Life is but a breeze

and so I row.. row.. row my boat gently down the stream.. (you know how the song goes) but in this particular journey.. the stream lead me to the sea.. into the unknown.. but first I must appologise to anyone who follows this blog.. I am sorry, for neglecting you.. here is me blowing the dusty comment box, cleaning up the cobwebs.. and polishing the layout. This finally feels like home again.. ok, so back to the sea.. I should call it the sea of life.. so wide, and no proper pathway.. best you can do is use the stars to navigate your way.. but that would mean, waiting for night to come and risk being in the dark.. I could end my post here.. let you interpret what I just wrote.. you might even come up with a better 'meaning making' than mine.. all I have is.. life is all about taking risk no? or how about there is always a solution to a problem, we just have to be mindful of the strategy? or or.. you will never know whats install for you untill you step out in faith.. whichever it is.. I wish you the best of luck in life (if you are still able to read this, then you are still on your journey.. no?) =)

again...

How can it be, I thought I was prepared this time around. I've been here before, I've seen it happen, I experince it.. and learned from it.. I should be prepared. Each memory I hold on to, is slowly turning into a past.. You are suppose to stay there, I see you then I see science, I see you then I see that blue car.. its suppose to stay that way.

In midst of sadness and grieve, I keep thinking of the korean drama you love watching.. =') and that made me smile.. Cheers to you Teacher.. your were trully a great women of science.. thanks for opening up your house to teach us.. UPSR was not scary because of you..

I do get annoyed.. =)

The usual things in life are always taken for granted.. this is my 10:40pm mind talking.. random ramblings in the middle of the night. The observer in me is awaken again, this time in the internet world I observe. The power of anonimity is so powerful, it is as if there is this technological invisibility cloak that is so empowering that it makes mere humans feel like underground heroes.. I laugh..

Hello the valentine Grinch is talking: can you please not let the whole world know about your dinner plans for tonight on facebook? ooh, that goes with your breakfast plan, lunch plan.. holiday plan, random outing plan, or even your whole life story and how much you miss your 'baby', 'darling', 'lover', LOVE', 'Honeypoohbear', 'hunnybunny', 'jigalipuff''???? eh? hahaha.. and he/she is right next to you????.. yup, it is quite rude.. I feel rude reading your status as if it is a lost love letter and your DEAR one who is the receiver is some lost soldier in a war zone...mesti ka? is it a need or a want? I am asking you that question.. beacause I have no choice, when your comment/status appear on my homepage.. I call it Internet PDA and it is FOR ALL EYES TO SEE... I wonder...

Lets all have an understanding here... whatever is on the internet, whether you put it to private or not.. it REALLY IS NOT PRIVATE!.. nothing is safely private.. photos? private blogs?? (why have ablog in the first place right?).. I question...

what say you? anybody care to comment and have a go at what makes them annoyed? =)

MICHELLE& BSB

I really miss you, there's something I gotta say
The things we did, the things we said
Keep comin' back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you
Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside, I know you are

Chorus:
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life (yeah!)
Never gone
No, no, no, no

I walk along these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone
(Somehow) somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Chorus:
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close), everyday (everyday yeah)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you would be forever in my life (in my life, yeah)
Never gone (gone from me)

If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again
(I will see you somewhere, somewhere, somewhere, somewhere)
(Never gone) Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close, always close),
everyday (everyday, everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye (yeah, yeah)
I know you would be forever in my life
Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are (in my heart is where you are)
Always close (always close), everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Never gone, never farIn my heart is where you are

Rear view mirror

Weird how life has changed, one day you are playing in the sand box and next thing you know, you are worrying about a degree.. no connection? Exactly my purpose then.. 'See you later' is actually, 'see you tomorrow', and 'tomorrow' can actually means 'later'. 'Again' is 'never' and 'never' is the 5th time. A new thought came to my mind the other day, its called a Positive Assumption, with this, it makes life more acceptable.

For example, how many of you has a friend or just know of a person either in school or the work place, that always almost everytime you meet up with them you see them in the same kind of clothes, the same t-shirt, jeans and socks.. so the typical assumption would be 'wow' this person is very lazy never care to was their clothes'.. But what if it was the exact opposite? what if the person is very hardworking, and washes their clothes everytime they come back from school or work.. I guess some would call it not judging or just indenial but I call it making life a little more bearable.

