Horrible Blogger

Hi my readers..

Soo much has been going on it's kinda hard to blog as much as i like.

I got back from Boston last week & this past weekend the boo came down for once &besides that i have just been doing same ol thing. work work work

i've cut back from the club scene.. i do go out when i have certain events. I'm not sure if i've mentioned it before but i'm working w/ Univision here in DC. that's the largest and international hispanic channel.. it's all over the US, South America and carribean. Each state that it's own news and shows and what not so it's kinda fun to interview artists and get to go to concerts for free and whatnot.

Anyway.. I'm leaving to Boston again Tuesday i believe. YAY

lol

Thats all for now
Till next time... I know i'm a HORRIBLE BLOGGER.

For now..

Hi guys!

Quick update.. I'm headed to Boston today for the next week to spend some QC time w/ the boston boo ( if ur confusedread back.The guys that happens to be my roomies cousin) I'm super duper excited!!!!

Ahhh one more thing.. Mr.Forbidden called last night.. We've talked on and off for a while the pass few months. I'm still suprised at how much damage to my last relationship our friendship has done. We have both wanted each other in the worst way... but even now that i've been single for about 8 months we have still not hooked up... I question that sometimes... but it also makes out cat and mouse relationship soo exciting. I can't say whose the cat and whose the mouse.. those roles change soo often between us.. but it keeps it thrilling

& btw.. a detail i left out... He isn't so forbidden anymore.. Just like he called it when we first met. he said to me " In two years, you will be single & I will be single... And i'll be all yours to do with as you please"
He must be some kind of future teller  b/c thats exactly the situation. He's completly single... & i don't see that relationship starting up again.. but you never know.. But his ex made it clear to me ( another blog) and his actions are pretty clear that he has no intention of going back... But i'm getting ahead of myself.. i gottta focus on whats in front of me.. and right now... thats Mr.Boston!

Till next time...

I'm HORRIBLE!

Ugh i'm such a horrible blogger!!!

I haven't written in how long?? & it's not like alot hasn't been going on...it has.. Ive just been to flat out lazy to blog about it.

There is sooo much to say i don't even know where to start. 2010 has officially been THE BEST summer of my life. I've met AMAZING people and done great things. July has been super busy for me. The first weekend of July I went to Boston w/ the roomie. I had A GREAT time with her family, which is like my second family, & i got to know her guy cousin a bit more. We've known each other for about 4 years & he's always had a crush on me, but i never viewed him as more then my roomies little cousin.. but cousin isn't sooo little anymore.. LOL he's quiet grown up & i see him hahaha... more on that to come!!

2nd weekend in july I headed up to New York and spent it w/ the bestie of 9 years. Went to a concert out in NJ and hit the club scene in the city.. I really don't know why i live in DC, it's an ALRIGHT city. I guess when you go away for a bit you see so many other things that your city is missing and it just makes you wanna pick up & move.

A few days after getting back from NY i went back home to the Dominican Republic. I had SUCH an amazing week out there. I went w/ a roomie and a guy friend... YES JUST A FRIEND, THAT IS ALL. And we had the most AMAZING time. I got to spend time w/ my mother & my little sister is ALLLL grown up.. shes like a windows 7 version of me.. new and improved hehehe. I hung out w/ friends from high school, hit up the beaches and checked out whats hot as far as the nightlife goes. Ohh ya... also saw my ex.. that was interested.. VERY interesting.. but i'll maybe blog about that later.

I came back two days before my birthday so it was time to celebrate here in DC. I hadn't spent a weekend here in DC since maybe June, and here it was about to be august so the girls took me out to Eden Lounge. I rocked a nice white dress & headed with the girlies. I guess all the alcohol from all my trips caught up w/ me THAT night, but I woke up sooooo sick that i had to miss work,which wasn't my intention since i had just missed over a week from when i was in DR. So i try to sleep it off all day thursday & friday i wake up and still feel like trash but i go to work anyways against my better judgement... But i start feeling awful again and head home around 11am.

