words cannot explain how i feel, but i will try

Hi guys! its been a while since i last update. anyway, I finally got baptized!!! It was really amazing. Im really thankful and blessed to have such a great and awesome God!!! Hallelujah! thank you the presents as well! really appreciate it. *hearts* Okay, so lets skip to the part 20 minutes before i get baptized. My heart was racing, maybe about 180km/h? I was really excited and happy! like a child. So, i shared my story. I sat on the stage, trying to calm my nerves. I tried looking up to people, i did but only for a second. lol. My vision was blurry due to my contacts. I squinted my eyes a little, my voice chocked, because i was nervous! oh well, getting people into the mood! "Hi everyone, I am Amanda. I am currently studying for my first year degree in construction management and I am the eldest daughter in the family. Before getting baptized, I want to share a bit of my background with you. I kinda grew up in a culture where I am always trying to live up to the high expectations of others. I am always expected to achieve well and do well in many dimensions. I know, intelligence doesnt really show in me. But from all these expectations and standards that people placed in me, i felt that i have to achieve those in order not to disappoint them. Thus, I forgot my own goals and values. All these years i tried so hard to please others, to make them happy. I was actually struggling. From all these struggles, i felt alone inside. Even though I had a wonderful family and a bunch of amazing friends, I still think that something was missing inside of me. So i caught myself up in a relationship close to 3 years. Those 2 long years, I didn't felt that alone anymore. But i felt controlled and trapped. But thank God there were friends in my college that took me to Christian fellowship and prayed for me throughout even though I wasnt a christian back then. Eventually, I experienced the lowest point of my life. The relationship came tumbling down, a good friend of mine got into in a car crash and went to heaven, and the most vital point of my life, without good results from college, I couldn't even get to come to Melbourne for further studies. On Christmas day, I was invited to church. I was so weak I couldn't even stand up. Until I felt someone knock on my heart, pull me up from my chair, and lifted all my sorrows. Without Jesus, I cant imagine where I would be now. Suffocating to reach the expectations of others, carrying the heavy weights to please someone or to make them happy. Pulled down by fears, and chained down by worries, I would be a prisoner to my own. Without Him, I don't think that I would actually understand the full meaning of Love. Without Christ I could never imagine myself living in this position, where I could experience the wonders of Christ. It would be so easy to listen to the mocking cries of the Enemy,that I am not good enough and never will be, not accepted, not loved, never wanted. Jesus is my light that keeps me burning. He is the light the never goes off. In His love, I am made whole. In God I trust when all else falls. When darkness comes and tries to pull me back to the old ways, I know that im dead to sin and alive to God in Jesus Christ. Today, as i take a leap of faith to get baptized and to be complete in Jesus, i have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Some said i gave a really good testimony! i am really glad! lets proceed to my baptism, I recited the verse "i have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me". later on, i was asked with 3 question. Do i love Jesus christ? Yes Will i follow Jesus Christ? Yes( but it was too soft) so i said yep In the name of Jesus Christ i baptized you.... and i took the plunge!!! thank God i knew i to swim. the water didnt get into my nose. What an amazing feeling. My new life begins. Forever with Jesus! <3 I was rushed to change into my dry clothes. freezing cold though. So i decided to change only my jeans. And when i came out, everyone stood up and cheer!! Overwhelming glory from heaven!!!!

Thanks Shin, love you tonnes!

Thank you so much guys! for the presents, flowers, and for coming!

the joy on my face. God is the only explanation In His love, Amanda

Romans 6

Besides, weddings or birthdays. This Sunday, Baptism is one of the biggest thing that is going to happen to me. The only feeling that is explainable currently- nervousness. Why? not because im going to jump into a pool of cold water or my testimony sharing(a little perhaps) But this Sunday, I am going be complete in Jesus. In other words, this is going to be my funeral. Not only my friends and family are watching, the whole ball of Heaven and Hell will be watching me. But i know that God will be so happy that i chose Him! And he will be putting a crown on my head. Thinking about it makes me sweat. Romans 6 Dead to Sin, Alive in Christ 1 What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? 2 By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? 3 Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? 4 We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life. 5 For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we will certainly also be united with him in a resurrection like his. 6 For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body ruled by sin might be done away with,[a] that we should no longer be slaves to sin— 7 because anyone who has died has been set free from sin. 8 Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we will also live with him. 9 For we know that since Christ was raised from the dead, he cannot die again; death no longer has mastery over him. 10 The death he died, he died to sin once for all; but the life he lives, he lives to God. 11 In the same way, count yourselves dead to sin but alive to God in Christ Jesus. 12 Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body so that you obey its evil desires. 13 Do not offer any part of yourself to sin as an instrument of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer every part of yourself to him as an instrument of righteousness. 14 For sin shall no longer be your master, because you are not under the law, but under grace. Praying for the best this Sunday, as I am going to bring my cousin's family to church and friends. Hoping that God's presence will be so dense they cant even deny it's God. Please pray for me as well. I pray that every Christian that hasn't got baptize would really consider about this. I pray that God will protect every soul and bless them abundantly. In Jesus most precious name, I pray, Amen.

p/s might consider posting my testimony. might.

