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Finally posting this post with my iPhone d!

搞不清楚。。。

我仿佛越来越搞不懂我自己要的是什么？

以前，我说过要的东西， 现在出现了，但是我却犹疑不决。。。

我拍着胸口说，假如发生类似的事，我一定会很干脆的， 很潇洒的作决定。。。。

但是， 当事情真的发生了，我却不敢面对了。。。。

我开始不了解我自己，更不懂我要的什么？

我也很害怕会遗憾，所以尝试去接受，但是我自己心里很清楚，有些东西是勉强不来。。。

我以为时间会把所有的难题，慢慢的解决掉。。。。

但是，我仿佛做错了一些事。。。。

算了， 目前也只能走一步，看一步了。。。。。

Prom nite of my course

Finally, a prom nite for our course...

Have been waiting for it since last few years, and we were not disappointed our coursemates as they din restrict any dress codes for our batch....

Enjoy the nite till the max and shoot lots of photo...

Manage to wear my cheongsam and my diet for this 3 days were worthwhile when I browse those photos in my facebook....

here are some of the nice shot that I would like to share...

for more photos, pls visit my FB...=)

Refresh mode!!!

Just came back from my Hatyai Trip. It's our second visit to there d, and yet we still had so much of fun....

This trip 's main purpose is for me to relax my mind and body.... recently have been bothered by lots of problems and I really need a break now....

Although with 5 members only, I still enjoy this trip to the max... I prefer travel in a small group. Big group sometimes do make the trip become meaningless cuz seldom have the chance to chat with all the members....

so, for more photos, just go to my facebook and click on my photo album =)

what is playing in my mind?

Duhz.....

I am damn confused now....

I don't know what am I doing now?

FML!!!

New Beginning of my life....

Recently, there were too many things that happened in my life...

within 1 month's time, everything changes....

-Friendship

-Relationship

-Study

I guess it's time for me to move on and say good-bye to all those histories....

Life still need to be carry on and being sad, moody just won't change the things...

so what for to be pessimistic? 

Cheer up *me*!!!

放下了。。。

我想，

我放下了。。。。

我想，

我放弃了。。。

我想，

我不留恋了。。。。

我想，

我没必要委屈自己了。。。

我想，

我是真的真的放下了。。。。

我不能坚持到底了。。。。

疲倦了，也看不到任何的期盼了。。。

再见了。。。。。

Penang-Ipoh-KL-Taiwan-KL----Kuching!!!

Sorry for not keeping my blog updated.... just that I was not in the mood to write any post....

As you all read the title of my post, Yea Yea Yea... I am going to have lots of places to go before I can go back to Kuching....

I can't wait to eat all the Kolo Mee and Laksa that I had crave for so long.....

I can't wait to eat my mum's cooking and the most important is the DUMPLINGs that I will only have it in my stomach once a year....

I can't wait to go to the new Shopping mall, The Hills and also Pullman Hotel to have their sotong balls and desserts!!!!

Sarawak and Sabah are having their holiday now.... but here in Kedah, we were retained at IPDA for those kononnya meaningful activities....

Everyday, we only need to go to IPDA and turn up for a while to show our handsome and pretty face to our class rep, then the lecturers will take our attendance like what we had in our primary school.....(awwww..... how I miss those OLD DAYS=.=)

Then sit in the hall and listen to all the INTERESTING ceramah and seminar for 1-2hours....then u can go back and sleep until u snores like a pig!!!

My life was never being so so so bored before.... We stay at our house at Kedah while all my housemates were at their home sweet home d....

Only left my room mate and I watching all the soap opera that we had save from our juniors...

sometimes we will reward ourselves with a drive to Alor Star to have our lunch or dinner....

sigh sigh sigh.... meaningless life.....

Thank God.... This kind of life gonna end by tml.... we will be leaving to Penang with my god sis.....

Then we will wait for Carrie's sista to fetch us for Penang, ipoh makan trip!!!

After that I will be meeting Nic at KL and the last one, which is our Taiwan trip that we have waited for so so so long....

Hopefully this gonna be a great trip with all my buddies!!!

Foods, Goodies and shopping at Taiwan!!!

