Realising.

Realising we only live everyday once. I should update this blog of mine.

God has been so good throughout this year! Despite of the spiritual attacks, weird drama, nightmares, and *i do not even wanna think of it* assignments. I wanna give a big applause and shoutout to God! For helping me getting through all these, and still loving me throughout. Ahhh, where do you find a God like that anyway?

Realising the things that i went through, God always place someone there to help me. And fighting it to reach Him. Sometimes, God can only help us this much. Always wondering, oh, God.. Since you are all-so-knowing. You have got the whole universe in Your hands. why does bad terrible things still happen to me/or my love ones? And when i dont get my answers, I go, You dont get whole of me! Please dont hold an offended heart, this thing will eat us alive if we allow it too. It will be an amazing thing, if we come to God and say, God, you know what? I dont need the answers. Because more than i want answers, I want You.

Realising healing starts when you open up. The same principal when you opened up to let Him in into your heart. He will start doing things you couldnt imagine.

Bringing happiness next year and leaving sadness behind, 2013! Bigger year ahead, one year older, one year wiser?

Love and wishes

Amanda

thoughts

Indescribable feelings.
So surreal.
Responded to Your love nine months ago.
Woke up this morning, feeling so loved by my Beloved.
Knowing that He was always waiting for me to come home.
So faithful, so constant.
He knows my every move. took away all of my sins, delivered me from the evil.
Blessed with wonderful people in my life.
Swept me away with Your love, your sovereign grace.
nothing else matters.
Beautiful, amazing God.
my Comforter, always there.
He covers me with the blanket of comfort.
He protects me from the evil.
He showers me with His love.
I'm in love with You.
The more I seek You, the more I find You.
The more I find You, the more I love You.
I wanna sit your feet, drink from the cup in Your hand.
Lay back at You and breath, feel Your heartbeat.
This love is so deep, more than I can comprehend.
Its overwhelming.

Your Love is overwhelming.

An intimate message from God to You

My Child, You may not know me, but I know everything about you. Psalm 139:1 

I know when you sit down and when you rise up. Psalm 139:2 

I am familiar with all your ways. Psalm 139:3 

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image. Genesis 1:27 

In me you live and move and have your being. Acts 17:28 

For you are my offspring. Acts 17:28 

I knew you even before you were conceived. Jeremiah 1:4-5 

I chose you when I planned creation. Ephesians 1:11-12 

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. Psalm 139:15-16 

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. Acts 17:26 

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14 

I knit you together in your mother's womb. Psalm 139:13 

And brought you forth on the day you were born. Psalm 71:6 

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. John 8:41-44 

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. 1 John 4:16 

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 1 John 3:1 

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. 1 John 3:1 

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. Matthew 7:11 

For I am the perfect father. Matthew 5:48 

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. James 1:17 

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. Matthew 6:31-33 

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. Jeremiah 29:11 

Because I love you with an everlasting love. Jeremiah 31:3 

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. Psalms 139:17-18 

And I rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17 

I will never stop doing good to you. Jeremiah 32:40 

For you are my treasured possession. Exodus 19:5 

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul. Jeremiah 32:41 

And I want to show you great and marvellous things. Jeremiah 33:3 

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. Deuteronomy 4:29 

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4 

For it is I who gave you those desires. Philippians 2:13 

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. Ephesians 3:20 

For I am your greatest encourager. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17 

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. Psalm 34:18 

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. Isaiah 40:11 

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. Revelation 21:3-4 

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. Revelation 21:3-4 

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. John 17:23 

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. John 17:26 

He is the exact representation of my being. Hebrews 1:3 

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. Romans 8:31 

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19 

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19 

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. 1 John 4:10 

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. Romans 8:31-32 

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. 1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. Romans 8:38-39 

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. Luke 15:7 

 I have always been Father, and will always be Father. Ephesians 3:14-15 

My question is… Will you be my child? John 1:12-13 

I am waiting for you. Luke 15:11-32

 Love, 

Your Dad Almighty God 

 source : Fathersloveletter.com

Evidence of Your faithfulness

This post should have been published or posted way back before. But as usual, I always didnt had the time to really sit down and write about it. Blogging does consume and thoughts and time. So, a while back. I was just casually talking to my little brother( half asleep actually) about saving himself for the one or a special girl that he likes instead of going all out for Jane, Mary or Nicole ; every pretty girl that he sees. So, it came to a point where i was telling him of my past relationship and the relationship that im in now. I realize that God is so faithful. He is just so faithful. He restored so much for me. Whatever I had lost or I didnt had in my past relationship, He had restored me with all those. Things i never had before, things i had lost. I truly only realized that our God is so faithful until i verbalized what He had restored me with. So then Bryan asked me. Why? i thought your previous relationship was good? Long story short.. I learnt a lot from it. I realized what type of guy that i want to be with or even marry in the future. Now that I looked back to my past, I just see this lost girl chained by a guy. totally caught up in her own world. submitting herself to him. Consumed, where freedom and trust was taken away. Issues of jealousy, trustworthy, be controlled was just a part of her world. Thankfully, the rough times ended. My eyes and heart was opened. God set me free. He saved me, and restored me with this wonderful guy who is perfect to me. Absolutely perfect in his own ways. He's just so kind, so loving. He loves spending time with me. when I'm upset or emotional, he told me that he wants to be there for me. we had countless silly moments together. toilet competition together ( i find going to the toilet a waste of time really, lol) we had tonnes of heart to heart talk moments together. This guy is so precious to me, just like Jesus. My best friend. there are times where we would just be silent, and there are times where we talk none stop. He's just so understanding towards me and my past. He makes me smile when im upset. his love helps me to understand God's love for me. and i thank God for him everyday.

