It's indeed very true. Mind is a powerful tool that controls us.
A positive or negative state of mind will affects a person tremendously.
A change in the way u think, the way u perceive things changes the perspectives ,ur mood and emotions altogether.
Back on fri, i was so pissed off and stressed out with the coming camp and upcoming tests that was filled with negatives thoughts. I wasn't able to concentrate, i wasn't able to sit down properly and study.

My minds wondered off and i was so damn worried.
Practically, i didn't do anything except for worrying unnecessarily.

i came across an article while reading newspaper. Here is wat's about:

当你面对困境 或是 难题时；
要面对，接受，处理 然后放下。。。。

(direct translation: when u face wit obstacle or a problem, confront it, accept it, do something about it and then let go after you have tried your best)

Suddenly, my mind juz went 'TINK' [light bulb flashing]
THIS IS WHAT I NEED TO DO!!
And i decided to do juz tat!
Surprisingly, after i made my mind, i felt so RELIEVED! I felt LIGHT( okie la literally though i'm not)!!
My world wuz back in balance again...
Instead of sitting there complaning of somthing that i hav no control in, i shall do smt better.....
It's time to embrace the challenges thrown to me.It's time for me to grow up.[ digi: it's time 2 change...hehe ;P]
I shall learn to count my blessings - tx them for the sponsor (keep track on my new year resolution) and to complain less...
i kept saying to myself complaining is such a waste of time and i shall do smt better to solve my problems instead of being in a state of denial.

Now i find that actually things weren't actually that bad.(haha my EQ getting better... ss a bit:P)
Good point: if we were 2 do it now, we 'll sav the hassels n hav more time to spend in this coming may, i can even make it to a few trips n even IDC..mayb.. of course there's always this high possiblilitty of screwing the tests...
aiya i dun care dee la... screw mar screw lor...
think positively---law of attraction...
All i need to do nw is to try my best to study as much as possible...

Even on a toughest day, there's still something to be cheer about.
Sometimes, if u cannot change the situation, change urself then.
Change the way u think. It helps.......

p/s: Dear all my dear frens tx 4 ur care n support n motivations....tx to my dear dad n mommy oso... who knows mayb miracle does happen, and we might not need to attend the camp so soon.... May every1 be well n happy~~

......

Attchment is really not a good thing...
Ya i know it's better nt to get too attached...
Sometimes it's better to let go
But the thing is i juz cant bring myself to do that!!
Arghhhhhhhhhh.......

Doomed...

I'm doomed...soon
Stress gila...
this morning juz knew tat
our class test which is on next thus 'll be rescheduled + i need to SKIP CLASS to attend a brainwashing camp of 5 days next week!!! Some more it's COMPULASORY if nt i won b able to fly to strathclyde..
Straight after the camp i'll be having 3 class tests in a row....

Screw them up!! for informing so late...

now i'm wondering whther i'll be able to finish studying 4 the tests...( bear in mind tat we need to study and pass the BTN test in d camp, if not, damn it, hav to go for another time====> means wont hav much time 2 study in the camp 4 class tests as well!!)
I'm so stressed......
cant even concentrate well... tat's y i'm here blogging...
ARGHHHH.......

Bye 2008 & Hello 2009

It was really super fast... Nw it's the 2nd day of 2009 dee...
Again it's the beginning of a brand new yr...
hopefully this marked a new beginning in my chapters of life as well...
Ya i'm half way thru sem 5...
Very soon~~i'm going to fly over 2 the place far far away....provided i pass my exam...
pls lord buddha,pls make tat a reality..hehe

As usual some Nw Yr Resolution jotted down 2 serve as a reminder ....
May i b able to stick to it for as long as possible.....

AHEM....
1.SLEEP LESS
Ya this is the first on the agenda... Everyone knows tat i'm dianosed with hypersomnia and is d sleeping QUEEN of d house...I'm not going to take I CANT HELP IT as an excuse dee..(MARK MY WORDS).8hrs per day is more than enough..STOP snoozing and wake up earlier.... STOP being a PIG..

2.BE MORE HARDWORKING
STOP procrastinating n start working towards my goals.This is what i intended at least 1 hr of studying per day.(hopefully i can do it).Plan my time well...

3.COUNT MY BLESSINGS
Be grateful for what i have and not complaining for what i don have.... Reflects on myself and 5 things that i'm grateful everynight before sleep. DO sharing of merits everynight as well..

Tat's all 4 now.I must keep all these on my mind...
May everyone be well and happy
May u b free from physical sufferings and mental sufferings
May this new yr of 2009 b a great, bountiful n bleesed yr ahead.
signing off~~ Xoxo