Now friday was this HUGE party i was having joint w/ my other guy friend who happend to have the same birthday, but being so sick i wasn't in the mood. But liked it or not I had to suck it up and attend b/c i had my friends from NYC coming to stay w/ me. So i decided it was all mental and I refused to be sick. So i put on my happy face, my short dress and party-- only thing was that i choose to NOT drink just b/c i wasn't feeling so well.

The party was insane & we had over 150 people show up ( at a house party-- yess the house was big enough thank god)  I stayed until 2 am and then my outta town friends and I headed back to my place.
We stayed up talking and chilling till 4 am and passed out. The next day i heard the party went on until 6 am.. THAT'S INSANE.. we're NOT in miami bitch! hahahaha

But i was glad people had a good time but saturday and sunday were THE WORSE days for me. I just WOULDN'T feel better. I came down with a fever and i just literally couldn't move. My body was in so much pain but i had no one to take me to the hospital. ( my outta towners left early saturday) and finally my roomie came home and brought my fever down & gave me meds which helped me feel better... but come monday... once again i was REALLLYYYY bad. So my roomie rushed me to the ER. I was there all day. Turns out i was dehydrated ( went thru 3 IVs) and had issues w/ my liver & kidneys... so NOOOO alcohol for me for a WHILE. I'm on serious antibiotics and meds.. but i'm taking it easy b/c i dont wanna get addicted to all those drugs they have me on.

But that's about it for now. I've been taking it easy since. I'm headed to boston in less then 2 weeks to go visit my roomies cousin.. i'll  be out there for about a week & i'm really excited.

That's all for now guys. Hopefully i can get back into writing the way i use to... we'll see

Till next time..

Bad Blogger BAD BAD BLOGGER!

I'm sorry guys. i knoq i've been a REALLY horrible blogger lately.  I can't say it's because i've been so busy or because of lack of material.. NOPE. Not at all.. it's just taken me a bit to get into the groove of things. I feel like i much rather read other peoples blogs then write my own.. BUT i gave my word and i'm sticking to it. So please.. just BARE with me & promise to love, honor, follow & comment my blog. Thanks!

Hehehe

So i don't even know where to start. My life has been completetly different then i envisioned it would be.. and it's taken a while for me to get into the groove of things.. but i'm getting there shortly.

After my break up i was down to 115 lbs... it ws disgusting.. but i've been gaining it back and i'm working out so it goes to the right places. So thats woohoo!

I've been sorta kinda seeing someone.. even tho i know i'm not really ready. I've actually been seeing him for a bit. Since february maybe..we started off talking alot & then we had a HUGE snow storm here in the DMV area so we spoke on the phone for days b/c we were stuck at home.

Anywho it was going well... and then the EX sorta came back into my life and I pushed the guy ( we shall call him cullen- because he reminds me of edward.. but in a not so paleish and not looking in pain all the time type of way)  away. And of course shortly after the ex came back things got sour again.. and i went back to cullen.

He's cool. VERY DIFFERENT. He's persian.. and i've never dated someone who isn't spanish.. so thats new to me.. I decided to take things slow with him.. & i haven't even slept with him. I'm kind of on this whole " not sleeping with anyone unless im in a relationship" it's difficult but it's being done!

We had a bit of a falling out a few months ago.. something about religion, his family, my culture and background.. which didn't really go to well with me and things have sort of changed with me... but we'll see how things go.

Onto other aspects of my life. I'm excited to go back to school in the fall. I took the spring semester off b/c my head wasn't in the right place. I wasn't living where i wanted to live. I wasn't doing what i wanted to do & i hadn't found myself yet. But i finally moved with my bff  & our furniture is being delivered soon.

I'm excited for summer I have a few trips. My first one being Boston the first week of July. Yay :)

Thanks all for now. I'm sorry this blog was all over the place.

Till' next time!

Comments problem!!

I have having problems with the comments guys.. I'm sorry... Go ahead and read the last post I think you should be able to comment on them now.

Thanks Brit :)

Till next time...

Catching you up...

Wow. It has been FOREVER and a day since i lost wrote. I hope my readers haven't forgotten me.. can't really blame you if you did tho.

I just went back and read my old blogs & got sad for a bit. But then i knocked some sense into myself.