I pray that every person out there knows that God has a special someone for them and also pray that they know God is always and forever faithful. Yesterday, today and tomorrow. In Jesus almighty name, Amen! In His love, Amanda

familiar yet so hard

Few hours ago, I went through another spiritual attack. which is one matter that is so familiar yet so hard for me. Familiar, because i encountered these hardships hundreds of times already. Hard, because i know giving in is not an option. Yet we are so tempted to surrender to Satan. and let him cover us with the darkness. I asked God two question. What do you want me to do? and where do You want me to go? why are all of my friends? why am i so alone? I asked these four questions because I have been serving/ going to both churches for some time now. It really drained me. Not only spiritually, emotionally and spiritually as well. NO one ever said we couldnt go to more than one church. But I am already a perfect outcome to look at (if you are thinking about that) and to really commit into one church is hard enough. Its really hard. it takes up space, time, emotional, energy. Everything we do needs energy. To really wait for God's answer and timing requires tonnes of patience and time. But i know, God's timing is always perfect, but its not always the time that we would like. As we all know, good things comes to those who wait. In answer to my question, I am still waiting for it. As usual, hardly anyone flips their calender (including me). So i flipped to 10th of June 2012. This quote spoke to me in answer to my 3rd question. Jesus is your Friend. He walks beside you and knows your heart. Jesus is your Friend and knows how you feel. He shares your joy and your pain. Jesus is your Friend and freely gives you His love. -Ray Lessin. Well, as i said. all in God's timing. What i have learn during the past few weeks, God doesnt define you by your weakness. He looks for one who serves and loves Him wholeheartedly! It is also through events we live that God reveals Himself. So we could know more about God. How he actually is, how He acts etc. Lets close in prayer, I pray that God speaks to everyone of you tonight and the days to come! Lord, we know that your timing is always perfect and we put our trust in You Lord. Forgive our insecurities and deceiving thoughts and help us to grow with You Lord. In Jesus most beautiful name, Amen. In His love, Amanda

You've always been there

It seems like all things are falling apart. Relationships are gradually moving further, things aren't going the way it seems, feelings that you yourself cant handle. Seriously, my spirit is crying Lord. Trying to hold on something that is not meant to be. Or constantly thinking that, is our friendship gonna end this way? or drift away? I just feel like everything's tumbling down. though actually nothing is, but i feel like it! Tell me what me to do Lord! There's only 3 answers from You. Yes, no, wait. Right now, Im waiting. I know Lord, from all these midst of things, you have always been there. Everything is just within Your timing Lord.

In His love, Amanda

A short thank You

Thank You Lord for saving such an idiot like me! thank You for turning my world upside down! for such unconditional love. I pray that people get saint! healed! saved! restore! blessed! In jesus name, AMEN

Strength

hi guys! its been a while since a last blog. been two weeks actually.. (oops!) so anyway, its been the 5th month since everything changed for me. i think without Christ i would still be the same old me. Still caught in relationships, still think that im ugly, still weak and dead inside. Christ has really changed my life. May 21- Jesus is the Rose of Sharon. He's the beauty upon my countenance. <3 In Christ alone, my hope is found! I love this song sooooo much. "In Christ alone my hope is found He is my light, my strength, my song This Cornerstone, this solid ground Firm through the fiercest drought and storm" So, I wanted to share something. Something that i really struggled on. Doing things with my own strength and not relying on Him. Lately, I've been using all of my own strength to do and deal with everything. I thought that I could handle all these issues. But i cant. I clearly cant handle all these with my own strength. Now, I admit to God and to everyone who is reading this post that I am weak. yes, I am. I wanna cast all my dependence on God. God is the only constant thing in my life and keeps me going. He is the only one that give me strength. Everything that I do now, I clearly not from my own. Its from Jesus. I can do all things through Him who gives me strength -Philippians 4:13 <3 ( Love this verse! i have it all over my wall, haha) Let me go in depth, to do things with His strength doesnt mean that i sit around and do nothing! It means that im using my spiritual strength to deal things and resolve things with. I learnt something, dont rush into things. I know we all have to tendency to rush into things and resolve it quickly. But dont! thats what i meant by using our own strength instead of His. So, before resolving and issues or to make any important decision. Seek God first, pray before rushing into things. That is how i meant by using His strength! :) I pray that every nation will know how to use and rely Your strength, Lord. and that, You will guide that throughout this journey that You already have in stall for them. That they no longer have to deal all things with their own strength. In Jesus most mighty name, AMEN! In His love, Amanda xx

