There is this poignant feeling tonight,
Which I can't fathom why.
Coz everything is going just doing great.

Perhaps it is just terrifying
that I'm at a point where I am fuckin elated,
it is just weird.

This is what happen
when you have been there
in the dumps for far too long.

Above all,
I'm grateful.
syukran!

another night out with bf & his bff later.
@you-don't-wanna-know-where.
((((:

from our first tiny arguement thus far,
I think we handled it pretty well.
It just suck when money becomes an issue between us,
I saw how other relationships falters with that.
I just don't wanna be one of them.
Not now,not ever.
thank you <3 for understanding.

and issues of trust,
now that made me swoon all over again,
being trusted is a far higher achievement than being loved.

"But if at any time
u think u are aware
u are over the limit
i want u to go home
or give me a call.....k"

it's purely heart-warming.
<3<3<3

After awhile, you will learn that you don't need anyone else to survive.
No one is ever going to be there no matter what they promised to you.
You just gotta suck it up and accept it.

I think we should start to enjoy simple things in life.
you'll never know how much inner peace it could bring you.
the long walk after work today was refreshing.
more than it had ever been.
and along with ciggs,TOPS IT OFF!
like icing on the cake.

you could be the reason why,
behind all these.
i could sense the change in me.
but i just couldn't quite put a finger to it.
let's keep our fingers crossed,
my runaway heart dont act up this time.

mom is acknowledged about things.
and she's looking forward to that day.
insyaallah things will be fine.
now that i saw how she dont give her blessings to them,
im petrified.
thus the reason why.

"thats not for me to decide..
its really up to u.. :)"
"if u do tell her i be glad"
"if u dont its fine too"

i'm glad we had that talk,
at least i know where exactly things are.
and I have to remind myself,
not everyone have the same way of expressing stuffs.
CONSTANTLY.

strictly,
NO NEGATIVE THOUGHTS! :D

looking back at our previous conversations
makes me smitten all over again,
i dont know from which point it started to bloom,
but baby,you got me like a new hit! :)

I like my body when it is with your body.
It is so quite new a thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.


- E.E. Cummings

i love how you'd include me in most of your plans without putting too much obligations in it.
how you'd planned to be color-coordinated with me during such events.
how you look forward to be doing stuffs together with the rest.

Thank You ALLAH for all that is happening.
:D

i really wish it was that simple.
i should have seen it coming.
not that anything had happen at this point of time.
but i'm just being me.

insecured.
paranoid.
N.G.E.

definitely if you are,
you wouldnt even make such an effort right?
sometimes,
it just faith that's left.
and hopefully,
it'll get you somewhere.

not like getting-our-pants-off way,
more of like cuddle and just gazing into each other’s eyes.






i miss you awak.
and it’s been ONLY less than 7 hours,
since I was in your sweet embrace.
that’s how much power you have in me.

and if you had to know,
i had this effin weird/awkward dream the night before,
and when i shared it with the boy,it was..well...weird. LOL!
it involves soo many of the random "people" in the scene,him and yours truly.
ZOMG!

"Hmm..How if i come over nicely n ask u out with her permission?"

talk about being a man.
:D

i'd say the weekend was much of a fab one.
eversince that day,things have been pretty smooth i'd say.
no incessant fights,rolling tears whatnots.alhamdullillah. (:

the brother finally got solemnized on polling day.
leaving me all sore with the very fact that i cant vote.but oh wells.in 5 years time.
so yeah,after that we had sorta Mother's Day Celebration.

all's well. :D

so my Sunday was the climax of the weekend,or so to say.

went over to TKSS for a soccer match.

my official soccer match cherry popped!

in case you dont already know,i've always wanted to go to such matches.

but no such opportunity. :(

how depressing right..

it was thrilling i'd say.and and and,

the last 5 mins free kick was WHACKED!

the look after the score was LEGEN-wait for it-DARY!!

of course i was smitten!who am i kidding?

and the coach was extremely friendly

and more than enthusiastic to be seeing me again,

or that's what i perceived it as.

totally got me blushing like a FUJI APPLE.

evening,chilled at Acid Bar with babe after a failed attempt to shop in 313.
then went over to Holland V for the Man U VS Chelsea match.
and on that note,if we're allowed to have a second home address on our IC,
it will most definitely be HOLLAND VILLAGE.

it was supposed to be just me but with my "charms",
i managed to drag 4 more people to accompany me!

so after half-time,the place got really boring since they dont serve our favorites.

so we left for the usual hangout place! :)

somebody who HATES/DESPISE to get his photos taken,

actually gathered much courage to have A FEW photos taken together!

totally caught me by surprise.and i thought i was high!

so after the cousin snapped a couple of em,i figured it was really happening.

and it's like "officially official"

since all the gestures were made in front of them people who matters. :D

and JB with cousin,bff after that was very much needed to "calm my nerves down".

(((:

okay done.
i have a F&F5 movie date later.

crazy thing to do.

crazier decision i'd say.

after all that has been said,

after all that had been confessed,

well maybe i should risk it all and stay.

but who's to say if it's going or not going anywhere.

nobody can guarantee anything.

nobody.

i met you for a reason.

tho weird as it seems,

we’ve got things planned out

in case they ask.;P

all that sofa moments,

those conversations/confessions.

that craziness in just that one night.

i just feel like a teenager.

what a crazy thing to do.

for as long as i’m with you,that’s fine.

"Boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away

Beating like a drum and it's coming your way
Can't you hear that boom, badoom, boom, boom, badoom, boom, bass?
He got that super bass"

barely a week and you’ve got them butterflies fluttering berserk at the thoughts of you.
despite those constant warnings to back-off,
i’m at a point of pretty much no turning back.


those times when you tried to reach for my hands,
when we both steal stares from each other,
when you explain with much enthusiasm,just to convince me,
when you ventriloquize things and make it sweeter than it already is,
when you turned and asked me if we have any plans on the day your friend asked you out,
when you made one too many future plans with me,
soccer games,prize presentation,Macbeth,Fast & Furious 5,bungee,
even USA with babe.
the way you look when I caught you staring,
your annoyed look when I do/say things on purpose just to win the challenge.


but i have been musing on this.
there must be a logical,good-enough reason(s) why.
i get very upset when i angered you,when that’s what we planned on.
for the first time in the longest run,i was pissed at myself
for doing just that.
the sudden need to be the better person when back then,i just couldn’t care less.
i just need to be the girl you’re proud “hanging out” with.




tell me what’s on your mind
when we were eye to eye,
cheek to cheek,
chest to chest,
arm in arm.
coz i’m dying to know

Nicole Scherzinger - Right There ft. 50 Cent

"I like the way that you keep me coming That yeah you so good you had me running"



sexy..too sexxayyy......








ps:you got me like a new hit.

this may be about you,
this may be about all that was said,
whichever it may be to anybody,
i'm still doing this for me,
for the future.

you may not realize a single bit,
but you've changed me.

it may be abit to soon to say,
despite the warnings,
there's no turning point.
shame on me.