I learned this way of thinking form my grandpa.. another example of a possitive assumption can be useful especially if you have just been bullied on the road, how many of you have ever encounter one of those annoying 'Over-Takers'.. well, in this situation my grandpa would always say 'Angka bini ya ka beranak'.. hahaha.. translation: 'Maybe the wife is going to give birth'.. or my favorite.. 'Angka ya sakit perut ka bira'.. translation: 'Maybe he/she is having stomach ache and needs to go to the toilet'.. hahaha.. see what I mean by making life more bearable??

2010 I am counting on you..

I love how my house looks like during christmas.. =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. what?? I am 8 days late? typical.. one new year resolution down the drain.. speaking of new year resolution, 2009 new year resolution to donate blood, was -impossible.. I had to at least be 50kg.. I tried to eat my heart out, but I guess due to the fact that I stay 10 minutes away frm Curtin.. and have to walk almost everyday.. makes it difficult for me to hold the extra kilos.. ok.. the Holiday was great for me.I spend alot of time with the family. If there is one thing I like about hoildays its the family gathering and FOOD!!!! haha.. will update soon!

Advise of the day: Set your Priority right in the begining of the year.. and remember to stay with it!

Life of a Student----> Living abroad =D

The 5 major aspect in a student life includes Studies, Lect/Teachers, Funding, Food supplies, and Social Life.

Studies

A Students, is someone undergoing educational training.. (Duh..). Studies play an important role in a student's life. It is basically the reason why they are where they are in the first place (woah, try saying that fast). In this educatinal journey, getting the good grades is a priority (at least that is what all of us wants to believe) in a students life. It is something that can make or break you. Its very effect on a student can lead to from having a good day into a terrible day or vice versa. The grading system is more of a puzzle in a student life, its like playing a card game, a little % gain here, another % loss.. which will in the end ditermine the ultimate game known as FINALS (come to think of it.. naming it FINALS.. is abit mean)

Lect/ Teachers

Some call them mentors, these are people who said to be the one teaching/mentoring and lecturing the 'Students'. Play your cards right and these Teachers could be the one that helps make your life a lot easier. These lecture are usually categorize into 3 categories, the Lasser-fair, Participative and Authoritative.

Lasser-fair teachers usually lets you do things anyway you want.They sometime make you feel like that little 'homework' is not that imortant and they are usually Fun to be around. But be warned, as sometimes these are the lecturers who ends up marking you down for being too relax in class.

Participative Teachers, are the type that wants to be part of your life, they are always there if you need help and push you to do your best. The only down side of having these kind of lecturer is in the of the day, if you did bad for an assignment, it is usually YOU! who feels like you let them down.

Authoritative Teachers.. the name says it all. They are the strict makers, they dont believe in excuses and they seem like they are out to get you. (ermm... no comment for these kind of Teachers.. just do your homework and hand in assignments to survive).

Funding

If you are a student living abroad.. then this is a no joke aspect, No money= 0.. as in Zero nothing..! there is no word to describe it.. =)

Food Supplies

Every person I know, who is studying abroad, would agree with me on this.. INDO MEE. yes, if you are a student studying abroad, then you probably would have a stack of instant noodles in your pantry incase of any 'EMERGENCY'. Speaking of food, I should point out that, as a student living far away from home you would apprieciate the smaller things in life, LITERALLY, there is just no way for you to buy food just enough for one person, everything seems to be in family pack! Dont talk about bread, to buy one loaf, who would have to plan out how to gulf the whole loaf in a week, which in the end would lead to Toast for breakfast, Sandwhich for Lunch... and????? for Dinner???--- thus with this 'sharing is helping'...

Social Life

Usually starts from Friday evening untill sunday evening.. Going out with friends, hanging out.. plain old enjoying your free time.. during the weekends.. As for me a fellow student living abroad I have to admit, I am lacking in this area of expertise.. WHY??.. well friday nights for me is spend doing homework.. which brought me back to the statement that I made in Lit Class due to handing out an assignment early.. (Farah remember this) 'I have nothing better to do so I just do my homework'---> in plain english.. I have no social life.. (Ms Anne calls says it a blessing, that I have no Distraction) Its to the point where I have to schedule my time to do one homework or assignment at different time ONLY because I dont want to be bored from doing nothing.. =D haha.. like I said LACK of expertise.. so social life is still in the works.. however be assured I do have great friends here.. we just eat lunch alot.. haha..