words cannot explain how i feel, but i will try

Hi guys! its been a while since i last update. anyway, I finally got baptized!!! It was really amazing. Im really thankful and blessed to have such a great and awesome God!!! Hallelujah! thank you the presents as well! really appreciate it. *hearts* Okay, so lets skip to the part 20 minutes before i get baptized. My heart was racing, maybe about 180km/h? I was really excited and happy! like a child. So, i shared my story. I sat on the stage, trying to calm my nerves. I tried looking up to people, i did but only for a second. lol. My vision was blurry due to my contacts. I squinted my eyes a little, my voice chocked, because i was nervous! oh well, getting people into the mood! "Hi everyone, I am Amanda. I am currently studying for my first year degree in construction management and I am the eldest daughter in the family. Before getting baptized, I want to share a bit of my background with you. I kinda grew up in a culture where I am always trying to live up to the high expectations of others. I am always expected to achieve well and do well in many dimensions. I know, intelligence doesnt really show in me. But from all these expectations and standards that people placed in me, i felt that i have to achieve those in order not to disappoint them. Thus, I forgot my own goals and values. All these years i tried so hard to please others, to make them happy. I was actually struggling. From all these struggles, i felt alone inside. Even though I had a wonderful family and a bunch of amazing friends, I still think that something was missing inside of me. So i caught myself up in a relationship close to 3 years. Those 2 long years, I didn't felt that alone anymore. But i felt controlled and trapped. But thank God there were friends in my college that took me to Christian fellowship and prayed for me throughout even though I wasnt a christian back then. Eventually, I experienced the lowest point of my life. The relationship came tumbling down, a good friend of mine got into in a car crash and went to heaven, and the most vital point of my life, without good results from college, I couldn't even get to come to Melbourne for further studies. On Christmas day, I was invited to church. I was so weak I couldn't even stand up. Until I felt someone knock on my heart, pull me up from my chair, and lifted all my sorrows. Without Jesus, I cant imagine where I would be now. Suffocating to reach the expectations of others, carrying the heavy weights to please someone or to make them happy. Pulled down by fears, and chained down by worries, I would be a prisoner to my own. Without Him, I don't think that I would actually understand the full meaning of Love. Without Christ I could never imagine myself living in this position, where I could experience the wonders of Christ. It would be so easy to listen to the mocking cries of the Enemy,that I am not good enough and never will be, not accepted, not loved, never wanted. Jesus is my light that keeps me burning. He is the light the never goes off. In His love, I am made whole. In God I trust when all else falls. When darkness comes and tries to pull me back to the old ways, I know that im dead to sin and alive to God in Jesus Christ. Today, as i take a leap of faith to get baptized and to be complete in Jesus, i have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Some said i gave a really good testimony! i am really glad! lets proceed to my baptism, I recited the verse "i have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me". later on, i was asked with 3 question. Do i love Jesus christ? Yes Will i follow Jesus Christ? Yes( but it was too soft) so i said yep In the name of Jesus Christ i baptized you.... and i took the plunge!!! thank God i knew i to swim. the water didnt get into my nose. What an amazing feeling. My new life begins. Forever with Jesus! <3 I was rushed to change into my dry clothes. freezing cold though. So i decided to change only my jeans. And when i came out, everyone stood up and cheer!! Overwhelming glory from heaven!!!!

Thanks Shin, love you tonnes!

Thank you so much guys! for the presents, flowers, and for coming!

the joy on my face. God is the only explanation In His love, Amanda

Romans 6

Besides, weddings or birthdays. This Sunday, Baptism is one of the biggest thing that is going to happen to me. The only feeling that is explainable currently- nervousness. Why? not because im going to jump into a pool of cold water or my testimony sharing(a little perhaps) But this Sunday, I am going be complete in Jesus. In other words, this is going to be my funeral. Not only my friends and family are watching, the whole ball of Heaven and Hell will be watching me. But i know that God will be so happy that i chose Him! And he will be putting a crown on my head. Thinking about it makes me sweat. Romans 6 Dead to Sin, Alive in Christ 1 What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? 2 By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? 3 Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? 4 We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life. 5 For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we will certainly also be united with him in a resurrection like his. 6 For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body ruled by sin might be done away with,[a] that we should no longer be slaves to sin— 7 because anyone who has died has been set free from sin. 8 Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we will also live with him. 9 For we know that since Christ was raised from the dead, he cannot die again; death no longer has mastery over him. 10 The death he died, he died to sin once for all; but the life he lives, he lives to God. 11 In the same way, count yourselves dead to sin but alive to God in Christ Jesus. 12 Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body so that you obey its evil desires. 13 Do not offer any part of yourself to sin as an instrument of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer every part of yourself to him as an instrument of righteousness. 14 For sin shall no longer be your master, because you are not under the law, but under grace. Praying for the best this Sunday, as I am going to bring my cousin's family to church and friends. Hoping that God's presence will be so dense they cant even deny it's God. Please pray for me as well. I pray that every Christian that hasn't got baptize would really consider about this. I pray that God will protect every soul and bless them abundantly. In Jesus most precious name, I pray, Amen.

p/s might consider posting my testimony. might.

He see us as a threat.