I will be landed at Kuching on the early morning of 16th June.... stay Tuned!!!!

她拒绝了他100次，第101次，他拒绝了她！！！

昨天，他拒绝了她。
　　一直以来，她以为他总会在她的身后跟随，不论她什么时候需要他。因为他说过，他会等她一辈子的。可是，他食言了。
　　她和他是大学时候的同学。她16岁上大学，比他小两岁。在学校里，她总是小妹妹，和很多男生关系都很好。当然，和他特别要好
　　她确实是没有想过男女之情的，可能是因为她还小。直到那一天，他突然面红耳赤地递给她一张电影票，期期艾艾地说，这是一部爱情片。真是老土，老土得可爱。不过她还是直截了当地拒绝他了。她说他不是她喜欢的类型，不会选择他的，但是他没有退却。
　　接下来的时间里，他无时不刻地出现在她身边，关心她，呵护她，什么事情，在她要做之前他已经抢先帮她做了。可是她告诉他，他不是她喜欢的类型，不要再继续下去了。他说，他会一直等下去，直到她同意的那一天。
　　大学毕业后，他们俩都被保送本校的研究生，不在同一个专业。研究生期间的所有实验难题，基本上都是他一手包办了，连她的导师都和他的导师开玩笑：我那个师女婿呢？最近怎么没有看见他了？
　　5年的研究生一下子过去了，她也到了 25岁的年纪。也确实考虑过选择他的。但是终究没有开口。为什么呢……可能还是觉得有些不完美。他总是一副邋里邋遢的样子，头发乱乱的，不修边幅。还有就是太瘦，虽然在南方人中不算太矮，却还不到一百斤，她还是比较喜欢运动型的男孩子。她直接了当地跟他说过她不选择他的原因，一向健谈的他沉默了好久。那时她倒是希望他能够听了这句话离开，但是他接着说：“我是对你最好的，这辈子都是。”
　　博士毕业后，她留校当老师，他选择了出国。当时同学们给他送行，她没有伤感，反而有一种如释重负的感觉。那个在她身边围绕了7年的人终于走了，她不用再喋喋不休地说，“我不喜欢你这个类型，你放弃吧”这样的话了。
　　很快她交了一个男朋友，他比她大6岁，家境很好，在他父亲的公司上班，当了一个财务经理，一个月可以收入过万，房子车子都有了。
　　可是交往深入下去，她就发现了差距。她说的话，他总是嗯嗯嗯的，半懂不懂。她的意思，他总是不能理解。这段感情断断续续维持了一年半，终于还是分手了。这时候，她才记起那个总是微笑地站在她身后，什么事情都不用她操心的他来。
　　从小她都是优等生，考上的也是最好的大学之一。本科时是直博生保送，博士时是优秀博士毕业。所以她觉得身边的人都应该是这样子的，不用她费神地表达，可是她错了。
　　苦闷中她迎来了她的28岁生日。28岁的女人似乎就给人另类的感觉了，虽然照镜子她没有什么自卑和苍老的感觉，但是父母亲和朋友们都开始为她着急了。于是她开始了一轮一轮地相亲。
　　那些相亲的对象，要么有钱而粗俗，要么木讷而迟钝，还有就是唯唯诺诺不知所云。一个一个，都只让她更加想起天边的那个他来。那个睿智、懒散、关切、幽默、善辩的他。
　　在她副教授评审述职会上，突然她发现了他。坐在台下，眼睛还是那么明亮，人也还是那么瘦。头发看起来还是脏脏的，拿着一支笔，坐在前排微笑着看着她。唯一的变化，似乎就是苍老了一点，不再像那个没事就要和人家滔滔不绝争辩的年轻人了。
　　原来他已经被学校作为人才引进回来了，不在她们系，但是是一个学院。她还在报副教授的时候，学校已经答应给他正教授的职位了。所以他有资格享受了一套不大不小的福利房，在这个寸土寸金的城市，已经算是不错了。

