Hello

Once again, time flies! shooting up like a rocket. Let me update you guys what i was doing recently =). My degree life in my lovely university, Inti has come to an end! damn sad one yesterday, kept saying bye bye to everyone :( Felt so empty after our final exam. Busy with the exams, job interview, etc. Motivation was getting weaker day by day as it closed to the day of our last paper. Actually there is nothing good about Inti, but i just love the people there. They are friendly, lovely, kind and humor. i believe that i could not find another bunch of friends like you guys in work place. I know it is impossible!

True friend is hard to find, so, it is enough to have one and the only one in your life. boys boys girls girls hwaiting together for our future and live your life! hope to see any one of you appear on the cover of business magazine! LOL xD and gonna miss you guys badly! looking forward to see you guys again after our graduation travel! Sisters in UK and friends in AUS must come back find us!!! I believe that We will meet again 我们会再见!

oh yeah, I will be working in a Japanese-based company soon! hope to get a chance to travel to Japan! muahaha *dreaming* but the main problem is that, I'm still a noobie in driving! sorry daddy and mummy, your my-vi will get severe wounds and hurts in the future =x Well, become a macho my-vi then! LOL! Ah ma, your ah ping did it! she didn't disappoint you! i miss you!!! and today, we went out for breakfast. Inside the car left papa and i while mama and ahwen went to buy things. The radio is all about mother's day, gifts and celebration, bla bla bla. Suddenly papa said: '' I don't have Mama already, how to celebrate mother's day..'' oh damn god, wanna cry already T.T Really miss the days we celebrated Mother's day with you at SengKee restaurant! 4 more days it's going to 6 months since the day you left. =( IMY so badly!!!

Okay, i'm not emo. Wishing you guys have a good start in May as well as your new life! No longer a student although I don't wish to leave. Hwaiting!!!

❤ 喜喜 ❤

yesterday was a big day for Penny, my lovely cousin sister. she was just 3 years elder than me. everyone said we look alike, even a stranger would say so. i still remember when i was around 11 or 12 like that, my mummy used to say: "you look like you jie jie day by day!'' well of course she is prettier than me! haha. hrmmm how to say, we did not look the same when we were a kid, seriously. a very big different. but maybe i look like my father and she looks like her father since our fathers are brother, that's why there are some similar features! lol (quoted from my mummy hehe). we always play together since we were young. when i look back to my childhood photos (not many actually because you know those days did not have digital camera), almost every single picture of mine, she would be there with me. her smile in the pictures melts everyone's heart because her smile was just so lovable and adorable. i will find out the picture and show ya :) stay tuned.

this is the only photo with her after we grow up. hearts a lot ❤

it is blissful and lucky that i have her as my cousin sister. she takes care of me since i was young, until today, she still does the same thing. this is why i treat her like my own sister and share everything with her. there was a period of time that we were not that close because i was being sent to kl for my secondary studies. but it did not affect our sisterly love. sometimes, i was so sad and angry when she told me about her secondary school life. you know why, all are because of those f***ing bitches. because of their jealousy, they hurt her so badly, wth! i can imagine how painful she had have faced everyday in school! fingers pointing at her with jealousy eyes! and her previous relationship was not that good as well causing her sleeping with teary face every night. T.T

finally, she found her true love and just completed her wedding ceremony yesterday. (i just realized it is so tiring to be a beautiful bride :/ lol) well, she was soooo attractive and gorgeous that couldn't take our eyes off on her, the prettiest bride ever i have seen. xoxo. i believed that this lucky man can give her happiness and walk together with hands-holding till the end of the world. it is enough for her to take all the sadness and upset that she had gone through, and yes, it should end by now!

Jie, wishing you a happy marriage and may all the bliss and happiness surrounding you all the time because you deserve it! start from today, you days will never be cloudy and grey. must happy always and i don't want to see you cry anymore! lovesssss alot ❤❤❤

Marriage is love personified.