Had been experiencing spiritual attacks for the past few nights. And last night I couldn't open my eyes or breathe at all! I was struggling so hard to ask him to go away in Jesus name. It worked and it came back. It could be due to a scientific theory known as mind and body not working in one accord. As far as what my friend told me, science and religion are together. They are never against each other. Spiritual attacks that leads to the problems to do with science (eg body attacks) which might be possible. I think the reasons why people always undergo spiritual attacks is because he see us as a threat. Satan knows that we are spreading God's love and glory.So it attacks in different dimensions. Many ways you could ever think of. Maybe through issues we are involve with, or thoughts we are caught up with. For me this instance, is my upcoming baptism. From what I know, Baptism is not only a ceremony, once u get baptize. You are linked to Jesus. That is one of the biggest threat that Satan sees. Satan attacks those who are about to become spiritually stronger. Yes, I will tell him. The more u attack me, the more stronger I get. You cant affect me at all.
I pray that every children of God will be shield and cover with His love. And nothing can touch us. I pray that God will deal and help us with all of the troubles we have. Just leave it at His feet, He will pick it up and deal it for you. I pray that every child of God will grow spiritually stronger and shine with God's glory!! In Jesus most precious name, I pray. Amen!

In His love,
Amanda

Father's love letter

Psalm 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Have you ever looked in the mirror feeling that you are the ugliest person in the world? Having the perfect shape of eyes, sharp pointed nose, small thin lips, sharp cheekbones are the desirable features that every girl wants. But you always wish that you looked different. Maybe a little taller, small hips or thighs. The list never seem to end. Even super models seems to be preoccupied by their own looks. Imperfections of their body, legs, hips. It seems that most of us, in varying degrees, are unsatisfied of our own looks and body. For some of us, it might be physical dissatisfaction, while for others it might be that we are not smart enough, not sociable enough, not talented enough, etc. Our society has plant in a believe that we must have all those features and height to look beautiful, or we must get at least 80 marks for our exams to be considered as smart. These expectations had already become the "standard" of the society. No matter how hard we try to reach those standards to gain love and acceptance, I'm afraid it will always elude us. I learnt that, true love and acceptance does not come from changing yourself. According to psalms 139, we are already loved just the way we are. Once i asked God, " Dad, why did you created me looking like this? I am unhappy of my features." Though I am decently looking, but I am still unhappy about it. Then God showed me this.. He was sitting at His throne. He placed a box on His table in front Him, and opened it. Lights came shooting out from the box. Glorious lights, rays brighter than the sun. He was so happy, and He closed the box. Jumped around and open the box again! His workmanship was so delicate. Taking His time to craft every detail of us. That instant, I saw myself shinning with His glory. That is how He created us. Each and everyone of us. The next time you look in the mirror, dont be afraid of what you see. That wonderful reflection that you see, is priceless. No one could ever replace you. He declares that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. I pray that every girl or guy out there learns to embrace themselves, and stop comparing themselves to the 'standards". I pray that You will help them to overcome all the imperfections of themselves, because in Your love, we are made whole. I am thankful that we are a child of Yours Lord, that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. In Jesus name i pray, Amen.

In His love, Amanda

Hope and Faith

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him- Hebrews 11:6 Had this strong anointing to write about Hope and Faith. why do people hope? why do people loose hope or faith? what is hope? For me, Hope is something that keeps you going. Faith is believing in something. So where can you find these two elements? Okay, so if you google hope and faith. there's a TV series that is aired from 2003-2006. lol. Just fooling around. But where do you find faith and hope. I personally think that these two elements comes within you. Its something you grow and experience with. It doesnt matter where you get it from. Maybe from a comment, tweet, tv program, or my blog! (just joking). Just accept it and use it to the fullest. Your faith will grow so much that you could even imagine. Even if one day, you loose ALL hope in life. Maybe your family is experiencing some hard financial problems, or your boyfriend or girlfriend decided to dump you, or, your dog is about to die. With just a TINY pinch of Faith. you can move the mountains. He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you. Yes, i do love these verses. It's just something really significant to me. having Faith in believing in God is really really important. Even when things seem like the worse, never ever loose Hope and give up on God, God had never gave up on you. why should you give up? Its when things are the worse, and its when you seek God, you will have a HUGE breakthrough. God will restore so so much in your life. Never ending flowing blessings, and love. Even right now, He is already waiting for you to seek Him. To rely your FULL dependence on Him. God already knows what your desires, He just waiting there ( crossing His arm patiently, maybe reading the newspaper with His reading glasses (that's how i picture Him) ) for you to talk to Him. Saying, " Dad please help me". He will pick you up and say " Sure child, I will" Do you believe that God is freaking upset if you don't seek Him? You are His first priority. He would put down all of His paper work and just wait for you. Doesn't matter whole long it take. He's there. Right in front of you. So please, don't loose hope. I know the things that you are going through now is hard. really really hard to take all of those things in. But just don't. Loosing hope and faith is the last thing that you could do. If you loose those two, you stop believing. When you stop believing, things wont get better. Nothing could help you anymore. You are only consume by the darkness, which leads to more and more other negative things that you could ever imagine. I wanna pray that to every soul out there that is loosing faith hope and love. I pray that they will regain their faith. To have faith to trust in You, Lord. To have faith and believe that You will restore everything that they had lost. I pray that they will have Faith to put ALL of their worries and troubles into your hands oh Lord. Just by turning over their palms. Their troubles and worries are set free. Lord, i pray that You will work miracles in their lives. Just as how You work in mine. In Jesus most precious name, I pray. Amen.

