Often, it is easier said than done. But it takes courage, and trust to lift up that foot and stepping into the unknown.
You ask me how? when my heart is covered with nothing but fear? I totally can relate with that. Trust me I do. I still do... The fear of the unknown. What is going to happen in 5 years time? Where would i be?
I am personally a planner. I love to plan, to know. to be secure. But,
A man can plan, but the Lord establish his steps. - Proverbs 19:21
Let me share with you something, I was totally planning this 5 year relationship thing with my former boyfriend. But turns out that, God has bigger plans. We broke up... and I realised something. We plan so much is because we want to know the future. Know what is going to happen, in some sense, establishing your own security. But instead, God wants us to make Him our security.
Dont get me wrong, it is awesome to make plans, we dont wanna be disorganise as well, isnt it? But i guess, for me, speaking from a personal experience, God wants us to consult Him, first. He wants us to let Him take the wheel. On the side note, which reminds me of the song- Jesus take the wheel, haha.
I guess it is also a sense of fully surrendering, and trusting Him that- all things will turn out for our good.
Be brave, place that foot out. And trust that God did not make you to fail. Regardless, they might be some small bumps on the road, but He is there to guide you to your destination. He did not design you to fail. But to lift you up.
Love, Amanda
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
What lies beneath
Often people don't see, the tears you shed. the time when you cried out for God so badly. Often people don't hear, the prayers you pray in the secret place. Often they dont know, the hurt and pain that you go through. Often people don't realise, that smile on your face, it had took a lot of courage to put on.
People always think that we have it all together. To be honest, i don't have it "all together". I may seem happy on the outside, but they don't know the struggles on the inside. The hurt and pain that hit us, and comes to haunt us sometimes. the helpless anticipation, trying to find natural remedies to relieve that pain instantaneously.
But above all these, what lies beneath is a soul that is vulnerable, that is so precious to Him. A soul that is soft and tender, that he can make it His home. A soul that is willing to be shaped, willing to trust. Willing to be refine. Willing to surrender. A soul of gold.
And, I can tell you, He is looking for that.
In our weakness, His strength is perfect.
Love, Amanda
People always think that we have it all together. To be honest, i don't have it "all together". I may seem happy on the outside, but they don't know the struggles on the inside. The hurt and pain that hit us, and comes to haunt us sometimes. the helpless anticipation, trying to find natural remedies to relieve that pain instantaneously.
But above all these, what lies beneath is a soul that is vulnerable, that is so precious to Him. A soul that is soft and tender, that he can make it His home. A soul that is willing to be shaped, willing to trust. Willing to be refine. Willing to surrender. A soul of gold.
And, I can tell you, He is looking for that.
In our weakness, His strength is perfect.
Love, Amanda
Monday, June 9, 2014
I don't understand but I trust
A lot things has been happening. Many that i cant fathom nor understand. going through this season just doesnt make sense, but i believe for a greater purpose. to keep that hope in my heart burning.. and never fading.
Ok, so where do i start.
I have been going through this whole thing for some time. it feels like ages, but it actually isnt. but throughout this time, i know that God is with me. Throughout thick and thin, through the burning flames and fire. He is. and He is with you as well.
I have learnt that, healing is a process that you cant rush. You cant fast forward healing. Though i would really like to fast forward this whole painful process. Emotional healing is the last thing i would want to experience. I would never want anyone to go through it.
The process of loosing someone that you trusted, that you thought you could have a life with. All your dreams and hopes crushed at that instant. The process of feeling unworthy.
The problem is not you- it is him/her. there is nothing wrong with you. you are totally an awesome person without a doubt. it took some time to make me realised that, he does not deserve me. Imagining loving the wrong person this much, how much more can you love the correct person?
Though from time to time, the pain would come and remind you of that you could have. the "what ifs", the special days, the moments that you shared. it is hard, i can tell you. sometimes I wanna numb the pain but I couldn't. though i would like to think that it is possible. but God can heal the pain. and time can as well. time helps definitely, for me.
As time pass, memories fade. feelings fade. It is not easy at first i can say, but i promise you, through this process, you are birthing another new you. And character, that is rare. that cannot be found in anyone else.
We do not know what the end process is like, but I am sure God knows. and He sees the bigger picture when we dont. Throughout this process, there is also trust. Trusting God that everything will turn out for our good, even though nothing seems right at this very moment.
One of my closest friend once said, in that process, there is refining. Refining is painful and it is hard but given a choice. There is gold hidden beneath your pain. Often, it is the only way true character is formed - by going through the fires of refinement. But better fires of refinement and gold than a rusty piece of useless metal.
I hope this post helped you to understand or even with the idea that God is here to help not to crush you down. I will blog as often as I can.
Regardless people read it or not. It helps me too.
Love, Amanda
Ok, so where do i start.
I have been going through this whole thing for some time. it feels like ages, but it actually isnt. but throughout this time, i know that God is with me. Throughout thick and thin, through the burning flames and fire. He is. and He is with you as well.
I have learnt that, healing is a process that you cant rush. You cant fast forward healing. Though i would really like to fast forward this whole painful process. Emotional healing is the last thing i would want to experience. I would never want anyone to go through it.
The process of loosing someone that you trusted, that you thought you could have a life with. All your dreams and hopes crushed at that instant. The process of feeling unworthy.
The problem is not you- it is him/her. there is nothing wrong with you. you are totally an awesome person without a doubt. it took some time to make me realised that, he does not deserve me. Imagining loving the wrong person this much, how much more can you love the correct person?
Though from time to time, the pain would come and remind you of that you could have. the "what ifs", the special days, the moments that you shared. it is hard, i can tell you. sometimes I wanna numb the pain but I couldn't. though i would like to think that it is possible. but God can heal the pain. and time can as well. time helps definitely, for me.
As time pass, memories fade. feelings fade. It is not easy at first i can say, but i promise you, through this process, you are birthing another new you. And character, that is rare. that cannot be found in anyone else.
We do not know what the end process is like, but I am sure God knows. and He sees the bigger picture when we dont. Throughout this process, there is also trust. Trusting God that everything will turn out for our good, even though nothing seems right at this very moment.
One of my closest friend once said, in that process, there is refining. Refining is painful and it is hard but given a choice. There is gold hidden beneath your pain. Often, it is the only way true character is formed - by going through the fires of refinement. But better fires of refinement and gold than a rusty piece of useless metal.
I hope this post helped you to understand or even with the idea that God is here to help not to crush you down. I will blog as often as I can.
Regardless people read it or not. It helps me too.
Love, Amanda
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