请耐心一点将这个很短的故事看完……


一个朋友说，追她很久的那个男孩今天结婚了。
我说，你想怎么样呢？人家喜欢了你那么久都无动于衷……
她说，去参加了婚礼。新娘很漂亮，新郎也很帅。好像第一次觉得他也蛮有魅力的，怎么当初就没发觉呢？
她说，原本觉得自己从来没有爱上他，
但在新娘新郎交换戒指的那一刻，她的心狠狠疼了一下。
她说，最难过的，不是你爱的人不爱你，而是爱你很多年的那个人，转身离去。

当看见那个说爱你一辈子，等你一辈子的人，给另外一个女孩子的无名指带上戒指的时候，你能听到自己心碎的声音。

今天的主角不是你，不管她是不是灰姑娘，今天的公主都不是你。

他在全封闭训练的时候，为了能给她打电话，他都要走很远很远的路，去公用电话亭。
冬天飘着雪，很冷。
她却还不耐烦的说，干嘛没事总给我打电话？
她不知道他在那边已经冻的不行了。
他只是想听听她的声音。
现在，她想起这些来，脸上还是会洋溢着幸福的微笑。
然后定过神来，看着眼前这对新人……
新郎依旧是他，但是他的甜言蜜语海誓山盟，却再也不是为她所说。

有多少人一辈子承诺爱一个人又付诸行动了呢？
当努力了好多年依然没有结果的时候，谁还会一直等你呢？
终于明白，我们都能勇敢的面对——你爱的人不爱你，
但是，谁都无力面对—— 一个爱你很久很久的人转身离去。
那种骄傲，那种幸福，荡然无存。

请珍惜身边默默爱你的人。
用心呵护和把握每一份真爱。

不要对那些真诚付出的爱意熟视无睹，
不要等突然意识到失去时才后悔莫及。

或许，当他有一天真的离开了，
你会发现，
真正离不开彼此的，
是你，
不是他……

几米说: 当你喜欢我的时候，
我不喜欢你,当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你,
当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你,
是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步,
我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,
错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,我们还要继续错过……
但是，请允许我说这样自私的话，
多年后，
你若未娶，
我还未嫁，
那，
我们能不能在一起？？

finally, it's my day!!!

Finally, my holidays had come...

I have been waiting it for ages since I started my practicum....

Gosh, I need a break from my school, students, lecturer and all the assignments!!!

well, frankly speaking, I am not enjoying my practicum although I was in the same school.

with new group of practicum pals which I am not really ~click~ with, I only have Carrie with me.

Teaching back my previous class was the wrong decision made by me.

The class was too close with me, so I can't really make them become more discipline like what I did for last practicum.

The teachers were all very nice to us, and even the PK and headmaster were nice. The only thing that I don't really feel good with the school is that they seems to over emphasize on religion more than academic matter now.

for last practicum, they were having english session so avday's assembly, but now they only sing the religious song and having quiz on Arabic language.

The result of Science and English were dropped for last UPSR, and I don't really understand why the school still wana try to figure out some solutions to overcome the problem. Or maybe they think that by singing the religious song, their GOD will listen to their prayers?

Well, I don't want to bother about that anymore. I have my own problem to settle .

Last few days was my worst day in my study life. I was so stressed up by a lecturer and I finally collapse. I cried in front of her and told her all my feelings. I was a bit shock because she shed her tears as well when she saw me crying.

She said that she is having high expectation towards me, so she might be pushing us too much. Another thing that makes me felt so upset was that she kinda like over protective towards some jerks!!!

it makes me so sad and disappointed with her. How can she do that to us? She had been teaching us since our foundation course and she knows us well, yet she did this to us.....

I hope that she will change her attitude after this incident.

I not meant to be so kiddy by crying in front of her.... I hope tat she will understand me. I am not the person whom cried for a small matter.

Next, it would be my thesis problem. I was so freak out with my topic. I don think that I choose the right topic. I need guidance from my supervisor, but she seems to be a mama type whom will say YES to any of my ideas.

What am I goin to do then?

I really need a break now...I am going to Penang by this coming Tuesday. I wana have a day out with my buddies and enjoy the precious holidays.

A day without assign, practicum and stress!!!!

(I know I have been abandoned my blog for quite a time d....really sorry cuz I din manage to write a entry for each day.....was too busy with my practicum!!!)

till then, see ya