In His love, Amanda

Things are rather, complicated.

Was chatting with a bro friend, Chong. This conversation somewhat lead to girls. I realized that girls are complicated. wanting something so badly yet we have to say "nah, its okay! u go ahead. Im fine!" And guys do not know how to interpret what that sentence really meant " nah its okay! you go ahead" it means that I REALLY WANT TO GO! instead their replies "you sure?" In fact, our hearts are screaming "NO I REALLY WANNA GO! CANT YOU READ MY FACE" It really ironic how simple a yes and no can make a HUGE difference. Guy's opinion- If girls would just say yes, everything would be much simple. Girl's- If guys can not be so passive, and understand girls more. then we wont have to get upset over it. These are classic examples of arguments in a relationship. Especially couples. It ache me at times. Such petty incidents has the most potential to become the biggest threat in a relationship. I guess it is really important to learn how to love someone, for example, yourself first. Instead of just rushing into a relationship. Know more about yourself, what you really want for your future relationship to be. Be sure that, it is not a infatuation or crush. Whereas, having a relationship with Christ now makes other things seems like dating and guys invisible. A relationship with God is just perfect. He hears your rants, comforts you when you are sad. Well, guys can do that too. Just that sometimes they want different things. Now that God is my standard, how could i ever find someone that is compatible to Him? lol. I still need God's help with this. Anyway, only 18 turning 19 in two months. Pretty young still. Better things are still in store for you and me. In His love, Amanda

challenge accepted not accepted?

Hi guys! how was your weekend? bet everyone had a good time spending time celebrating God's love with friends and family. Or in ways, sleeping in bed or playing treasure hunt? haha. For me, I had a great one. let me tell you a little of what i did during Easter. camp day 1 My bag was really huge. should have brought a trolley bag instead. Settled in our tents, i actually got in the wrong tent, and if i didnt realize, i would be in the tent with 3 other guys. lol. So we had team building. It was really fun and exciting. Overall we were the 1st runner up i reckon. haha. Ian, Han Cheng and I had to wet the mash mallow with our saliva. How disgusting is that. lol YUCK GROSS. But it was worth it. TEAM SPIRIT yo! So, had a fruitful dinner later on. Devy was really shocked at the amount of food I ate. im hungry! :/ Apparently, the girls in my team are not that atheistic. End up, i had to go up and "represent" to play rough sports. well, sort of. ah! horrible but fun. We play crab soccer and some pushing game( I think it was dead rugby). It was crazy! I didnt slept well that night at all. awful sleep. i was woken up from the cold and wind. Imagine how i survive that! Gosh. camp day 2 Let the 74th Hunger Games begin! well, i just want to say that. its very much like hunger games though. Just that we are in tribe and we had to collect points by finding stuffs and providing service. Each tribe had different obligations to achieved. We can even declare wall and participate in the arena. so let me summarize what i did that day, instead of babbling on. 1. Kenuling 2. trust fall(it was great, the fact that i put my trust all in my team. not that im really heavy though) 3. obstacle course ( I AM A WARRIOR) 4. WAR!!! 5. got thrown into the lack. 6. frozen 7. good night sleep. woke up at 6 due to stomach pain. too much dinner i reckon camp day 3 1. Morning worship! 2. Witness jacqueline getting baptized 3. Went up a 30 ft tower a lifted my hands wide. and enjoy the scenery for only one second. Well, that second will always be in my heart 4. Laser tag!!!!! (waddup. barney!) 5. water slide. i froze 6. camp fire! 7 Moon gazing with Ian and Chong. BREATHTAKING. i wont ever forget that moment. Lying down on the grass, watching as the clouds change swiftly. As thought that the moon was moving fast, but it isnt. The wind was so strong, the cloud changed in a blink of an eye. Guessing the shapes of the cloud. Me mistaken the theme song of Pirates of the Carribean to Harry Potter's theme song. lol. Epic fail 8. slept at a warm cabin. camp day 4 Packing up and bringing back our good memories. Sometimes i wish i had pictures of good memories. Despite whether the picture is ugly or not. I wouldnt care less. Sometimes i just wish i can print the picture perfect moment registered in my brain and transfer it to a photo developing machine. would it be good? Its just perfect. Someone should really invent something like that :) i would be the 1st one to buy it! haha

Challenge accepted! In His love, Amanda

The Hunger Games

YES. I FINALLY WATCHED IT. FINALLY.

Was on the phone with mum just now. And she asked me a question that kept me thinking. why do you love the movie/ book so much? yes.. and i kept me thinking because i hardly thought of the reason why do i like a movie, but im just some blonde say yea.. i love the movie!!! without any reason. So, its gonna change from now on! Im pretty sure of that.

few points from my thoughts.

