It was supposed to be a tiny celebration for the FPIL's 29th wedding anniversary, but things got way more serious with the preps. And I cannot express how lucky I am,really. As what I've told The Fiancé, it feels so good to be able to tell them everything and anything. Alhamdulillah, they can see it from my point too. 

Now the difficult part is to juggle between being rude and disrespectful to my side and my resposibilities towards the new family.

Nobody ever told me it was this hard. But In Sha Allah I will be able to make it through. Speaking of which, it's 21st April once again. :(

It was so bad yesterday after the visit to the cemmy that I accidentally called The Fiancé by the late's name. Screwed up! But it was an honest mistake. Thank god The Fiancé is cool as a cucumber. Roles reversed, I would have flipped! Oh how I love that man!

Well, I guess the picture speaks for itself right?HAH! that's The Fiance, if case you haven't get acquainted yet.

So I had the luxury of time to do some cyberstalking online-research on BTB & GTB.

Read too many reviews online. Alhamdulillah for the internet ayye? I am too elated that the FMIL had choosen Mawar Prada for the deco on the Fiance's side. too naiseeeeee....nak kahwin tomorrow can?

okay da malas. till I get around blogging again.

perhaps after THE S-DAY. omg, less than 2 months? For real?

okay bye.

A.

I wanted so much to figure out what's wrong with the society, with people who treats you bad. But I found the answer less than half a year. You clearly made a conscious choice and you knew what you were getting into, yet, still find every reason to push the blame on everything/everyone.

Above of all this, I still felt guilty as hell for the damaged caused. I know I have made a rash decision, I should have figured out my choices first, and not drag you into things. I am sorry, but honestly, what's the use ayye?

It's been such a rollercoaster ride. Crazy as hell. Guilty as hell.

This is goodbye. For real now. I am done with you.
I am done with living my days the way you led me to,
and it's not just because I am left with 2 more month,
I am truly done with beating myself up with all that has happened.