Don't you think that there is a magic getting two people from different places together and eventually get married? it is all about fate and love. :)

Christmas Cheer

it has been so long i did not go shopping with my mum and sister for new year clothes. oh no no no. Is NEVER! this morning, parents went for traditional chinese medicine treatment and after that we went down to BTS for shopping! wuahaha. the happiest moment weihhh. :D and recently i have fallen in love with one-piece or one-shoulder dress! oh my pretty dresssss. i want i want i want~

(: glitzy christmas decorations at BTS :)

"The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.” -Morrie Schwartz

明知我爱你

告诉你 瞒着你 只不过是个决定
放弃你 忘记你 只怕我步伐前进
不知道为什么会如此无理紧张你
我越了解你 越靠近你 越犹豫

*明知道我爱你 却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你 宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理 幸福在手里
我恨自己 无能为力

明知道我爱你 却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意 反而痛了自己
多痛都可以 不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你 你知不知道我也没关系*

告诉你 瞒着你 只不过是个决定
但为何 到如今 我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此无理紧张你
我越了解你 越靠近你 越犹豫
* repeat *

Serene Koong, a singaporean singer who just bagged 2 awards at Singapore Hit Awards last two months. I like her voice and her album [55:38:7] especially 明知我爱你 because of the singaporean drama "红白喜事" and you will be addicted to this song if you listen to it everyday. p/s: i'm not a typical emo girl. hahahaha.

yesterday i took a glance on a last note from a boy in facebook. the boy is a malaysian and i did not pay much attention on it as i thought that was a joke. until i saw friends posted it in twitter and newspaper heading news, oh my god it really happened! the boy jumped to death for her ex-girlfriend and he was counting down for his time of death in facebook yesterday! This is quite shocking and may he rests in peace. he could not take it when his girlfriend leaves him. he lives for love and sacrifies for love. well, no offence. A human life should not end it this way. think for your family and your friends. There are tons of things that are waiting for you to accomplish, need to you get them done. including your future, and the beauty of this world that you have not discovered! Cherish your life :)

这就是我

想说一声谢谢
谢谢你们的关心

谢谢你们的体谅
谢谢你们的容忍
谢谢你们的支持
让我感到很窝心❤

现在我能做的是
努力做我必须做的事情
珍惜我所拥有的一切
不嫌弃也不抱怨

我不做一个逃避现实的人
我会变得坚强勇敢和认真
我不假装脆弱可怜
我会收起我的眼泪
我不要别人的同情
我也不希望大家总是让着我

我会用微笑来面对一切
大家都说我变得很坚强
虽然有时候还会怀疑自己
但是我觉得自己真的变了

我是个典型的双子座
看起來朋友很多
可是知心的沒有几个

我可以很天马行空地和你聊
但从来不聊自己的事情
因为我觉得
别人不一定会有兴趣听你的故事
除非你主动问我

朋友们都说我神经质
表面上的我
总是很有活力很快乐
神经兮兮的样子

虽然现在可以好好地享受假期
但是当没有人的时候
忧伤会找上门

这时候后才发现
上学其实很开心
能见一见朋友们
可以聊天找节目
日子过得比较快

因为没办法了
所以只好在推特发泄
我喜欢在推特乱写一通
写我的情绪我的感受
我喜欢的歌词喜欢的东西
我想要说的话生气的话
因为没人会管我
任由我发泄，呵呵。

今年的圣诞应该是在家里度过
很想收到圣诞礼物
圣诞老公公 记得要来我家
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

Bye Bye, My beloved Grandma.

Many things had turned up into my life recently and i could not take it when i recalled back all the memories with her, my grandma. the November, a terrible month that i had experienced in my life. I would not forget the scene when everyone gathered in hospital with fear and anxiety, and the whole process for grandma's funeral.