He see us as a threat.

Had been experiencing spiritual attacks for the past few nights. And last night I couldn't open my eyes or breathe at all! I was struggling so hard to ask him to go away in Jesus name. It worked and it came back. It could be due to a scientific theory known as mind and body not working in one accord. As far as what my friend told me, science and religion are together. They are never against each other. Spiritual attacks that leads to the problems to do with science (eg body attacks) which might be possible. I think the reasons why people always undergo spiritual attacks is because he see us as a threat. Satan knows that we are spreading God's love and glory.So it attacks in different dimensions. Many ways you could ever think of. Maybe through issues we are involve with, or thoughts we are caught up with. For me this instance, is my upcoming baptism. From what I know, Baptism is not only a ceremony, once u get baptize. You are linked to Jesus. That is one of the biggest threat that Satan sees. Satan attacks those who are about to become spiritually stronger. Yes, I will tell him. The more u attack me, the more stronger I get. You cant affect me at all.
I pray that every children of God will be shield and cover with His love. And nothing can touch us. I pray that God will deal and help us with all of the troubles we have. Just leave it at His feet, He will pick it up and deal it for you. I pray that every child of God will grow spiritually stronger and shine with God's glory!! In Jesus most precious name, I pray. Amen!

In His love,
Amanda

Father's love letter

Psalm 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Have you ever looked in the mirror feeling that you are the ugliest person in the world? Having the perfect shape of eyes, sharp pointed nose, small thin lips, sharp cheekbones are the desirable features that every girl wants. But you always wish that you looked different. Maybe a little taller, small hips or thighs. The list never seem to end. Even super models seems to be preoccupied by their own looks. Imperfections of their body, legs, hips. It seems that most of us, in varying degrees, are unsatisfied of our own looks and body. For some of us, it might be physical dissatisfaction, while for others it might be that we are not smart enough, not sociable enough, not talented enough, etc. Our society has plant in a believe that we must have all those features and height to look beautiful, or we must get at least 80 marks for our exams to be considered as smart. These expectations had already become the "standard" of the society. No matter how hard we try to reach those standards to gain love and acceptance, I'm afraid it will always elude us. I learnt that, true love and acceptance does not come from changing yourself. According to psalms 139, we are already loved just the way we are. Once i asked God, " Dad, why did you created me looking like this? I am unhappy of my features." Though I am decently looking, but I am still unhappy about it. Then God showed me this.. He was sitting at His throne. He placed a box on His table in front Him, and opened it. Lights came shooting out from the box. Glorious lights, rays brighter than the sun. He was so happy, and He closed the box. Jumped around and open the box again! His workmanship was so delicate. Taking His time to craft every detail of us. That instant, I saw myself shinning with His glory. That is how He created us. Each and everyone of us. The next time you look in the mirror, dont be afraid of what you see. That wonderful reflection that you see, is priceless. No one could ever replace you. He declares that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. I pray that every girl or guy out there learns to embrace themselves, and stop comparing themselves to the 'standards". I pray that You will help them to overcome all the imperfections of themselves, because in Your love, we are made whole. I am thankful that we are a child of Yours Lord, that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. In Jesus name i pray, Amen.

In His love, Amanda

Hope and Faith

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him- Hebrews 11:6 Had this strong anointing to write about Hope and Faith. why do people hope? why do people loose hope or faith? what is hope? For me, Hope is something that keeps you going. Faith is believing in something. So where can you find these two elements? Okay, so if you google hope and faith. there's a TV series that is aired from 2003-2006. lol. Just fooling around. But where do you find faith and hope. I personally think that these two elements comes within you. Its something you grow and experience with. It doesnt matter where you get it from. Maybe from a comment, tweet, tv program, or my blog! (just joking). Just accept it and use it to the fullest. Your faith will grow so much that you could even imagine. Even if one day, you loose ALL hope in life. Maybe your family is experiencing some hard financial problems, or your boyfriend or girlfriend decided to dump you, or, your dog is about to die. With just a TINY pinch of Faith. you can move the mountains. He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you. Yes, i do love these verses. It's just something really significant to me. having Faith in believing in God is really really important. Even when things seem like the worse, never ever loose Hope and give up on God, God had never gave up on you. why should you give up? Its when things are the worse, and its when you seek God, you will have a HUGE breakthrough. God will restore so so much in your life. Never ending flowing blessings, and love. Even right now, He is already waiting for you to seek Him. To rely your FULL dependence on Him. God already knows what your desires, He just waiting there ( crossing His arm patiently, maybe reading the newspaper with His reading glasses (that's how i picture Him) ) for you to talk to Him. Saying, " Dad please help me". He will pick you up and say " Sure child, I will" Do you believe that God is freaking upset if you don't seek Him? You are His first priority. He would put down all of His paper work and just wait for you. Doesn't matter whole long it take. He's there. Right in front of you. So please, don't loose hope. I know the things that you are going through now is hard. really really hard to take all of those things in. But just don't. Loosing hope and faith is the last thing that you could do. If you loose those two, you stop believing. When you stop believing, things wont get better. Nothing could help you anymore. You are only consume by the darkness, which leads to more and more other negative things that you could ever imagine. I wanna pray that to every soul out there that is loosing faith hope and love. I pray that they will regain their faith. To have faith to trust in You, Lord. To have faith and believe that You will restore everything that they had lost. I pray that they will have Faith to put ALL of their worries and troubles into your hands oh Lord. Just by turning over their palms. Their troubles and worries are set free. Lord, i pray that You will work miracles in their lives. Just as how You work in mine. In Jesus most precious name, I pray. Amen.