1. Emotions.

The emotions reflected from the movie and book are really truly dense indeed. It's not just about sadness and anger. But this book brings out another side of the human emotion. Trying so hard to save your own life in a battlefield where 24 goes in and only 1 comes out. Indeed there are more emotions being reflected here than what i could think of.

2. Originality.

Its undeniable that every book has its own originality. Fortunately, is this one of the first time i read such intense yet full of intrigued novel. Very Very addictive is what i can say.

3. Relationships.
Pls just go get a copy, if you are reluctant too. i can lend you mine. the relationship between Katniss and peeta is just plain urgh! so clingy yet so naive. go read alright

4. Smart.
It's written from the perspective of someone who was smart enough to outsmart an entire government after weeks of tragedy and starvation. which is indeed a slight twist in the story.

and, i wanna thank God for creating Suzanne Collins. If God never create her. i doubt i would even read. lol

So,im gonna read now. Update soon, when there's something interesting.

In His name,
Amanda

This is sufficient for me.

How to get happy when you are sad?

well, yes i am upset now. maybe its the hormones thing. but yea i will get over it eventually. I know everyone do have their own things to do in their daily life. But is it so hard to have at least ONE friend to be there when you are down? Yes, im talking about "EARTHLY" friends. Maybe im just being petty but yep definitely is the hormones.
And i actually googled How to get happy when you are sad?
So this came out...

1.Call up a friend to talk about it (or to get your mind off it). Your best friends can really give you a boost when you're feeling down. Only call someone you feel you can really communicate with ( called my mum)

2.Watch a funny movie, preferably one that you've already seen and liked. Or, watch a sad one, that will make you think "huh, my life isn't as bad as theirs!! (not working)

3.Eat a good meal. Make something different and delicious, something out of the ordinary. For some people, a good meal can always brighten up a bad mood. ( its just tasty food)

4Exercise. Go for a walk, a jog, or a bike ride. Doing this will make your body release endorphins and adrenaline through your body which will make you feel better physically and emotionally. (forget about it, its freezing out there)

5Be spontaneous. Sometimes a consistent and boring routine can make you feel bad. Do something out of the blue, but don't make any rash decisions. (nah, hormones)

6Paint a picture. Express your feelings with color and shapes. Art is part of life. (lol)

7Think about good memories. If you've lived through them once, than you can definitely have them again. Just because things may seem bad right now doesn't mean that tomorrow they will be. (thanks)

8Take a shower. You will feel happier and refreshed. (frozen)

9Get out of the house! The fresh air will make you feel better. Go somewhere with a friend, a family member, or even by yourself. See a movie, shop, go on a picnic, etc. Staying inside is like trapping yourself inside your depression.

10Listen to music. Don't listen to sad music–try listening to energetic tunes or a song that inspires you or reminds you of good times.

11Have a good cry. Sometimes the sadness stays inside your head if you try to force yourself to be happy. Try to let the tears out at the most appropriate time, mainly the best time when you are alone. Do this, and you might feel more relieved of your sad feelings, as if it "got off your chest".

12Put your feelings into perspective. Is what you're upset about really as important as you think? Did it seem to heavily affect more on yourself than those around you? If you sulk about little problems, like not receiving a perfect grade or spilled milk, then you're going to feel sad a lot more easily. Not all of your problems require you to use your head, especially not ones that are very serious like the loss of a loved one. If you use reason to cheer yourself up, chances are you'll feel a lot less stressed.

13Sometimes taking a nap might make you feel better. Try it and have a good, long nap.

14Journal - Stop dwelling on past hurts, and look to the future. Each day is a new day. Just because you were sad yesterday doesn't mean you have to be sad today. Get a fresh slate. Each person has a good side to them: show yours. Be grateful for what you have; don't worry about what you don't have.

15Instead of writing in a journal, make a list of 100 things that make you happy. It's a challenge, but see if you can do it. Don't think, don't worry about if it's childish or silly, just write it down.

16Before you go to bed, completely clear your mind of everything. This includes school life, grades, friends, family, etc. Dream up your happy place. This will at least leave you falling asleep with a better mood, making your feelings brighter in the morning.

17Listen to certain songs, preferably songs that give you a nice warm, happy feeling.

18Take a long walk to calm you down and to relax


That is so not me now. really.. all those "advices" doesnt seem to work or appeal to me anymore. Im really grateful how God had turn my life 360 degrees. sometimes i think that, those advice are to people who dont know God yet. But! it still might help. just an opinion. advice 1, 9 ,10 might help. definitely not painting for me. i might try doing number 15 someday :)

So now lets pray. God i pray that you will restore my feelings and help me cope with my hormones cause i think that my blood donation is coming up soon(as i always prayed for) and help me to get over petty issues like this for example.

In His love,
Amanda

Realizing

i really want to write this so one can understand what i am trying to reflect here.