If any of my old readers have any questions regarding what happened with the ex & I please feel free to ask away.. this will be the ONLY time i address him or hopefully bring him up. He is a part of my life that was not meant to last & I've come to terms with that. I also realized that neither of us deserved to be with each other. We were both less then perfect & didn't give each other 100% . I made my mistakes and had a few indiscretions but he was far from perfect as well & I too was put in the dark about alot of things.


With that being said.. this starts my NEW BLOG... I'm ready to embrace my new life with more positive outlook.

So much has changed as you can imagine. If you remember I was renting a 2br apartment with an old high school friend. Well her & I are better off as friends then are roomies.. So i actually went back and moved in with my BFF-- I lived with her before for about two years ( half puerto rican/ half Dominican) .

We got this AMAZING apartment 5 minutes away from this popular downtown area. It's a 2bedroom 2 br apartment. Each bedroom has it's own connecting bathroom. It's the ONLY unit in the whole complex remodeled. So we have brand new stainless steel appliances with granite counter tops & marble floors w/ washer-dryer in the unit ( which is pretty hard to get)
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We weren't planning to move until August.. but the complex was running a deal that we'd be saving around $350 a month so we couldn't resist! We moved in April and it feels SOOO goof living with my bff again.. she gets me and we both kind of need each other at the moment b/c she is going through a hard time with her girlfriend and she was there for me when i needed her and was going through my stuff with my ex as well.

Ok now ONTO the JUICY stuff..
As you can imagine after being in a relationship for such a long time i need some personal time. & I'm not ready to fully date and 100% commit to someone b/c i had alot of work on myself.

I was seeing a therapist until last month & she has truly helped me feel semi- ok again. I was in a REALLY bad place. I mean just imagine. I was job-less, basically homeless crying myself to sleep EVERYNIGHT and i lost about 17 pounds b/c i just couldn't eat. All i'd hear is my stomach grumbling as if it were begging me for food.

I turned to God. & i started going to church everyday. I realized that my ex boyfriend shouldn't have been the center of my life. It should have been God, myself THEN him. Well i'm just glad i have my priorities straight now.

I've been dating someone.. He is Persian.. he knows my situation and he knows my deal so he knows that i'm not able to be " fully in it" and he has been INCREDIBLY understanding. He pushes me to spend time with my girls b/c he knows the attention i get from him isn't the same. So i have been going out to bars & clubs more.. but he is usually with me. We've decided on being exclusive but he also gets that i hang out with my guy friends... After what happened with my ex i have EVERY SINGLE INTENTION of never keeping ANYTHING from the person i'm dating or the person who I'm in a relationship with .

Alot of plans coming up this summer.. and alot of funny things have happened to me recently.. Soo hopefully i'll be posting alot more. I've missed this. Lets go about this the right way now!!

Till' next time...

Upside Down!

I've been gone for a long time... but i have alot to say!

So much has happen and i don't even know where to start--- or even if it is a good idea to post again. I really should just delete this blog.... but my blog will not be how it use to be. It will be an outlet to help me.

It will help me be a better person, it will help me overcome everything that i am going through!!

The boo & I broke up! The worst thing that could happen did! He found the blog. --yes you read it right, he found this blog!

It's to much for me to write at this moment. I'm still going through alot! I'm depressed. I hurt him really bad.. i destroyed him. I never thought that i could have so much impact in another persons life.

It took me a while to accept.. but it's over! I was in denial.. thinking that if he really loved me he would forgive me eventually. Thinking that maybe therapy might help... but through all of it i realized i had more issues then i thought.

Now i'm living with a friend, in a 2 bedroom basement and feel completly alone! I've had really bad thoughts and just completly secluded myself. But i realized that this isn't the end. It the ends for the boo and I, but it's a new begining for me.

I'm off to bed right now, because i can't cry anymore. My eyes hurt & so does my heart.

My loyal readers-- please send me your email address. I changed my number and basically any other contact information-- but trust me ive needed u guys sooooo bad-- because i felt like u were the only ones that knew EVERYTHING about me!!!

Stephanie (both of you), Thatgirl, My Side of the Story, and anyone i might have forgotten!

XoXo guys!
PS- u might have noticed alot of my posts are missing--i will eventually go back and delete every single post and this will be my first post towards the new direction my blog will be going.