In His love, Amanda

Things are rather, complicated.

Was chatting with a bro friend, Chong. This conversation somewhat lead to girls. I realized that girls are complicated. wanting something so badly yet we have to say "nah, its okay! u go ahead. Im fine!" And guys do not know how to interpret what that sentence really meant " nah its okay! you go ahead" it means that I REALLY WANT TO GO! instead their replies "you sure?" In fact, our hearts are screaming "NO I REALLY WANNA GO! CANT YOU READ MY FACE" It really ironic how simple a yes and no can make a HUGE difference. Guy's opinion- If girls would just say yes, everything would be much simple. Girl's- If guys can not be so passive, and understand girls more. then we wont have to get upset over it. These are classic examples of arguments in a relationship. Especially couples. It ache me at times. Such petty incidents has the most potential to become the biggest threat in a relationship. I guess it is really important to learn how to love someone, for example, yourself first. Instead of just rushing into a relationship. Know more about yourself, what you really want for your future relationship to be. Be sure that, it is not a infatuation or crush. Whereas, having a relationship with Christ now makes other things seems like dating and guys invisible. A relationship with God is just perfect. He hears your rants, comforts you when you are sad. Well, guys can do that too. Just that sometimes they want different things. Now that God is my standard, how could i ever find someone that is compatible to Him? lol. I still need God's help with this. Anyway, only 18 turning 19 in two months. Pretty young still. Better things are still in store for you and me. In His love, Amanda

challenge accepted not accepted?

Hi guys! how was your weekend? bet everyone had a good time spending time celebrating God's love with friends and family. Or in ways, sleeping in bed or playing treasure hunt? haha. For me, I had a great one. let me tell you a little of what i did during Easter. camp day 1 My bag was really huge. should have brought a trolley bag instead. Settled in our tents, i actually got in the wrong tent, and if i didnt realize, i would be in the tent with 3 other guys. lol. So we had team building. It was really fun and exciting. Overall we were the 1st runner up i reckon. haha. Ian, Han Cheng and I had to wet the mash mallow with our saliva. How disgusting is that. lol YUCK GROSS. But it was worth it. TEAM SPIRIT yo! So, had a fruitful dinner later on. Devy was really shocked at the amount of food I ate. im hungry! :/ Apparently, the girls in my team are not that atheistic. End up, i had to go up and "represent" to play rough sports. well, sort of. ah! horrible but fun. We play crab soccer and some pushing game( I think it was dead rugby). It was crazy! I didnt slept well that night at all. awful sleep. i was woken up from the cold and wind. Imagine how i survive that! Gosh. camp day 2 Let the 74th Hunger Games begin! well, i just want to say that. its very much like hunger games though. Just that we are in tribe and we had to collect points by finding stuffs and providing service. Each tribe had different obligations to achieved. We can even declare wall and participate in the arena. so let me summarize what i did that day, instead of babbling on. 1. Kenuling 2. trust fall(it was great, the fact that i put my trust all in my team. not that im really heavy though) 3. obstacle course ( I AM A WARRIOR) 4. WAR!!! 5. got thrown into the lack. 6. frozen 7. good night sleep. woke up at 6 due to stomach pain. too much dinner i reckon camp day 3 1. Morning worship! 2. Witness jacqueline getting baptized 3. Went up a 30 ft tower a lifted my hands wide. and enjoy the scenery for only one second. Well, that second will always be in my heart 4. Laser tag!!!!! (waddup. barney!) 5. water slide. i froze 6. camp fire! 7 Moon gazing with Ian and Chong. BREATHTAKING. i wont ever forget that moment. Lying down on the grass, watching as the clouds change swiftly. As thought that the moon was moving fast, but it isnt. The wind was so strong, the cloud changed in a blink of an eye. Guessing the shapes of the cloud. Me mistaken the theme song of Pirates of the Carribean to Harry Potter's theme song. lol. Epic fail 8. slept at a warm cabin. camp day 4 Packing up and bringing back our good memories. Sometimes i wish i had pictures of good memories. Despite whether the picture is ugly or not. I wouldnt care less. Sometimes i just wish i can print the picture perfect moment registered in my brain and transfer it to a photo developing machine. would it be good? Its just perfect. Someone should really invent something like that :) i would be the 1st one to buy it! haha

Challenge accepted! In His love, Amanda