13 November. That night, i vividly remembered that my dad and brothers were eating burger while we were doing our own stuffs. My dad's phone was ringing. Doo Doo Doo... After he picked up and talked for few seconds, i felt so weird and started to worry. 'There must be something bad happening!', i guessed. Well, what i felt is correct. My dad's face changed immediately and asked all of us to prepare because grandma was into comatose condition. Doctors were trying their best to bring grandma back into conscious. Few hours later after the struggle, grandma was declared death at 2.55am, 14 november 2010. How could this happen!!! we couldn't believe it when we heard the news at Poly's house! our tears burst out immediately, unstoppable.

I always love rainy days because i dislike hot weather. But now, i love rainy days even more, because i believe that God did cry for my grandma, and grandma blesses and protects us all the time. The days after grandma's death, the sky always in grey and it rains heavily on the first two days of funeral. Everyone said the God is crying for grandma. On last day of funeral, our youngest auntie said that grandma protects us by dripping small drops of water from the sky making the roads cold down as we had to walk a short distance without shoes when the coffin was carrying to cemetary.

guys, you can read my cousin sister's blog. She is Poly. She has written a more detailed version and the way she writes is awesome. click here.

To my dearest ahma,

Sorry that I did not visit you when you were hospitalized. sorry that i did not accompany you when you were sick. sorry that i did not make you smile when you felt depressed. sorry for time that i was not being patient to you. ahma, sorry for everything that i had made you feel bad and i know, it's all too late. But, there are things that i never regret. i did brought you and grandpa to clinic for once (at least i feel that i'm an useful grandchild :P). i helped you to massage when you are tired. i bought you snacks that you like to eat. i kissed you and said 'i miss you' to you and at least, i'd done all these before you're gone.

You are always our 'happy nuts' at home. Brings all the funs and loves to us. You are the one who take care of me when i was young. You raised me up and love me the most. You remembered all my favourite foods and cooked for me when i was hungry. I wish now, I could talk to you for a while more. I wish to call you "ahma" again. I miss you and i want to kiss you and hug you. I miss the days you called me "ping ah~". I try not to cry but i can't. Everytime when i see something that you love to eat, you used to do, you used to cook, you used to say, etc, my eyes will flood with tears. Now, you never got a chance to see how good I done, and you never got to see me back at number one. I really wish that you were here to celebrate together. I wish that we could spend my holiday together...

It's so hard to accept the fact that you're gone forever. As time goes by and it's true that you've reached a better place. I feel great and lucky that i have a cheerful and lovely grandma like you. Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye. Bye Bye, my beloved grandma. Rest in peace and don't worry about us. i will keep you inside my deep heart forever and ever. I will remember all the loves that you gave me. Enjoy your new life in another world. I will study well and share my happiness with you when i graduate.❤

With loves, your ah ping.

我们的纪念册~~~❤

"给你我的心作纪念　这份爱　任何时刻你打开都新鲜
有我陪伴　多苦都变成甜　睁开眼就看见永远
给我你的心作纪念　我的梦　有你的祝福才能够完全
风浪再大　我也会勇往直前　我们的爱　镶在青春的纪念册"

many pieces of memory appear in my mind everytime i listen to those songs about friendship. recently, Selina's case makes me feel warmth and touched when i read her news and the cares to her from Hebe and Ella. i feel their love to her, their friendship and sisterly love. it makes me cry, really. a lot of thoughts and feelings come out. it is a fate that we can meet each other. from being coursemates, and then best friends and then 'family'. all these i would never forget and.. hope that our friendship would never die, no matter where we are. love MONSTER FAMILY! ROCKER SPIRIT always here!

to you girls,

说来幸福 等你好幸福
不如让我们盖间民宿
不当公主就开心当村姑
不再孤独 不认输

等你收留我 那又怎么样
难道我会让你淋雨
就算没有另一半 也有好朋友
一起唱歌 做饭 发呆

等你收留我 那又怎么样
难道我会让你哭泣
就算变成老太婆 也是好朋友
一起看书 跳舞 shopping
好姐妹 好快乐 等你收留我

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