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13 May 2009: Trial shifting.

I decided to move over to wordpress for the time being. Would switch back to this blog if I cannot adapt to it.

http://blackcorsages.wordpress.com

See you there! :)

12 May 2009: Drama/movie marathon.

I've been watching so many dramas and movies that I'm kind of sick of it. I just started on Attack No. 1 but it already made me miss volleyball so much. I wonder when will I ever get to play it again.

Coming to think of it, volleyball wasn't exactly the sport I wanted at the start of JC. I just wanted to be in a sports CCA to challenge myself. I tried to go for track and field but I didn't make it. But I'm glad I joined volleyball eventually.

I really miss the trainings, the camps, the competition, my teammates and coach. I miss wearing the Mizuno shoes, Molten knee pads, Adidas shirt and shorts. I miss the feel of the Mikasa and Molten balls. I miss pulling the basket of balls on the court, up the stairs and everywhere. I miss putting the Nike bag and shoebag at the corridor, sitting on the ledge, drinking from my Puma bottle. I miss the sweaty feeling, the cheers and support. I miss the sun, the court, the net. I miss serving, receiving, spiking, setting, diving. I miss the feeling of being in a team.

10 May 2009: I'll keep you in my heart.

Why was I so foolish to only realise it now? Keeping you in my heart is enough to light up the path. You would show me the correct way, you would give me the strength. Who would love me more than you do? With you guiding me, I wouldn't be mislead by others. With you guiding me, I wouldn't even think of stepping foot on the wrong path. Your love is enough to keep me going, because no matter what happens, you would still be here with me. I won't let you just vanish from the face of earth. I'll keep you alive inside me. I believe in you so much that you could have been my religion.

I'd really love to do something for you right now, on this very day. Make you so touched and proud that you'd hug me, telling me how much you love me. I'd wipe your tears and tell you I love you too.

I'll keep you in my heart. I promise.

Happy Mothers' Day.

07 May 2009: Depressed.

I take back the joke about the fishes in the tank. I am feeling very depressed now. This morning, 3 fishes died. Now another one's dead. I feel very bad. If only I cleaned up the tank yesterday. I could have saved 4 lives, and 1 from the trauma of seeing the rest die. I really loved them, how they all gather near me when I walk to the tank. I never felt so close to any pets ever since my dad released the turtle.

A few days ago they were acting strange. I should have known. I should have known.

Now all I feel like doing is calling my dad. But he wouldn't come back just to save one fish. I feel so helpless, feel so guilty. I don't want to face my fish tank anymore. Because things wouldn't be the same anymore without healthy fishes. I really really miss them.

Don't cry.

This is how life should be.

Life is yoga, meditation and aroma therapy.

06 May 2009: 14. Savour the little things.

Little things like these make me realize how fortunate I am to have my family with me.

My grandma told my dad that the water in the fish tank is dirty, that's why the fishes aren't swimming much. And my lazy dad just added 2 pails of water into the tank to dilute it. Doesn't he just act like a child sometimes? :)