Last night, i was talking on the phone with chiahsyin. Talking to her makes me realized what i didnt have before and what i didnt know i always had. well, words just came out naturally out of my mouth. and its those kind of words which i didnt know i knew it all along. its just plain english though. so anyway, we talk about God. and about how spiritually strong each of us are. i really felt good after talking to her, this makes me cherish and appreciate God's love and kingdom even more. what else can i ask for?

without Him, i wont be who i am today. i know for myself that i changed a lot. throughout my 18 years of existence(this is my 19th year, lol) i was spiritually dead. i felt alone. so alone.. even with a handful of friends and a happy family back home. i still felt that i am missing something. so i tried to seek the missing puzzle inside me, by having a boyfriend. boyfriends are frustrating, have to spend time on the phone, go out, commitment commitment commitment and TRUST ISSUES. ah well, kinda over the boyfriend thing now. Boyfriend doesnt help you to fulfill the emptiness inside you. maybe some does, but its never the same without God.

without Him, i wont have grew closer to people who i never thought i would before. there's this angel that planted a seed inside me unconsciously. every time, she would tell me her stories about God and the things she been through. and just last Christmas, another angel brought me to church. God nurtured the seed and let it grow. i thank God for this two angels. if i didnt knew them back then, i would still be the oh so miserable vulnerable amanda. and let one guy took control of my world. nah-ah, not happening anymore. Well, no one is flawless. but God will choose that perfect one for you. you will eventually fit together like a perfect match.

without Him, i will live pass every day with loneliness. but with Him, its different! our God is a personal God who we can talk to, to complain to, and to be our best friend. I know you would not understand how all this can happen, so now i wanna say is. His love could only be experienced not explained. i will be looking forward to the day you accept Christ and feel His love abundantly. Even before you know Him, He is already loving us. For He died on cross for our sins. His love and grace is everything i can ask for.

So God, give me the strength to carry on. To continue in this wonderful journey of yours. Help me love others unconditionally. and lead more people to Christ. i wanna be the child that plants seed into each ones heart.

Your child,
Amanda

this is what i want.

My desire was to be used by God. I told Him that I wanted to speak only the words He wanted me to speak and to only do the things He wanted me to do. I wanted to be a vessel that was emptied of myself and full of Him. I wanted to be walking in the Spirit all of the time. I wanted to grow spiritually and become more sensitive to God's voice. I wanted people to see Him in me.

God, please dont withhold your presence with me.

Your child,
Amanda

God i need you!

Oh Lord, please enlighten my heart. Show me peace and love. Give me the answers that i need Oh Lord.

Your Child,
Amanda

With this girl, there are 100 more years to come.

Since 7 till now. Woohoo. Friendship never end :)

Your greatest friend,
Amanda

Faith

Standing strong in faith! No more evil things. God, I hope that You will help Alvin overcome whatever he is experiencing now. :) that he will turn to You oh Lord. Amen! :)

Whoever you are.. You are always welcome to be a child of God, a brother/ sisters of Christ, and a follower of Jesus :) If u need a sign. This is a sign for u to turn to Him.

Your child,
Amanda

Jesus I believe in You and I belong to You.

Through Ruth, From God

I finally got my God's journal! :) now im gonna have a love story book with God. hahaha. So anyway,

Last night, i attended a Prophetic Worship Meeting at EBC. The meeting was held by Ruth Chai. An incredible prophesier, amazing follower, and a wonderful sister of Christ :)

Her voice is undeniably pure and strong. When i heard her sing, its like my heart had been touched by the Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit did touched my heart last night though. While she was talking, she suddenly prayed for all the ladies in the church. Omygoodness. its like the best feeling of all time! i smiled from within! Thank You Lord. <3 lots of hearts to you!!

Through Ruth, God told us Ladies these..

The joy of Lord is my strength. Have Faith all brothers and sisters! Follow what God tells you to do and you wont loose out. This is His promise :)

It's okay if you are hurt, or broken. I am here.
To heal your heart.

Open your hearts, and let Him in.
See how Great is our God! Praise Him!



Grace through Faith.

Your child,
Amanda

Black is the new me.

I colored my hair black again. I really miss my brown hair. :(

So anyway, I really had an urge to go clubbing just now. But no. God helped me. I remember pastor said.. Starve your physical desire and feed your inner needs. Then I saw this song-came to your rescue. So yea.. Thank You Lord :)

I will try my very best! And God! I want to do smthg with my hair :( not full black. Might do highlights. I dunno...
Ah well. Quiet time now.

Your child,
Amanda :)

what faith can do

Professor : You are a Christian, aren’t you, son ?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you believe in GOD ?

Student : Absolutely, sir.

Professor : Is GOD good ?

Student : Sure.

Professor: Is GOD all powerful ?

Student : Yes.

Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent.)

Professor: You can’t answer, can you ? Let’s start again, young fella. Is GOD good?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Is satan good ?

Student : No.

Professor: Where does satan come from ?

Student : From … GOD …

Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?

Student :Yes

Professor: So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer.)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them ?

(Student had no answer.)

Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son, have you ever seen GOD?

Student : No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?

Student : No , sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your GOD, tasted your GOD, smell your GOD? Have you ever had any sensory perception of GOD for that matter?

Student : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student : Yes.

Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.

Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student : And is there such a thing as cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student : No, sir. There isn’t.

(The lecture theatre became very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There was pin-drop silence in the lecture theater.)

Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?

Student : You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man ?

Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.

Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going.)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor. Are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The class was in uproar.)

Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?

(The class broke out into laughter. )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.

Student : That is it sir … Exactly ! The link between man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.

P.S.

I believe you have enjoyed the conversation. And if so, you’ll probably want your friends /colleagues to enjoy the same, won’t you?

Forward this to increase their knowledge … or FAITH.

By the way, that student was EINSTEIN

now playing-till i see you

its been a while since i updated my blog. So, hello again!
i told mum about me accepting Christ yesterday. she wasnt surprise though! she said are you going to church? then i replied. yea.. been going to cell group and youth.
Mum is so amazing. so understanding.. ( at times she still yells at me though, well that's what mums do best.) but when it comes to religions and boys(previously) she's the coolest. she told me she accepted Christ last time as well. i was utterly shockeeeddddd. and she had a gift of faith. hmmmm. interesting..

Thank you for all those who prayed for me. For her to soften her hearts. Most of all, thank You God!! my soul will bless Your name. the greatest love that anyone could ever known.
I trust in You.






Your child,
Amanda

Ephesians 4:20-24

Awesome verse. :) I ask Ryan to read it. Haha

Btw, today was one of the most awkwardest moments of my life. And God, bless me for my Ielts results this friday. Amen!!

Your child,
Amanda

Familiar feelings

Feelings I had 5 years back sort of came back? But no... Maybe it's just normal. I bought a pencil skirt from a boutique nearby my house! Still hope that I can find my Zara skirt :( sad face.

Oh Father Lord, answer my prayers please.

Your child,
Amanda

i.want.to.cry

i cant find my Zara pencil skirt :( i dunno where i left it.. :( ahhhh sad child. oh God, please bless my pencil skirt. let me find it. :(

Sad.....

Note to self

God's love is the greatest. Nothing or no one could ever replace it Amanda!! No guys for now!! Lol (sounds so desperate) anyway... NO. I have to pray for my faith to remain strong!!

Amanda

Things that happened

It kinda saddens me to see my ex living with emptiness and sadness inside him. i will pray to Father. Hope Father blesses him. :) I also had that feeling to remove my relationship status with Andrew. and i did it.. hmmm i find myself kinda stupid though. :/ should be sleeping now. but i am not.. long day ahead tmr. Major spring cleaning :/

Lately i always always fell asleep while talking to God. need to try not to fall asleep.

so.. what happened today. supposed to go to town for lunch with jade and get my cross. sadly, the shop that we were supposed to go for lunch closed. but i manage to get my cross. with little crystals on it! :D from hidden treasure :)

so we drove one big round back to kereta api for lunch.. at life cafe again. haha. usual hang out place with jade. usual... and. so.many.cars. so i decided to hang at jade's place for a while before heading for my reunion dinner.

dinner was fun! tarot for the second round.. i do not know why. ah well.

Quiet time with God now. God bless!!

Amanda

stay amazed

Oh holy God, I stay amazed
You are so much more that words could ever say
Oh Holy God, I pour out my praise
On the one who never ceases to amaze

stay amazed- Gateway worship



just had our 5science6 dinner. had fun tho! nice to see them again :)

and i bought my cross today! shall post it another day.



sushi girlssssss. BFF for 12 years. Thank You Father for blessing this friendship with Jade.

Your child,
Amanda

15th Jan 2012

The day i receive my gift from God.
Gift: speaking in tongues(language of the Angels)
venue: KL Kingdom City

Pastor Jem and pastor Sky prayed over me. Pastor Jem and Sky were touching me on the head and arms. both of them were praying in tongues. i felt the Holy Spirit going into my body. my head was buzzingggg (sounds/feeling) it felt really really amazing.
they prayed over me for a long time. Pastor Jem asked me to open my mouth.. and try to speak a few words. but i couldnt. so i waited.. and she continues on the pray. she touched my lips 3 times.. and said Speak! Speak! Speak! i felt in coming.. and she touched my throat. i started mumbling words i never said before. Thank you Lord.

Later on, pastor sky prayed for me again. she felt something very special in me. i have lots more to come! i really wonder God's plan. hope its a good one! *fingers cross*

done for now, quiet time with God.

Amanda

Most posts to update.

Been going to cell almost every wednesday now. grouping with a bunch of college&uni students/ young adults to worship God and love God. i love going to cell. just us.. hanging out.. sharing stories in our lives. singing worship songs, playing games and all. it kinda tells me that, dont drift away from Him, even if you did, He wont be mad, He will always be there in your heart. He's always here. He loves you more than anything else. His love cant be explained, but only experience. So you guys! try to open your heart, and let him in. :)

Amanda

okay, previous updates.

i know it seem random that i suddenly accepted Christ. but yea.. i have been through a long road with God. i just didnt know it. when i broke up with my ex.. God was there to clear my mind and support me through my exams. and Thank God for my results. Manage to hit a 3.03. :) happy girl!! so yea.. i am really happy and contented with God's presence.

Amanda

Life after I accepted Christ

i am really bless and thankful to God that he was bless me with His love. and he started to use me to serve his purpose. showing me visions and words that i should tell the others. Thank You oh Father Lord

Your child,
Amanda